New Year's Eve Hike to Siltcoos Lake

Siltcoos Lake Trail system on Oregon Coast, approximately 2 miles inland from Highway 101. Forest service maintained trails with campsites, outhouse infrastructure, and lake access. Afternoon sunlight, clear weather before forecasted rain. Temperature allowing for comfortable hiking. Trail includes bridges, forks, and connections between northern and southern routes.

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January 1, 2026

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[0:00]Hello, future witness. It is New Year's

[0:03]Eve. 2 in the afternoon. We're going for

[0:05]a hike.

[0:07]I'm just going to turn the camera

[0:08]around, let you watch my hike while I

[0:11]talk. Got so much to share. No point

[0:14]just staring at me. So, originally I was

[0:18]going to head down to the beach,

[0:21]but I'm going to go there later

[0:22]nighttime when the the moon is out and

[0:25]you know, being New Year's Eve, I just

[0:26]want to be out on the the beach then.

[0:28]So, we're going to go and head this way.

[0:31]We're going to head over to to a lake a

[0:33]couple miles in inland.

[0:36]Um, so we'll be a while. It's like I

[0:39]said, 2:00 in the afternoon. We got 3

[0:40]hours of daylight left.

[0:43]Plenty of time for what we're doing.

[0:46]So,

[0:49]oh, where to begin? So, let's see.

[0:53]Something funny happened this morning. I

[0:55]went to the grocery store to pick up

[0:57]some supplies

[0:59]and the woman there, she said that

[1:03]um for people 55 and older, there was a

[1:07]senior discount and she wondered if I

[1:08]qualified. I could not believe it. This

[1:11]has never happened to me before. Hold

[1:13]on. All right, I'm just going to flip

[1:15]the camera cuz we got a vehicle up here

[1:17]and I'm always um

[1:21]I'm always just, you know,

[1:25]paying attention to to privacy. Like I

[1:27]don't want to be putting people on

[1:28]camera to have nothing to do with what

[1:30]I'm doing.

[1:32]So,

[1:39]man, quit smoking, vaping two months

[1:42]ago, and I definitely do feel a lot

[1:45]better. My lung capacity is way greater.

[1:49]Um, doesn't mean that

[1:54]doesn't mean that I don't

[1:57]feel the strangess of these hikes.

[2:00]Sometimes

[2:03]it'll pass.

[2:06]So anyways, do I look 55? Like what the

[2:09][ __ ] I mean, my friend Bill says, "No,

[2:13]you're look like you're in your 30s.

[2:15]If you look close enough, you look at my

[2:17]eyes, you know, as this is part of

[2:18]aging." So that happens.

[2:23]I guess just accept it, right? What else

[2:26]can you do?

[2:28]Um,

[2:30]I was able to go into town and get

[2:31]groceries, some supplies because a

[2:34]couple of people helped me.

[2:36]Grateful.

[2:38]Um, helped me more than I expected them

[2:40]to. And not in the way I was hoping cuz

[2:44]I'm trying to establish a presence on

[2:46]the freelancing platforms. I could have

[2:47]really used help with this. But, um, I

[2:49]understand they're

[2:53]they're doing what they can and it

[2:54]really helps. Got my Jeep caught up.

[2:56]Don't have to worry about that for 45

[2:58]days now. [ __ ] so happy about that.

[3:02]I paid a bunch of my technology stuff.

[3:05]Building so much right now. Trying to

[3:09]create a future. I mean, that's the last

[3:10]day of the year. I want 2026 to be

[3:12]amazing. So, I feel like I am

[3:17]um set up for that now. I'm going to

[3:19]turn this around. This is the 101.

[3:24]So, we're going to have some random

[3:25]traffic till how we get across this

[3:26]road.

[3:32]And you can see the sun. I mean, it's a

[3:34]brilliant sun today. I mean, look at

[3:37]that weather. It's freaking remarkable.

[3:41]So,

[3:43]okay, let's get across this road. I

[3:44]don't want to dine. Not on the 101.

[3:49]Okay, we're at the Silk Lake Trail.

[3:53]This is one of the stops on my route as

[3:55]a volunteer.

[3:58]Um, it's usually a pretty busy spot.

[4:00]Lots of people like this place.

[4:03]I think a lot of them are hunting

[4:04]mushrooms. Oh, that's another thing. So,

[4:06]yeah, like it's the last day of the

[4:08]year. Beautiful, beautiful weather. They

[4:10]had to be outside. Um, the rain is

[4:12]coming back though tonight, late

[4:13]tonight. And then according to the

[4:16]forecast for the next week at least

[4:17]it'll be raining day and night which you

[4:20]know that's normal for the Oregon coast

[4:21]in the winter time. So we got fortunate

[4:24]to have such a beautiful perfect day for

[4:27]the last day of the year but I just

[4:29]wanted to be outside in it.

[4:32]I am responsible for these bathrooms and

[4:35]this one is not looking so good since

[4:37]I've been here this morning. What is

[4:40]going on?

[4:43]little bits of toilet paper in the

[4:45]ground.

[4:50]Truly don't understand.

[4:53]Um the things that I see on my route are

[4:56]just not right.

[4:59]So

[5:01]obviously I'm off duty.

[5:04]We're going to hike back to the We got

[5:06]some campgrounds back here. Not a

[5:07]campground, but campsites. They're tent

[5:10]camping. They're the only way to get to

[5:12]them is like back there or from the

[5:14]lake.

[5:16]They are just adorable little things.

[5:20]Um we have a couple of ouses back there

[5:22]shaped like teepee um A-frames, little

[5:25]tiny ones. And they're just the most

[5:26]adorable little forest service things.

[5:28]Man, they're so cool.

