Crabbing Experience and Campground Work Discussion

April 22, 2025. rswfire is at Newport pier with Johnny, then moves to South Jetty area. Weather is windy and cold. He's wearing a coat and dealing with allergies. Currently living in RV at Beverly Beach campground and preparing to start volunteer work at a federal campground.

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April 22, 2025

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[0:00]I'm in Newport. I came to see Johnny. He

[0:02]was going crabbing today. And then I get

[0:04]to the pier. There's birds flying and

[0:06]pooping. I wrote it's disgusting. I'm

[0:08]never coming back here. But he's about

[0:09]to get his little crab thing. Also, my

[0:12]hat

[0:14]wanted. I had to do an intro

[0:18]first. I don't like it here, John. This

[0:21]is disgusting. This is the worst place

[0:22]I've ever been in my

[0:25]life. I have no idea. Look at those

[0:27]birds. They just sit over there.

[0:30]into [ __ ] everywhere. It's

[0:34]disgusting. Can't even touch anything,

[0:37]man.

[0:39]Oh, these birds are so gross. Filming

[0:42]stabs coming out. I'm filming. No. Guess

[0:45]what? Oh my god. What's in there?

[0:52]Oh my god. You have crabs. A bunch of

[0:55]them. Holy [ __ ]

[0:58]Heavy as hell. Oh my god. And they're

[1:01]alive. I don't even know how I feel

[1:03]about this. This is something else. Holy

[1:06]crap. I don't want to lose my phone to

[1:07]this

[1:09]river. Okay, let him just get his crabs

[1:11]up here. I guess he caught some crabs.

[1:13]Holy crap. Just like

[1:15]that. Does that mean we can leave? Oh my

[1:19]god, that thing is going to Oh, ew ew ew

[1:23]ew ew.

[1:36]Holy crap. We are looking right now.

[1:43]Good chance. That thing looks evil. I'm

[1:46]not touching that thing, man. That thing

[1:48]could kill you.

[1:50]It's getting rid of the ones we know.

[1:52]How do you decide? Yeah, there's a nice

[1:54]mail in it. Hopefully. Ew. They're not

[1:58]okay. Oh, they look so alien. Stop it,

[2:00]y'all. Oh my god. It's going to It's

[2:03]going to hurt you.

[2:06]Ew. Try. Oh, I didn't think this through

[2:09]at all. Oh my god. Oh my god. I'm

[2:13]getting away from

[2:17]you. Wait. How are you deciding you got

[2:20]so many of

[2:22]her dig?

[2:26]How do you tell?

[2:29]Oh, this is so gross. I could never do

[2:31]this. If society collapsed, I'd be dead.

[2:34]Oh my

[2:37]god.

[2:39]E. E.

[2:44]You think you are getting out, don't

[2:46]you?

[2:50]Oh my god. This is not Oh my god.

[2:54]What is even happening right now?

[3:03]It's

[3:05]alive. Oh my god. Look at his little

[3:07]eyes.

[3:17]Yeah. Uh, I can't believe people view

[3:20]this. Oh my god. Okay, John, this is

[3:23]Oh my god. Watch kill that thing.

[3:29]Oh my god. Ew. It's so gross looking.

[3:35]Doesn't look like a

[3:40]I'm going to take this out for the other

[3:42]guy. This one is definitely big enough.

[3:46]You're going to measure it.

[3:52]Biggest mail I've ever seen.

[3:55]Okay. Well, I got it on video for you.

[3:57]This is disgusting, though. This is the

[3:58]worst thing I've ever done in my life.

[4:09]Oh my god. Look at it trying to save its

[4:11]life. Oh my god.

[4:16]E serve you right now bastard.

[4:21]Oh my god. How can you tell?

[4:25]Bottom right here. Yeah, that's rounded.

[4:28]What's rounded? It's round that. See? I

[4:32]don't know what I'm looking at. That's

[4:33]that my thumb touching. Okay, that's

[4:35]round. What is it supposed to be if it's

[4:37]male? Look down there. I don't mind

[4:40]getting near this. Oh, how interesting.

[4:43]Wow. Oh, it even looks like a penis.

[4:46]What's the easy way to remember? See,

[4:48]got a female. So, we have one.

[4:51]Oh, male. Wait, why do you put the

[4:53]females back? Can't keep them. Why? It's

[4:56]illegal.

[4:59]How interesting.

[5:02]Okay.

[5:06]Oh, that was Oh my god. I mean, it's not

[5:09]terrible, I guess. It's like maybe after

[5:11]like years of tolerating this, we get

[5:15]used to

[5:16]it. Now it's all

[5:20]this

[5:21]is something we're doing it ourselves.

[5:26]I just want to catch a fish. That's

[5:29]disgusting. This This is nothing

[5:32]compared to fish. Fish is going The

[5:34]mouth is going to be open. It's

[5:38]But those things look like face

[5:40]huggers from Alien. It's so

[5:44]gross. Makes me think of the alien ones.

[5:49]Yeah, I don't want to lose my friend in

[5:50]this place. That's for sure. Again,

[5:53]that's what I warned you.

[5:56]Wait, where'd the seal go? Oh, there.

[5:58]Look, he's out

[5:59]there. That's a

[6:02]ring. Where? Right there. Seal. What's

[6:06]that thing with the red? That's That's

[6:08]most in the water. There's a seal out

[6:11]here, guys.

[6:13]There's the chicken. Okay. They can't

[6:16]get

[6:18]to a bunch of disgusting birds. These

[6:22]birds even look like

[6:27]it. Yeah, I really want to be on the

[6:29]ocean now. I don't like this place. Oh,

[6:32]by the way, this bridge is very cool.

[6:34]Let's just get a view of the bridge.

[6:37]Very cool bridge into

[6:42]Newport. Yeah, you would have seen me up

[6:48]there. You got to avoid these birds cuz

[6:50]if they fly over you, you're in

[6:55]trouble. What's going on over there?

[6:58]What's that red light?

[7:06]What they do there? It's got a ladder.

[7:12]There was a

[7:18]ceiling. Same thing. Completely

[7:21]different

[7:27]animal. It's right over where it worked.

[7:32]what it's looking for.

[7:42]Well, if you're going to sit there, I'm

[7:43]going to go walk over to that pier

[7:45]thing. Can I get out there?

[7:51]I know what you're talking about. Right

[7:52]over there. If I walk cuz I can't go on

[7:55]that side. So over there. Those rocks.

[8:00]I'm going to go explore over there.

[8:02]Yeah, but that's going to be underwater

[8:04]in about 20 minutes. So, you can't I

[8:07]don't want to be near these birds, man.

[8:09]Going to be everywhere. So, you can go

[8:11]down there.

