Beach Walk and Social Observations in Newport

April 15, 2025. rswfire is visiting John at his location near Newport, Oregon. It's a beautiful, warm day with some wind. They are walking on the beach observing other visitors and discussing various topics while filming. rswfire is dealing with physical limitations from an injury requiring a brace and has been living off-grid in an RV.

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April 15, 2025

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[0:00]I'm at John's place. So, I had to drive

[0:03]over two hours to go get fingerprinted

[0:05]for my new volunteering position because

[0:07]he doesn't know how to do his own

[0:08]fingerprints. Whatever. Screwed up.

[0:10]Whatever. Um, so, and I've convinced

[0:13]this man to go to the beach. So, we're

[0:15]going to walk down there. I know he

[0:16]doesn't really want to. Come on, John.

[0:19]We're going to the beach. We got to go

[0:21]to the beach.

[0:24]I'll pause this while he gets ready. All

[0:26]the way to the pier and realize I didn't

[0:28]bring my fishing license. I had all the

[0:31]way back here. Then I get all the way

[0:33]there and realize I didn't bring my

[0:35]chair. I would have just kept fishing.

[0:40]I can't stand. It's a beautiful day.

[0:44]Come back again. John's making a dinner.

[0:48]Real chicken. Like chicken legs. Gross.

[0:53]But I'll eat them.

[0:56]What's in their little trailer? Do you

[0:58]know? They store they use their have

[1:01]their bikes on. Oh, ebikes.

[1:08]It's super nice out. Oh my god. You

[1:10]don't even need a coat. Really? It's

[1:12]going to be chilly down there. Yeah. I'm

[1:15]taking my coat. I'm going to

[1:18]sing myself how cold I was.

[1:24]What a beautiful

[1:28]day. Except for these

[1:30]insects. There are insects here now.

[1:33]There weren't for the first 6

[1:35]months. I thought there were none here

[1:37]on the

[1:38]coast. Apparently, that's a seasonal

[1:43]thing. Oh

[1:45]well, guess I got a break from those.

[1:47]They were killing me in Kentucky, man.

[1:50]was eating not by those

[1:53]mosquitoes. I guess it'll happen again.

[1:57]This man taking forever just to get a

[2:02]cold. I'm in a good mood. Had a good

[2:05]day. Ow.

[2:09]So busy. Slamming into things.

[2:13]Oh yeah, you don't care.

[2:16]He's stealing your firewood. Oh yeah,

[2:18]help yourself. Oh,

[2:23]there goes the Starlink.

[2:28]It's pretty durable. Yeah, mine's got a

[2:31]gouging I noticed yesterday, which I'm

[2:34]like, how did that happen? Clearly, I

[2:36]did

[2:42]something. Might want to secure that

[2:44]better. Um,

[2:56]you need more. Go help yourself. All

[2:58]right. Thanks. I don't think so. Okay.

[3:01]He's such a good host, isn't he? Just

[3:03]giving away his firewood.

[3:07]In the middle of that swamp today. Put

[3:09]my boots on. Kids Frisbee went into the

[3:12]middle of the bushes. Are there insects

[3:14]on the ocean like the beach? Yeah.

[3:22]Okay. My dude's right here. He's parked

[3:25]in the road. He tells me I

[3:28]can't. There is enough area.

[3:35]There's something I want to say, but I

[3:37]don't want to say it on camera because

[3:38]it might get in trouble. Yeah, you

[3:40]better not get me in trouble because you

[3:42]post everything. I do. This goes on my

[3:44]private channel though. I don't I'm just

[3:48]John has a crush on someone. I just had

[3:50]to say that. Yeah.

[3:53]I think it's adorable.

[3:56]Oh, I mean it's just I think he's

[3:58]adorable, but he's he's definitely

[4:01]straight. Don't even tell me what year

[4:03]his earrings in cuz I honestly don't

[4:06]remember. I don't I'm not like you. get

[4:08]all the details.

[4:10]I just kind of It's hard to get us both

[4:12]in the camera angle.

[4:16]My lights don't work anymore cuz I'm off

[4:18]grid. Yeah. Also, they were going bad at

[4:20]talking. I noticed

[4:22]um they were like flashing like briefly.

[4:25]It's white light. I don't know what that

[4:27]was about. Hopefully, it's not a

[4:28]permanent problem.

[4:30]To me, it's hard for me to change my

[4:32]balance with this. Remember to always go

[4:34]your pace. So, don't let me Well, no.

[4:36]more than when you run towards me. My

[4:39]brace doesn't allow me to move suddenly.

