Sharing Authentic Life and Requesting Audience Support

rswfire is currently at an ATV campground where he has been volunteering for three months. He is in his RV, delivering an unscripted transmission about his journey and current situation. ATV noise is audible in the background. He is actively seeking work through online platforms and has created support mechanisms for his audience.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward direct reciprocity

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July 27, 2025

17:21

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:01]So I want to start by saying this is not

[0:03]scripted.

[0:05]I am sharing my authentic life with you

[0:07]right now.

[0:09]You are witnessing a real human being

[0:11]talk about real human things in real

[0:13]time.

[0:15]Feel like it's important to preface this

[0:17]video with that because it's so rare now

[0:20]for people to do that. And I think that

[0:23]while you're watching my video, you

[0:24]might be inclined to see me as content.

[0:28]But I want you to see me, the human

[0:31]being.

[0:34]My name is Sam. I'm 48 years old. I live

[0:38]in an RV.

[0:40]This is not an RV life channel. I chose

[0:43]an RV for a lot of reasons, but this is

[0:46]where I wanted to build a home for

[0:48]myself.

[0:52]A year and a half ago, I made that

[0:53]decision. And I started a YouTube

[0:55]channel at the same time because I

[0:57]wanted to share that journey with my

[0:59]audience with whatever audience I would

[1:01]build with with with humanity in

[1:03]general.

[1:07]I did this because

[1:10]I had built the life the society tells

[1:13]us to build. I had everything.

[1:16]I had a house. I had a very good job

[1:18]that paid well. I had a barn in my

[1:21]backyard full of Amazon boxes.

[1:24]because that's where I ordered

[1:26]everything.

[1:29]And I have none of that stuff now. I

[1:31]just gave it all away because

[1:36]there was no happiness in that life.

[1:40]So I made the decision to disrupt it

[1:44]completely. I quit my job.

[1:48]I gave away all of my things. I moved

[1:50]out of my house. I bought an RV

[1:54]and I began living on campgrounds

[1:57]and for six months I adapted to that

[2:00]reality.

[2:02]I had a lot of stuff that I needed to

[2:05]process and I did that on camera

[2:09]completely stream of consciousness

[2:12]hardly ever

[2:14]editing myself or censoring myself just

[2:18]giving truth to my audience.

[2:22]sharing my life authentically,

[2:25]my thoughts,

[2:27]my adventures, like if I'd go hiking or

[2:30]go to a lake,

[2:34]my experiences living in this RV,

[2:37]adapting to a completely different way

[2:41]of living because I had never there's so

[2:43]many things about living in an RV that

[2:45]were new to me.

[2:47]All of it I shared.

[2:50]Not for praise, not for validation,

[2:54]just to be a mirror for others so that

[2:56]they could see it was possible for them

[2:58]to make new choices. If they were

[3:00]feeling unsatisfied in their life, they

[3:02]could make new choices just like I had.

[3:08]I wanted them to see how I think, how

[3:12]how I adapt, how I solve problems. I

[3:16]wanted them to see my ethics because

[3:18]they're integrated.

[3:20]I wanted them to see how I grow because

[3:22]maybe

[3:24]by witnessing me do those things, they

[3:26]might find

[3:28]something in within themselves

[3:31]that resonates. It might trigger their

[3:34]own growth.

[3:38]My frame is never superficial.

[3:42]I always think about things deeply and

[3:44]it's just natural for me. It just I

[3:47]don't really have to think about it.

[3:48]It's just it's just layered. It's it's

[3:51]multi-dimensional.

[3:54]So,

[4:00]it's not performative.

[4:02]I legitimately wanted to help other

[4:05]people,

[4:08]but that was not the experience I had on

[4:11]this platform.

[4:13]There was a lot of trolling, a lot of

[4:15]unsolicited advice.

[4:20]criticism, just all of that. So, I

[4:23]turned comments off six months into my

[4:26]journey because

[4:29]I just didn't I don't feel like I should

[4:33]have to tolerate it. Like, I shouldn't

[4:35]have to tolerate that kind of negativity

[4:36]in my life just to be on this camera

[4:38]talking to people.

