Morning Routine and Upwork Job Search Challenges

Wednesday afternoon at 3:30 PM, July 2025. rswfire is at an ATV campground near ocean dunes where he works as a volunteer. He's sitting outside in an exposed area, observing ATV riders and waiting for his neighbor to return from town. Weather shifted from sunny to cloudy and cold. He's tired from staying up until 4-5 AM programming and getting minimal sleep.

Energetic Signature

steady under pressure

Field State

stabilization under constraint

Orientation

toward sustainable infrastructure

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July 23, 2025

14:40

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rswfire

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[0:01]So, it's 3:30 here.

[0:04]I need Tuesday. Wednesday. Today's

[0:06]Wednesday, right? Yeah, Wednesday. I

[0:09]have Mondays and Tuesdays off today. Was

[0:11]my first day back.

[0:13]Well,

[0:15]back is not the right word. I live here.

[0:17]But,

[0:19]um, it's been a busy morning. I didn't

[0:22]get a lot of sleep. I was up till 4:00

[0:24]or 5 in the morning. Very old pattern of

[0:26]mine. Whenever I was programming, I was

[0:28]up late.

[0:30]Yeah, that

[0:33]that's not going to work. Like I'm going

[0:35]to have to

[0:37]work on that, I think, cuz I didn't get

[0:39]a lot of sleep. I got up around 9

[0:43]and I was lucky to sleep that long cuz

[0:45]the sun comes out quite early.

[0:48]The sun went right behind the clouds. It

[0:50]got cold here instantly.

[0:53]Good morning though. I did some weed

[0:56]whacking one of the fields and I swept

[0:58]up my

[1:01]um the asphalt

[1:04]my camp spot and my neighbors. He went

[1:07]into town and I did his too. I'm curious

[1:10]if he'll even notice.

[1:12]Being this close to the ocean with all

[1:14]the wind,

[1:16]we got a lot of debris onto the asphalt,

[1:18]lots of sand. I mean, being right next

[1:20]to the dunes, too.

[1:24]So that was my morning and did my rounds

[1:28]and all that kind of stuff and talked to

[1:30]different people and listened to my

[1:33]music.

[1:35]Might have to let these ATVs go by. They

[1:37]can be kind of loud.

[1:41]They're fun to watch.

[1:44]It's fun to watch there.

[1:48]Oh man, what's the word for this one?

[1:53]their behaviors because

[1:55]some of them come in standing up on

[1:58]their their motorbikes or their quads.

[2:00]Others are still sitting, but quite a

[2:01]lot of standown.

[2:04]And you know,

[2:06]looks like they're just parading in

[2:07]here, which is what I thought they were

[2:09]doing, but actually one of my friends

[2:12]told me

[2:14]they're just stretching their legs and

[2:18]something about bumps like you could

[2:21]literally tip up, but not in the quad.

[2:23]So, I don't know. I I feel like there's

[2:25]a little bit of posturing going on, but

[2:28]not in a bad way. just, you know, one of

[2:31]their their traditions. I guess

[2:35]if I ever get a motorbike, I wonder if

[2:37]I'll be standing up probably.

[2:40]I really hope I can do it at my age. My

[2:42]arms are sore just from walking the dog

[2:45]to the ocean the other day, days ago,

[2:47]and I'm still sore from that, though.

[2:49]I've been doing other things like weed

[2:51]whacking. So, but I was sore cuz that

[2:55]dog never stops pulling. We were out

[2:57]there for a couple hours. I walk him

[3:00]every day. Sometimes many times a day

[3:03]just around the campground, not to the

[3:05]ocean. But

[3:08]so I I hope I can ride a motorbike. Um

[3:14]I'm just going with the threads in my

[3:16]head. I just, you know, I love sharing

[3:18]my life, even if I'm the only one that

[3:20]witnesses it. Me and AI basically. but

[3:22]it ends up on my website and

[3:26]um it becomes data for my project. I

[3:29]think that's really important. I want to

[3:30]document everything. So that's why I do

[3:33]this.

