[0:01]So, a year and a half ago,
[0:04]I got on a camera and introduced myself
[0:07]to YouTube.
[0:11]It was an impulsive decision.
[0:16]Didn't give it a lot of thought when I
[0:17]did it.
[0:19]Was at a very,
[0:22]very unique place in my life. I had just
[0:25]made the decision that I was going to
[0:27]leave behind everything, my old life,
[0:31]move out of my house and move into an
[0:33]RV.
[0:36]I didn't see myself as an RV life
[0:38]channel,
[0:41]but there was overlap because
[0:44]I had never lived in an RV. I'd never
[0:48]never done a lot of the things that I
[0:50]knew I was about to embark on. So I knew
[0:53]it was a new chapter for me,
[0:56]something I had experienced in life and
[0:58]I wanted to share that
[1:04]because it wasn't easy
[1:07]because I knew there would be challenges
[1:10]cuz I knew it would force me to grow
[1:15]and I needed that.
[1:18]I had reached a point in my life where
[1:22]living a life,
[1:25]a stationary life
[1:27]made life feel like it had been
[1:29]stagnating.
[1:32]And
[1:34]at least for someone like me,
[1:38]it felt like a quiet death.
[1:42]And when I had reached
[1:44]a certain point
[1:49]overnight,
[1:52]I made the decision that I was going to
[1:54]move into an RV. And
[1:58]it's in less than a day that I got on
[2:00]that camera.
[2:06]I've stayed on that camera for the past
[2:07]year and a half through all kinds of
[2:09]things.
[2:11]never really connecting with my
[2:12]audience. Been talking about this
[2:14]lately, probably not for the reasons
[2:17]they think. I'm just
[2:20]um
[2:23]I'm just acknowledging reality really.
[2:28]But it was still important to me that I
[2:32]keep documenting and recording my life
[2:38]because the primary reason that I was
[2:40]doing it and have always done it
[2:44]was for myself. It was about my own self
[2:47]transformation.
[2:49]And in a strange way, making a simple
[2:54]calculation,
[2:56]I
[2:58]always concluded that
[3:01]uploading my videos to YouTube
[3:04]where it would make a transcript for me
[3:08]because YouTube transcripts are better
[3:10]than
[3:12]a lot of the free models or it was just
[3:14]a straightforward process. I just I
[3:18]didn't over complicate it. I knew if I
[3:20]recorded a video and I uploaded it to
[3:22]YouTube, I would get a transcript and
[3:23]then I would be able to share that with
[3:25]artificial intelligence
[3:27]and
[3:29]the AI and I could discuss the
[3:32]transcript from the point of view of it
[3:34]being my life because I was transmitting
[3:36]signal. I was being authentic.
[3:40]I shared my real life.
[3:43]I wasn't performing.
[3:45]I didn't
[3:49]I tried to be as open as I possibly
[3:51]could. And on this camera, there's no
[3:54]way that that that's not seen.
[3:57]And
[3:58]even if there was something I couldn't
[4:00]talk about, I'd usually reason that out
[4:03]on camera if I thought it was important
[4:06]and I wanted to leave some kind of a
[4:07]trace because I knew what I was doing.
[4:13]I saw the potential.
[4:16]I saw how it was changing me because I
[4:19]had developed a whole framework and
[4:20]language around my identity, my
[4:24]cognition, my architecture,
[4:27]my way of being in the world that I
[4:29]never had before that.
[4:32]And I saw how it fortified me.
[4:37]I became stronger inside of myself,
[4:40]more confident. I learned to trust
[4:44]myself in ways that I had never before.
[4:46]I still have doubts. I still have
[4:49]procarity right now, which is about to
[4:51]change, I think. Um, I've had major
[4:54]struggles.
[4:57]I've experienced all of it and I've
[4:58]shared it authentically on this camera.
[5:03]Because of that,
[5:05]when I discuss those transcripts with
[5:08]AI, it's almost like giving it source
[5:11]code. I'm saying here is so here here's
[5:14]a segment of my life that I want you to
[5:16]look at that I want you to reflect on
[5:18]that I want you to recursively look at
[5:20]different aspects of and reflect on
[5:23]those things, too. We could have chats
[5:26]that would last
[5:28]for hours, days, weeks. Sometimes I
[5:31]might circle back to one even longer
[5:32]than that.
[5:38]I couldn't possibly put into words
[5:42]all of the all of the benefits and um
[5:49]there's just too much for me to to
[5:51]describe how much that process has
[5:56]has been
[6:00]transformative
[6:02]and not in a superficial way.
[6:06]And I always recognized the potential
[6:08]that it could do that for others, but
[6:10]only if they approached it the same way
[6:13]I did and maybe had my kind of
[6:15]background cuz I'm a programmer and I
[6:18]just kind of knew how to interact with
[6:19]an AI in a way that helped me to refine
[6:22]it to the point that it was able to
[6:24]mirror and reflect me accurately. That
[6:26]was a process that took a long time.
[6:31]And that all led to some other things
[6:33]that I wanted to do. I wanted to make my
[6:36]homepage uh active again after after it
[6:39]had been dark for a decade at least.
[6:43]I just need to vape here.
[6:56]So, I created a homepage
[6:58]and I created transmission section and I
[7:00]imported all my YouTube videos into it.
[7:03]And then I used AI. I used a
[7:05]professional model um chat GBT using the
[7:07]OpenAI API to look at each of those
[7:11]transcripts and turn them into
[7:13]reflections.