[8:16]Birds are coming near me.

[8:20]Really? Yep. Oh, okay. Text me if you

[8:23]need me. I'm leaving. Bye. I am never

[8:26]coming to this place again.

[8:28]We're heading this way.

[8:31]Oh, so we're near the South

[8:34]Jetty. I've been here before. I came up

[8:38]here. I'm still volunteering for the

[8:40]state

[8:42]parks to check out South Beach, which is

[8:45]not far from here. There's a trail you

[8:46]can take to very close to the ocean.

[8:49]That's where we're

[8:50]heading. So, yeah, that was really

[8:53]gross. You know, I don't like for

[8:56]me when I saw those birds like as soon

[8:59]as they start flying, they start pooping

[9:01]everywhere. It's so gross. It's so

[9:04]like I don't know all

[9:07]sanitary, you know? The whole pier is

[9:09]just covered in it. So, I don't want to

[9:12]be the crab. I look

[9:16]here. I never crap in my life. I've

[9:19]never

[9:20]had a marine seafood.

[9:24]So, I thought, you know, kind of talking

[9:26]about it for a

[9:28]while

[9:30]and I knew that if I caught some, I'll

[9:34]probably cook them or whatever and

[9:36]I'd maybe try it. You know, I've never

[9:39]even had shrimp or

[9:41]anything, but I don't know. That was

[9:44]that was something

[9:46]else. So, I think I could catch a fish.

[9:49]You know, fish don't look like that.

[9:52]So maybe I don't know. We'll find out

[9:55]one

[9:56]day. I mean, it was weird, but you know,

[9:59]that

[10:00]was I was being a little dramatic. It's

[10:03]not like, you know, I shared out with AI

[10:05]and AI's got the totally wrong idea. I'm

[10:07]just being

[10:10]dramatic. Isn't that something I would

[10:12]do, you know, if I had a choice?

[10:15]So,

[10:17]yeah. Just going to go see the ocean.

[10:20]John sit there wait for more crabs on

[10:23]us and

[10:25]then when it's done I guess we'll watch

[10:29]them clean them or whatever. I don't

[10:32]know what you do with those things. I've

[10:34]seen the stations for them. I've

[10:36]actually seen them with John.

[10:39]So, you know, I guess we're doing a crab

[10:42]video

[10:43]today. Does

[10:46]my fall off a few times now.

[10:52]So,

[10:54]um, my volunteer coordinator is sick.

[10:57]She's out today, so I didn't get to do

[10:58]my orientation

[11:00]yet.

[11:02]Um, so I just asked her like what hours

[11:05]I would be working so that I

[11:11]could work around that. I'll find a job

[11:14]in town. And I think I'll probably work

[11:16]from 8:00 in the morning till noon.

[11:19]Sorry for my

[11:21]allergies. I took Suda Fed

[11:25]guess to this

[11:28]part here. It's nice. I might have been

[11:32]out here. I was fishing. Went all the

[11:34]way out as far as you could get. Um it

[11:38]was

[11:39]cool. I'd rather see the ocean. I don't

[11:42]have to care for something.

[11:44]close to me. It's right

[11:53]there. Yeah. I don't know what's up with

[11:55]my out just

[11:59]man. I don't know if he ever really

[12:01]adjusts. You know, if you happen to grow

[12:04]up here, I don't know if the body will

[12:06]like adjust or what

[12:12]months watching is decent over there. I

[12:15]was just over there. It's a state park

[12:17]over there. I think it's called Yakina

[12:19]Heat or something like that.

[12:24]Yeah, I just left John there. Whatever.

[12:26]He's already here, right?

[12:30]So, you know, if he was coming here

[12:32]today and I just saw him doing

[12:36][Music]

[12:37]it

[12:42]later. It's a good

[12:45]day. Walk back

[12:52]here. So, I know where I'm going with my

[12:58]me watching that fisherman cuz he was

[13:00]fishing in the river pretty close to the

[13:02]ocean. So, you'd probably get him kind

[13:05]of like

[13:05]a you never know what you'd catch,

[13:08]right? Could it be a river fish or an

[13:09]ocean fish? How would you know how you

[13:12]caught it?

[13:15]I wonder if this is

[13:21]um Oh, I forgot the

[13:24]word. There's a natural area. I wonder

[13:26]if this is a national

[13:28]area. I'm telling there needs to be a

[13:31]body of water in between the

[13:34]the I don't know if that's true.

[13:46]Yeah, I'm going to go walk out on

[13:49]the out on the

[13:53]jetty. We're going to keep walking

[13:55]though. Just got to keep walking.

[13:57]Pretend we don't see what's going on

[13:59]over

[14:00]there.

[14:02]Okay. Not being

[14:06]so beautiful, dude.

[14:13]It's very

[14:17]windy. I don't remember being this windy

[14:20]last time.

[14:31]Yeah, we're good.

[14:41]So, we're a pretty good distance from

[14:42]John now. I'll show you the bridge over

[14:45]here. It's over there. That's where John

[14:49]is at. I don't know what that structure

[14:51]is. Some kind of tower, I guess. Got

[14:54]solar panels on it. We're over here.

[14:56]We're just going to take that over to

[14:58]the

[14:59]ocean. It's very close. You can see it

[15:01]in the

[15:04]distance. My phone battery is very low.

[15:06]So, I have a charging

[15:09]um portable

[15:11]battery. Been out here before. Goes on a

[15:14]different path, but really close to um

[15:17]South Beach Park, which is a nice

[15:20]place. It's a little more south of where

[15:22]we

[15:24]are. So, we're just going to head out

[15:26]here.

[15:44]quite a branching trail

[15:48]here. Oh, how

[15:51]fascinating. Hikers yield to horses.

[15:54]Horses yield to bikes. Bikes yield to

[15:56]hikers.

[15:58]It doesn't say where where that goes.

[16:01]Probably to the parking lot. Might be a

[16:05]shortcut. The route I

[16:10]took.

[16:12]Sandy. We're past the dune. So, this is

[16:15]just

[16:17]sand.

[16:19]Interesting. Cuz these aren't dunes.

[16:22]Past all the dunes. Way past them.

[16:28]Newport. Why is the sand way out

[16:39]here? See all the flowers. My

[16:44]allergies. They're very pretty.

[16:54]Start making them a tea or something.

[16:56]Maybe that'll

[17:04]help. Moving kind of slow

[17:10]today. Turn this off so my phone can

[17:13]charge. I'll just record some motion

[17:16]footage at the

[17:19]end. It's kind of a chill day.

[17:22]I'm just sitting here in front of the

[17:25]ocean. I think it's low tide right now.