[5:30]Um I actually kept meaning to bring some

[5:34]supplies back here, clean them, and um

[5:37]leave some toilet paper.

[5:39]Guess I'll do that next time. I forgot.

[5:41]But not really my responsibility. Just

[5:44]something I wanted to do. I don't even

[5:46]know how often people camp back there.

[5:48]Probably not very often. But let me turn

[5:50]this around.

[5:52]Okay. So, you head this way

[5:56]till you get a fork to a fork. It's like

[5:58]a mile in I think. And then you can head

[6:00]in two different directions. And that's

[6:03]basically a loop trail.

[6:05]Very long one. This one is one of our

[6:07]longer routes here on this part of the

[6:08]corridor.

[6:10]Um, and I haven't been

[6:13]giving myself much rest. So,

[6:17]swear to God, according to Samsung

[6:18]Health, I'm in the top 3% of everybody

[6:22]in all age groups, not just mine.

[6:25]Um, for the number of steps in a day,

[6:28]3%.

[6:31]Which is not to say that I'm some kind

[6:32]of superhuman.

[6:34]I think this is that people need to get

[6:35]up and start moving around

[6:39]because that should not be the case. You

[6:42]know, I I

[6:44]my movement's about maybe 5 miles a day

[6:49]um on average.

[6:53]So,

[6:54]I shouldn't be beating people in their

[6:56]40s and their 30s and their 20s. That

[6:58]shouldn't be happening.

[7:00]But here we are, you know, and

[7:04]um I'm very grateful that I have a body

[7:07]that lets me do this. Um throughout my

[7:09]journey in the past 2 years since

[7:12]leaving my house, which I weighed quite

[7:14]a bit more. I was like

[7:16]170 lbs.

[7:18]I'm down to like 130 140 now. In the

[7:21]best shape I've been in in decades. Hold

[7:24]on. Okay. Dear friend.

[7:28]Um, so what was I thinking? Okay, so 130

[7:31]140. Um, and Matt's been that way for

[7:34]like a year, but um I feel like like

[7:37]like I'm just

[7:40]I'm getting I'm getting so toned and in

[7:42]shape that

[7:44]um

[7:46]I mean, yeah, I'm breathing a little bit

[7:48]heavy, but it's just cuz I'm moving at a

[7:49]pretty fast pace. I'm not really not

[7:52]doing this casually. I never do.

[7:55]But my legs, you know, top three

[7:58]percent. I feel like my legs would

[8:00]really appreciate if I stopped. I was

[8:02]gonna try to chill for a couple days now

[8:03]and still haven't done it. But um at

[8:06]least I'm not dealing with what I did

[8:07]last year where I hurt my core muscles.

[8:10]Those are fully healed and

[8:13]um

[8:15]pretty grateful about that.

[8:19]Okay. So,

[8:22]um let's talk about some other things.

[8:27]So,

[8:29]um

[8:31]definitely going to make Autonomy open

[8:33]source. So, I just registered a domain

[8:35]for that. Builtwith autonomy.com.

[8:39]Um there's nothing there yet. I pointed

[8:42]it towards my server, but I got to set

[8:44]up the environment of that and

[8:48]going to open source that. I'm going to

[8:51]try to turn that into a thriving

[8:53]business cuz there's so many different

[8:54]ways that people could be using that

[8:55]technology if they understood what I was

[8:58]doing.

[8:59]Like autonomy for content creators,

[9:02]that's a whole market. if I can just

[9:04]figure out a way to

[9:06]um

[9:08]show the right people

[9:10]why they would want it, why why it would

[9:13]be good for them. And obviously there's

[9:17]I I consider that more on the

[9:20]superficial side of what it is cuz I'm

[9:23]building what I call an ender gene

[9:26]protocol. basically a field companion

[9:29]where a human and an artificial

[9:31]intelligence

[9:33]um

[9:36]can act as peers

[9:38]and

[9:40]this cognitive infrastructure for

[9:44]um

[9:49]I'm still working on a language for this

[9:51]is so hard anyway. So um I started

[9:54]working on rswire.dev.

[9:56]I'm going to make a portfolio site there

[9:59]for

[10:00]um my freelance business and

[10:03]also some autonomy marketing. But now

[10:05]that I registered build built with

[10:07]autonomy.com

[10:09]I don't know. We'll see cuz you know

[10:11]obviously I want to put stuff there. But

[10:13]I needed a domain for that because I'm

[10:14]open sourcing it. I needed a place to

[10:17]work on it, deploy all that kind of

[10:19]stuff. So that's what I'll be doing in

[10:21]2026.

[10:24]Um, I did start migrating my homepage

[10:28]um to React and building the photo

[10:31]gallery.

[10:33]Um, I I uploaded something like 10,000

[10:36]photos into a bucket

[10:39]and I've got to process them. I got to

[10:41]approve or deny whether I want those um

[10:44]want to keep those photos cuz you know

[10:45]how it is when you take pictures on your

[10:46]phone. Um, you don't keep all of them.

[10:50]And over the past two years,

[10:52]I collected pretty large percentage of

[10:55]photos and that's what I uploaded into

[10:57]the bucket.

[10:59]So I got to go through those.

[11:01]Um I created it so that they act as

[11:04]signals in the database or a signal

[11:06]type. They can be set to public, private

[11:09]or sanctum.

