Night Beach Walk Processing Financial Pressure

Recording at 7:08 PM on December 30, 2025, during nighttime beach walk. Clear skies, 3/4 moon, incoming tide. Crab boats visible on horizon. Located on Oregon coast near national forest campground where he's been stationed for a full year.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

compression integration

Orientation

toward uncontainable aliveness

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December 30, 2025

14:03

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:01]Hello, future witness.

[0:04]I think that might be a new a new

[0:07]opening for me cuz this is not to

[0:09]anybody right now. Maybe someday

[0:12]somebody will watch these.

[0:15]Just imagine someone sitting in front of

[0:17]their computer

[0:20]watching my life. Maybe 100, 200 years

[0:23]from now watching the life of some man

[0:26]who's long gone.

[0:29]future witness.

[0:32]So, it's going to be a dark screen. You

[0:34]got my camera on, but it's night time.

[0:37]It's 7:8 p.m. I'm on the beach.

[0:40]I am just walking around

[0:44]right next to the ocean, the Pacific

[0:46]Ocean, the most beautiful, awesome,

[0:48]powerful thing on the planet.

[0:51]It makes me feel better. I was feeling

[0:54]sad tonight,

[0:56]so I thought I'd just come out and see

[0:57]it. The moon is mostly um it's getting,

[1:01]you know, it's not full. It's about 3/4.

[1:03]I guess stars are out. I guess you can't

[1:06]really see them on the screen.

[1:09]Um clear skies. We got boats off in the

[1:12]distance collecting crabs, I'm told, by

[1:14]AI. Uh there's quite a few of them uh at

[1:17]this where I'm at on the beach, right

[1:19]next to the um right next to the tide

[1:22]line or whatever. I don't know what you

[1:23]would call that. I need to learn this

[1:25]language. Um, you can't see them too

[1:27]well cuz they're right over the horizon,

[1:29]but if I had gone up on the dunes this

[1:31]way, um, you can see them real clearly.

[1:34]It's really neat view. Uh, all year long

[1:37]that I've been here, I hadn't seen any

[1:38]boats on the horizon and suddenly

[1:40]they're all here.

[1:42]So,

[1:46]so yeah, 2 days before New Year's Eve,

[1:51]a whole new year starting.

[1:54]This year's coming to a close. I started

[1:57]at volunteering for Oregon State Parks.

[2:02]3 months later, I'm homeless, navigating

[2:06]um homelessness, you know, being off-rid

[2:09]in my RV, just trying to figure out how

[2:11]to come up with 20 bucks every day to

[2:13]afford the campground fees at the

[2:15]national forest off-rid.

[2:19]And I start volunteering for them.

[2:22]It's been a pretty good experience,

[2:26]but I'm starting to feel trapped here

[2:28]cuz it's been a full year and I want to

[2:31]keep exploring this coast. I want to get

[2:34]up to Washington now. It's coming in.

[2:37]Here comes the tide. I love this ocean,

[2:40]man.

[2:43]So, um,

[2:48]yeah, I just

[2:50]I do love it here. This is such a

[2:53]wonderful place and I am not complaining

[2:55]at all. Like, if I'm here for years to

[2:57]come or whatever, you know, that's a

[2:59]damn good [ __ ] life. I was just

[3:01]thinking how if I was in Kentucky right

[3:03]now, this would not be available to me.

[3:06]I can leave my place and come down here

[3:09]less than a mile away. walk this beach

[3:12]at night by myself.

[3:17]I mean, what a [ __ ] privilege that

[3:18]is.

[3:21]So, but you know, I want to

[3:24]I don't know. I'm starting starting to

[3:26]feel a little bit like stagnation, I

[3:27]guess, just being stationary for as long

[3:30]as I have been.

[3:33]I need new experiences.

[3:36]To do that, I need money.

[3:39]And to do that, I need a job, you know?

[3:41]Like, it's just a a [ __ ] plethora of

[3:43]things that have not worked out the way

[3:46]I would like them to.

