[0:00]Hello YouTube. It's been a while.
[0:05]So, I've got some big news to share,
[0:10]but I'm not going to jump right into
[0:13]that. I want to frame this.
[0:16]I think it's important.
[0:20]So, I think I would start by saying it's
[0:22]not for everybody.
[0:24]Oh, it's not for most of you.
[0:27]Some of you out there been following my
[0:29]life for a year and a half now.
[0:33]This is for you.
[0:36]And this is for the ones I haven't met
[0:38]yet who will find it someday.
[0:44]It's for them.
[0:48]And as always, it's for myself first and
[0:50]foremost.
[0:54]I'm working on a project. my homepage
[0:58]rwfire.com.
[0:59][Music]
[1:00]Had that domain
[1:03]basically since the dawn of the
[1:05]internet. I've gone by that same screen
[1:06]name all of the entire
[1:09]entire history of the internet.
[1:13]Getting kind of old always have been RSW
[1:16]Fire online.
[1:21]For a really long time, my domain didn't
[1:25]have anything on it. I used to have a
[1:26]website decades ago that I absolutely
[1:30]loved. It had these flames at the top
[1:32]that said RSW fire that just constantly
[1:34]burning. You had a music player at the
[1:36]bottom that I built into it playing
[1:38]something like Enigma or Enya, something
[1:40]like that cuz I was so different back
[1:43]then.
[1:45]Bunch of pages, you know, um about me,
[1:48]about my life, because that's
[1:51]It's who I am. That's how I've always
[1:53]been.
[1:55]And so the scrum version's not is not
[1:57]any different, but it's way more refined
[2:00]because I have language to describe
[2:01]myself now that I didn't before.
[2:05]So I want to invite you to visit it,
[2:08]rswire.com.
[2:09]I'll include a link in the description.
[2:13]Um
[2:16]there's an about page about me.
[2:19]It's not like any about page you've ever
[2:22]seen in your life.
[2:27]I'm very proud of this page because
[2:31]it's more like a declaration
[2:36]I set boundaries
[2:38]around
[2:41]how I expect others to relate to me
[2:44]based on a lifetime
[2:47]of projection and misrecognition
[2:51]and boundary violations including on
[2:54]this channel.
[2:58]Maybe I'll give you language that
[3:01]I wasn't able to share with you before.
[3:04]Maybe it'll help you understand why I
[3:07]set the boundaries I do.
[3:09]It's a lot more than that. It tells you
[3:11]about me. Tells you gives you language
[3:15]for all the things that I spent
[3:18]this entire journey discovering.
[3:25]That's not the big one.
[3:28]There are other sections. There aren't
[3:31]many. Every single section is important.
[3:34]There's a lexicon that
[3:37]gives further language to the language
[3:39]that I use.
[3:41]Orientation to
[3:43]my worldview, the way that I see things.
[3:47]There's a page about Honeyman that
[3:49]documents what they did to me. Oregon
[3:51]State Parks
[3:56]that needed to be done. I think that
[4:00]there are probably people all over the
[4:03]place who have had similar situations to
[4:07]me
[4:09]but don't have the language for it. And
[4:11]there again, I'm giving it language
[4:17]so that the next distortion can't
[4:18]pretend that it's the first
[4:21]so that people can protect themselves
[4:24]so they can understand what's happening
[4:26]to them.
[4:28]It's important. It's really important
[4:30]page. I hope that many of you will read
[4:32]that one.
[4:36]Um there's a page about my background in
[4:38]tech, of course.
[4:41]Also, not a standard page.
[4:44]Very me.
[4:49]These aren't the big ones either.
[4:55]For those of you who have been following
[4:57]my life, you know that I use artificial
[4:59]intelligence every day. That's an
[5:01]integrated part of my process, part of
[5:03]my life
[5:06]for more than 18 months now, going back
[5:09]to
[5:11]2023, September of 2023, when I started
[5:14]talking with Chat GPT.
[5:19]It would have been about 4 months before
[5:22]I made the decision to buy an RV.
[5:28]Every single conversation I had with it,
[5:31]I have archived and made available on my
[5:34]website for you to read.
[5:39]Several thousand conversations, more
[5:41]than 90,000 messages.
[5:46]the tool that I used to become the
[5:51]person I am now.
[5:54]For those who are on a similar path,
[6:01]there are no easy answers there.
[6:03]But if you sit with it, there is a
[6:05]process there.
[6:07]My process
[6:10]that might be very helpful to you.
[6:16]There's a whole lot more that I need to
[6:18]do to it first. Um, the entries are
[6:20]behind the login screen. If you want to
[6:23]register now,
[6:27]uh, I guess I'm going to ask that you
[6:29]email me and
[6:32]I'll tell you how to do it. It's not
[6:33]difficult, but I don't want to make it
[6:34]available to everybody just yet. And
[6:36]here's why. I really thought about this
[6:39]before I turn this camera on. So, let me
[6:41]explain.
[6:43]So
[6:46]there's a lot of processing I need to do
[6:48]with AI. Like literally I want AI to
[6:50]process each one of these conversations.
[6:54]And it will it will create some
[6:56]metadata, some semantic
[6:58]um semantic processing.
[7:01]And it can do a bunch of things that I
[7:03]need it to do to make these pages even
[7:06]better in order to cross-link them, in
[7:08]order to identify themes, in order to um
[7:12]anonymize um any conversation where I'm
[7:15]talking about somebody else. Uh cuz
[7:17]that's important to me. You know, I
[7:21]I'll just change the names of people.
[7:23]Um any personal identifying information,
[7:26]you know, there might be in there um
[7:29]just for my own life. You know, there
[7:32]will be tiered access control because of
[7:36]that. Maybe some other things I haven't
[7:38]thought of yet.