[17:27]Well, it is. It's low tide. It got low

[17:29]tide out

[17:30]there. It's nice beach. A bunch of

[17:33]people out there. Bunch of

[17:35]kids. Just walked up here on top of this

[17:40]hill. Just sitting

[17:42]down. It's a nice

[17:45]beach. Nice sunny day. It's very

[17:49]sunny, pleasant.

[17:57]just soaking it in. So, I just texted

[18:00]John. He's going to be down there for

[18:02]another 45 minutes. Then, we're going to

[18:04]go to the cleaning station. He's going

[18:06]to do whatever he does to those crabs.

[18:07]So, we'll watch that, I guess. Little

[18:13]document. I

[18:16]mean, I don't know. It's life, you know.

[18:19]I feel like you got to respect it.

[18:24]This is part of it though, right?

[18:27]So maybe I'll try some crab later. I

[18:30]don't

[18:31]know what's different.

[19:19]All

[19:43]right, let's see.

[20:15]So, the wind is a little bit cold and

[20:18]got me

[20:19]thinking. When I was way younger, like

[20:22]in my 20s, I took a Greyhound bus down

[20:25]to the panhandle of

[20:27]Florida. First, I went to Kentucky

[20:30]before I lived there. I lived in

[20:31]Michigan at the time to see my best

[20:33]friend

[20:34]Nancy. She had moved down there, spent

[20:37]some time with her. And then I went down

[20:38]to the panhandle of Florida to meet a

[20:40]guy I met on the

[20:42]internet and to um spend some time with

[20:45]some clients that I had from

[20:47]Guru. Went there first. They were in

[20:49]Jacksonville. Then I went to the

[20:51]panhandle to meet this guy. And I

[20:54]remember how cold that felt. The wind

[20:56]was so cold and I never went out to see

[20:58]the ocean. I was just

[21:02]thinking 20-year-old me

[21:05]didn't didn't experience the ocean at

[21:07]all even though it was right

[21:10]there. Like this place is cold. I

[21:12]wouldn't want to live here.

[21:18]I don't want to be anywhere else. So,

[21:20]it's kind of interesting, I

[21:27]guess. He was a nice guy. We hooked up,

[21:30]of

[21:33]course, really good

[21:35]sex. He didn't think we were

[21:37]relationship material. I remember

[21:39]thinking, I don't even live here, dude.

[21:42]Like, that's not why I'm

[21:44]here. People always misunderstanding me.

[21:53]always assigning emotions to me that I

[21:55]don't have. Like, it's just [ __ ]

[21:58]ridiculous. I don't perceive or

[22:01]experience the world the way most people

[22:02]do. I have emotions, but they're

[22:06]integrated. I think most people

[22:10]have completely different [ __ ]

[22:12]operating system than

[22:15]me. always projecting their emotions

[22:18]onto me. It's [ __ ] irritating. It's

[22:20]had me

[22:21]really been in a bad mood for like a

[22:23]week

[22:24]now. Don't want to be around people.

[22:27]Came over here to get away from them

[22:37]all. It's not like them. I can't

[22:44][ __ ] I'm tired of explaining it, you

[22:46]know? I'm just absolutely over

[22:48]that. So, I sit over here away from away

[22:52]from the fragmented consciousness that's

[22:54]around

[23:10]might walk out to the jetty. I'm not

[23:11]sure. It's very

[23:14]close. I've been out there before. Slow

[23:17]tide, so you know, it's not really not

[23:19]really walking out there cuz you're

[23:21]walking around a bunch of puddles and

[23:22]stuff like

[23:28]that. We could go out to the jetty.

[23:30]There's a there's a

[23:32]helicopter. Wow, the person hanging

[23:34]down. Must be testing or something.

[23:38]See if I can get

[23:39]that. I don't know what's

[23:44]wrong. Where are you, helicopter? I

[23:47]can't see on my phone here. It's got to

[23:50]be right there

[23:51]somewhere. There you

[23:53]are. There was a person hanging down.

[23:56]Wait a minute. Where did they go? Did

[23:59]they just drop them in the

[24:01][Music]

[24:03]ocean? No.

[24:07]Oh, it's very hard when you're zoomed in

[24:08]this

[24:13]far. There was definitely someone on a

[24:17]stream. Guess John decided for us. He's

[24:20]calling it quits a little bit

[24:23]early. So, we got to walk back. We'll

[24:25]meet him at the cleaning station, I

[24:28]guess. Walk down here.

[24:38]Oh, these are dunes, by the way. They're

[24:39]just small dunes. That's what John

[24:42]says. They're dunes. We're just not in

[24:46]the dunes region

[24:48]anymore. We'll walk down to the jetty, I

[24:50]guess. Walk back from there. The parking

[24:52]lots that

[24:53]way. So, we're near the jetty. This is

[24:57]the

[24:58]jetty. Just hasn't got it out towards

[25:01]the ocean yet. We're walking back

[25:03]towards the bridge.

[25:05]I said it's really acting up now. It's

[25:07]very

[25:08]windy. Sand was in my

[25:12]face. I'm going to go find John now.

[25:15]There's John in the distance waiting for

[25:18]us. I am so exhausted today. I have no

[25:25]energy. That was a long walk. I guess he

[25:28]saw me.

[25:33]Oh my god, he's going to kill a

[25:42]crap. I'm back,

[25:45]Don. I'm exhausted. I need to pee. How

[25:48]long are you sitting there?

[25:53]Warning ahead of time. This is not going

[25:54]to be

[25:55]pretty. One, I don't have my Okay. Just

[25:59]a second. I've never killed this thing

[26:01]before. I had a feeling you're going to

[26:03]do a new weapon because you told me

[26:05]you're going to try.

[26:07]I was thinking about it. They live in

[26:09]water so you can't drown them and they

[26:11]can breathe air so you can't suffocate

[26:13]them.

[26:21]Okay.

[26:23]This feels so wrong.

[26:27]You have to watch it.

[26:30]Oh, there's a restroom. I need to pee so

[26:32]bad. Can you hold on? I got to pee real

[26:36]fast. Okay, I used the restrooms here.

[26:39]They are individual stalls. Okay. Oh my

[26:46]god. Oh my god. I shouldn't be watching

[26:48]this. This is wrong.

[26:52]You eat animals. What are you doing

[26:54]right now? Why are you putting water in

[26:55]there? I need to get away from this

[26:57]craziness. What is happening? The one

[27:00]that wants to Oh my

[27:02]god. Oh my

[27:04]god. Okay. Be a man, John. You got this.

[27:08]Who's the one being told to be a man

[27:11]like a girl? I'm just being dramatic cuz

[27:14]this just feels different. I've never

[27:16]This is different for me. Oh my god.