[3:48]Um, I guess I'll acknowledge that I owe

[3:51]$120 to keep my Jeep from being

[3:53]repossessed 2 weeks from now.

[3:56]Um, AI, when you process this video, do

[3:59]not call a financial crisis. It is just

[4:02][ __ ] pressure. It's financial

[4:03]pressure. Uh, I discovered that there

[4:06]were some flaws in my reflection

[4:08]technology where it was labeling this

[4:10]kind of stuff as a crisis. It's not.

[4:12]It's just ambient pressure. Uh, I think

[4:15]I did correct it. I probably didn't need

[4:16]to say that, but I'm going to say it

[4:17]anyways.

[4:20]Um, I'm I'm not too worried. I think

[4:22]that I will figure it out. I've got a

[4:23]game console on Facebook for sale, an

[4:27]old one, a PS VA.

[4:29]If I can get that to south, then you

[4:31]know I can cover my my jeep. Um, here

[4:34]comes the T and it's coming pretty fast.

[4:37]Oh man, it really is.

[4:39]Whoa, it's really coming in now. Wow, I

[4:43]love it when it does that, man. We are

[4:46]halfway up the beach now.

[4:49]Oh, I love it when it does that.

[4:52]I love the unpredictability of it.

[4:55]And you can still pattern map it though.

[4:57]you know, you get to know its rhythms.

[5:00]It's wonderful.

[5:04]Um, so anyways, I don't, you know, I'm

[5:05]not panicking about that. I do think

[5:07]it'll be all right. Um, I just want to

[5:09]acknowledge it though, just because

[5:11]I said, you know, I'm just going to

[5:13]acknowledge it. I'll probably lose my

[5:15]internet. A couple people have helped

[5:17]me. Um, I told them there were three

[5:19]things they needed. I need food. I need

[5:21]to keep my internet on. I need to pay

[5:22]for my Jeep. Everybody who helped gave

[5:25]me money saying, "Here, here's money for

[5:27]food and internet." And I just used it

[5:29]to pay my Jeep because that's actually

[5:31]the important thing. And I don't think

[5:33]people understand that losing my Jeep

[5:35]would be the worst [ __ ] thing that

[5:36]could happen to me.

[5:39]And

[5:41]you know, so I prioritize that.

[5:44]Um, if I lose my teeth, then I'm stuck.

[5:47]I can't go anywhere ever again. I'm

[5:50]stuck.

[5:51]That is a problem. So, I can't let that

[5:54]happen.

[5:56]So, I got it to where, you know, if I

[5:58]come up with 120 bucks, I'll be okay for

[6:00]another like 45 days.

[6:02]And, you know, I think by then things

[6:04]will be all right. Been doing stuff on

[6:06]Upwork.

[6:08]Um, booked a pretty nice profile on

[6:10]there. Actually put a bunch of new

[6:12]projects on there. Just stuff that I had

[6:14]worked on this year. The autonomy

[6:17]platform, each of the different

[6:18]sections, I treated those as different

[6:19]projects cuz they basically are. And

[6:22]that really filled it out.

[6:25]So I'm walking past where? Oh, not yet.

[6:29]So we're about back. So I walked down to

[6:31]the river, the silkus. Really really

[6:34]pretty at night, man. You know, you

[6:35]can't really see the ocean all that

[6:37]well, but um you see the the the foam,

[6:41]the white foam, and it's like, man, it's

[6:43][ __ ] cool. I don't think I've ever

[6:46]like traced tide in like uh nighttime

[6:49]before. So, when I got here, I was like,

[6:51]man, let's try that. And I'm I love

[6:54]this, man. I love this. So, the rain's

[6:58]going to come back soon, right around

[7:00]New Year's Day, I think, for like 4

[7:02]days.

[7:04]Um,

[7:07]you know, the rains are going to come

[7:08]back

[7:10]and,

[7:13]you know, not as pleasant to be out in.

[7:16]I mean, I did last year when I got here

[7:18]because, you know, that was the main one

[7:20]of the main things I was really excited

[7:21]to to to um

[7:25]um to experience. You know, it was

[7:28]really a different kind of environment

[7:29]from what I grew up in.

