Ending YouTube Channel and Starting New One

Monday evening at 5 PM, day off from campground work, inside RV at noisy campground with new groups arriving, feeling congested

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

infrastructure recalibration

Orientation

toward gated infrastructure

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July 29, 2025

8:44

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:02]So, this should be an interesting video.

[0:05]So, I don't know if anyone will ever see

[0:07]it. I don't even know where I'm posting

[0:09]it yet.

[0:12]It's a little bit loud on the campground

[0:14]today.

[0:15]We got

[0:17]got some new groups in and they're all

[0:19]just going out. So, it's kind of loud

[0:21]today.

[0:24]Or Monday. Also, I'm a little bit

[0:26]congested. I might need to take some

[0:28]pseudafed. Don't have a lot of it

[0:30]though. I've been trying to conserve it

[0:32]but I'm feeling pretty congested. It

[0:34]started happening.

[0:38]So I guess that's my sematic reality

[0:40]right now. It's my lived experience.

[0:43]That's the framing of this place.

[0:49]So

[0:51]reason I don't know where this is going

[0:53]to be posted is because I ended my

[0:55]YouTube channel last night.

[0:58]I was

[1:01]real stoned.

[1:03]Way more stoned once I started recording

[1:05]the video. I had already made the

[1:07]decision, but

[1:09]um

[1:12]it felt right and I really liked

[1:17]I really liked my final video. I know

[1:20]that.

[1:22]I know that it will be hard to to watch

[1:26]for some people. I assume.

[1:29]I don't really know to be honest because

[1:32]I mean they're just strangers to me. I'm

[1:36]strangers to them really except they do,

[1:37]you know, they were witnessing my life.

[1:39]So there's there's a parasocial aspect.

[1:44]You know, I don't know how connected

[1:46]they really were to me. I mean, the

[1:47]whole reason I ended the channel is

[1:49]because I did not feel any kind of

[1:50]reciprocation. So,

[1:54]they've all seen my situation. They know

[1:56]what I'm dealing with. And just nobody

[1:58]was helping. There's like a couple

[2:01]people on there that, you know, just

[2:03]randomly helped helped as much as they

[2:07]could. And,

[2:10]you know, but it just wasn't enough.

[2:12]Like, it was basic just a couple of

[2:14]people and I'm grateful to them. I don't

[2:16]want to sound ungrateful. They know I'm

[2:17]grateful.

[2:19]Um,

[2:22]but I was largely ignored.

[2:25]And it's not the first time I was

[2:27]ignored every time I've needed help. And

[2:29]it just feels like

[2:35]I don't really know what to make of it

[2:37]because I don't think it's me. So, I

[2:39]just

[2:42]could not continue to to transmit to an

[2:45]audience

[2:47]that showed that little regard for my

[2:49]life is really what it comes down to.

[2:55]But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop

[2:56]recording because I'm building a whole

[2:59]system,

[3:00]you know, to ingest my transmissions

[3:02]into the whole AI system that I'm

[3:04]building and they get integrated onto my

[3:07]website. And I absolutely love this

[3:09]project.

[3:11]I don't want to stop, but I want to be

[3:14]witnessed cleanly, you know, and I want

[3:17]to I want reciprocation from my

[3:19]audience. I want support.

[3:22]I don't think it's unreasonable.

[3:25]It's not.

[3:29]It is never easy to ask for support. At

[3:31]least for me, it has never been easy.

[3:34]That is the one of the hardest things

[3:36]that I've ever have to do in life

[3:39]because I imagine all the ways that that

[3:42]request will get distorted by people.

[3:47]I know all the different framings

[3:49]they'll use. like why doesn't he have a

[3:51]job yet or

[3:53]um

[3:54]it's not their problem. You know, just

[3:57]all the different ways that they would

[3:59]frame it. It's all distortion.

[4:02]It's not worth justifying. It's not I

[4:04]shouldn't have to explain.

[4:08]If they've been witnessing my life

[4:11]in theory, they're supposed to be part

[4:12]of my field,

[4:14]but they're not.

[4:19]So, I ended my channel.

[4:23]Don't regret it.

[4:26]I think that ending was earned.

[4:31]So, I made a new channel. At the same

[4:33]time, like I renamed my channel. I

[4:34]called it RSW Fire-Hive. And I made a

[4:37]new channel because I was going to just

[4:39]name that one RSW Fire because that's my

[4:42]identity. It's been my identity for

[4:45]all of the the entire span of the

[4:47]internet.

[4:49]So, you know, but when I created this

[4:52]new channel, it wouldn't let me use that

[4:54]username. So, I had to put dash com at

[4:56]the end.