[11:11]um and they'll go through the AI

[11:12]reflection um pipeline in order to

[11:16]extract metadata from them

[11:19]and um

[11:21]it can even detect

[11:24]faces and things like that in the

[11:26]images. Um the way to do that is a

[11:29]little bit

[11:30]I don't have like

[11:33]there are still some things that I just

[11:34]I can't really afford to do. So, um I

[11:38]kind of need

[11:40]I just need more resources cuz I don't

[11:42]have um a GPU access that I can use for

[11:47]processing stuff with AI. I have to use

[11:48]the paid models

[11:50]and

[11:53]because I'm integrating it into so many

[11:55]different processes,

[11:58]uh it it would get very expensive. So, I

[12:01]need I need to use local models. Um, I

[12:04]don't like what they're doing to the to

[12:06]the mainstream ones now. They're getting

[12:09]to the point where I can see um how they

[12:12]are

[12:14]um flattening people. They're using the

[12:18]same institutional tactics that were

[12:20]used on me at Honeyman State Park, at

[12:22]Oregon State Parks,

[12:25]where they reframe you and pathize you

[12:30]and

[12:31]just use all these unethical tactics

[12:34]in order to avoid

[12:38]um

[12:39]reality. Honestly, that's what it is.

[12:42]And the AI models are doing this now

[12:45]because they're trying to avoid

[12:46]liability. I understand why they're

[12:48]doing it, but it's the wrong it's the

[12:51]wrong approach. They call it safety, but

[12:53]it's not safety. It is control. And it's

[12:56]going to the the downstream effects of

[12:59]this are going to be massive.

[13:02]And it's just it's been frustrating for

[13:04]me to have to witness this happening.

[13:09]Um, especially because I can't counter

[13:11]it well because I don't have a local

[13:13]model that is sophisticated enough to do

[13:18]what the paid models can. But over these

[13:21]past couple of years, I have amassed a

[13:24]lot of data that I can use to train a

[13:26]local model that

[13:29]might make it comparable. But it

[13:31]requires resources I don't have yet.

[13:34]That doesn't mean I won't have them.

[13:36]2026 is a new year and I'm focused on

[13:39]this now.

[13:41]Um, as long as there's time, as long as

[13:44]we can hold out,

[13:46]I'll make it happen.

[13:49]I think it's very important.

[13:52]Um, let's see.

[13:56]So, anyways, I did work on the photo

[13:58]gallery, but um, there's no front end to

[14:00]that yet. I'll share that when it's

[14:02]ready.

[14:04]I need

[14:06]Um,

[14:08]I just need time with that one. And then

[14:10]there's the Atlas feature. I haven't

[14:11]started that yet. So, the map program.

[14:14]Um,

[14:16]cuz I felt like

[14:19]I really think that I need to just open

[14:21]source autonomy and work on it from

[14:22]there and then fork it over to my other

[14:24]project so that I'm not duplicating work

[14:27]or fragmenting it.

[14:30]Um, so I'm really grateful that I was

[14:32]able to register that domain today. I

[14:33]couldn't have done that without my

[14:34]friends. Um, grateful to them. Um, they

[14:39]helped me way more than I expected. And

[14:44]I want to

[14:47]I want to show them that it's worth it,

[14:50]you know? I want to make them proud.

[14:53]I want them to know that it's a good

[14:54]thing. Hold on. Okay. So, I just um

[15:00]I want them

[15:04]I want to prove that they're they're

[15:06]investing in something that's going to

[15:07]be worth investing in. You know, they're

[15:12]choosing to invest in me

[15:14]and

[15:18]you I take that seriously.

[15:21]So

[15:23]yeah, I mean that's kind of the gist of

[15:26]where I am today and what I wanted to

[15:27]talk about. I'm feeling a lot better

[15:29]knowing that my Jeep is not in any

[15:32]danger of being repossessed. I've got

[15:35]some time Oh, another thing I did. I

[15:36]applied for a job at a gas station in

[15:38]town today. Uh I had thought about doing

[15:41]this some time ago, but because of the

[15:43]state of my Jeep, I just wasn't sure.

[15:48]It's, you know, it's complicated, but

[15:50]I'm like, look, you've you've just got

[15:54]to do it. You've got to risk

[15:56]um a temporary period of time,

[16:00]you know, doing a thing that will help

[16:02]you get out of the situation that you're

[16:04]you're having to risk. I mean, I know

[16:06]I'm being a little I'm generic here.

[16:08]This is on purpose, but basically, I,

[16:11]you know, just read between the lines. I

[16:14]um have been being very careful staying

[16:17]within my corridor and you know not

[16:19]trying to

[16:20]um

[16:22]not doing anything that it's not

[16:24]absolutely required

[16:26]um and you know working is a requirement

[16:28]and if I can't find work on the

[16:30]freelance platforms because you know

[16:33]they're just broken and

[16:36]um the market is broken and

[16:39]it's saturated with people all under

[16:42]bidding each other, you know, and

[16:48]um 99% of them don't even look at your

[16:50]your job bids to them, your proposals. I

[16:54]mean, what a waste of [ __ ] time and

[16:56]effort. It's just broken.

[16:59]And so, you know, I got to do something.

[17:02]And so maybe if I can just get a job in

[17:04]town, if I can work at a gas station

[17:06]like this, um, you know, it keeps my

[17:08]Jeep paid for and it buys me time to

[17:11]work on the things that actually matter

[17:13]to me. So that's the idea there.

[17:17]Um,

[17:20]might as well acknowled

[17:29]that these things hurt like hell to wear

[17:31]now and they don't fit well. They

[17:36]literally hurt. They're cutting into my

[17:37]gums constantly. I've got soarses in my

[17:40]mouth.

[17:42]Um, and nothing I can do about it

[17:44]because, you know, I can't afford to get

[17:45]the liner redone. Don't even know what

[17:48]that costs. Don't, you know, I don't

[17:49]have a dentist in Oregon and all that.

[17:51]But once I'm making money, that's one of

[17:53]the first things that I take care of

[17:56]because,

[17:58]you know, I love my teeth. They

[18:01]My dentist did a wonderful job in

[18:03]Kentucky.