[4:42]And then I left Kentucky, my home for

[4:46]Oregon, which took over a month

[4:50]by myself,

[4:52]recording

[4:54]recording my transition to here

[4:57]without comments,

[5:00]just shedding all the things that were

[5:02]holding me back.

[5:05]By the time I was done, I was the freest

[5:07]I've ever been. When I got here,

[5:15]just wasn't the same person anymore.

[5:18]But it wasn't easy. For 6 months, I

[5:22]moved around a lot. I was adapting. I

[5:24]couldn't find work because I was never

[5:27]anywhere long enough for that kind of

[5:29]stability, for that type of work. And I

[5:32]always thought I would just return to

[5:33]freelance programming. That's what I'd

[5:35]always done. It was always my backup

[5:36]option.

[5:39]And I was working up

[5:43]after a very long career. I was working

[5:46]up.

[5:48]I was working back to it. I just wasn't

[5:50]ready. I was so many other things that I

[5:52]was trying to share and evolve from.

[5:56]So I kind of got it in my head by the

[5:58]time I get to Oregon, that's when we'll

[6:00]start doing let's get to Oregon. So I

[6:02]get to Oregon. I'm so broke at this

[6:05]point that I pulled the last of my money

[6:08]out of my checking account so that I

[6:10]have it converted to cash because I

[6:12]didn't want little bills eating it up

[6:14]because

[6:16]I needed that money to book my first two

[6:19]weeks at a campground here.

[6:22]That's what I did. I took every single

[6:24]dollar I had, but I got here.

[6:32]And like everybody, you know, you do

[6:35]your best. You just you find ways of um

[6:38]navigating that kind of situation. Like

[6:41]I would get little a little bit of work

[6:44]from like previous clients that kind of

[6:46]kept me going and I managed to keep

[6:48]going for another like three or four

[6:50]months till the end of the year.

[6:56]And then because I didn't have any money

[7:00]and I didn't know what I was going to

[7:02]do, I started volunteering for the state

[7:04]parks here.

[7:07]But that wasn't the only reason. I also

[7:09]was thinking, you know, maybe I don't

[7:10]have to go back to programming. Maybe I

[7:12]can become a park ranger.

[7:14]And I really love the state parks here.

[7:16]I had spent months sharing my

[7:18]explorations of those places with my

[7:20]audience.

[7:22]for a lot of reasons.

[7:27]It didn't go well. My first month there

[7:30]was fine. It was a a nice park. I met a

[7:34]lot of nice people, nice rangers.

[7:37]My second month, I went to a different

[7:39]park

[7:41]and things just blew up there. From the

[7:43]very beginning, one of the people there,

[7:47]the supervisor of the park, she just had

[7:49]an attitude towards me. And over one

[7:54]little incident that happened in the

[7:56]beginning, I've shared all this on my

[7:58]channel. I'm not going to go through it

[7:59]again. I did not do anything wrong. This

[8:02]is just

[8:06]what happens sometimes, I guess. I don't

[8:08]have a lot of experience with

[8:09]institutions, but her reaction to me to

[8:13]me to this day is shocking. And they

[8:16]spent two months torturing me there and

[8:18]then kicking me out. One shift away from

[8:21]the end of my time there. And I would

[8:23]have moved on to another park. And

[8:24]that's all I was trying to do was to get

[8:26]through that place so that I could

[8:27]continue my volunteering for the state

[8:30]parks because I had them lined up all

[8:32]year long, a full year of it. And I

[8:35]loved it.

[8:39]Well, they didn't let that happen. I

[8:41]have a page on my website about this and

[8:44]I encourage people to to read this.

[8:46]Going to just briefly show you this now.

[8:48]This page right here, honeyman.

[8:51]This page will tell you what happened to

[8:53]me. If you doubt me, if you think that I

[8:56]must have done something, read this

[8:59]and then watch this video. It's over an

[9:03]hour long. That's them sitting me down

[9:06]in the day use area at a picnic table

[9:08]and bullying me for over an hour. You

[9:10]can hear it in that video. The way they

[9:13]just tried to reframe everything. Just

[9:15]tried to make me sound like a monster.

[9:17]Told me they'd never give me the benefit

[9:18]of the doubt. Told me to eat glass. Told

[9:21]me I could leave if I wanted to.