[4:42]I try to move too fast. I never even

[4:43]think about it. So, I have to be

[4:44]reminded cuz you're busy filming. You're

[4:47]like a distracted driver. Maybe a little

[4:50]bit. Right. Fat forward. They look good.

[4:53]Look at the sun. It's beautiful.

[4:58]Let me show you the bean. I love those

[5:01]trees. You know what they're called?

[5:04]Got a ranger. Here comes Barkley. Here

[5:06]comes a ranger. Barkley's adorable.

[5:09]Don't like rangers.

[5:11]You like Barkley. I don't think I would

[5:13]after all the ranger drama I've had.

[5:16]Don't wave at me. Oh

[5:19]god. Waving at me, not you. You psycho.

[5:22]I love those windows. Look at those

[5:24]window. Isn't that great? I love that

[5:25]motor home. I want to stop and talk to

[5:27]them because I have never seen a motor

[5:29]home with those big of windows. Those

[5:31]are nice. can imagine inside there. He's

[5:35]got recliners recliners. It's class A

[5:38]motor home. Um one my sister's buying is

[5:41]this big. Mhm. Hater. The the class A's

[5:44]are nice. I was in one when I was at

[5:45]Honeyman. Um one of the volunteers. We

[5:48]had dinner one night. Well, that couple

[5:50]that we're talking to. Why isn't that on

[5:53]the top of a truck? How do we get that

[5:54]down?

[5:56]That's what you're supposed to do with

[5:57]those. Really? You can't. You just drop

[6:00]them and take it off the truck and with

[6:02]your truck. Oh wow. Yeah. That's just

[6:04]nice about those now with the slides cuz

[6:06]they go out on the sides, right? Sides

[6:08]of the truck. Okay. Mhm. I didn't know

[6:10]that. Truck lifts up, the truck backs

[6:13]in, backs up, it drops down. Oh crap.

[6:15]That's awesome. Yeah. And that's a small

[6:18]camper. You can get bigger ones now that

[6:21]have a lot more room in it. I

[6:30]just feel annoying, they drove almost as

[6:32]far as I

[6:34]did or

[6:36]did.

[6:39]Yeah. Guess I'm not

[6:43]special. I was ironic. My sister and I

[6:47]just recently got that beach house in

[6:49]Charleston. Now they're buying a motor

[6:51]home.

[6:53]Oh my god. Let it go. I compare yourself

[6:56]to other people. A lot of it. Well, no.

[6:58]It's my dad's money. Okay. They're

[7:00]buying stuff with that I got disowned

[7:02]from. That's what frustrates me.

[7:06]I understand. When my parents moved from

[7:08]Michigan, they had uh it was just a

[7:11]trailer in this trailer park and they

[7:13]gave it to my brother and me nothing. I

[7:15]was like, "Okay." Yeah. Frustrating. I

[7:19]mean, I mean, it's not my sister's

[7:21]fault, but you know, they have kids and

[7:25]grandchildren, so they can't risk my

[7:27]dad's wife finding out if they did help

[7:30]me out financially.

[7:32]It's a perfect sky. Ain't that

[7:34]beautiful, man? You should check out the

[7:37]stars tonight. Was watching last night.

[7:39]Had a big fire going last night. Sat

[7:42]there that I haven't done and I've been

[7:44]offrid like there's no excuse. Yesterday

[7:46]was a a red moon or a bunch of wood with

[7:48]you.

[7:51]This is an idea. Yeah, cuz I like I

[7:53]said, I didn't even fire starters. I

[7:57]mean, I guess if I had some paper and I

[7:59]think I might have one fire starter, but

[8:01]I don't remember where I put it. They

[8:02]don't have those at the park.

[8:07]Here. I don't want you. I'll be on the

[8:08]outside.

[8:11]I'm such a good friend.

[8:14]I didn't do that for the camera or

[8:17]anything. I am a good friend.

[8:22]You're a good friend, too.

[8:25]Sometimes. No, all the

[8:28]time. I do love these trees. Believe it

[8:31]or not, we were The park was full

[8:34]capacity last night. I'm so glad I

[8:36]didn't work today. Sunday. Yeah. Well,

[8:39]no, it was yesterday Sunday. No, they

[8:41]check out. They were going to be

[8:43]checking out Sunday. We had 130 people

[8:46]leave yesterday. There was like hardly

[8:49]no one in my park, but there was busier

[8:50]on the weekend and they did stay through

[8:52]Sunday, which surprised me. Yeah, there

[8:55]is a holiday coming up next week. I

[8:56]forget which one, but Easter Sunday.

