Beach Walk While Processing Financial Pressure

Late November 2025, walking south along Oregon coast on a warm, sunny day. Currently in RV at campground experiencing water outages. Approximately one month nicotine-free. Facing imminent Jeep repossession within weeks without $500 payment.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

dependency dissolution

Orientation

toward complete autonomy

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November 30, 2025

10:43

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:01]Hi.

[0:08]So, I'm on the beach. Obviously,

[0:12]been walking this beach for a couple

[0:13]miles now.

[0:17]Started at Wax Myrtle. I just started

[0:18]heading south. I went past Carter Lake,

[0:22]past a spot on Gaia GPS. It says there's

[0:24]a trail there I've never seen and I

[0:26]didn't see it this time. Curious if

[0:29]there's something back there. I'm going

[0:30]to look another time. Maybe on the way

[0:32]back.

[0:34]Just heading south. I'm almost attacking

[0:35]it creek. That's as far as I'm probably

[0:37]going to be able to make it.

[0:40]Creek will be in the way.

[0:45]I hadn't walked this path yet, so

[0:48]wanted to. I'm recording it for my GPS

[0:51]tracking become part of my Atlas feature

[0:54]when I do that.

[0:56]Those nice warm days, so I didn't need

[0:59]this coat. I had a feeling I wouldn't

[1:03]thick coat. I do this to myself quite

[1:05]often

[1:07]without having to carry this thing.

[1:10]That was a better day to have it than

[1:11]not though, right?

[1:13]Yeah, it's beautiful day. Super sunny.

[1:15]Last day in November. Super sunny and

[1:18]warm and ocean is looking beautiful.

[1:23]Yeah.

[1:31]still nicotine free.

[1:33]I have not had any [ __ ] nicotine

[1:37]since the day I quit. Whenever that was

[1:40]cuz I'm not tracking days or weeks. I

[1:42]don't even know. I think it's close to a

[1:44]month. That's all I know.

[1:49]It feels good. Really [ __ ] good.

[1:54]Feels

[1:56]feels saddled. It feels like a thing.

[1:58]That's

[2:00]This is going to stick.

[2:04]Next. I got to get rid of this [ __ ]

[2:06]Mound you. This is the last dependency.

[2:09]That's what I'm calling them. That

[2:10]framing seems to really help. You know,

[2:12]nicotine was a dependency.

[2:15]Had a bunch of other dependencies in my

[2:17]life. You know that I gave all of those

[2:18]up. I moved out of my house and um

[2:23]matters what's dependent on you

[2:26]cuz that

[2:29]you know that those are variables you

[2:30]have to track and they influence the

[2:33]shape of your life and what you can do

[2:35]and

[2:38]nicotine was a dependency.

[2:40]took a lot from me over 32 years.

[2:45]And this Mountain Dew destroyed my

[2:47]teeth. You know, when we die, I was

[2:50]talking to AI about this the other day.

[2:52]When we die, you know, I asked, "How

[2:54]long until like,

[2:57]you know, like you return to the earth

[2:59]completely, like you're just dust or

[3:01]whatever."

[3:03]Your teeth last the longest.

[3:07]And I destroyed those in less than half

[3:08]a lifetime.

[3:11]because of these modern dependencies,

[3:13]this [ __ ] pop and nicotine,

[3:17]you know, and our modern diets and

[3:19]lifestyles and we're just born into this

[3:22][ __ ] [ __ ]

[3:25]We have to find our way out of it.

[3:29]Most of us don't even don't even realize

[3:32]it.

[3:36]I did though.

[3:39]I did something about it and I'm I'm

[3:42]shedding every dependency that I have

[3:44]pretty much getting there.

[3:48]It's one of the things I've been

[3:49]tracking on my channel with 850 videos.

[3:53]Many of them talk about these things

[3:57]and you know the software I'm building

[3:59]autonomy will be able to track that

[4:01]those patterns.