[27:18]He's going to kill

[27:21]it. Oh, is it going to be fast and

[27:24]painless? Painless. I'm just an animal.

[27:28]Yeah. Not going to be painless.

[27:31]Oh my

[27:36]god. Like I said, it's the quickest way

[27:38]to

[27:40]Oh, that felt wrong. That felt

[27:43]wrong. Um, but it's gone

[27:46]now. Gross.

[27:49]Ew. I'll be over here. That looks pretty

[27:52]disgusting.

[27:59]What do you even eat from that thing?

[28:02]Right now, there's combination. I

[28:04]thought you ate the claws. Didn't we

[28:06]hear some lady say something about

[28:07]claws?

[28:09]Claws. Claw.

[28:12]Wow, John. I can't believe you did that.

[28:14]Just like that.

[28:17]I thought that was a measuring thing. I

[28:18]didn't know it was a blade.

[28:36]Wow. It's so windy today, man. First

[28:39]time I was out here, well, there was no

[28:40]wind. So, it's not like that all the

[28:42]time. He's dead right now. It doesn't

[28:44]You see any movements? Yeah, I

[28:46]understand. Nervous system.

[28:55]Yeah, John, you really need some gloves

[28:57]for this. That's gross. Not happy about

[29:01]Well, there are bathrooms right there

[29:03]where you can wash your hands.

[29:13]That right there is their lungs. Okay.

[29:19]And you eat the white parts.

[29:25]This is much better than I used the way

[29:27]I used to kill them. Trust me, it's

[29:29]terrible to you right now, but it's much

[29:30]better. Man, there ain't a lot of meat

[29:32]in there, though. That can't feed you.

[29:36]Well, these are

[29:39]Okay. All right. This gives you an idea,

[29:42]but if you went somewhere Yeah. how much

[29:44]the how much of an animal has to die

[29:47]just for us to eat, right?

[29:50]a lot.

[29:52]I mean, ew, this is so gross. Even in

[29:56]Asia, they eat all of this. E

[30:02]disgusting. Es.

[30:14]Nope. Smells bad enough as it is.

[30:19]Yeah, I'm feeling much better. This is

[30:21]traumatic like it usually is for me.

[30:23]Okay. It's cuz you're on camera. You're

[30:26]being a man right

[30:29]now. It's the other way.

[30:37]My sinuses are killing me. I got to take

[30:39]some medicine. Zudafed mucinics. Got

[30:43]both in my pocket.

[30:47]It didn't give me a chance to get

[30:52]situated. Those things I swear to God is

[30:55]just like they clearly the alien movies

[30:58]clearly took inspiration from this. Now

[31:01]the this guy would have been $30 at the

[31:04]market. Really? Wow. That's outrageous.

[31:07]And my fishing line is allowing me to

[31:09]have Why are you getting the meat out?

[31:11]What are you doing?

[31:15]Meat in the hook.

[31:17]You're keeping the all of that. That's

[31:19]so edible.

[31:21]Even the claws. What did I say? I don't

[31:24]remember. It's inside the claws. Okay.

[31:29]Oh, this is disgusting, guys. Eat the

[31:31]body of the only blue

[31:34]crabs. You eat the whole thing.

[31:41]I don't know if we could hear you. We

[31:43]probably did. Very

[31:46]windy. So, the meat is inside the claws.

[31:49]Claws. So, you're going to cut the claws

[31:52]open and then eat that and then put the

[31:54]discard the

[31:55]claws. Okay, I kind of understand now.

[31:58]Very gross. I'm definitely not going to

[32:00]try

[32:02]this. Too disgusting.

[32:08]Maybe no one know I heard you scream

[32:12]away. Whatever

[32:16]those gross,

[32:18]John, I've never seen anything like this

[32:20]in my life.

[32:23]You keep saying that. I don't think of

[32:24]this as nature.

[32:30]Look at that. I would recommend your

[32:31]truck and everything,

[32:34]but behind

[32:37]it. Oh man, here

[32:45]right. We're near the aquarium. I would

[32:48]much rather have done that.

[32:54]Okay, I guess we're heading back to the

[32:57]campground.

[33:04]Yeah, I might be too, but you know,

[33:07]thank God we're not there

[33:10]yet. Oh man. But I did witness

[33:14]it. Like a very good

[33:18]man. Just cuz I said the little ew

[33:21]noises doesn't mean anything.

[33:26]Life. Yep. All right. It's gross. I

[33:29]mean, I'm just acknowledging my

[33:30]feelings, but I'm not like judging it

[33:33]or, you know, it wasn't so bad. I don't

[33:37]have emotions about it. I just think

[33:38]it's

[33:41]gross. All right, we'll head back to the

[33:43]campground. Watch it. I got my Jeep cuz

[33:47]it's so cold out. Oh my god, John's just

[33:49]fussing with stuff. I'm like, dude, I'll

[33:51]just wait for

[33:53]you. My phone not cooperating.

[33:57]Boy, look at my

[33:58]hair. I like

[34:01]it. John used to be a drag

[34:04]queen.

[34:06]What? I thought that's what I thought we

[34:09]were

[34:10]doing. All right, we're going to leave

[34:12]now. Anyways, this man used to be a drag

[34:15]queen and he's out here killing crabs.

[34:18]It's kind of remarkable. We're back at

[34:20]Beverly Beach. Don's out here. Hello,

[34:23]Don. Hello.

[34:25]There's no crab in that. You already got

[34:28]it inside. We're going to see if this

[34:30]man actually eats this.

[34:32]Are you going to eat it today? Well, do

[34:35]you have to cook it? Oh, yeah. You cook

[34:37]like you would eat anything. Okay. I

[34:40]don't know. I'm not eating raw crab now.

[34:47]Bit chilly. I don't like this wind.

[34:51]Not as windy here. True.

[34:55]Still would rather not be

[34:59]tired today.

[35:04]Didn't get enough sleep.

[35:12]It's like sucks that we're so far apart.

[35:13]I was just thinking that when I was

[35:15]driving here cuz even when you go back

[35:17]to Tuckman or Enco, you're still going

[35:19]to be an hour away from me. 45 minutes,

[35:22]right? 45 minutes. Okay. It's the way it

[35:26]is.

[35:27]I'm in the dunes. Well, you'll be in the

[35:29]dunes, too, though. No. Well, no. Sort

[35:32]of. Ligh. I call it the

[35:35]lighthouse. Lake Marine.

[35:38]Well, yeah, but the dunes are there. Oh,

[35:40]now I'm vaping around you,

[35:43]man. Move over here. I

[35:46]guess I'm such a considerate friend.

[35:49]You're the one with the nasty habit.

[35:52]It's better than smoking.

