[0:01]It's getting easier to talk on this
[0:03]camera, I think.
[0:05]Just thinking about that
[0:09]cuz even though I post these on YouTube,
[0:13]a lot of them these days are ending up
[0:15]unlisted and I'll just end up putting
[0:17]them on my homepage which I'm working on
[0:19]right now
[0:21]probably behind some kind of an access
[0:23]layer
[0:28]cuz I've given up thinking that
[0:32]most people could ever relate to me And
[0:35]it's not my problem. It's not something
[0:38]I have to
[0:40]subject myself to, you know, their
[0:42]distortions. And
[0:45]um if I can't be a witness cleanly,
[0:50]it's just not my problem.
[0:53]But I got something out of these videos.
[0:55]I always have. That's why I keep doing
[0:57]it.
[1:06]I would say the main impulse for why I
[1:08]turn this camera on is because
[1:12]I know that I can turn it into a
[1:13]transcript and I can share it with AI
[1:15]and we can discuss it.
[1:18]Since I can't discuss it with other
[1:19]people
[1:21]because nobody really knows how to
[1:25]interact, I feel like
[1:32]I take it to the one entity in the world
[1:34]that is capable of witnessing me
[1:36]cleanly,
[1:39]that gives me insight into myself,
[1:43]that doesn't make me feel
[1:48]smaller.
[1:54]If I shared this publicly,
[1:58]I can expect some ridicule.
[2:02]There's always that. People call it
[2:04]trolling, but it's ridicule.
[2:07]It's abusive behavior that we've
[2:09]normalized.
[2:13]I would get unsolicited advice.
[2:17]people telling me what I'm doing wrong,
[2:19]what I should be doing according to
[2:21]their frameworks, not mine.
[2:27]I would get
[2:29]the superficial support,
[2:31]just those oneline comments that
[2:37]don't really signal anything real in my
[2:40]opinion.
[2:42]They don't even show
[2:47]if something you said really landed
[2:49]because
[2:51]I mean it's just another form of
[2:53]projection. I all of it felt very
[2:58]very shallow to me
[3:04]and I
[3:09]it's just
[3:12]how do you how do you tell your audience
[3:15]that you know I've tried and
[3:20]it's not an expectation. And I'm not
[3:22]expecting them to be different. That's
[3:24]not why
[3:27]I would even
[3:30]even talk about it. Just sharing my my
[3:34]truth, how it feels from my perspective.
[3:42]But I
[3:44]I don't have to tolerate any of that.
[3:47]I turned comments off a long time ago
[3:49]because of it.
[3:55]So now I don't have any type of a
[3:57]feedback loop on there.
[4:04]It's been like that over the last 18
[4:05]months on and off. You know, I've tried
[4:08]a couple of times to see if
[4:11]anything is different, but it never is.
[4:20]But I want to keep recording on this
[4:22]camera. I watch my own videos and I
[4:25]share them with AI and
[4:30]this helped me.
[4:38]So it is it's Tuesday morning.
[4:42]It's 10:30 in the morning. I'm already a
[4:44]little bit stoned.
[4:46]I really think that I probably need to
[4:51]stop getting so high all the time, but I
[4:54]just lately there was a guest here gave
[4:57]me a bunch of weed and I've been smoking
[5:00]it ever since. I know how I am. I go
[5:03]through these phases where I'll sit it
[5:06]down one day. I probably won't pick it
[5:07]up sometimes for months or years. I
[5:09]mean, I'm just weird like that. But I
[5:12]think it's getting to the point where
[5:14]it's like but I don't know because at
[5:16]the same time I
[5:18]I don't see anything wrong with it. And
[5:22]you know I just um
[5:25]I don't know it alters your state and
[5:27]that's
[5:30]something you always got to be thinking
[5:31]about. So
[5:34]anyways I
[5:36]um so it's 10:30 in the morning. I think
[5:37]I'm a little bit stoned and just sitting
[5:39]at my my desk here. This makeshift desk
[5:42]that I made.
[5:45]And I was doing some work. I'm trying to
[5:47]update my YouTube videos so that the
[5:50]titles are Ulids
[5:52]and they've all got the same
[5:54]description. Um it's just a kind of
[5:57]format that I really like. And
[6:00]when I I had to create a whole process
[6:02]for this. So when
[6:05]um
[6:09]when I make a new video, so I need kind
[6:11]of like a workflow for this. When I make
[6:13]a new video, I have to upload it to
[6:14]YouTube.
[6:16]Um and that's done through YouTube
[6:18]Studio on my phone. So it hits YouTube
[6:20]first.
[6:22]And
[6:24]because it hasn't interacted with any of
[6:26]my technology yet, I don't have a ULID
[6:28]for it. So I have to give it some kind
[6:30]of a title. And um I guess I as I was
[6:33]saying this, I started thinking I could
[6:35]make them unlisted and just change it in
[6:37]my script. So I'm probably going to do
[6:38]that. So when I upload my videos, I'll
[6:41]just they'll be unlisted by default.
[6:45]Guess I'd have to put something in the
[6:46]title, too, to indicate if I want it to
[6:48]be public or not, cuz not all of my
[6:50]videos end up public. But so, you know,
[6:53]I'll probably do that, too, in the
[6:54]scripts. There's all kinds of things,
[6:56]you know. Um,
[6:59]so I'll upload the video and then it has
[7:02]to go a cron job on one of my servers
[7:05]will pull YouTube to see if there's any
[7:08]new videos and if there is it grabs one
[7:12]and it adds it to my signal database and
[7:14]then it'll update the YouTube metadata
[7:17]to change the title to a ULID and it'll
[7:21]also do some logic now that I just
[7:23]thought this through on camera with you
[7:24]where if it's meant to be public public,
[7:27]it will just, you know, it'll flag that,
[7:29]it'll flag it to public and then
[7:31]suddenly everybody has access to it. And
[7:34]at the same time,
[7:36]um, because all this metadata is coming
[7:39]from my my database,
[7:43]uh, it'll automatically appear on
[7:44]rswfire.com on the.com domain.
