[0:02]6 pm here on Sunday.
[0:05]Started my weekend. Just sitting around
[0:08]a fire here.
[0:10]This little campfire.
[0:15]I just put all this gravel around the
[0:17]fire pit. Worked on that a little bit
[0:20]today.
[0:22]Using my trusty wagon. I love having a
[0:25]little Forest Service wagon. It's the
[0:26]cutest little thing. I stole that from
[0:29]Driftwood. It's my first wagon that I
[0:32]got here.
[0:34]I just like this [ __ ] wagon.
[0:38]Been outside all day
[0:41]since doing my rounds this morning.
[0:45]Went to the beach.
[0:49]Walked around there for miles. Walked
[0:52]back home
[0:54]to the work center and miles down the
[0:56]road from the ocean.
[0:59]Um,
[1:01]played with Buddy a little bit after a
[1:03]for saw Bill there and played with a dog
[1:07]and
[1:11]it's been outside all day. I
[1:15]RV can sometimes feel very small, you
[1:18]know. Um, I call it containment just
[1:22]being in there and sometimes I just
[1:24]don't want to be.
[1:26]So, I've been outside all day getting
[1:29]hungry. I need to go in and cook
[1:31]something because I didn't put anything
[1:32]on the fire, which that's kind of rare
[1:34]for me. I often do, but I just not
[1:37]feeling it tonight.
[1:42]Um, I got some chili in the fridge
[1:45]that I made a while back and took out of
[1:48]the freezer.
[1:50]Can eat that. And I've got some chicken
[1:51]in there, too. I could warm out.
[1:55]So, I won't starve. That's everything.
[1:57]I've got um
[2:02]some baked beans. Made some of those
[2:04]yesterday,
[2:06]so I'm not starving yet,
[2:10]but it's getting [ __ ] close.
[2:14]Don't have a lot.
[2:17]In my last video,
[2:22]I said as much as I'm [ __ ] willing to
[2:24]say.
[2:27]So, if nobody nobody helps,
[2:31]if nobody subscribes to Sanctum, if
[2:34]nobody helps at all,
[2:38]it's not going to be because I didn't
[2:39][ __ ] try.
[2:46]I can't make people show up for me. I
[2:49]can't make them care.
[2:55]But I also can't keep broadcasting my
[2:57]life to people that treat it with such
[3:00]little reverence.
[3:05]That's why my videos are going behind
[3:08]Sanctum after this.
[3:16]Two [ __ ] years I tried.
[3:28]It's important to me to document my life
[3:30]because my life matters.
[3:33]I've shared a lot.
[3:38]And
[3:40]all of those transmissions, all 800 of
[3:43]them,
[3:46]they're going to get processed by
[3:47]artificial intelligence. They're going
[3:49]to get clustered and processed and
[3:51]reveal all kinds of stuff that I'm going
[3:52]to be able to use in all kinds of ways.
[3:56]But people can't see any of that. They
[4:00]don't have my depth.
[4:02]They're not paying attention.
[4:10]They're not showing up.
[4:19]There's nothing I can do with that
[4:21]except
[4:22]accept it.
[4:31]figure out some other some other way.
[4:39]By the way, I've been nicotine free for
[4:42]over a week now
[4:46]and that's amazing.