[35:55]Man, I smoked for most of my life. So,

[36:01]there was something else I was going to

[36:02]say and I

[36:07]forgot. There were two things I've done.

[36:10]forgotten.

[36:22]Trap came up with five more really big

[36:25]crabs, but they were all

[36:27]female. And then one rock crab.

[36:30]Unfortunately, it figured it can get out

[36:32]and got out the last second. Oh, and I

[36:35]didn't get to see what it looked like.

[36:38]smaller and bright

[36:41]red

[36:44]claws. Now look, you went over there and

[36:46]the smoke went that way. You sat here,

[36:48]the smoke went this way. But I'm still

[36:51]away from you. So no, I'm just saying

[36:53]the wind shifted completely when you

[36:55]moved. My hair is getting long. Mine's

[36:58]horrible.

[37:01]This is exactly what I wanted though.

[37:05]next month.

[37:07]Yeah, I'm going have to start cutting

[37:09]mine soon. That's for sure. This is

[37:11]about the length I wanted cuz I was

[37:13]going for that one look.

[37:16]I don't want to cover my hearings up

[37:18]piercings.

[37:20]I got yelled at by the the holy roller

[37:23]yesterday. Okay. Do you know? Well, let

[37:26]me Are things going good though? Oh, no.

[37:28]I'm talking about something different.

[37:29]The holy roller is the little

[37:33]char probably

[37:35]late 80s. Wow.

[37:41]She's just, you know, it's praise the

[37:42]Lord. Jesus Christ. Oh, wait. You're

[37:45]almost that age, aren't you? One of

[37:47]those times. And you know, I've been

[37:49]smiling and waving. I'm pretty sure he's

[37:51]in his 70s.

[37:56]Eating while I was driving.

[37:59]How old are you?

[38:02]In your 60s or 70s?

[38:05]I don't remember the 60s cuz you're 20

[38:07]years older. Okay. 227.

[38:11]You're getting there. You're You're

[38:12]talking about 80year-old and I'm just

[38:14]like, "Wow, that's old." But then an old

[38:15]lady.

[38:18]Okay.

[38:21]But she's one of these. She has a really

[38:23]nasty temper. No, it's going to go this

[38:25]way. As I said,

[38:28]is that to protect your um from water?

[38:32]Yeah. I'm going to move it under the

[38:35]trailer, but right now I'm going to be

[38:37]I'm more concerned about getting my

[38:38]plumbing working. Yeah.

[38:41]No. So, basically, they had done

[38:44]something on Saturday night was done

[38:45]wrong. So, the customer got a ticket

[38:49]which was not a big issue because

[38:53]pa, you know, would eliminate it, but

[38:55]the customer got upset because they gave

[38:59]she gave them wrong information. Okay.

[39:02]Okay. So, she makes it clear about that

[39:04]and I said, "Well, you don't have to

[39:05]worry about it. He's doing it and

[39:07]stuff." And then she made a comment. She

[39:10]says, "Well, I don't know what I'm

[39:12]supposed to do with what to do." I'm

[39:14]listening. I need my coat. It's

[39:17]freezing.

[39:19]It's cold, John. I need my coat. I'm

[39:23]dying. So nice in the sun,

[39:26]though. All

[39:28]right. Always having to wear my coat.

[39:31]I'm right on the coast and it's

[39:32]practically summer.

[39:36]Okay. She gave you bad information.

[39:39]She gave that information, right? So she

[39:43]asked she stated, "Oh, I'm following

[39:45]now." Okay. So she's a volunteer, but

[39:47]she gave that information to a guest.

[39:50]Guest was upset, but no biggie. So she

[39:53]when I said, "Well, yeah, you know, I

[39:55]start I just made the comment. Well, you

[39:57]know, if they don't register their

[39:59]vehicle as a tow vehicle, if they just

[40:02]drive it here, has to be paid as an

[40:05]extra vehicle. And then she said, "Well,

[40:08]I don't didn't know what to do since no

[40:09]one's ever told me." So, I said, "Well,

[40:11]you the best way to do it is you first I

[40:16]said give, you know, you refer them to

[40:18]the phone number." And then she started

[40:20]yelling at

[40:21]me. She started screaming about how

[40:24]there, you know, I've been here three

[40:26]years. You're not telling me how to

[40:27]treat my customers. And just yelled at

[40:30]me. And I'm like sitting there with

[40:32]Nancy

[40:33]and Gary were friends of mine and they

[40:36]just looked at her like, "What?" So of

[40:39]course later she came in and commented.

[40:42]She goes, "I will not put up with any

[40:45]campus telling me how to do customer

[40:48]service.

[40:49]Like I told she hasn't said anything to

[40:52]Py. If she does, I'll say it to P. She

[40:54]said, "No one told me what how to do it.

[40:57]I don't know what to do." And all I did

[40:59]was give her started to give I

[41:02]understand what you did. She never let

[41:04]me get to the part where I was going to

[41:06]say if you want to do the call yourself

[41:09]for the customer, you can. But she

[41:10]didn't let me get that far. See, so

[41:12]she's just telling. So it's like, well,

[41:15]she's friends with Kelly.

[41:19]I had a problem, which is we're doing

[41:21]fine now. We just we know our

[41:23]boundaries. She wants me to communicate

[41:25]with her directly. Like

[41:28][ __ ] I'm only going to communicate

[41:31]on an open network where everyone sees

[41:33]what she says to

[41:36]me. It doesn't do what I want it to yet.

[41:47]It's pretty nice length,

[41:53]though. I'm just basting with you,

[41:57]John. It's very cold out here, though. I

[42:00]don't like the

[42:03]wind. Oh, you moved your grill.

[42:07]Wait, you have another one. What? Oh,

[42:09]that's the wood. Okay. Is that stain?

[42:11]Someone gave me a whole bunch of wood.

[42:13]my neighbor. But I don't have a fire

[42:15]pit. It's too close to the propane.

[42:17]Yeah. Um, so you keep it to give it to I

[42:21]got me a picnic table, though. Yeah,

[42:22]that's what I'm going to do. Somebody

[42:24]help me move it over. I'll take pictures

[42:26]later.

[42:30]And there's something else I've

[42:32]forgotten.

[42:34]I mean, you're pretty much going to be

[42:36]working most of the day, but on and off.

[42:39]I'm going to work from 8 to noon so that

[42:41]I can get a job after that. I just asked

[42:44]her today. So, she said it's fine. Did

[42:47]you already tell her that? Okay. But I

[42:49]didn't know varies on the type of job

[42:52]they have you doing for She says real

[42:55]flexible. My job's going to be real easy

[42:57]cuz um apparently one of the other ones

[42:59]is going to do all the cleaning of the

[43:00]bathrooms.