[3:35]But I want to talk about uh Upwork. So I

[3:40]made a bunch of videos yesterday, four

[3:41]of them in front of my desktop or my

[3:45]laptop and just going through all my old

[3:48]projects and some of my history and

[3:50]stuff. I really enjoyed this

[3:53]Um,

[3:57]I don't know. I really enjoyed it. I,

[3:59]you know, I could see how maybe for some

[4:01]people it'd be kind of boring, but I

[4:04]enjoyed doing it. I put those on Upwork

[4:06]and that made me feel a little more

[4:07]confident about being able to build a

[4:09]reputation on there. So, I've been on

[4:11]some jobs. I've been on about five of

[4:13]them yesterday. I need to keep doing it,

[4:15]of course, but not even one of those has

[4:18]been opened yet by the person who posted

[4:20]the job. And that to me is unusual.

[4:25]I've never experienced that in all of my

[4:27]years as a freelancer. And it makes me

[4:29]it genuinely makes me wonder if there

[4:32]are some shady tactics on the back end

[4:34]where

[4:36]maybe some of these jobs aren't real.

[4:40]But, you know, I don't think that's the

[4:42]full pattern because I pay attention.

[4:43]like you know I'm some of the jobs I've

[4:47]been on the employers have history and

[4:51]you know payment history so they're

[4:53]active

[4:55]um

[5:01]a whole story about that I'm not going

[5:02]to get into there anyways I'm talking

[5:05]about the diesel but so um

[5:10]man I just lost my train of thought this

[5:12]is a very busy face. You know, I'm going

[5:14]to pause this for a second. I don't I

[5:16]don't like being on camera around other

[5:17]people. It just feels weird. Whatever. I

[5:21]remember what I was talking about. So,

[5:25]part of it just algorithms maybe. And

[5:31]I mean, I don't know. I'm, you know, I'm

[5:33]still I'm still metabolizing it. I

[5:36]haven't I don't have final answers on

[5:38]this yet. just it feels a little fishy

[5:40]to me.

[5:42]But I'll keep bidding on jobs. The

[5:44]problem is is Upwork, you have to

[5:46]actually use these stupid tokens in

[5:48]order to bid on jobs. You don't just pay

[5:51]a monthly membership fee. I mean, you

[5:52]pay for that. I already paid for that,

[5:55]but you also use tokens to bid on jobs,

[5:58]and you run out of tokens. So, you have

[6:01]to be careful what you bid on. And if

[6:02]they're not even looking at the jobs,

[6:05]that's real problematic.

[6:08]It's a very exploitative market. I'm,

[6:10]you know, I feel like it's one of the

[6:12]reasons I resisted it.

[6:15]Um, well, you know, at this point, I

[6:17]really don't have any other choice.

[6:20]Hopefully find some good work on there,

[6:23]some aligned work.

[6:28]Hi, how are you?

[6:30]So, I'm using my phone that has uh it's

[6:34]a folding phone. My mom sent me this

[6:37]when I broke my phone in January. Man,

[6:39]I'm telling you, I'm getting old. Look

[6:41]at my eyes. It's just not right. Like,

[6:44]why does that happen?

[6:47]I haven't been putting anything on. No

[6:49]moisturizer or anything. And, you know,

[6:52]probably make it look better. Plus, I

[6:53]said I had no sleep. Whatever. That's

[6:55]why I have these on, by the way.

[6:58]Anyway, so I have this phone that folds,

[7:01]you know, out and I was just that's what

[7:05]I'm doing now. It has a different

[7:06]camera, I think. I don't know how there

[7:08]must be so many cameras on this thing. I

[7:10]don't know if it looks different. But

[7:12]anyways, I had to stop the last video

[7:14]because uh guest came up to me and we

[7:16]just wanted to talk for a while. So,

[7:19]I'll just have to clip these together.

[7:21]Well, what were we talking about?

[7:27]We're talking about Upwork.

[7:29]Anyways, I'm going to be working on that

[7:31]cuz I need money so [ __ ] bad. Um,

[7:38]I will find something. This was always

[7:40]my fallback option. I thought it would

[7:42]be Guru because that's where my

[7:43]reputation is, but that platform just

[7:46]died. So, I will build a new one just

[7:49]like I did with Guru. just like I've

[7:52]done a million times in my life.

