RV Tank Maintenance and Platform Autonomy Reflection

rswfire is at his current RV location performing tank maintenance tasks. He has low water pressure, indicating he's in a Forest Service area. He's been living autonomously for over a year and has been on his journey for two years total. He's working from a laptop setup inside the RV with a couch that smells like cigarette smoke.

Energetic Signature

steady resolve

Field State

infrastructure consolidation

Orientation

toward platform sovereignty

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December 6, 2025

12:46

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:03]So, I'm just taking care of some RV

[0:05]tasks that you have to take care of when

[0:07]you live in an RV. I'm emptying my tanks

[0:09]and, you know, rinsing them out like

[0:11]I've already dealt with the black tank.

[0:13]But, I've still got some water running

[0:15]out here and inside because I got water

[0:17]running into the gray tank. I'm going to

[0:20]dump after.

[0:21]But, I'll just show you. I'm got the

[0:24]flush thing going. Yeah, I got a hose

[0:26]hooked up to that. It's flushing

[0:28]um clean water in here. I should have

[0:30]grabbed a flashlight. I was thinking

[0:34]I've been doing this for a while. Just

[0:36]um towards around the house.

[0:42]I really feel like I have gotten a good

[0:44]rhythm going with that.

[0:47]So life saint this will help us.

[0:56]I mean I don't know why I'm showing you

[0:59]this but you know just dumping you know

[1:01]it's clear water now cuz it's been a

[1:03]while. It's just you know it's clear and

[1:07]this is the grossest part about living

[1:09]in an RV I suppose. You know,

[1:15]my water pressure is real low here, so I

[1:17]kind of want to let it run for a while.

[1:22]Yeah, that's been a hurdle for the

[1:26]I don't know. I hate to say it, but that

[1:28]is definitely a feature of living in the

[1:30]Forest Service areas.

[1:33]Um,

[1:38]so I also got water running into my my

[1:40]gray tank, so I can just dump that. Just

[1:44]make it extra sparkly. I guess

[1:48]I love cleaning my tanks.

[1:52]It's one of the first things I did when

[1:53]I left Kentucky to come towards Oregon.

[1:58]Land of the lakes in Kentucky is my

[2:01]first stop right on the edge. Cleaned my

[2:04]tanks there for the first time. I was

[2:06]very proud of this. Been doing it ever

[2:07]since. And just

[2:10]so I guess that's why I'm marking it.

[2:15]Um, let's see. What do I want to talk

[2:18]about? Oh, okay. I remember.

[2:21]Okay. Okay. Okay.

[2:26]I guess I get serious now.

[2:31]So,

[2:32]I've been emailing with somebody that uh

[2:35]I've been talking to since very early in

[2:37]my journey. Somebody who has been with

[2:39]me since Kentucky

[2:44]since the beginning.

[2:47]And I was thinking, you know, she's

[2:48]witnessed my life over the past two

[2:51]years. She's done it in a clean way.

[2:53]She's never violated a boundary or um

[2:59]she just witnessed me cleanly. Most

[3:01]people could not do that. She's reached

[3:04]out. She's she's

[3:07]she said things to me that

[3:12]have stuck with me.

[3:15]Um I don't know how much to say about

[3:17]her, you know. Um respecting privacy, of

[3:19]course, I guess. I'm not going to say

[3:22]her name, but I guess I could say

[3:25]she's an older woman. She is in her

[3:29]mid70s.

[3:33]American, I'll just say that much. Um,

[3:39]don't know a great deal about her.

[3:42]I guess I would say city life. I hope

[3:45]that's accurate.

[3:47]Um,

[3:51]that's all I ever needed from this

[3:53]channel was was aligned.

[3:57]I mean, she's so funny because she

[3:59]remembered like way in the beginning

[4:01]when I was talking about parasocial

[4:03]relationships and and she'll mention

[4:05]that in her emails, you know, she'll

[4:08]she's playful about that one. I I just

[4:10]love that. like I don't know why I don't

[4:14]know why nobody else could just meet me

[4:16]like like a human being and

[4:20]um

[4:27]it's unfortunate.

[4:29]That's why I disabled comments so long

[4:31]ago on my channels

[4:34]because

[4:38]I won't settle for fake, you know, fake

[4:41]engagement and superficial

[4:44]contact that

[4:46]um

[4:50]just felt very misaligned.

[4:52]It was never about trolls or anything. I

[4:54]never really had a problem with that.

[4:56]They came on my channel a couple of

[4:57]times and I dealt with them publicly

[4:59]like I always do like I do everything

[5:01]just I'm completely sovereign and you

[5:04]know this was about trying to create

[5:08]um a community where

[5:13]where

[5:15]people could be themselves, their

[5:17]authentic selves, support each other

[5:21]and and just witness each other cleanly.

[5:25]But for some reason that is not

[5:27]something most people can do anymore.

[5:29]And I,

[5:31]you know, I've spent a lot a lot of time

[5:33]two years now

[5:36]unpacking that and trying to understand

[5:38]it and

[5:40]um trying to find ways to work with it

[5:43]like creating the Sanctum subscription

[5:45]service on my website or when I tried to

[5:48]do it on YouTube directly when you know

[5:50]their subscription service. I mean, that

[5:52]was a year ago that I gained access to

[5:54]that,

[5:56]but nobody

[5:58]showed any interest.

[6:03]I wasn't going to package myself like

[6:05]cuz I wasn't for [ __ ] sale. That's

[6:07]not what I was doing, you know? I'm a

[6:09]human being. I'm someone who's trying to

[6:11]authentically share

[6:14]um

[6:16]their perspective, their worldview,

[6:18]their life.

[6:21]with others expecting some kind of

[6:23]reciprocity that was just not there.