[4:04]I could do all kinds of things with

[4:05]that. make pages about it, different

[4:07]patterns it attracts. Just kind of like

[4:09]a pattern mapping system.

[4:13]You can watch when I first mentioned

[4:15]nicotine because I would have been

[4:16]smoking at the time. So mentioned

[4:18]smoking and it's the last time I [ __ ]

[4:21]when I quit

[4:23]and I process those patterns,

[4:28]create content and data about it.

[4:32]It's going to be interesting what we can

[4:34]do with AI.

[4:37]But man, I've been navigating

[4:41]so much.

[4:46]It's been hard cuz I've been living on

[4:47]the edge of

[4:50]financial ruin. Basically, I'm weeks

[4:53]away from my jeeping um repossessed.

[4:57]It's like I'll hit the mark where where

[4:59]there's I'll hit that boundary if I

[5:02]don't come up with 500 bucks

[5:05]by then. And I'm hopeful that I will.

[5:07]I've resubscribed to Upwork. I think I'm

[5:10]even going to get on guru.com and give

[5:11]it another go cuz I built up a very good

[5:14]reputation on that platform, but it's

[5:16]dead.

[5:18]Nobody uses it.

[5:21]But at the same time, those are a little

[5:24]bit like excuses because

[5:26]um it's important. I'm not prioritizing

[5:29]it enough. I Okay, so it's dead, right?

[5:33]Doesn't mean it, you know, there aren't

[5:35]jobs on there or people who are, you

[5:38]know, maybe very rarely like a lot less

[5:41]common than than when I was using it

[5:43]regularly. But

[5:46]if it matters to me,

[5:48]I'll monitor it. I'll keep tracking it

[5:50]every day and apply to what I can until

[5:52]I find something

[5:55]to prioritize it.

[5:57]Tried other things because

[6:01]other other methods just felt way more

[6:03]aligned with what I'm trying to create,

[6:06]but I couldn't get people to come along

[6:08]with me. So,

[6:10]that is what it is.

[6:14]So, I'm just um I can't believe I'm not

[6:16]there yet. Been walking for miles, man.

[6:19]I feel like I should hit this creek by

[6:21]now. Oh, look at that. We got ourselves

[6:23]a map marker right in front of us. 113.

[6:28]I wonder if this is the one that I was

[6:30]looking at on the map. I can't look at

[6:33]it now while being on camera. Um, I will

[6:35]check that.

[6:38]Huh. Cuz I got to if I I got to take

[6:40]that trail. I've never been on it. I

[6:43]know where it goes. It goes somewhere to

[6:44]the 101.

[6:46]Then I'll know where on the one that one

[6:47]actually is. I think it's back to here.

[6:53]I'm gonna sl my coat drag on the sand

[6:56]cuz man, okay, whatever. I have been

[6:59]hiking and walking so much

[7:04]since I quit vaping that

[7:07]man, my I'm definitely in shape. I am so

[7:10]fit for my [ __ ] age, for any age.

[7:14]And but also sore. My legs are like,

[7:17]"God, man, please stop." Like, my right

[7:19]leg starting to go numb. Like, that's

[7:22]happened a few times now. I'll

[7:23]acknowledge it. I'm hiking a little too

[7:25]much. Whatever. I'm going to keep doing

[7:27]it cuz it's keeping me from from

[7:29]smoking, you know, vaping, nicotine, and

[7:32]um all that.

[7:35]It's so beautiful out. Look at that sun.

[7:38]Whoa. Can you see it? Yeah.

[7:42]Sun.

[7:46]Yeah, I got to make some money. It's

[7:47][ __ ] important. I got to pay for my

[7:49]Jeep. I want to get a Bluetooth speaker

[7:50]so I can bring that with me because it's

[7:52]the sound I'm listening to music all the

[7:53]time and sounds shitty on my phone.