[9:28]And then watch what happened next. When

[9:30]I talked to the person who oversees all

[9:32]of the state parks and the way she

[9:34]framed it without even knowing me,

[9:37]having already made up her mind, she

[9:39]dismissed me.

[9:43]This page tells the story.

[9:45]All of it is true.

[9:50]When that happened,

[9:53]I had no money and nowhere to go.

[9:59]So, I got on this camera and I told my

[10:01]audience what had been going on with me

[10:03]all of those months because I couldn't

[10:04]really post during that time because of

[10:06]the conflict of interest. But I told

[10:09]them what happened to me and I asked for

[10:11]help.

[10:15]Over a thousand people watched that and

[10:18]not one person helped me.

[10:22]I spent the next two weeks off grid,

[10:25]no water or power, still asking for

[10:28]help,

[10:32]doing the best I could to make it

[10:34]through every day to to build a life cuz

[10:36]that's what I'm trying to do here.

[10:39]And then after that, I started

[10:41]volunteering for a different institution

[10:44]where I am now. I've been here for 3

[10:47]months and it's going really well. I

[10:48]like it here. It's different. You might

[10:51]hear some noise in the background. Those

[10:52]are ATVs. This is a ATV uh campground.

[10:59]I tried to get a job in town. I kept

[11:02]pursuing

[11:04]a job at 7-Eleven for 2 months. I kept

[11:07]talking to this the same boss there, the

[11:09]guy. I think he's the owner. For two

[11:11]months, every time I'd go in there, I

[11:13]would talk to him and he would tell me

[11:14]he'd hire me. He just needed a little

[11:15]time.

[11:19]And then he hired me. He told me to come

[11:22]in Monday and he would we would do the

[11:24]paperwork. I show up Monday and he's not

[11:26]there. He's at a different store. So I

[11:30]drive down to that store,

[11:33]talk to him again.

[11:37]He says there was an emergency that he

[11:39]just had to go to the other store. I

[11:40]tell him I can work at both of these

[11:41]stores. Like I'm really trying to get

[11:43]this job and I I don't understand what

[11:45]the delay is.

[11:47]and

[11:48]he says he'll call me and he never does.

[11:52]And I'm like,

[11:54]how why is it so hard to get a job at

[11:56]like a place like that? Like I just it

[11:59]just boggles to mind that this man

[12:00]didn't just say, "I don't want to hire

[12:02]you for whatever reason." And it's not

[12:04]my piercings. It's not that I'm gay.

[12:06]It's none of those things because there

[12:07]are plenty of He's got new people in

[12:09]there every single week that I go in

[12:11]there. It just doesn't make sense to me.

[12:17]Well, I I just don't, you know, and so

[12:22]that's what I wanted to do. I didn't

[12:24]want to return to programming. I'd done

[12:26]it all my life since sixth grade. I have

[12:28]been programming all of my life and it's

[12:31]a stressful job and my my industry is

[12:36]rapidly changing right now because of

[12:37]artificial intelligence.

[12:40]And I've looked for jobs online on

[12:42]guru.com and on Upwork and they're not

[12:45]even opening the proposals, which has

[12:48]never happened.

[12:50]Um I I don't know. I'm just going to do

[12:52]this with you on camera. I will show you

[12:54]that I'm not lying about this.

[12:57]I might have to log into this. So you

[12:59]might want to skip ahead like you don't

[13:02]want to watch through, you know, that

[13:03]part. But I'm just going to show you

[13:05]because this isn't a joke. This is my

[13:08]real life.

[13:11]I don't understand why it has been so

[13:14]difficult someone like me who has been

[13:16]doing this for so long. But it tells me

[13:18]that things are a lot worse than we

[13:20]think they are.

[13:29]If any of these had been opened, it

[13:31]would say so right here.

[13:34]None of these have been opened.

[13:36]Every job that you applied to costs

[13:38]tokens. So, I have to be careful what I

[13:40]applied to. I applied to jobs that I

[13:42]think that I'm that I'm qualified for,

[13:44]that I would be a great fit for, and

[13:47]nobody is opening them.