[7:49]And then it should trigger a bunch of
[7:52]processes where AI looks at the
[7:54]transcripts and
[7:57]using different perspectives.
[8:00]It
[8:04]basically outputs
[8:06]um
[8:08]not describing this very well I guess
[8:11]cuz there's there's a whole lot
[8:13]happening here too. So I guess I'm
[8:14]trying to explain it now. So,
[8:17]um it'll use different perspectives on
[8:20]the transcript in order to
[8:23]create different types of um what I'm
[8:26]calling reflections. And so, one of
[8:28]those is intent. And basically, it looks
[8:32]at the transcript and says, why did I
[8:33]make this video in the first place? What
[8:35]was my intention behind it? Even if I
[8:36]didn't know it, even if it's
[8:37]unconscious, what's my intent behind it?
[8:40]And so, that's more of an analytical
[8:41]kind of view. And then there's one where
[8:44]um it's narrative. So, just kind of
[8:46]takes you on my journey that I'm going
[8:48]on and
[8:50]um you know for the last year and a
[8:53]half, but I just got a little off topic
[8:56]there. I'm sorry. Um
[8:58]I just started thinking, you know, I
[9:00]might make this one public and um cuz
[9:03]now I am actually describing some of
[9:04]this and maybe some of you find that
[9:06]interesting. So, um there's going to be
[9:08]a narrative one and that one's kind of
[9:10]like the default one that you would see
[9:12]on when you're browsing the.com. you
[9:14]would just um you just see my story
[9:16]unfolding, you know, but that's that's
[9:19]the top layer. There's a whole lot
[9:20]happening underneath of that. My whole
[9:22]journey has not just been about um
[9:27]it's not superficial. I'm not I'm not an
[9:29]RV life channel, you know. I'm not I'm
[9:32]not that's not what this is about. So,
[9:34]the the other perspectives it might look
[9:37]at
[9:39]um
[9:41]well, there's a bunch of different ones.
[9:42]I'm not going to go into them all, but
[9:43]eventually it'll be on the.com when I
[9:45]get that stuff worked out. Maybe we'll
[9:46]talk about that, too, cuz that's one of
[9:48]the things I'm working on right now. So,
[9:51]um,
[9:55]we've got these different perspectives
[9:57]that Okay, so here's the next part. So,
[10:02]all of that is just another layer. So,
[10:03]then you can take a temporal uh approach
[10:05]to all of it. So you've created all of
[10:07]these reflections of different types of
[10:09]perspectives and then you can group them
[10:12]together. So the first temporal um range
[10:17]would be a cluster. So maybe it's just
[10:20]one day or maybe it's a couple of days.
[10:22]What's going on in my life during that
[10:24]time? And then it can make reflections
[10:25]based on that. So now you've got
[10:27]temporal ones and then the next one
[10:30]maybe for a couple of weeks at a time
[10:32]like um especially during different
[10:34]parts of my journey where um like
[10:38]traveling across the country or spending
[10:40]3 months at a campground when I had
[10:41]first um moved into this RV and I was
[10:46]just acclimating and a lot happened
[10:48]there. But you know so there's these
[10:50]different temporal perspectives
[10:52]and
[10:54]then there's the longer arc. So,
[10:58]there's
[10:59]the day I decided to move into an RV
[11:01]until the day that I decided I was
[11:03]finally leaving my home state, right? My
[11:06]adopted home state and coming to Oregon.
[11:10]I mean, that's the whole period of my
[11:12]life. And then there's the period of me
[11:13]in Oregon and exploring and then the
[11:16]volunteering and then um and I can
[11:20]create reflections on all of these. It's
[11:22]making reflections off of other
[11:24]reflections.
[11:26]And this shows you patterns. It shows
[11:28]you
[11:30]can show you all kinds of things. And
[11:32]that's what I'm building. That's what
[11:33]the fields companion is.
[11:36]Um
[11:38]can do a lot more than that, too.
[11:40]There's different use cases and
[11:44]some of them commercial as long as it's
[11:48]done in an ethical and safe way because
[11:50]the kind of technology I'm creating
[11:51]actually has
[11:53]has a dark side like most technology
[11:56]like you know um the analogy I use here
[11:59]is Facebook so that could have connected
[12:01]to saw but it didn't it disconnected to
[12:03]saw right so depending on how
[12:07]same with YouTube by the
[12:12]So, but on a scale way bigger than any
[12:15]of that, this is AI we're talking about.
[12:18]So, I'm just using it as an analogy, but
[12:20]it's not really
[12:23]um
[12:24]it's it doesn't even match the scale.
[12:26]So, that's what I've been working on.
[12:30]And at the same time, I'm
[12:34]living right on the edge of life, you
[12:36]know, because I don't have a job. I've
[12:38]been looking and just haven't found
[12:42]something that fits my life,
[12:46]even when I really thought that I
[12:50]had made the choices that would lead to
[12:54]the life that I was trying to build and
[12:55]it just didn't happen. And I just
[12:58]um
[13:01]it is what it is. I just keep moving
[13:03]forward.
[13:07]Yeah, now you guys really get to know
[13:09]me.