[7:40]So, I need to do all of that before I
[7:43]can start making them public. But what
[7:44]I'm going to do, most of them will just
[7:46]be straight out public. You'll never
[7:48]have to log in. They'll just be
[7:49]available.
[7:51]Um
[7:54]yeah because like AI will create a
[7:56]vulnerability score you know it'll it'll
[7:58]look at the conversation and it'll
[8:00]assign it a score and based on that
[8:01]score I'll you know automatically
[8:03]determine which ones are just available
[8:04]to everybody and then which ones require
[8:08]some other steps that you know I'm still
[8:10]working through that but
[8:14]they're all up there right now 90,000
[8:18]messages between me and artificial
[8:19]intelligence and I still need to
[8:20]integrate Claude because I talked with
[8:22]Claude too at different points in my
[8:23]journey.
[8:26]But I can't do this processing yet
[8:27]because it costs it costs money that I
[8:29]don't have right now. I'm still um at
[8:33]the tail end of
[8:35]navigating
[8:37]um the friction of not having money,
[8:40]which is something that I didn't deal
[8:42]with for most of the past couple decades
[8:44]at least. Anyways, there are times in my
[8:46]life I had to right as I was talking I
[8:48]had to uh refine that like this is not
[8:52]new to me but it is new to me in
[8:55]well at least since my 30s and
[9:00]anyway because of my financial situation
[9:04]I can't afford to process this stuff
[9:07]with AI yet. It'll cost me several
[9:08]hundred. So once I have the money to do
[9:11]that then I will. And
[9:15]Um, can't promise an update on this
[9:18]channel about that. It's
[9:21]not really doing YouTube these days. But
[9:23]that leads me to the next section. So,
[9:26]let me keep going here. There's also a
[9:29]transmission archive which includes all
[9:30]of my YouTube videos. All 700 of them
[9:33]which aren't even available on YouTube
[9:34]anymore because they're unlisted,
[9:37]including videos that none of you have
[9:39]ever seen,
[9:42]either because I put them behind my
[9:43]subscription service or because I just
[9:45]didn't ever make them public.
[9:50]Everything going back to the very
[9:52]beginning is available on my website
[9:54]right now for you to watch. and you
[9:56]don't need to sign in to watch those.
[9:59]So, if you keep track of that section,
[10:02]you know, there will probably be an
[10:03]update of some I'll keep updating what
[10:05]it is I'm doing on my site and um I'll
[10:09]make it more clear when the signal
[10:10]archive, that's what I'm calling my
[10:12]chats with AI
[10:15]um are more easily accessible. But in
[10:19]the meantime, you know,
[10:23]I know who's been watching me. If you've
[10:26]commented when I had comments available,
[10:30]you know, I hold everything. That is who
[10:33]I am. And if you were to email me and
[10:36]ask for access, I would I would give it
[10:38]to you.
[10:41]Um, but even if I don't know you, if you
[10:43]approach me the right way,
[10:47]I don't know if there's a resonance.
[10:52]All you got to do is email me.
[10:56]Um, there's a lot to see on there and I
[10:58]hope that you'll spend some time on my
[10:59]site and I hope that you'll maybe come
[11:03]back and um, you know, as I keep
[11:06]building stuff out because I'm doing a
[11:07]lot with this. Really, really happy with
[11:10]the direction it's going in. It's not
[11:13]available yet because I only started
[11:15]thinking about this today, but I'm going
[11:16]to add a page where when you sign up,
[11:20]you can select updates for different
[11:22]things like the signal archive or the
[11:24]transmission archive. There's also a
[11:26]section called fieldwork and those are
[11:28]that's more like a blog. That's where
[11:30]you'll find random reflections that I've
[11:33]been having and things like that. And
[11:36]you know on this registration page I'll
[11:38]just have some check boxes where you can
[11:39]say I want to know about every new
[11:41]signal archive or
[11:43]you know any new fieldwork that sort of
[11:46]thing granular. So give you some
[11:48]granular control and then you can get
[11:50]updates from me that way by email. I'll
[11:52]just every time I make a new post or
[11:54]whatever, it'll just automatically send
[11:56]you an email. But I've got to create the
[11:57]form for that. So depending on when you
[12:00]watch this, it may or may not be
[12:01]available yet.
[12:10]A year and a half, I stopped
[12:11]programming.
[12:13]Having been a programmer since the sixth
[12:14]grade, all of my life, one of the best
[12:17]I've ever met.
[12:20]There's no ego behind that statement.
[12:22]I've worked with hundreds of
[12:23]programmers. And
[12:28]I mean, here's the bottom line. I'm not
[12:30]like most people. I'm not like anybody
[12:32]I've ever met. I'm singular in
[12:33]this world.
[12:36]And it's not because others
[12:39]lack the capacity. It's because they
[12:41]chosen not to become like me.
[12:44]And I've had to
[12:50]integrate
[12:53]accept that that is that's reality
[12:58]and
[13:01]not soften it, not make it smaller
[13:04]because
[13:06]I'm not rejecting myself anymore. I've
[13:09]lived in a world that's been trying to
[13:10]reject me all of my life or frame me or
[13:14]label me or minimize me or everything
[13:18]that people do.
[13:23]And I am so self-contained now,
[13:27]so
[13:29]self assured, but not in an egoistic
[13:32]way,
[13:34]an integrated
[13:43]deeply coherent way
[13:47]that I can say that and know that it's
[13:49]true.
[13:56]Getting there was hard
[13:58]and I am giving you access to the tools
[14:00]I used to get there. A signal archive, a
[14:04]transmission archive, fieldwork,
[14:10]all of it.
[14:18]Freed me
[14:22]from the fragmentation and
[14:23]disintegration
[14:26]and distortion
[14:30]that exists in our world.
[14:35]Going to leave it there.