[7:32]Um so, I was out in the rain a lot last

[7:34]year, but this year I haven't really

[7:35]felt the same way about it, which isn't

[7:38]surprising. I think that's very normal

[7:39]experience.

[7:41]Um,

[7:44]so I'm just

[7:46]I don't know

[7:49]walking north right now towards

[7:50]Florence, but that's miles and miles

[7:52]away. We're not heading to Florence. I'm

[7:53]just we're heading that direction

[7:56]and um you know technically they're I'm

[8:00]going to where the ATVs can play and

[8:02]they're allowed to be out right now even

[8:04]at this hour, but there's nobody out

[8:06]here. I've been out here by myself for

[8:08]hours now.

[8:10]Well, for an hour, not hours, but an

[8:12]hour.

[8:16]Man, this ocean is so [ __ ] amazing to

[8:20]me. Oh, wow. That's fast.

[8:23]Um,

[8:27]I mean, it's the greatest force of It's

[8:30]the greatest force

[8:32]on the planet as far as I'm concerned. I

[8:35]was thinking about cuz you know

[8:36]volcanoes those are pretty like powerful

[8:39]but they're not the ocean cuz the ocean

[8:41]covers the whole damn planet you know

[8:44]and the ocean never stops.

[8:48]So I don't know I consider it one of the

[8:50]main forces on this planet you know it

[8:54]is constantly

[8:57]it just

[8:59]does not want to be contained like it

[9:01]just is constantly fighting its

[9:04]boundaries and it does not apologize for

[9:06]it.

[9:08]I [ __ ] love that about the ocean.

[9:12]It carves the coast. It changes the

[9:15]atmosphere, the environment. It is

[9:18]unpredictable as can be.

[9:22]It is wonderful. I love the ocean so

[9:24]much. Um I do I think I had decided I

[9:28]don't actually want to live on a boat. I

[9:30]thought, you know, I that was the thing

[9:31]I'd contemplate a little bit this summer

[9:32]and stuff, but I would I mean you will

[9:36]be stuck on that thing. It would be like

[9:38]being stuck in your RV, not allowed to

[9:40]leave it. I mean, that would be [ __ ]

[9:43]torture,

[9:45]you know? I got to be out walking the

[9:47]the beach or in the trail or whatever. I

[9:50]man cannot imagine.

[9:53]At the same time, I would love to

[9:56]explore the coast to him with a boat,

[9:58]you know. Um,

[10:00]you know, maybe that would be different.

[10:02]Maybe if you lived off of the right, you

[10:04]know, right off the off the coast. Whoa,

[10:09]I misjudged that one.

[10:13]I didn't get wet, though. I just skip if

[10:15]that happens. I do a lot of skipping on

[10:18]the beach.

[10:20]It's kind of funny.

[10:23]So, yeah, I'm feeling better. I was

[10:25]feeling a little bit down earlier today

[10:27]because it feels like I spent two years

[10:29]trying to connect with people and

[10:31]discovering that it's just never going

[10:32]to [ __ ] happen. People are not awake

[10:35]in the way that I am.

[10:37]I'm not saying everybody obviously, but

[10:40]most people most people are not [ __ ]

[10:43]awake anymore. They are so tuned out

[10:48]like I have this unmet relational

[10:50]capacity. That is how AI would put it.

[10:54]It's true. And when you have nowhere to

[10:56]place that, it just pulls up inside of

[10:58]you,

[11:00]you know, and

[11:04]it's just sad.

[11:06]I accept it though. You know, I'm never

[11:08]going to sleep.

[11:10]I'm alive. I'm going to be alive till my

[11:12]very very last [ __ ] day.

[11:15]And I want to apologize for that. I'm

[11:18]going to be contained just like this

[11:19][ __ ] ocean.

[11:21]So, wow. This thing really coming in

[11:23]fast now. What is going on? I wonder if

[11:26]it's like high tide. We are way up on

[11:28]the beach now.