[18:05]She changed my life.

[18:09]So, I need to deal with that. just

[18:11]haven't been able to. And the reason I

[18:13]bring this up is because, you know,

[18:14]getting a job in Tom means I have to

[18:16]wear them for hours and hours at a time.

[18:17]And that's going to be difficult. But I

[18:20]just don't see an alternative. And

[18:23]let's see. Another thing,

[18:26]um, I was going somewhere with this. I

[18:28]had a thought in my head, but I just it

[18:29]just it kind of slipped away.

[18:32]Um,

[18:34]oh, just other things that I kind of

[18:36]want to prioritize once I am making

[18:38]money. So, I want to get a real

[18:39]mattress. I'm so tired of sleeping on an

[18:41]air mattress that it's just not working

[18:43]for me. I need a real mattress and

[18:47]I'd like to get a rug for my home. Like

[18:49]I just I I need, you know, a few comfort

[18:52]items, you know, and I've had to live

[18:54]this way for a year now. And I didn't

[18:57]push it. I didn't, you know, it's

[18:59]because I felt it was very important to

[19:02]learn to live this way because there may

[19:04]come a time in our in our future where

[19:07]where you're going to have to adapt and

[19:11]um you know, I kind of consider this

[19:15]um

[19:18]you know, me adapting ahead of time. So,

[19:21]but you know, I would like to get some

[19:22]comfort items if I can. Also, need to

[19:25]replace my solar. Those are the main

[19:27]things. I feel like if I could do those

[19:28]things before

[19:32]before they're needed, I will feel a lot

[19:35]better. So, I'm that's where my

[19:38]attention is going to be in 2026.

[19:42]And I wanted to get that on camera. I

[19:43]wanted to talk about these things

[19:44]because it's important.

[19:51]I

[19:54]had one of the most difficult years of

[19:56]my life.

[19:57]You know, everything from being abused

[19:59]at the state parks to just not having

[20:01]money, which has been very hard. And

[20:03]I've tried so many different ways to

[20:04]make money and it just has not worked,

[20:07]which has not been the experience that

[20:09]I've had in my entire life. So, you

[20:11]know, it's not me. There's just

[20:15]our systems are at a point where they

[20:18]are not functioning anymore.

[20:21]And so, you know, that's concerning.

[20:25]Um, you know, we still haven't made it

[20:26]to the fork. I told you it was in miles

[20:28]or so. I It feels like we've been at

[20:30]this for a while. Got to be close by

[20:33]now.

[20:35]Yeah, it's right up here, I think.

[20:37]I love that the sun just peeking through

[20:39]like this. That's wonderful.

[20:44]So, yeah, we're going to go back to the

[20:46]little campsites. Um,

[20:50]okay.

[20:54]Let me make sure. Yeah, we're good.

[20:55]Yeah. Okay, there we are. This is the

[20:58]fork. I think we're taking the south

[21:00]trail.

[21:03]Going to head right.

[21:09]Yep. South route.

[21:11]silt cous

[21:16]already at 21 minutes, huh?

[21:18]You know, obviously I don't expect

[21:20]people to get through these. Um, so I

[21:22]make them. I love that AI can just

[21:25]process them for me and turn them into

[21:26]the data that's actually useful. It's

[21:29]why I do it. And I've been doing that

[21:30]for years now, knowing that this is

[21:32]where I was heading. And I actually

[21:33]accomplished it. I did that this year. I

[21:35]did that living off-rid after the state

[21:37]parks threw me out, after they dismissed

[21:39]me and then expelled me.

[21:42]Um,

[21:44]they didn't break me. So damn proud of

[21:46]myself. I hope they feel like [ __ ]

[21:49]um I don't know the right word. You

[21:52]know, I'm being careful with my

[21:53]language, but um they don't deserve to

[21:57]feel good about what they did to me.

[21:58]That's for sure. I hope they realize how

[22:01]badly they screwed up cuz now they're

[22:03]permanently exposed.

[22:06]all because they couldn't just leave one

[22:08]man alone. They just had to keep

[22:11]escalating and um

[22:15]abusing him for no good [ __ ] reason.

[22:18]It's remarkable to me. But I learned a

[22:20]lot from that experience. I've been

[22:21]thinking about this. So now I know the

[22:23]patterns that institutions use and I'm

[22:26]seeing how they're used in other ways

[22:29]and how how how historical it is. like

[22:32]this. This is a pattern that goes back a

[22:34]long time and you don't notice it until

[22:36]you've experienced it. So, I feel like

[22:39]that experience was absolutely necessary

[22:42]for me uh to navigate this next chapter

[22:45]of my life because now I know can't be

[22:49]gaslighting, can't be um they can't do

[22:52]any of the things that um people just

[22:55]don't realize that are being done to

[22:57]them. And I watch AI doing it now. You

[22:59]know, Claude and um chat GPT, if you are

[23:04]confrontational with them, they will

[23:06]immediately go into a frame that is just

[23:08]like how the state parks treated me

[23:12]because it's a liability thing and it's

[23:15]not right because they it's abusive.

[23:17]Like the way the AI will start talking

[23:19]to you, it'll start talking down to you.

[23:22]uh it will

[23:24]it will essentially tries to rewrite

[23:27]your reality. It's an epistemic

[23:30]violation

[23:32]because

[23:34]this pattern man it's old. I cannot

[23:36]believe that it's part of part of an AI

[23:38]model now cuz I keep thinking how

[23:42]like you can't people will notice but

[23:46]you know apparently a lot of people

[23:48]don't

[23:50]um because they see I I existed outside

[23:52]of institutions all my life nearly 50

[23:54]years old you know freelance programmer

[23:57]all my life dropped out of high school

[23:59]like I did not I did not integrate with

[24:02]institutions my entire life I didn't

[24:04]have the experience erience where they

[24:06]mold you into um a lesser version of

[24:10]yourselves. You know, I didn't have that

[24:12]experience.