[8:59]Easter. No, basically what ended up

[9:01]happening on Sunday was where we were

[9:05]going to have a bunch of people. Um That

[9:08]looks so much like mine. Yeah, but it's

[9:10]not. It's not cuz slide at the back as

[9:14]well. I almost got one like that and I

[9:16]would have had a nice bed if I had it

[9:19]was between that one and the one I got.

[9:20]See, this is a nice size class A. No,

[9:24]comfortable, but it's not so big it's

[9:26]hard to get anywhere. But driving it and

[9:28]towing a jeans, it's not bad, though.

[9:30]It's a nice It's a bus. I don't know. We

[9:33]get used to it. Try

[9:36]I love driving my parents motor home. Oh

[9:39]my god. This is my favorite thing to do.

[9:41]I just love motor homes. Really?

[9:44]God feeling of what this see? Wonder if

[9:47]I could test it somewhere somehow. Yeah.

[9:49]Well, you can rent them.

[9:52]Just rent a motor. That's the other

[9:53]thing people don't understand. I used to

[9:56]when I came to go get a new car, I need

[9:58]to test drive new cars. Why would you

[10:00]test drive a car for 20 minutes? I

[10:03]rented the car I wanted to buy for a

[10:06]week. like go to Enterprise on a car. I

[10:10]bought my first Jeep and it was a manual

[10:11]transmission. I couldn't even drive it.

[10:13]I was going to test drive that. And

[10:14]that's a beautiful Jeep right there.

[10:15]Yeah, I know. But

[10:17]beautiful.

[10:20]No, but basically that's what I always

[10:23]Oh, that is a beautiful Jeep. Yeah, I

[10:26]like the white. They've got some gear in

[10:27]the load thing in the front. That would

[10:29]have made mine so much better like cuz

[10:31]it's rusting. Didn't know they made

[10:33]those.

[10:36]All these

[10:37]some kind of leather towing.

[10:40]Another version camper show but bigger.

[10:43]Look that

[10:44]up. About to see an accident over here.

[10:48]What's happening?

[10:57]Let's figure that. Oh, I see now. So

[11:00]those things come down, drop down, lift

[11:03]the whole thing off the truck. That's

[11:08]you live in something like that.

[11:10]Jeep.

[11:13]Your best bet is four door. We'll figure

[11:17]it out. It's not going to be I like my

[11:19]RV though. I mean, if I just

[11:21]reconfigured when I was talking to that

[11:23]couple next door, their first

[11:26]um Mercedes was just like without the

[11:29]slide. I'm not actually I'm on camera.

[11:31]Why don't we need the fade?

[11:35]I used that dump

[11:38]station. You're saying that on a video?

[11:40]Yes. I'm very proud of this. It took me

[11:43]a month to start using the dump

[11:49]stations. We're coming over to the trash

[11:51]cuz this

[11:56]Are you going to go use the thing now?

[11:58]My day off. I don't have a key. Okay.

[12:01]No, I didn't bring my keys with me. If

[12:03]you had your keys, you would have I

[12:04]would have Yeah, because that's the only

[12:07]thing. Don't get run over, John. The

[12:09]only thing by a tiny like 10 vehicle

[12:15]wrote it down. I'm getting ready to

[12:17]Okay, that's what I was saying. Pretty

[12:20]flowers.

[12:24]See those flower every color you can

[12:27]think of.

[12:29]It's so nice out. Yeah, it feels like

[12:32]the winds died down. It was really bad

[12:35]when I texted you that I was leaving.

[12:38]What are they doing down there?

[12:41]We're working on

[12:45]Someone's being very annoying.

[12:49]Yeah, something tells me something wants

[12:51]to go. Oh no, that's a car alarm. I hate

[12:55]car alarms like that. Yes, it's very

[12:57]dramatic.

[12:59]Are you sure? I think that was a hump

[13:02]person. That was a upset person. Well,

[13:05]this place is I never seen it this

[13:06]empty. Yeah, it's unusual. This is This

[13:09]is always packed. Well, there'll be

[13:11]people filling in tonight. Sure.

[13:18]Get away from the lady with the dog. Oh,

[13:21]that's an adorable dog. Super friendly.

[13:28]Are these ones um off?

[13:31]Hello. Are these ones have Yeah, they

[13:33]do. Okay.

[13:36]Utilities. See, I love the teardrop with

[13:39]the tent. I don't. They do in England.

[13:42]Now they have in England. That's not a

[13:44]home. That's That's a camping. You're

[13:46]pushing me against that. No, I'm not.

[13:48]Yes, you are. No, I'm not. I'm trying to

[13:50]get over your thing in the middle of the

[13:51]road.

[13:53]I don't stay in the middle of the road.

[13:59]See, in Europe, almost all your travel

[14:01]trailers have tents that attach, so you

[14:03]double your living space. I mean, maybe

[14:05]we're on Mars.