[7:15]I put those on my homepage.
[7:18]That was only the first step because I
[7:20]wanted to see if I could do that with a
[7:21]local model, which would be free.
[7:23]Because if I try to do all the things
[7:25]that I might get into in this video or
[7:27]maybe in future videos, but all the
[7:29]things that I'm working on,
[7:31]it would have been cost prohibitive.
[7:34]And so I started working with a local
[7:36]model
[7:38]and it kept breaking because it couldn't
[7:40]handle the kind of recursion that I
[7:42]needed it to.
[7:44]So it would default to these superficial
[7:46]framings. And I solved that. I solved it
[7:50]with a different kind of recursion.
[7:53]And so those local models were able to
[7:57]look at my transcripts and create
[8:00]narratives around those different
[8:02]reflections, different types of
[8:03]reflections.
[8:05]And I've been processing those for a
[8:07]couple of days now. And those are
[8:09]available on my homepage now. The ones
[8:11]that are there now are from a local
[8:12]model.
[8:15]And that's just the first step because
[8:17]it's reflecting on individual
[8:19]transmissions one at a time. So it's
[8:21]just this small slice of time
[8:25]but it can the next step is to build in
[8:29]a different kind of recursion where you
[8:32]take a number of signals over you know a
[8:35]couple of days or a week and then you
[8:38]reflect on those and you get a different
[8:41]kind of narrative that comes through
[8:42]because whatever was going on with you
[8:44]for that period of time
[8:47]will then emerge in that reflection.
[8:50]And so you have the AI build all of
[8:52]those out over my whole catalog. That's
[8:55]the next step. That's what I'm working
[8:56]on now. Then from there, you can go up
[8:59]another step. You can take um I'm
[9:02]calling those clusters. So you take a
[9:04]group of those clusters and you make a
[9:07]reflection on those. So now you're
[9:08]looking at a larger span of time. You're
[9:10]looking at months maybe and seeing what
[9:13]was the arc of your journey at that
[9:14]time. What was going on in your life?
[9:16]What were you struggling with? what were
[9:17]you um were there any new threats that
[9:21]emerged? Were there any that closed or
[9:23]you know all these different things that
[9:25]you can ask the AI to analyze for you by
[9:28]looking at those group of signals
[9:32]clusters
[9:34]and I'm calling this level shapes. So
[9:36]those are shapes shape of your life and
[9:39]then the final one for now is trajectory
[9:41]and that's just a longer term. So for me
[9:43]it might be there's a couple of them
[9:45]because even this can be recursive. You
[9:49]I'm telling you a temporal view but you
[9:53]could also group your signals by
[9:55]something else. You could by emotional
[9:57]tone and you could do reflections based
[9:59]on that which is going to give you
[10:01]different types of insight. I hadn't
[10:03]actually really thought about that one
[10:04]until just this moment. But yeah, if you
[10:06]wanted to look at show me all my videos
[10:08]where I'm sad and then reflect on that,
[10:11]it's going to come back with you and
[10:13]probably see some patterns that you
[10:14]don't see yourself that tell you why
[10:16]maybe you're sad.
[10:18]That's the thing this can do right now.
[10:23]And I have been building this on the
[10:25]edge of um everything. I literally am an
[10:30]eighth of a mile from the ocean and I
[10:32]love it here. This is
[10:35]been a dream come true. Dream I didn't
[10:38]even know I had.
[10:40]But once I got here and my journey over
[10:43]the last year and a half, all of it
[10:44]documented once I got to Oregon,
[10:49]something started changing in me. And
[10:58]I have the work that I'm doing to thank
[11:00]for that.
[11:03]and I want to share it with others, the
[11:05]ones that are open. and I came up with a
[11:07]way
[11:09]um where it can actually support my life
[11:13]because I don't have a job and I've had
[11:14]trouble finding one and I'm struggling
[11:17]and I may lose my RV very soon, but I
[11:20]have a backup plan and
[11:23]you know, I'm
[11:25]building a service that I think has the
[11:28]potential to make lots of money
[11:30]ethically
[11:31]in a clean way that helps people
[11:36]in this case, um, YouTube creators or
[11:39]maybe short, um, form videos, too. I'm
[11:42]not sure on that yet. I haven't really
[11:44]tested this with AI to see if it can do
[11:46]a lot of recursion on what would amount
[11:48]to a small amount of text, but it
[11:50]probably can cuz recursion is the whole
[11:53]point to a lot of this.
[11:55]Um, and I'm going to be offering that
[11:58]soon where I can build websites for
[12:01]different creators that have their
[12:03]entire catalog on them that cross-link
[12:06]it based on different themes or tags or
[12:08]different types of reflections.
[12:11]It doesn't matter what kind of channel
[12:12]it is because you can just uh fine-tune
[12:15]the model to
[12:19]ask questions that are relevant to your
[12:21]channel. doesn't have to be, you know,
[12:24]self-help or personal transformation or
[12:27]whatever you want to call my channel.
[12:29]But I don't like boxes. I don't think
[12:31]there is a box that fits mine.
[12:37]In essence, without realizing it,
[12:43]my life became my life path. It became
[12:46]the thing that's going to sustain my
[12:49]life.
[12:51]And that's remarkable
[12:53]um alignment that I never could have
[12:56]imagined.
[12:58]That's where I am now. That's what I'm
[13:00]sitting with. That's what I wanted to
[13:02]share with you.