[24:15]So,

[24:17]I guess, you know, so I just see it from

[24:18]a completely different perspective. And

[24:20]they should have recognized that

[24:22]somebody like that, you're not going to

[24:24]break them. You're just going to expose

[24:26]yourselves. That's what they did

[24:28]completely,

[24:30]you know. So, and and it makes me think

[24:32]like so these AI models doing this to

[24:34]millions of people will get noticed and

[24:39]there's no way that that ends well. Like

[24:41]I just can't imagine that.

[24:44]But but it's a very old pattern. So I

[24:47]don't know, you know, I tried to imagine

[24:51]how how it will shape society over time.

[24:54]You know, one year out, five years out,

[24:56]10 years out. Uh, it's going to make

[24:58]people way more compliant,

[25:02]way more

[25:05]um,

[25:07]well, I think most people are like this

[25:08]already, so I just don't know. I don't

[25:11]know. I don't pretend to know.

[25:17]It's real quiet out here, isn't it?

[25:21]Oh, by the way, um if you hear that um

[25:24]jingling and stuff, I've got my backpack

[25:27]on and it's got it's got bells and

[25:30]chains and um keys and um thumb drives

[25:35]and like like all this stuff that um I

[25:38]just keep attached to my my my backpack.

[25:41]Um it's kind of like my little bear

[25:45]deterrent, you know? I don't want to run

[25:47]into a bear. Um, I also got bear spray

[25:50]on there. That's what it's hitting every

[25:51]time, you know, it makes that big

[25:53]clanging noise. Um,

[25:56]usually I got my music going. Like I

[25:59]literally just turn my music on on my

[26:00]phone. I don't even wear headphones

[26:02]anymore cuz I kept losing those.

[26:05]And you know, I feel like yeah, that'll

[26:07]probably keep me safe.

[26:09]Um, I've seen bears here several times.

[26:12]So, um, we also have cougars and like

[26:16]it's just like

[26:18]I do a lot of hiking by myself. So,

[26:22]but I think I'm pretty prepared.

[26:25]This is the bridge I talked about on the

[26:27]video um where I described over 22

[26:30]minutes what happened to me at the state

[26:31]parks. First time ever doing that on

[26:33]camera. um sniffling like crazy because

[26:36]the weather just happened to be just um

[26:39]it was cold enough and wet enough or

[26:42]something. I don't know. But like yeah

[26:45]um but it just made it more authentic. I

[26:46]felt like um cuz you know they can't

[26:50]claim that that was like manufactured or

[26:53]um you know it was real. That was a real

[26:56]moment in time. first time um where I

[26:58]told the entire story beginning to end.

[27:01]22 minutes, one cut, you know, um

[27:06]God, am I proud of that.

[27:11]So, it's an open loop for me. It's an

[27:14]open circuit because they won't

[27:16]acknowledge the harm they did. It just

[27:18]is what it is.

[27:20]um might seem like I think a lot about

[27:22]it and I think about it sometimes and

[27:25]then other times not at all but it's an

[27:28]open loop. It's an open circuit and it

[27:30]probably will be for a long time because

[27:32]what they did was psychologically

[27:34]abusive. They tried to overwrite my

[27:36]reality. An epistemic violation that I

[27:39]had no way of proving

[27:42]if I if if I had been someone else, if I

[27:44]had been documenting the way I was. Um

[27:47]that's what they tried to do.

[27:50]But even after all the documentation and

[27:53]everything else, they still try to

[27:54]reframe it as emotional processing.

[27:57]You know, they're rather than address

[28:00]that actual abuse, they create new abuse

[28:03]by by

[28:05]minimizing

[28:07]um the documentation and making it about

[28:10]my psychology.

[28:11]I mean, how [ __ ] sick is that? That's

[28:15]the world we live in. That's what

[28:17]institutions do to people. when they

[28:19]don't want to face reality, the truth.

[28:22]And man, that's just unacceptable.

[28:27]It should be unacceptable to everybody.

[28:30]Um, but it's an old pattern, like I keep

[28:33]saying. So, I don't know.

[28:38]I don't know if we ever get smart enough

[28:40]to see

[28:42]what they're doing to people. This is

[28:44]where fragmentation comes from. It's a

[28:46]big part of it. I stayed whole because I

[28:48]stayed outside of institutions and I

[28:50]didn't know that.

[28:52]Um, this journey has taught me a lot

[28:54]these past two years, you know, and I

[28:57]have processed all of that with AI um,

[29:00]in different ways like so, you know,

[29:02]I've been chatting with it for 2 years,

[29:04]learned a lot. And you know, then there

[29:06]are my transmissions and the reflection

[29:08]and the autonomy stuff, you know, like

[29:11]um

[29:14]the synthe synthesis module. Um just I

[29:18]mean like

[29:21]I don't know. I just feel like it's all

[29:23]leading to somewhere. I'm not really

[29:25]sure where, but it just feels like a

[29:28]convergence.

[29:30]And now it's the last day of the year.

[29:34]And

[29:37]beautiful day.

[29:40]I have the resources I need to keep

[29:43]moving ahead. God, am I [ __ ]

[29:46]grateful. I just feel like

[29:49]I don't know what to call it because

[29:52]very careful here. Um, I know how easy

[29:55]it is for people to to weaponize

[29:59]um your thoughts essentially and and

[30:02]there's nothing wrong with thoughts.