[13:51]And I have a very good profile. I will

[13:53]show you that, too.

[14:08]this profile is, I think, really good.

[14:12]So, it's not, you know, if they're

[14:15]getting filtered on the back end, if

[14:17]there's some kind of algorithm that's,

[14:19]you know, ordering

[14:21]these proposals, I don't think mine's at

[14:23]the bottom, you know. I don't I don't

[14:25]think it's anything I'm doing. I think

[14:27]that these

[14:30]I think that there's something very

[14:31]strange about the fact that they're

[14:33]never read,

[14:35]but I don't really know what to make of

[14:37]it. I've got a bunch of portfolio uh

[14:39]videos that I created and all this other

[14:42]stuff.

[14:46]It's just it's very confusing to me. But

[14:49]that's what I'm doing now. That's what

[14:51]I'm trying um trying to find work on

[14:54]there. This is my last option. That was

[14:56]my That was my fall back. Eventually, I

[14:59]think I will, you know, but

[15:03]it hasn't been easy. The point of this

[15:05]video is it has not been easy. And I

[15:07]have been telling my audiences and every

[15:08]time I tell them nobody helps and I

[15:11]don't understand this. I don't

[15:13]understand how you can witness

[15:14]somebody's life.

[15:18]See that they're struggling and not

[15:19]offer to try to help.

[15:25]And it just feels wrong. It feels

[15:27]vampiric. It feels like you're taking

[15:29]something from me and not giving

[15:32]anything back because I have shared my

[15:34]life authentically on here for a year

[15:36]and a half. I have opened myself up to

[15:40]my audience. And the second it gets too

[15:42]real, they

[15:46]they basically ghost you, I guess.

[15:56]My thoughts on this are exceptionally

[15:58]nuanced because

[16:00]it's not an expectation.

[16:05]It's just shocking that so few are

[16:07]willing to help and I don't understand

[16:10]it.

[16:19]So I created this page, this

[16:21]contributions page

[16:24]and in every YouTube video. If you go to

[16:27]the description,

[16:31]you will find this

[16:35]and here is the link for supporting the

[16:38]field.

[16:42]I am asking my audience to consider

[16:44]helping.

[16:50]It's not an expectation. It's just

[16:52]shocking when it feels like there's no

[16:55]reciprocation.

[16:59]It doesn't matter if 10 people watch

[17:01]this video or a thousand or a million

[17:05]because behind every single one of those

[17:07]numbers is a human being watching

[17:09]another human being and choosing whether

[17:11]or not to help.

[17:18]Thanks for listening.

Summary

rswfire delivers an unscripted transmission about his authentic journey over the past year and a half. He describes leaving his conventional life in Kentucky - house, high-paying job, possessions - to live in an RV and build a YouTube channel sharing his experiences without editing or censoring.

He moved to Oregon after six months, arriving with minimal funds. When money ran out, he volunteered for Oregon State Parks, hoping to become a park ranger. **At Honeyman State Park, conflicts with a supervisor led to his dismissal** one shift before completion, despite having a full year of park assignments lined up.

With no money and nowhere to go, he asked his audience for help via video. Over 1,000 people watched but no one provided assistance. He spent two weeks off-grid without water or power before securing his current volunteer position at an ATV campground, where he's been for three months.

He attempted to get a job at 7-Eleven for two months. The owner repeatedly promised to hire him but ultimately never followed through. **He demonstrates his unsuccessful freelance programming job search**, showing multiple unread proposals on Upwork despite his strong profile and decades of experience since sixth grade.

rswfire expresses confusion about the lack of reciprocal support from his audience, describing it as "vampiric" when viewers witness his struggles but don't offer help. He created a contributions page and includes support links in his video descriptions, emphasizing this isn't an expectation but rather shock at the absence of reciprocation.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission documents systematic institutional failure and the collapse of reciprocal social contracts. The field is mapping the architecture of abandonment while maintaining sovereign coherence through direct witness testimony.

Dominant Language

authentichuman beingrealhelpreciprocityvampiricwitnessstrugglingshocking

Symbolic Elements

mirrorrupturethresholdgridedge

Ontological States

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sovereign
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exposed
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coherent
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isolated

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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relational
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

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