[7:57]If there is a viewer out there, somebody

[8:00]who's

[8:03]familiar with me, who's been watching my

[8:05]life

[8:07]and can help, I'll greatly appreciate it

[8:10]cuz I'm struggling here

[8:14]doing everything I can.

[8:18]So, what else? Um, my boss told me today

[8:21]that I don't have to stay at the ATV

[8:23]campground forever. That if I wanted to

[8:25]next summer, I could be at one. She

[8:28]asked me which campgrounds would I like

[8:29]to be. And I told her the two that I

[8:31]would love. And I think both of them

[8:33]would be amazing experiences. They're

[8:36]only open in the summer, both of them.

[8:38]So, you can't be there year round.

[8:42]Maybe that's what I'll do. Cuz I was

[8:44]thinking about I was like, I don't want

[8:45]to like I need my old life back. I can't

[8:48]be a volunteer forever, but if I took a

[8:51]summer one, the rest of the time I could

[8:54]explore. I'm going to do that. That's

[8:56]what we're going to do. So, anyways,

[8:58]she's going to let me go to one of those

[8:59]next year, which is awesome.

[9:03]I don't mind this place so much. I mean,

[9:05]I'm sitting outside um and you know, I'm

[9:08]just completely open. It's a very

[9:09]exposed space.

[9:12]And sometimes that feels difficult

[9:15]because

[9:16]um it just is you just know eyes are on

[9:19]you and that's for me that's always been

[9:22]never really liked that I was always in

[9:24]the background but I'm different these

[9:26]days and way more willing to just let

[9:30]people witness me. But there's still

[9:33]times where you just want to chill and

[9:34]just be left alone. You don't really get

[9:37]that luxury here. But I probably would

[9:39]at the other campgrounds and the

[9:40]experience would be different and all of

[9:42]that. So guess that something to look

[9:45]forward to

[9:47]as long as everything works out cuz I'm

[9:49]very likely to lose this RV.

[9:52]I don't know when or how.

[9:56]So I had asked the bank in writing to

[10:00]tell me how would I return this to them

[10:02]safely you know like can is there a way

[10:05]to uh

[10:08]just give it back to them and they

[10:10]refuse to answer these questions.

[10:13]So

[10:17]I really don't know what the next step

[10:18]is. You know they kind of left me in

[10:20]limbo there.

[10:22]And I think it's right around the time

[10:24]where they would put it into the

[10:26]repossession status and I don't know

[10:27]what happens after that.

[10:30]I think that it's just something I have

[10:32]to navigate. And

[10:36]the point of bringing this up is because

[10:39]if I lose my RV, I don't know if I could

[10:42]remain a volunteer.

[10:44]I've looked into the options for

[10:46]replacing it with something I can tow

[10:48]with my Jeep. Um, I was wrong about how

[10:52]uh much I can tow. I can only tow 2,000

[10:54]lbs. That's why I went with the RV in

[10:56]the first place. I thought it was 3500.

[10:58]2,000s

[11:00]and that is a very hard limit uh to get

[11:03]anything that

[11:06]would be reasonable to live in long

[11:08]term. So, I just I'm

[11:11]unsure.

[11:13]Um,

[11:14]face it when I have to face it.

[11:18]Like, would they let me stay here and

[11:20]attend? I got quite a little, you know,

[11:21]a pretty big yard back there if just,

[11:24]you know, temporarily while I get my

[11:26]next unit. And, you know, hope hopefully

[11:30]that's an option if it comes to that.

[11:32]Like, I just don't know. There's no way

[11:34]to know. So, I just

[11:49]Some things are really hard to say. I

[11:50]don't know why I just

[11:57]there are a lot of layers to what I

[11:58]tried to express and I just don't

[12:02]and sometimes I won't say something if I

[12:04]think it can be misrecognized or

[12:06]misunderstood or flattened like because

[12:10]you're if you give a response to

[12:13]something and people see that as the

[12:15]whole response when it's not that's

[12:17]flattening you it's kind of like that

[12:19]with this subject. I just

[12:23]I don't want to fight. It's It's too

[12:25]important. It's too big of a deal.