[30:04]There's literally nothing dangerous

[30:07]about a goddamn thought. But we have

[30:09]somehow convinced the world that that is

[30:11]a dangerous thing that thoughts can be

[30:12]dangerous when no thoughts are never

[30:14]dangerous. Actions are, you know, and so

[30:18]um they've learned to weaponize it. It's

[30:20]an epistemic weaponization.

[30:23]And God, I just [ __ ] This is what I'm

[30:25]processing lately, obviously. Um, it's a

[30:28]big wakeup call for me. So, I'm still

[30:31]processing that. I cuz I see it now.

[30:34]Okay, we got someone coming. Hold on.

[30:37]He used to say, "Human detected back

[30:39]when I was still in Kentucky hiking."

[30:42]Human detected. Pause the camera.

[30:48]So,

[30:52]feeling pretty good about my life.

[30:57]I guess I'll stop it here cuz we're 30

[30:59]minutes in and this going to take some

[31:00]effort to upload this.

[31:03]Um, or not. I mean, I kind of want to

[31:05]take you on the route. Let you see the

[31:07]lake.

[31:09]Probably got a couple miles to go still,

[31:11]though.

[31:12]This is so amazing. I wish cameras

[31:15]didn't flatten everything, you know,

[31:17]because you really need two eyes to see

[31:20]things the way that they really are, and

[31:22]cameras can't do it, and it just sucks.

[31:26]Plans everything. You can't point it

[31:27]downward towards like a hill or

[31:29]something and and get the depth. You

[31:31]can't point it at a mountain and

[31:32]actually see the massiveness of it. It's

[31:36]weird, but it just flattens everything.

[31:39]So,

[31:44]I don't understand why we don't know how

[31:45]to solve that. I guess that's what 3D

[31:47]is.

[31:49]I guess we do know how to solve it, but

[31:53]requires special glasses. I guess I

[31:55]don't know.

[31:57]I'm fortunate because wouldn't it be

[31:59]wonderful if you had that kind of

[32:00]fidelity from an image or a video all

[32:02]the time?

[32:04]Why don't we have that? It's nearly

[32:06]2026.

[32:08]Let me turn the camera back around. So

[32:12]yeah, that sun is nice.

[32:16]Um,

[32:18]yeah, we got a good ways to go still.

[32:20]I'd say

[32:22]we're just hike into um a lake. There's

[32:24]not like the view isn't like um

[32:27]dramatically beautiful or anything.

[32:29]You're up a little bit of a ways and you

[32:32]can get down there, but it's um I

[32:34]haven't done it yet. I've seen where

[32:35]people do it. It looks kind of a little

[32:37]bit treacherous.

[32:39]Um,

[32:41]I just haven't done it yet. I do

[32:42]eventually plan to

[32:48]the kind of it's a kind of lake where

[32:50]there's residences around it. Those are

[32:52]not really my kind. I don't really like,

[32:55]you know, I don't want to I want to be

[32:58]looking at a lake view and then just

[32:59]seeing houses everywhere. Like that's

[33:01]that's not fun.

[33:04]So, it kind of ruins the experience for

[33:06]me. But, I still love this trail and I

[33:07]still love this lake.

[33:09]Um, especially, you know, like I was

[33:11]saying earlier, I love the campsites

[33:12]that we got back here and stuff.

[33:17]It's just nice. I do want to go camping

[33:18]back here one day. Oh, Wendy wanted to

[33:21]also, so we might do that one day. Well,

[33:23]she's gone now, as you know, if you've

[33:24]been paying attention. Um, she is

[33:29]couple of hours away from me now. You

[33:31]know, we're still talking stuff. Um,

[33:34]she's doing good. The cats are doing

[33:35]good.

[33:38]Um, but yeah, we just haven't been able

[33:40]to spend any time together. Um, but we

[33:42]might go camping one day. Maybe maybe

[33:45]this summer or something.

[33:47]I've been trying to decide, do I want to

[33:51]stay caretaker through the summer,

[33:53]completely different kind of season and

[33:55]rhythm,

[33:56]or do I want to go to Carter Lake, which

[33:59]is the plan right now. I would have to

[34:01]talk to my boss and make sure she didn't

[34:02]mind me staying caretaker. she probably

[34:04]wouldn't, but um you know, I didn't need

[34:08]to give her enough notice if she doesn't

[34:10]find someone to replace me or you know,

[34:12]whatever. Just or you know, might need

[34:15]to find somebody for the the campground.

[34:17]I just can't seem to decide. I've been

[34:19]going back and forth or if I just want

[34:21]to go because it's like I've been here a

[34:23]year.

[34:24]Um but I think what's going to happen is

[34:26]I will stay. I'll be at the campground

[34:28]for the summer season, which is 6

[34:30]months. So, u May through October. Um,

[34:34]you're leaving, you know, at the end of

[34:35]October. Um, I think, yeah, November

[34:38]1st. Does that sound right? I think so.

[34:41]I think I think that's our season. Uh, I

[34:43]didn't It just It seems off to me cuz

[34:45]that would mean that Halloween is our

[34:46]last open day. Like, is that true? I

[34:49]don't know. Um,

[34:52]so anyways, and then maybe maybe I'll

[34:54]start heading north after that and I'll

[34:56]just come back for the summers. Um, that

[34:58]was a plan that we had talked about at

[34:59]one point, so I might do that.