[6:28]And at this point I have definitely

[6:30]built um an entire solution

[6:36]around taking myself outside of that

[6:38]ecosystem.

[6:39]Autonomy software sanctum all of it

[6:42]everything I'm building is to create a

[6:45]platform my own platform

[6:50]or the rules of engagements

[6:55]are are mine because they should be.

[7:00]It's my life. It's my archive. It's my

[7:04]platform. All of it.

[7:15]Admittedly, I probably could have worked

[7:17]on the faster. Um, guess I should

[7:20]acknowledge this. I

[7:22]I acknowledge it to myself, but um

[7:27]I haven't acknowledged it to this camera

[7:29]yet. I probably

[7:31]could have done it faster

[7:34]for some reason that I don't quite know.

[7:37]I haven't quite figured out yet.

[7:40]I may never figure it out. It may not

[7:43]have an answer or may have an answer I

[7:45]really don't like. Um,

[7:56]I spent my entire life on computers.

[7:59]Like I lived a digital life from like

[8:02]like

[8:04]sixth grade to

[8:08]you know, my mid-4s

[8:14]and I just want to experience a

[8:16]different part of the world now. You

[8:17]know, that's why I spend so much time

[8:20]tracing the tide, looking at the ocean

[8:23]or hiking trails or exploring in this RV

[8:27]and

[8:32]just being being available and present

[8:35]for the people in my life,

[8:38]you know.

[8:43]Just

[8:54]but

[8:56]I

[9:03]It's like a pendulum. I can feel it

[9:05]swinging back. I've

[9:08]love what I'm building and I want to see

[9:10]just how far I can take it. There's so

[9:11]many things I want to do with it.

[9:14]Um, I also want to acknowledge I'm

[9:17]really [ __ ] proud of myself.

[9:19]It has been two years of me living this

[9:23]way.

[9:24]It has been more than a year since I've

[9:28]been completely autonomous

[9:31]from family, from everything that

[9:35]um

[9:37]might have been a previous tether. Like

[9:38]I completely

[9:41]completely ruptured my life and and and

[9:43]rebuilt it from the ground up. And you

[9:47]know, I tried to be responsible and

[9:51]prepare

[9:53]and I think I did a pretty good job and

[9:55]then life got in the way and I've had to

[9:58]sacrifice things that I didn't think I

[10:00]would have to,

[10:02]you know, and that sucks.

[10:05]But it's nothing that I can't

[10:09]I can't replace, can't rebuild. I've

[10:11]been doing that all my life. from this

[10:14]this this viewer this parasocial friend

[10:17]the 75 year old that I was talking about

[10:20]she is a reminder that at any age

[10:26]I mean you just never stop just don't

[10:30]I don't she doesn't

[10:36]Yeah

[10:38]like how I kind of brought that full

[10:40]circle there you know I wasn't playing

[10:41]moment or things.

[10:45]Oh, well, I guess I should check on

[10:46]these tanks. And um Oh, so I had two of

[10:51]these air mattresses, right? One of them

[10:53]kept going flat. My back is killing me

[10:55]from that. A couple days of just just

[10:57]craziness. I had filled it up, but then

[11:00]it started going flat again. So, I had

[11:02]to replace it with the other one I had

[11:03]in the shed, and I'm putting this here

[11:05]now. I need to get a real mattress at

[11:07]this point. This is ridiculous. It's not

[11:10]working. has never worked. Two years in

[11:13]this thing, never been able to sleep

[11:14]well in it. Oh my god, it sucks so bad.

[11:18]Over here's where I'm working now. So,

[11:20]I've just got my laptop. I don't have a

[11:22]desktop anymore.

[11:24]You know, it's okay for now. Friend gave

[11:27]me this couch. Literally gave me this

[11:30]couch. This smells like cigarette smoke

[11:32]so bad.

[11:34]I definitely got to fix that.

[11:39]Just stay here working.

[11:42]It's not perfect. I

[11:46]regret nothing though. This life that

[11:48]I'm creating, that I'm building,

[11:51]I've been building all of my life.

[11:59]I didn't I never needed it to be easy.

[12:04]There's so much growth and struggle and

[12:06]just

[12:09]it's not something to fight.

[12:15]It's like laying bricks foundation and

[12:19]you know every level

[12:26]everything that you overcome is just

[12:28]another another brick that you

[12:32]probably probably how I would describe

[12:34]life.

[12:39]I don't know why I'm trying to pass on

[12:40]some wisdom to you in this video. I'm

[12:43]going to just think

Summary

rswfire performs routine RV tank maintenance (emptying and flushing black and gray water tanks) while reflecting on his two-year journey. He discusses a sustained email correspondence with a 75-year-old woman viewer who has witnessed his journey cleanly since Kentucky. He explains his decision to disable YouTube comments due to misaligned engagement and his ongoing development of autonomous platform infrastructure (Sanctum, Autonomy software). He acknowledges he could have built his platform faster but chose to prioritize experiencing the physical world after decades of digital life. He expresses pride in two years of autonomous living and over a year of complete independence from family and previous tethers. The transmission includes brief mentions of RV living challenges including a failing air mattress and cigarette-smoke-scented couch from a friend.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission uses the concrete ritual of tank maintenance as an architectural anchor for sovereignty declaration and relationship pattern recognition. The mundane physical task becomes a grounding structure for processing authentic connection versus institutional capture, while simultaneously demonstrating the embodied reality of autonomous infrastructure.

Dominant Language

cleanlyaligned witnesscompletely autonomouslaying bricks foundationmy own platformregret nothingsovereign

Symbolic Elements

cleansingfoundationbrickspendulumrupturerebuilding

Ontological States

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sovereign
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grounded
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reflective
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autonomous

Subsystems

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infrastructural
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relational
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cognitive
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somatic

Transmission Details

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youtube

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