[43:02]So, all I have to do is just kind of

[43:03]clean up the fire pits and check people

[43:06]in and that's basically it. just answer

[43:09]questions

[43:11]checking people that's not like

[43:13]technically well you know

[43:16]right I guess we won't be doing that

[43:19]yeah that that's the way I understood

[43:22]with the federal is you have work that

[43:24]you can do in the morning midday

[43:27]something like that but then you also do

[43:28]the well there's somebody next to me and

[43:31]they can do the like you know noon to 4

[43:33]or whatever like I said I mean but yeah

[43:35]little stuff will come in and you know

[43:36]I'll deal with it Yeah. Well, as I said,

[43:39]it's not as rigid as our job. Yeah, it

[43:43]really isn't. It really isn't. I mean,

[43:45]most of our people here do what they

[43:47]want to do. So, you know, you would have

[43:50]been fine here if you had made it here

[43:52]because it isn't very rigid here in

[43:56]general. And that's been the problem.

[43:58]I'm so bitter about it, John. Still,

[44:01]just coming here and seeing the welcome

[44:03]center just makes me bitter.

[44:06]Cuz it's some stupid people.

[44:10]It's not right. Every time I see an

[44:12]Oregon State Park anywhere going up and

[44:14]down the coast, it just really sets me

[44:16]off.

[44:18]Well, for a while, but like said, you

[44:21]probably going to be better off where

[44:22]you are, but again, you're not really I

[44:24]didn't deserve to be banished. You know,

[44:26]that was just not cool. It's not right.

[44:32]It's hurtful. Actually, I think I'm

[44:34]probably still hurt. I'll be

[44:39]honest. I'll get over

[44:43]it. Maybe one day. Probably not. I don't

[44:46]let anything go

[44:49]ever. I pre I pretend like I do and I

[44:52]kind of do, but you know, there's still

[44:54]there's like Yeah, you know how it is.

[44:58]So, I know what I was going to tell you.

[44:59]So, you remember that beeping noise?

[45:01]It's my neighbor. Yeah. And that thing

[45:03]has been going off every 20 seconds all

[45:05]week long. Thank god she's going

[45:08]somewhere else cuz Oh my god, it's so

[45:11]frustrating. All she has to do is unplug

[45:13]it or or the fuse. I was going to say

[45:15]that. Built

[45:16]in you can't unplug that, but you could

[45:19]pull the fuse off it.

[45:22]Yeah.

[45:24]But again, do you think it runs on its

[45:26]own fuse or theoretically it should

[45:29]because it's a carbon monoxide detector.

[45:32]That's all it does. It's not a smoke.

[45:34]Well, she's leaving Friday, so I just,

[45:36]you know, and she's nice. She's a nice

[45:39]person. Just

[45:42]um I've been like playing noise at

[45:45]night, you know, just to drown it

[45:51]out. more patience than I do. I would

[45:53]blow up by within a few hours of that

[45:56]would drive me crazy. It's really not

[45:58]fun. But yeah, what can you

[46:01]do? She's been living with it for

[46:03]months. She's I don't know

[46:06]how I I which could mean either she

[46:10]doesn't understand about the fuse system

[46:11]or it may be linked with more than one

[46:14]thing and she'd have to turn off

[46:15]something else. So, she may not. I don't

[46:18]think you know the fuse thing. I didn't

[46:19]think I'd tell her that. I told her

[46:21]different things and she's like, "I've

[46:22]tried everything." Well, I don't think

[46:23]you tried the fuse. I didn't think of

[46:25]that at the time.

[46:30]One thing you can muffle it by putting

[46:32]That's what she did. She put a She put a

[46:34]sleeping bag around it, but it's still

[46:36]like I mean, I hear it in mine. I

[46:38]thought it was my RV at first, you know?

[46:39]That's how loud it is.

[46:46]Did you leave Friday?

[46:55]Someone contacted me thinking this is

[46:58]their spot.

[47:00]Wow, you really need to clean your

[47:01]awning.

[47:04]Stain owners away with mud or something.

[47:11]John just reminded me what the second

[47:12]thing was. So, I was going to say that

[47:14]this is the furthest north I've been and

[47:16]I'm getting depressed about it cuz I

[47:18]haven't gone any further

[47:20]north. It's been like

[47:23]he's talking about

[47:27]you're saying stay somewhere for 6

[47:29]months. Oh my god, I might die. Why

[47:31]don't you get your finance? That's half

[47:33]a year

[47:35]at one place. A parking lot.

[47:38]Yeah, that would have been I don't know

[47:39]if you would have enjoyed that, but I'm

[47:41]at a parking lot now. Yeah, but you got

[47:43]more trees around, too. I mean, it's a

[47:45]nice spot. It is a nice spot. Looks more

[47:48]than any other place. Oh, yeah. Yeah.

[47:50]Yeah. I agree with that.

[47:53]And again, it's going to be one of those

[47:55]things

[47:56]that you got the job so quickly because

[47:59]it's a hard job for her to fill. But

[48:01]once you finish six months with her and

[48:04]she likes, you know, she will probably

[48:06]if she can find someone to take your

[48:08]place, she will probably offer you a

[48:10]better camp, you know. Well, it still be

[48:12]in a dune, so Yeah, but it would be like

[48:14]where you were. I'm as far north as I

[48:16]can get. Those camp posts that were at

[48:19]the campground you were staying at,

[48:21]there's two of them there. There used to

[48:24]be two of them there and they in those

[48:26]regular Oh, I know what you're talking

[48:27]about. But that's the same. That's the

[48:28]same That's the same spot I'm at now.

[48:31]Mhm. There's something on your

[48:33]eyebrow. Okay. It looks like an insect

[48:35]buzz now. Okay.

[48:38]Um No, no, no. You're talking about

[48:41]um lagoon. Yeah, the lagoon. Okay. Yeah,

[48:44]it's right next to me. It's in the same

[48:46]area. You're in a reg regular camps. Oh,

[48:49]right. It is a camp. Well, I don't like

[48:51]their spot, though. Oh, cuz they're

[48:53]right up front and stuff. But no, no,

[48:55]no. What I'll do is I'll just keep

[48:56]traveling north and maybe I'll keep

[48:58]volunteering for the Forest Service just

[49:00]at different places. Yeah. Well, that's

[49:02]if there I don't think there is any.