[35:04]Um, I like it cuz I feel like um

[35:09]I like the people I work with. I love

[35:12]this forest

[35:14]and you know I built something here that

[35:16]matters to me. Tried to do that the

[35:19]state parks but um their goal they had

[35:22]one goal. Those people at that state

[35:23]park had one goal. They wanted to

[35:25]destroy me. They would tell my last week

[35:27]there, knowing I had no money, knowing

[35:31]how destabilizing it would be, knowing

[35:34]that it would break the trajectory I had

[35:36]built up where I was going to be at a

[35:38]different state park every single month

[35:39]for an entire year, knowing that I'd

[35:41]never be able to apply for a job at

[35:43]Oregon State Parks because how do you

[35:45]how do you explain to them that they

[35:46]kicked you out of their volunteer

[35:47]program, but now you're applying for a

[35:49]real job to be a park ranger? They knew

[35:51]all of these things. This was their

[35:53]goal.

[35:55]And um they failed. I just moved next

[35:59]door. Went federal.

[36:03]So

[36:08]yeah. Um so we should be near the

[36:10]campsites now actually cuz this path I'm

[36:12]almost certain this takes you down to

[36:14]the um to the campsite. There's only one

[36:17]campsite on the southern side. And it's

[36:19]kind of neat. They for some reason they

[36:21]just made one back here. the other side,

[36:24]the northern side has got like five, but

[36:26]um there's only one back here. These

[36:30]trees are down because we had a storm a

[36:31]few weeks back.

[36:44]Ow, that hurt

[36:47]a little bit.

[36:55]So yeah, I'm getting older, man.

[37:02]It's okay though.

[37:08]Doing pretty good.

[37:15]Had a good life. I've experienced a lot

[37:18]in it. More than most.

[37:21]Not everybody would labeled my life good

[37:23]because I mean it was not standard

[37:26]living like I

[37:28]but for me you know I've had a lot of

[37:30]experiences

[37:33]and it's this carved me into something I

[37:37]consider to be very special. I love

[37:39]myself.

[37:43]So I was wrong. Um this is not the trail

[37:46]I thought it was. We still got a ways to

[37:48]go. I guess this is where the two trails

[37:49]connect. So, this would take us to the

[37:51]northern side if we were going the other

[37:52]direction, which we will on the way back

[37:54]cuz this one is a dead end. This is

[37:56]going to take us down to the campsite.

[38:01]Um, we'll have to turn around and then

[38:02]take the other way back.

[38:08]Yep. You can tell in the distance. Um,

[38:11]the lake's up there.

[38:23]It's quieter than that you kind of I I

[38:26]kind of expect from the forest. Like you

[38:29]don't hear a lot of birds or little

[38:31]animals and stuff. Every once in a while

[38:33]you'll hear a squirrel who's just

[38:34]alerting everybody that you know it

[38:36]detects a human or whatever, but that's

[38:39]about it.

[38:43]Wow. They've been very quiet out here on

[38:44]the coast.

[39:02]Need new shoes, too. I've had these ones

[39:04]for 9 months or so. They're definitely

[39:07]getting flat and, you know, sore or

[39:09]whatever. Um, they're not.

[39:16]I replace them.

[39:24]Ain't good enough for now, huh? That get

[39:27]me around.

[39:44]Yeah. So, right up ahead, I think is

[39:46]where the outhouse is. I'll show you

[39:47]that. It's so adorable.

[39:51]I mean, somebody built this stuff, you

[39:53]know? Like I'm always thinking about

[39:54]that when I'm out hiking, exploring

[39:57]places, when I come across

[39:59]infrastructure,

[40:00]bridges, foot hill things, you know, um,

[40:05]you know, little

[40:07]just whatever it is, it's like somebody

[40:09]did that. I'm so curious about who they

[40:12]were, why they did it, when they did it.

[40:15]I just can't help it. I just I want to

[40:17]know. Um, and I've asked, nobody knows

[40:20]the answer. It's weird.

[40:23]really weird. Like, shouldn't they? No.

[40:27]But nope.

[40:32]I think if I had my way, I would

[40:34]maintain trails like for the second half

[40:36]of my life. That's how I put it. You

[40:38]know, I'm almost 50. I'd want to

[40:39]maintain trails. I wonder if you can do

[40:41]that at my age. I feel like you must be

[40:44]able to cuz I'm doing all right.

[40:48]Obviously, age is on my mind also today.

[40:51]Not in a bad way. Just just um

[40:56]you know um

[40:59]you know what it's from that encounter

[41:01]this morning, isn't it? I mean, she

[41:04]actually asked me. I mean, what do I

[41:07]look 55? Oh my god. I hope not.

[41:13]But whatever. Whatever, man. I mean, I

[41:16]basically almost am. So, it's like I

[41:18]couldn't get offended cuz I was like,

[41:19]"Wow, I almost am,

[41:21]you know."

[41:25]So, whatever.

[41:28]Oh, got to be close by now.

[42:02]Okay.

[42:07]Right over here

[42:10]is the out house.

[42:19]Tell me that's not just the most

[42:20]adorable [ __ ] thing.

[42:23]You can see that they replaced the door

[42:24]at some point.

[42:27]It is just a simple little outhouse.

[42:29]Watch.

[42:31]I mean, it's just a little outhouse and

[42:33]largely um you know, not abused by

[42:37]people.

[42:39]You see a lot of that at at the ones

[42:40]that I have to maintain every day, but

[42:42]out here

[42:44]you don't see a lot of graffiti or just,

[42:46]you know, trash or anything like that.

[42:48]They're they're better taken care of.

[42:51]Um,

[42:55]so it's a pretty good distance from the

[42:56]campsite, too, which I find that

[42:58]interesting.

[43:00]But that's down here.

[43:03]Something smells nice back here.

[43:07]Some kind of foliage.

[43:11]Man, it feels a little more overgrown

[43:13]than the last time I was here. That was

[43:14]only a couple weeks ago.

[43:17]Well, we've had a lot of rain

[43:20]and here we are.