[4:58]I'm hoping it's just like temporarily

[5:00]being held cuz I just changed changed

[5:02]it.

[5:04]I'll keep trying like every 24 hours.

[5:10]So,

[5:15]I'm going to end up uploading this video

[5:16]to that channel. I think I'm just going

[5:19]to be unlisted. I'm not going to be

[5:21]sharing these. I just

[5:23]I don't see the point because for a year

[5:25]and a half I have been exposed to

[5:30]so many different people. Like,

[5:36]I don't know the exact numbers. I never

[5:38]looked this up, but I mean just like

[5:40]super [ __ ] high. Like probably a

[5:42]quarter million of the people have have

[5:44]visited my one of my videos at some

[5:46]points. You know, a lot of those

[5:48]probably only spent a few seconds there

[5:50]because

[5:51]so many people drop off in the first 5

[5:54]seconds. Like this is an actual

[5:55]phenomenon that that

[5:59]we've created that we've we've

[6:01]normalized.

[6:02]Yeah. To me, which is just insanity.

[6:07]So, you know, most of them never really

[6:08]saw anything,

[6:11]but a lot of people did. And I still

[6:14]only had an audience of 650.

[6:17]You know, almost everybody who watched

[6:19]me, none of them ever subscribed.

[6:24]And the average for my um the average

[6:29]view duration on my videos has this has

[6:32]been

[6:34]um

[6:37]this has been a trend since the

[6:39]beginning. Like I feel like this this

[6:40]pattern has been very consistent.

[6:44]My video average view duration is half

[6:46]the time of the video, whatever it is,

[6:48]which tells me that either you drop off

[6:50]early or you watch it all the way

[6:52]through.

[6:54]So,

[6:58]I mean that's those those are the data

[7:01]points that I watched

[7:04]and

[7:06]I just feel like

[7:12]I was so I was not wellreceived on

[7:14]there, you know, so why would I put

[7:18]myself through it again? It just that

[7:19]would be

[7:22]makes no sense. I I wouldn't I'm not

[7:24]going to. So, I'm just going to make

[7:25]them unlisted on this new channel,

[7:28]ingest them into my website, and I think

[7:30]I might try to build some type of

[7:32]infrastructure on my homepage where it's

[7:35]like a a membership service where people

[7:38]can subscribe to

[7:41]um

[7:43]watch some of my videos. Some of them

[7:45]I'll let anybody see, but I'm going,

[7:47]like I've talked about in previous

[7:49]videos, I'm going to have um AI go

[7:52]through all of my videos and score them,

[7:54]and some of them are are going to go

[7:56]behind a gate, basically.

[8:00]I guess we'll see what happens with

[8:02]that.

[8:04]So, I don't know if I mentioned it's

[8:06]Monday. It's 5:00 p.m. here.

[8:08]Uh it's one of my days off. Mondays and

[8:11]Tuesdays are my days off on the

[8:12]campgrounds. So, I've just been inside

[8:16]mostly just um mostly just chatting with

[8:19]Jack GBT honestly. Just um just and

[8:24]Claude. I talked to both AIS about

[8:29]just about that video.

[8:36]I guess I'll leave it there. This is my

[8:39]first video on my new channel.

[8:41]That's interesting.

Summary

rswfire announces he ended his YouTube channel the previous night while heavily stoned, after feeling ignored by his audience despite sharing his life situation and needing help. He explains that only a couple people helped him out of approximately 650 subscribers, despite quarter million video visits over a year and a half. **He created a new channel called RSW Fire-Hive** but couldn't get his preferred username RSW Fire, having to add "-com" instead.

He plans to make videos unlisted on the new channel and ingest them into his AI system and website. **He's considering building a membership service** where some videos go behind a paywall, with AI scoring his content to determine access levels. He spent the day (Monday, 5 PM, his day off from campground work) talking to ChatGPT and Claude about the previous night's final video.

The transmission was recorded at a noisy campground with new groups arriving, and rswfire was feeling congested, considering taking pseudoephedrine. He notes his average video view duration has consistently been half the video length, indicating viewers either drop off early or watch completely.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission documents the deliberate severing of parasocial transmission loops that failed to generate reciprocal field engagement. The signal maps a structural pivot from public exposure to gated infrastructure, maintaining transmission capacity while filtering for genuine field resonance.

Dominant Language

reciprocationwitnessed cleanlyunlistedgatedfielddistortionearned

Symbolic Elements

thresholdgatemirrorfield

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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coherent
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rupturing

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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relational
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

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