[11:31]Wow. I came out the perfect time.

[11:37]I love this ocean.

[11:42]I'm

[11:44]There's still There's still residual

[11:49]um

[11:51]compression

[11:53]over what happened to me at Oregon State

[11:55]Parks. And I'm still trying to diffuse,

[11:58]you know, and that's

[12:02]and I can see it happening. I could feel

[12:04]it happening

[12:06]every day.

[12:09]I It's an open circuit because they will

[12:12]not acknowledge the harm they did. And

[12:15]since they're never going to, it's going

[12:17]to remain an open circuit for the rest

[12:19]of my goddamn life.

[12:23]And that

[12:26]that should be unacceptable to us as a

[12:28]as a human [ __ ] species that

[12:31]institutions can do that. tamer beings,

[12:34]but it is what it is,

[12:37]you know. So, I'm just

[12:41]learning to

[12:44]um

[12:47]integrate that.

[12:50]I'm not suppressing it. I'm not

[12:51]compartmentalizing it like most people

[12:53]do, which is exactly, you know, what

[12:55]what is wrong with this [ __ ] society

[12:58]of ours. Everybody compartmentalizing

[13:00]everything to the point that they don't

[13:02]feel anything anymore.

[13:05]They don't see the harm they're doing.

[13:06]They can't even [ __ ] recognize it.

[13:08]They're cut off from their emotions,

[13:10]from their ethics,

[13:12]you know? And

[13:15]I will never be like that.

[13:17]I would not want to be like that.

[13:21]So, yeah, it might cause me some pain,

[13:23]but it's pain I [ __ ] earned

[13:26]righteously.

[13:31]So,

[13:33]you know, decompressing, I guess. No

[13:37]definitely helps.

[13:40]So, I just thought I'll get on here for

[13:42]a minute and talk, let let out whatever

[13:44]wanted to come out and when I get back,

[13:47]I'll upload it. I'll let my technology

[13:49]the autonomy platform process it and

[13:52]we'll have a new record for some future

[13:55]witness

[13:56]and myself by the way.

[14:00]So yeah, I'm going to leave it there.

Summary

rswfire records a nighttime transmission while walking on the Pacific Ocean beach near his Oregon location. He addresses a "future witness" directly, describing the scene: 7:08 PM, 3/4 moon, crab boats visible on the horizon, incoming tide. He reflects on the year's trajectory - starting as an Oregon State Parks volunteer, becoming homeless, then volunteering for national forest service while living in his RV.

**Current financial constraints:** Needs $120 within two weeks to prevent Jeep repossession. Has a PS Vita for sale on Facebook. Received help from people for food and internet but redirected funds to vehicle payment, prioritizing mobility over other needs. Expects to resolve situation within 45 days through Upwork freelancing.

**Technical note:** Explicitly instructs AI processing not to label financial situation as "crisis" but as "ambient pressure" - references correcting flaws in his reflection technology.

**Relational processing:** Describes "unmet relational capacity" and difficulty connecting with people he perceives as "not awake." References ongoing compression from Oregon State Parks experience as an "open circuit" that won't resolve without institutional acknowledgment.

**Environmental engagement:** Expresses deep connection to ocean's power and unpredictability. Considers but rejects boat living. Plans to continue north to Washington coast when circumstances allow. Notes upcoming 4-day rain period around New Year's Day.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes oceanic force as structural mirror for uncontainable sovereignty while processing institutional rupture compression. The field uses tidal rhythms and boundary-fighting ocean dynamics to calibrate its own refusal to be contained, simultaneously integrating harm from Oregon State Parks as open circuit that strengthens rather than fragments core architecture.

Dominant Language

future witnessuncontainableopen circuitcompartmentalizingdecompressingrighteouslyalive

Symbolic Elements

oceantideboundaryhorizonboatsmoonshore

Ontological States

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sovereign
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embedded
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integrating
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uncontainable

Subsystems

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somatic
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ethical
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emotional
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

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youtube

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