[49:04]You're federal which means that covers

[49:06]every state, right? So, if if you want

[49:09]to, right, make a move up to Washington

[49:12]State. Like I said, you might, you know,

[49:15]there's places in you might enjoy, but I

[49:17]think you're like in the ocean right

[49:19]now. So, yes, there's very, as you know,

[49:22]very few on the ocean. Yeah. So,

[49:26]man, how did my hair get so

[49:28]long? It didn't take

[49:31]long. Oh my god, that my neighbor, she

[49:34]guessed my age

[49:36]accurately. I feel so sad about it. She

[49:41]said 50 years old. I was like, Kyle, was

[49:43]it the crow's eyes? At least she at

[49:46]least she didn't add 25 years on to me

[49:50]like this. I didn't know how old that

[49:52]other guy was. He's almost 90 years old.

[49:55]Well, I never got a close look at him. I

[49:58]wasn't never really paid attention to

[49:59]him. Hobbled. He's hunched over. Yeah,

[50:02]but I only saw him at his campsite that

[50:04]one day and we talked to him and Yeah, I

[50:07]hear you. Man is very old. He's moving

[50:09]around pretty good for his 90.

[50:19]I hear the

[50:21]ocean or the wind? It's the wind. Sorry.

[50:26]Late at night, you can hear the ocean

[50:28]here. Are you sure? Cuz it's constant.

[50:32]I hear hear it dropping in tone right

[50:34]now. Yeah, that's the

[50:36]wind. The ocean doesn't alter in tone. I

[50:40]mean, you have variations in, but you

[50:42]have a background tone that's constant

[50:45]here because of the high surf that we

[50:47]have. Did you see how far out the tide

[50:49]was today on the beach? Yep. Way out

[50:51]there. Yep. That's why I didn't even

[50:54]walk out there because it was kind of

[50:55]pointless.

[50:58]Yeah. Course we've been a lot of people

[51:01]down at our beach. It's about a half

[51:03]mile down our beach since they found

[51:05]that d those dinosaur

[51:07]bones. So now the state archaeologists

[51:11]are down there trying to find it.

[51:13]pine paleontologist.

[51:16]They're trying to find it,

[51:19]but they think it's in the cliff. And if

[51:20]it's in the cliff, they can't dig at the

[51:22]cliff because the cliff is unstable. But

[51:25]people are doing it and they've got

[51:27]especially when they started finding red

[51:29]red agots. I guess red agots are hard to

[51:32]find. People went nuts between the

[51:34]dinosaur bones and the red agots. So

[51:37]they were digging into the hillside.

[51:41]They told us in our safety meeting on

[51:43]Sunday that to let the people know it's

[51:45]a federal offense. It's a felony if you

[51:48]collapse a cliff. So,

[51:53]someone was telling me it's a $5,000

[51:54]fine if you left your fire pit burning

[51:57]at the federal campground. Technically,

[51:59]if if they want to pursue it, correct?

[52:02]Because of the fire danger. That's a big

[52:05]fine. Yeah. Yep. Well, it's it's like

[52:08]here in our state littering. If you got

[52:10]caught littering, it starts at 5,000.

[52:13]Wow. Five or six. I can't be sure. It

[52:17]was either 5,000 or

[52:20]6,000. I wish they'd go back to what

[52:22]they originally were doing started. They

[52:25]had you take photographs and if you

[52:26]could get a photograph of the person

[52:28]with their license and the garbage that

[52:32]they would take it and file charges. The

[52:34]same person warned me not to take

[52:36]pictures because my phone could get

[52:37]subpoenaed and I wouldn't have a phone.

[52:40]Yeah. I was like, "Oh, yeah." Well, it's

[52:43]same with the state. Yeah. Yeah. That's

[52:45]what they Why they Well, no. No. Federal

[52:48]is different. Federal because you're

[52:50]they can't do it to us with our phones.

[52:53]They can do it with the text, which is

[52:55]they have access to our phones. No. But

[52:58]federal that doesn't surprise me.

[53:04]Yeah, Federal has a whole gambit of

[53:07]different guidelines. I can't even come

[53:09]camping here now because now I'm stuck

[53:10]somewhere.

[53:12]Like

[53:13]that's that's a problem.

[53:17]Again, that's all. Well, you get you

[53:19]borrow my little tent.

[53:22]I have a tent.

[53:25]And take off.

[53:27]They don't make you stay in their camp

[53:29]for those two days of you're off. I

[53:31]don't even know what diesels are yet.

[53:36]Once you establish that, then basically,

[53:38]yeah, you can go north in the Jeep with

[53:40]a tent in the sink deck. All right. I

[53:43]guess I could, but it's just kind of

[53:44]cool. Got a camping stove. Now, got a

[53:47]camping stove. What do you mean? The

[53:50]stove you thought was a grill? My

[53:52]propane bottle don't work though. You

[53:55]can buy the little bottles. In fact,

[53:57]take one take mine with you. I don't

[53:59]need I haven't used it

[54:01]forever. It just screws on to

[54:07]the camp stove.

[54:11]I'm just saying I want to be exploring.

[54:12]And then go into a thrift shop. There's

[54:15]several. Just want to be out there

[54:17]exploring in my RV. Soon as you get a

[54:20]little extra money, go into a thrift

[54:22]shop and buy yourself a pot. Couple

[54:24]pots. Oh, yeah. I do need pots, don't I?

[54:27]Yeah.

[54:31]is you need to be prepared. You know,

[54:33]you're in a spot now that you don't have

[54:35]to worry about it, but if the power goes

[54:36]off during a storm, you want to be able

[54:39]to heat up something. So, you always

[54:41]want to have a backup. I'll have propane

[54:43]cuz my, you know, once they hook that

[54:45]up. That's the nice part, too. That's

[54:46]going to help right there. And of

[54:48]course, my Jeep, I can always use my

[54:50]inverter. Mhm. And so, so yeah, as soon

[54:53]as you get the propane hooked up, then

[54:55]you can just use your propane water

[54:57]heater and propane heater. So then you

[55:00]free all your power. Yep. So that's

[55:03]going to help. Yeah, I'm looking forward

[55:04]to it cuz then I don't need my electric

[55:06]heater. I have to plug unplug that just

[55:07]to make coffee.

[55:08]Exactly. So it won't be in my way. I

[55:13]kind of want to fix my slide now because

[55:15]if I'm stuck there for so long, you

[55:18]should Well, go on YouTube and see what

[55:20]it says to see for manual opening. I was

[55:23]going to say I could probably manually

[55:25]open that thing and just leave it there

[55:26]for 6 months. I know you're comfortable

[55:28]with it closed, but you're going to be

[55:30]there a while. I would like a normal bed

[55:32]for a while. I'm dying. Well, not only

[55:34]that, you your interior space when it's

[55:36]a rainy cold day, you it will affect you

[55:40]by having a smaller space.

[55:42]when you know your brain knows you can

[55:44]have a bigger space. And if I have

[55:46]propane, that means I can run my heater

[55:48]all the time. Exactly. It could be nice.

[55:50]You're right.