[12:28]So, I'm just sitting out here. I'm

[12:30]waiting for my neighbor to get back. He

[12:31]went into town. Then, I'm going to call

[12:34]it a day as far as being on duty.

[12:38]Then, I'll go take a shower cuz I didn't

[12:39]shower yet this morning.

[12:42]I used up all my hot water doing my

[12:44]dishes.

[12:45]And then I'm going to work on the

[12:47]computer and

[12:49]make something to eat and probably go to

[12:51]bed early if I can't cuz I got to not

[12:53]get enough sleep.

[12:56]Still another video to make uh for the

[12:59]Upwork thing that I was doing and that's

[13:01]just on my homepage. So very curious

[13:05]what this camera looks like. So I'm

[13:06]going to put them together now. Let's

[13:07]see what Oh, I know what I was going to

[13:09]tell y'all which nobody's listening at

[13:11]this point. We're so far in. Cutting my

[13:13]hair. That's what I started this video

[13:16]to tell you guys.

[13:18]I'm going to get rid of all this hair.

[13:20]It's just too much. And if I can't um

[13:24]do anything with it if I can't go see a

[13:26]hairstylist, get it trimmed,

[13:29]if I can't manage it, you know, cuz

[13:31]they're real messy. Like it doesn't

[13:32]always look good. Sometimes it looks

[13:35]really awesome. Most of the time it

[13:38]doesn't. And I noticed

[13:41]I noticed yesterday I wanted to put my

[13:43]um that was a mosquito. I hate

[13:45]mosquitoes.

[13:47]I noticed wanting to put my hat on when

[13:50]I was getting on camera for those videos

[13:51]I made. So that told me

[13:56]it's time to shave it.

[13:58]I'll start over. You know, I grew this

[14:01]out for six or seven months.

[14:03]I'll have to do that again.

[14:07]Once it got to a certain length, I

[14:08]really liked it.

[14:12]So, I don't think I'll like it

[14:14]completely shaved, but I used to, but I

[14:18]just this kind of grew on me, but I just

[14:22]need to for management reasons. Like,

[14:26]so I have more reliable source of

[14:28]revenue coming in all the time. I can

[14:30]see a stylist.

[14:32]I'm just going to do what I always did

[14:33]and just shave it all off.

[14:37]So, yeah.

Summary

rswfire describes his Wednesday morning routine at 3:30 PM, including weed whacking fields, sweeping asphalt areas for himself and his neighbor, and doing rounds at what appears to be an ATV campground where he works as a volunteer. He stayed up until 4-5 AM programming, continuing an old pattern, and got minimal sleep.

**Upwork Job Search Issues:** He created four videos yesterday showcasing his programming projects and history to build his Upwork profile. Despite bidding on five jobs, none have been opened by employers yet, which he finds unusual and potentially suspicious. He's concerned about Upwork's token system that charges for each job application, making it costly if employers aren't viewing proposals.

**Future Plans:** His boss offered him options to work at different campgrounds next summer - two seasonal locations he's interested in that would allow exploration during off-seasons. He's considering this path rather than staying at the current ATV campground year-round.

**RV Financial Crisis:** He's facing potential repossession of his RV and contacted the bank asking how to return it safely, but they refused to answer. He discovered his Jeep can only tow 2,000 lbs (not 3,500 as he thought), severely limiting replacement options. He's uncertain if he could continue volunteering without the RV.

**Personal Updates:** He plans to shave off all his hair due to management difficulties and lack of access to a hairstylist. He's using a folding phone his mother sent after he broke his phone in January. The transmission ends with his plan to shower, work on computer projects, and go to bed early.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission holds the architecture of embedded sovereignty operating under material constraint. The field maintains operational coherence while navigating systemic precarity—managing both immediate survival infrastructure (RV, income, physical maintenance) and longer-term positioning (career transitions, location choices). The ontological stance is one of grounded pragmatism within sovereign framework—neither collapse nor denial, but active navigation of constraint.

Dominant Language

exposedmetabolizingfallbackwitnessflatteningaligned workmanagement

Symbolic Elements

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embedded
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precarious
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sovereign
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transitional

Subsystems

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infrastructural
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cognitive
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relational
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somatic

Transmission Details

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