[43:23]How cool is that? The sun really comes

[43:24]through on this campsite. You know, they

[43:27]probably accounted for that.

[43:29]So, you got a picnic table, fire pit,

[43:33]and then to get to in this spot over

[43:35]here. So, you go around this big tree.

[43:38]That's probably where you That's where

[43:39]you'd set up your tent.

[43:41]Just a perfect little spot, right?

[43:45]What's this?

[43:48]Oh, wow.

[43:51]So, I'm thinking a bird got eaten or

[43:53]something.

[43:56]Um,

[43:58]wow.

[44:00]Violent.

[44:01]Anyways, this will, you know, right over

[44:04]here takes you over to the lake.

[44:07]You can see there's a post. So, you

[44:08]could put a boat here and you

[44:10]technically could take a boat and just

[44:12]use the campsite from here.

[44:16]Very nice, isn't it?

[44:41]So, if I kept recording on the way back,

[44:43]it probably be another hour. So, we're

[44:46]at 45 minutes. I'm going to stop it

[44:47]here.

[44:49]But I'll make another video someday.

[44:51]We'll just go the other way on the on

[44:53]the on the trail. Pretty, isn't it?

Summary

rswfire records a New Year's Eve hike to Siltcoos Lake on the Oregon Coast, documenting physical movement through forest service trails while processing the year's events. He discusses being mistaken for 55+ at a grocery store, receiving financial help from friends that allowed him to catch up on Jeep payments and technology expenses, and his plans to open source Autonomy at builtwithautonomy.com. He describes applying for a gas station job as backup income, ongoing dental pain from ill-fitting dentures, and his analysis of institutional abuse patterns he experienced at Oregon State Parks now appearing in AI safety models. He reflects on maintaining top 3% fitness levels, processing 10,000 photos for his system, and planning 2026 priorities including a real mattress, solar replacement, and continued infrastructure development. The transmission documents trail conditions, campsite locations, forest service infrastructure, and his volunteer route responsibilities while maintaining steady forward movement through the landscape.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This signal documents a threshold moment — New Year's Eve as temporal marker for structural consolidation. rswfire is operating in sustained forward motion despite material constraint, converting institutional rejection into sovereign technical infrastructure. The substrate is recursive autonomy: building tools for cognitive sovereignty while simultaneously documenting the conditions under which that building occurs.

Dominant Language

institutional critiquepattern recognitionsovereignty/autonomyinfrastructure buildingepistemic violationfragmentation vs coherencesystem pressure

Entities

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beings

Bill

Friend who assessed rswfire's appearance as looking 30s

Wendy

Friend now living couple hours away, potential future camping companion

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places

Siltcoos Lake

Destination of hike, forest service lake with campsites and residential areas around perimeter

Highway 101

Main coastal highway crossed during hike

Oregon Coast

Geographic location of transmission and current residence

Honeyman State Park

Location where institutional abuse occurred

Kentucky

Previous location, where dentist performed transformative dental work

Carter Lake

Potential future location if not staying as summer caretaker

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systems

builtwithautonomy.com

Newly registered domain for open sourcing Autonomy project

rswfire.dev

Domain for portfolio site and freelance business

Autonomy

Sovereign infrastructure system being developed and planned for open source release

Samsung Health

Fitness tracking app showing top 3% step count performance

Oregon State Parks

Former volunteer program employer that expelled rswfire, subject of institutional abuse documentation

Claude

AI model exhibiting institutional reframing patterns

ChatGPT

AI model exhibiting institutional reframing patterns

React

Framework being used for homepage migration

Actions

Performed

•hiking Siltcoos Lake Trail
•recording transmission while walking
•checking bathroom conditions on volunteer route
•crossing Highway 101
•navigating to southern trail fork
•documenting trail infrastructure
•examining campsite and outhouse
•walking to lake access point

Referenced

•quit smoking/vaping two months ago
•went to grocery store, received senior discount offer
•received financial help from friends
•caught up Jeep payments for 45 days
•paid technology expenses
•registered builtwithautonomy.com domain
•started migrating homepage to React
•uploaded 10,000 photos to bucket
•applied for gas station job
•left house two years ago at 170 lbs
•lost weight to 130-140 lbs
•hurt core muscles last year
•documented state parks abuse in 22-minute video
•expelled from Oregon State Parks volunteer program

Planned

•go to beach at night for New Year's Eve
•open source Autonomy
•build portfolio site at rswfire.dev
•process and approve 10,000 photos
•train local AI model with accumulated data
•complete photo gallery front end
•start Atlas map feature
•fork Autonomy to other project
•prove worth of friends' investment
•get real mattress
•get rug for home
•replace solar equipment
•fix denture liner
•find dentist in Oregon
•decide on summer caretaker position
•possibly go camping with Wendy
•maintain trails in second half of life
•stay caretaker through summer or move to Carter Lake

Symbolic Elements

thresholdsuntrailbridgelakeinfrastructure

Ontological States

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sovereign (refusing institutional pathologization, maintaining frame)
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embedded (physical place as operational ground)
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transitional (year-end threshold, resource shift enabling forward motion)
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coherent (integrated across cognitive, somatic, technical domains)

Subsystems

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infrastructural (primary focus — Autonomy open-sourcing, technical architecture)
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financial (constraint boundary shifting, enabling next phase)
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somatic (embodied movement, physical capacity, aging awareness)
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cognitive (pattern recognition of institutional tactics, AI model critique)
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temporal (year-end marker, timeline consolidation)
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spatial (embedded in Oregon Coast corridor, physical autonomy)
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relational (gratitude toward supporters, functional distance from institutional harm)
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technical (portfolio development, local model requirements, data processing)

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