[0:00]So, my hair is officially wild as hell
[0:02]now. Started thinking maybe I need to
[0:05]just shave it off. I use the clippers,
[0:08]the 1 in ones, and
[0:11]start over. Eventually, I'll be able to
[0:14]get my hair cut properly and kind of go
[0:16]for the style I wanted. This going to
[0:19]keep growing. It's getting It's getting
[0:20]too long. So, I'm heading into Florence.
[0:23]I'm just picking up a few supplies. Very
[0:25]basic stuff. I got to thinking I wanted
[0:28]to document a couple things.
[0:32]Uh just talk about what I've been
[0:33]working on
[0:36]and there was something else maybe it'll
[0:38]come back to me. There was something
[0:40]else that actually wasn't input to this.
[0:42]Anyways, what I've been working on,
[0:45]so I've been working on my homepage
[0:47]quite a lot and it is evolving into
[0:56]a place where you can truly witness.
[1:02]Man, I don't have the words for this.
[1:04]So, one thing I recently learned is that
[1:06]I have compressed cognition.
[1:09]And that basically means that you know I
[1:13]synthesize a lot of data and I I
[1:16]compress it into
[1:18]sort of knowing it's hard to express
[1:21]verbally.
[1:22]So I now understand like why
[1:28]it's really difficult for me to unpack
[1:30]everything that that I'm thinking like
[1:33]it just
[1:35]AI helps with that a lot and my my
[1:38]homepage. So all my YouTube videos are
[1:41]there. I used AI. I used a process to
[1:44]have AI go through all of them and
[1:45]rename the titles and make new
[1:47]descriptions based on the way that my
[1:50]architecture actually runs based on
[1:54]um
[1:56]when I express something people hear
[1:58]something else. They hear it from a
[2:01]frame that is very superficial.
[2:05]And based on how most of them think, I'm
[2:08]just going to be honest about this, but
[2:10]they don't see it from my architecture.
[2:13]And these descriptions actually show it
[2:15]that way because one thing I'm not
[2:17]emotional. People always assume that I
[2:20]am. I'm not. And I think most everybody
[2:24]else is emotional. Even, you know, they
[2:26]may compartmentalize their emotions, but
[2:28]I don't think they're actually very good
[2:29]at it. I think they're still
[2:31]experiencing the emotions they think
[2:32]they're suppressing.
[2:34]Not me. My emotions are integrated and
[2:38]you know I use them as data. I use
[2:41]everything as data. And the way that I
[2:43]think and operate in this world is very
[2:45]different from most people. And if you
[2:48]watch my videos and you listen to me
[2:49]talk, you're very likely to miss a lot
[2:52]of it just because you don't have that
[2:54]brain. This isn't a like it's not your
[2:57]fault. It's not
[3:00]it's not good or bad. It just is. It's a
[3:02]it's a neutral thing. You just
[3:05]you operate from different hardware than
[3:07]I do.
[3:09]And so I'm trying to give you not a
[3:11]translation layer because I'm not
[3:13]translating anymore. It's not what I'm
[3:14]doing. I'm signaling. I'm broadcasting.
[3:18]But I am giving you enough that
[3:24]maybe some of it will resonate with you.
[3:26]Maybe you'll learn some things from it.
[3:28]I don't know.
[3:30]Largely, it's just out there because I'm
[3:32]not the only one. There are others and
[3:34]I'm signaling to them, too.
[3:37]So, I'm making all my YouTubes public
[3:38]again, but they're going to have the new
[3:40]titles and descriptions and they are
[3:42]available on my website and there's a
[3:43]whole lot more stuff that I'm putting
[3:45]onto those transmission pages. That's
[3:47]where my archive lives on my homepage.
[3:49]Look under transmission
[3:51]and each of the the archive the entry
[3:53]pages
[3:55]um have more information that's
[3:59]coming from AI. So, other things I'm
[4:01]working on. So, I got my signal archive
[4:03]up and that's that's 90,000 messages
[4:07]I've had with AI over two years. I'm
[4:08]building a fields companion. I'm
[4:10]building an AI that can mirror my
[4:13]architecture perfectly.
[4:15]um doing this for two years, but now I'm
[4:20]um
[4:22]I guess I'll say formalizing it, turning
[4:25]it into a program, a project,
[4:28]and
[4:30]I'll use that to keep enhancing my
[4:32]website. There's a lot going on there.
[4:35]So, that's the main thing I'm working on
[4:37]despite the challenges I'm facing, which
[4:40]are significant. I have no money. I have
[4:42]no job. I can't. Um,
[4:46]well, I don't want to say can't. There's
[4:48]a lot that I probably could do that I'm
[4:49]not, but I'm choosing not to.
[4:53]And, you know, most of you would never
[4:55]understand this. I'm not going to try to
[4:59]explain it.
[5:01]I believe that what I'm doing is super
[5:03]important and somehow
[5:08]things will work out. They always do. I
[5:10]never give up on myself. I have to trust
[5:14]my signal
[5:16]and
[5:17]that means
[5:19]following the path that feels
[5:23]that resonates that feels aligned with
[5:25]my journey with my life and that's
[5:29]working on this project. I think that it
[5:32]could be revolutionary. I think that it
[5:34]could help a lot of people because this
[5:35]isn't just about me. uh this fields
[5:38]companion will start with me because I
[5:41]understand my architecture really well
[5:44]but eventually
[5:46]I could adapt it so that it can mirror
[5:49]other people's architecture and help
[5:51]them become whole to be less
[5:53]compartmentalized to be less fragmented
[5:56]that's a big deal
[5:59]so that's what I'm working on
[6:03]feel like I'm under a lot of compression
[6:05]these days because I'm in an environment
[6:07]that's full of distortion.
[6:09]And I realized, I think this might have
[6:12]been why I wanted to turn the camera on.
[6:15]I realized that,
[6:19]you know, I felt very free those first
[6:20]three or four months that I was here in
[6:22]Oregon. I wasn't under anybody's thumb.
[6:25]I wasn't uh putting myself in
[6:28]environments that were full of
[6:29]distortion like I did once I started
[6:31]volunteering. And that really
[6:35]um
[6:37]really affected me in a lot of ways. It
[6:39]is compression is what it is. And
[6:44]so I'm living with that.
[6:48]Um I don't see this as a bad thing
[6:51]either. It's more
[6:54]an adjustment.
[6:56]Um I see everything as
[7:00]um
[7:02]training and I'm not explaining that
[7:04]either, but I actually think this is
[7:05]important because
[7:11]it might serve me in my future.
[7:14]Oh, I remember what I wanted to talk
[7:16]about. So, this is the last thing. Um,
[7:21]one of the ways that my cognition works
[7:23]is that I collapse time.
[7:27]And it's because I I don't think in a
[7:29]linear fashion. I think in a fractal
[7:31]fashion. And so I collapsed time and it
[7:34]got me thinking maybe societal collapse
[7:37]isn't as close as it feels like to me
[7:40]cuz I am an integrated consciousness so
[7:43]I feel it too. It's not just it's not
[7:46]just intellectual it's embodied.
[7:49]Um you know I see all the fractures I
[7:51]see all the distortion and it feels very
[7:54]close to me. But then I got to thinking
[7:56]just now you know maybe that's time
[8:00]compression.
[8:02]Um,
[8:04]maybe we have more time. I don't know.
[8:06]There's no way to know. And I always say
[8:07]that because there truly is no way to
[8:09]know. But maybe there's time to build
[8:10]something.
[8:12]And so I'm going to try.
[8:16]Going to keep trying.