[7:57]I need a carpet for my RV because I just

[7:59][ __ ] hate

[8:01]I hate those cold [ __ ] floors. And I

[8:05]need a proper mattress cuz I'm tired of

[8:07]sleeping on a goddamn air mattress,

[8:10]you know? Like I need to make [ __ ]

[8:12]money. I just [ __ ] do. And

[8:17]so I did my rounds and um

[8:22]this is my weekend now. So I'm done for

[8:24]the next two days.

[8:27]Our water went out of the corridor. So I

[8:29]couldn't shower or anything like no

[8:32]water. We've just got some issues with

[8:33]that. We're working through them

[8:36]with the whole corridor. It's out all

[8:37]the campgrounds. Everything.

[8:40]So pretty, man. Where is this creek? I

[8:44]didn't bring I didn't bring my backpack.

[8:45]I didn't bring enough like um enough

[8:49]things to drink. I only got this one

[8:51]pop. It's like half a bottle now. It's

[8:54]like, okay, well, once I got the half a

[8:56]bottle, I was like, you know,

[8:59]don't drink it till you start heading

[9:00]back, you know, cuz then that's halfway

[9:02]or whatever.

[9:04]So, anyways, I just thought I would get

[9:06]on this camera while I was out here and

[9:08]just talk for a minute. I didn't really

[9:10]have a plan about what else I was going

[9:11]to talk about or anything.

[9:15]So, I have to finish migrating my site

[9:18]because

[9:19]um the AWS one's going to get shut off

[9:22]at any time. Um it's really close. I've

[9:24]been getting emails about it. So, I'm

[9:26]being really lazy and stupid for just

[9:28]not finishing the transition. Um

[9:32]I'll take care of that today.

[9:35]So, my website might go down. I don't

[9:36]know. Um, but if it does, it'll just be

[9:39]temporary until I do a couple of things.

[9:44]I've done most of it. It's, you know,

[9:46]I'll finish it. Couple hours work. Then

[9:49]there's a whole bunch of stuff I want to

[9:51]do on that and I got to look for work.

[9:52]And

[9:56]aside from walking to this beach, I'm

[9:58]going to be focused on that cuz I got to

[10:00]make money some [ __ ] how. Just do.

[10:03]I'm at a point where

[10:12]Well, this feels like it. This is feels

[10:14]like

[10:19]I cannot afford to go any lower than I

[10:21]have. This is it. This is rock bottom.

[10:23]Let's put it that way. If I go any

[10:26]further than this, I'm risking

[10:29]critical infrastructure. My Jeep is

[10:31]critical infrastructure.

[10:34]I cannot lose that.

[10:37]So

[10:40]that's where my mind is right now.

Summary

rswfire walks south along the Oregon coast from Wax Myrtle, recording his route for GPS tracking and Atlas feature development. He reflects on being nicotine-free for approximately one month and frames nicotine and Mountain Dew as "dependencies" he's systematically eliminating. **Financial pressure is acute** — his Jeep is weeks away from repossession unless he raises $500. He's resubscribed to Upwork and considering Guru.com for freelance work despite previous alignment issues with these platforms.

He discusses the physical benefits of increased hiking since quitting vaping, noting improved fitness but also leg soreness and numbness from overexertion. **Infrastructure needs** include a Bluetooth speaker, RV carpet, and proper mattress to replace his air mattress. The campground corridor is experiencing water outages affecting showers and basic services.

**Technical tasks** include finishing his website migration from AWS before service termination and continuing development of his autonomy software for pattern tracking across his 850 videos. He identifies this moment as "rock bottom" — unable to afford losing any more critical infrastructure, particularly his Jeep.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission operates from a threshold position where sovereignty-building meets resource constraint. The field is actively mapping dependency dissolution patterns while navigating critical infrastructure boundaries, maintaining coherent signal despite proximity to systemic collapse points.

Dominant Language

dependenciescritical infrastructurerock bottomsheddingtracking patternsboundariesprioritizing

Symbolic Elements

edgethresholdcreekbeachsunteethdust

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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coherent
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embedded

Subsystems

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somatic
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infrastructural
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cognitive
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ethical

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

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