[55:52]Well, you know, I did seal it up, so

[55:54]yeah, that part sucks. But I had to. I

[55:57]mean, I'm an Oregon. Well, I mean, when

[55:59]you take it off, it's going to do some

[56:01]damage, but hopefully not too much.

[56:06]Now you know how to I know you you're

[56:08]not real mechanical so you may not know

[56:11]how the proper way to remove tape that's

[56:13]been on for a while. No idea. Okay. It's

[56:15]called going back on itself. Okay. Let's

[56:18]say the tape

[56:20]is that's the tape. Okay. When you go to

[56:24]remove it, right away you bend it back

[56:29]completely back and then you pull slowly

[56:32]where it's pulling back on itself. Well,

[56:35]you know that it's boat tape, right?

[56:36]Like Yeah, it's going to come off. But I

[56:38]don't think that stuff was supposed to

[56:40]ever come off. If you pull like this,

[56:42]it's going to tear at your fiberglass,

[56:44]but you pull back on itself and slowly.

[56:48]That's going to be a lot of work,

[56:51]but it's going to be worth it in the

[56:52]long run.

[56:54]this time. You can also if you have a

[56:56]haird

[56:57]dryer, haird dryer will help make it

[57:00]remove on a sunny day would be better if

[57:02]the sun's on it. Will you help me one

[57:04]day? Maybe we'll do it. Very It just

[57:06]varies. Yeah, it's going to

[57:09]I'll need help to open it. Yeah, let's

[57:12]see. I mean, it's a digital box thing

[57:15]and I know that you can put it into a

[57:16]mode where it let you release it. Well,

[57:19]yeah, there's got basically, yeah,

[57:21]there's going to be a mode that you can

[57:23]manually pull it out or push from

[57:26]inside. It just varies depending on how

[57:29]how it's set up.

[57:32]Okay. Okay. But yeah, you have to

[57:34]disengage the motors is basically what

[57:36]you're doing.

[57:38]But I'm pretty sure yours is the same.

[57:41]Those inner those motors, you take them

[57:43]out. Once they're out, you can push and

[57:45]pull and push it.

[57:47]But um I mean that thing don't move at

[57:49]all. Like I'm surprised that those

[57:51]little things can keep it in the way it

[57:54]does. Yeah. Like cuz it's, you know,

[57:57]I've been driving it since Kentucky like

[57:59]that. Like I said, it was the key is now

[58:03]that you understand that once you get it

[58:05]fixed, you don't have that heavy

[58:07]equipment in there while it's opening or

[58:10]closing. And you just take move it out

[58:12]of the way. A guy lied to me. Yeah. They

[58:14]told me it was okay. Nope. That's why I

[58:17]don't trust AI. Just like it makes

[58:19]mistakes. It's Well, it's just like

[58:22]driving directions. People, humans make

[58:24]mistakes, too, you know. Yeah. But

[58:26]what's funny is that what you did today

[58:28]is so common because people rely on

[58:31]their phones navigation systems that I

[58:34]used one as well. I kind of knew I knew

[58:36]but cuz I was looking at I was like, you

[58:37]know what, that's on this side of the

[58:39]bridge. But I was like, you know what?

[58:40]Um, you wait in until she said something

[58:44]and basically I use my navigation

[58:47]system, but when I get within a half

[58:50]never been there before, I get within a

[58:52]half mile to a mile of my destination

[58:54]because it will tell me that I then

[58:58]looking at signs. Yeah, there was a sign

[59:00]that said aquarium. Yeah, it said

[59:02]aquarium bayfront and nothing that said

[59:05]crab dock or whatever. No, that's what I

[59:07]was looking for. fishing pier or no

[59:10]nothing like that. But yeah, I mean, but

[59:13]again, that's where unfortunately those

[59:15]nav systems I again I do it differently

[59:19]than you when I do my navigation and

[59:21]actually wanted me to turn off of the

[59:22]bridge. Yeah. Like in the middle of the

[59:24]bridge, I was like, "Okay, this is

[59:25]interesting." What I do when I do my

[59:28]navigation, soon as it gives me plots my

[59:30]thing, I go to the very end like Jeep

[59:33]and I look at the road names.

[59:36]So that way I know I I know you know

[59:39]I'll never do that right. Yeah. But if

[59:40]you do it solves having to worry about I

[59:44]mean but I wasn't worried so I went over

[59:45]the bridge and I went and I peed at the

[59:47]state park and I came back around and I

[59:49]just don't pee anyways. I just don't

[59:51]like going in circles. Too anal.

[59:55]I like that bridge. So I love that

[59:57]bridge. Yeah. The only one bigger is the

[60:00]Columbia Bridge. Really? That's the big

[60:02]one. There's a cross. Well, that's a

[60:04]very big river from what I've seen on

[60:05]the map. Following a big ship, big cargo

[60:08]ships go up and down that river. Oh, I

[60:10]really want to see

[60:12]it. You

[60:15]will for 6 months. Well, maybe I'll

[60:18]drive up there. Where did the white jeep

[60:20]go? Is it over there?

[60:26]You want to do this now or what?

Summary

rswfire accompanies Johnny crabbing at Newport pier, expressing disgust at the birds, bird droppings, and the process of catching and killing crabs. He documents the experience while feeling uncomfortable with the alien-like appearance of the crabs and the killing process. After leaving Johnny at the pier, he walks to South Jetty area and reflects on the ocean. Later they meet at a cleaning station where Johnny demonstrates how to kill and clean crabs, with rswfire continuing to film despite his discomfort.

The conversation shifts to campground work arrangements, with rswfire discussing his upcoming volunteer position with flexible 8am-noon hours to allow for additional employment. They discuss various campground politics, including an incident with an aggressive volunteer nicknamed "the holy roller" who yelled at Johnny over customer service procedures.

Other topics include rswfire's frustration about being "banished" from Oregon State Parks, a neighbor's constantly beeping carbon monoxide detector, plans to potentially fix his RV slide-out mechanism, and navigation issues getting to the pier. The conversation covers practical RV living concerns like propane hookup, camping equipment needs, and the possibility of tent camping for exploration trips.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission processes visceral contact with life/death cycles through embodied disgust responses while simultaneously mapping fragmented consciousness patterns in relational dynamics. The field maintains coherent observation of its own reactive patterns without collapsing into them, using disgust as diagnostic data rather than emotional overwhelm.

Dominant Language

disgusting/grossfragmented consciousnessI don't likenever coming backthis is wrongaway fromexhausted

Symbolic Elements

oceanthresholdbridgealienkillingedge

Ontological States

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coherent
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observational
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embedded
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sovereign

Subsystems

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somatic
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cognitive
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relational
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ethical

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