[14:09]I wonder how a trail get on this side.

[14:13]That man looking at us. That man looking

[14:15]at us. I'm coming over here. I want to

[14:17]see if I can get to the trail on this

[14:21]side of the river. We're going to the

[14:23]ocean.

[14:28]I don't want to go on that

[14:30]side yet.

[14:33]I'm not crossing the river.

[14:40]He's got a nice ass. Look at him.

[14:44]What are you doing? Trying to see where

[14:45]the trail

[14:48]on the other side of the fence. That's

[14:50]the side I want to go. You want to go

[14:52]over there? Yes, but the people will be

[14:54]over here.

[14:57]I'm going to go flirt with someone.

[15:06]Hello. Everybody's

[15:09]friend. We live in a world where people

[15:12]don't

[15:20]know. There's this man at honeyman.

[15:24]who hike who runs every morning there.

[15:27]He's not a volunteer. He's not a ranger.

[15:30]And he's been there for at least a

[15:31]month. I cannot figure out who this man

[15:33]is. I see him every time I'm there. Even

[15:35]when I just went to empty my

[15:38]tanks. Like, who is this man? Cuz he's I

[15:41]have no idea who he is, but he's been

[15:43]there for way longer than the limit.

[15:46]So, I don't think that we can get to

[15:49]the Where is this path? I don't know.

[15:53]You want to tell me? Well, I mean, where

[15:56]else is it going to be?

[15:59]There's no way.

[16:02]Do you think that one

[16:05]exists? Huh? He's being a trail

[16:09]laser. A van lifer over here. Hello, van

[16:14]life.

[16:15]It doesn't It's not over here, John.

[16:18]It's really not. I'm just going to wait

[16:20]for you.

[16:21]We'll let you work yourself up and be

[16:24]right over

[16:27]here. Times beach access spot that

[16:37]way. What?

[16:39]Really? Oh my god. This man always

[16:42]proving me

[16:44]wrong. Oh, I'm embarrassed. I'm

[16:48]embarrassed.

[16:50]I can't believe it's actually back

[16:55]here.

[16:57]Or okay.

[17:04]Yes. I called you a trailblazer.

[17:11]They really did. There ain't cuz people

[17:12]get out here.

[17:17]We're taking a trail. It's very far from

[17:19]the bridge. I don't know. You know, it

[17:20]just seems really awfully

[17:22]far. Like,

[17:30]you didn't even bring your chair.

[17:39]You know what? I went out to the on the

[17:41]ocean one night on where I am now and

[17:43]then I realized that's probably when the

[17:45]logs come in. Oh, yeah. And you can't

[17:47]see very well. No. And you probably

[17:51]didn't have your headlight flashlight.

[17:53]Well, that was before that. Oh, okay.

[17:54]That's okay. Um, but it made me think

[17:57]about it.

[17:59]It just made me think about it like I've

[18:02]never actually seen a log come in, so I

[18:03]don't really know what to expect yet.

[18:06]It'll roll basically, you know, how fast

[18:09]and Well, that's when you have to be

[18:11]careful because the big log, it's going

[18:13]to be really slow. Okay.

[18:17]But some of them get up past the high

[18:18]tide. And how does that happen? It's

[18:20]like they're being ejected or something.

[18:25]Jen, this is a nice spot. Jen, I'm so

[18:28]glad you kept looking.

[18:31]Oh my god. Is that a cute man over

[18:32]there?

[18:37]Oh man, that might be a cute man over

[18:39]there.

[18:43]Let's go find out. This is a pretty view

[18:45]of the river.

[18:48]We're at an estuary.

[18:50]Oh, no. It's not. It's an edge. If it is

[18:53]a river where the river meets the ocean

[18:55]is an estuary. When there's a body of

[18:57]water between the river and the ocean. A

[19:00]body of water

[19:02]between the river and the ocean. So like

[19:04]a bay.

[19:08]This is a river

[19:10]going. I love that.

[19:13]Everybody's over there.

[19:19]Donkey. Looks kind of young. So, I

[19:22]couldn't tell. Right. The belly. Well, I

[19:26]better stop looking at him. He's going

[19:27]to see me looking at

[19:30]him. I guess that's okay, right?

[19:37]We're at the

[19:41]ocean. Oh man, this is a perfect day. Be

[19:44]careful, John. Slow

[19:48]down. I don't want to take you to the

[19:50]hospital.

[19:52]What do you think he's doing over there?

[19:54]What's he doing over

[19:56]there? What is he carrying right now?

[19:59]What is that?

[20:04]He's leaving us, John.

[20:13]Can I have sex with him?

[20:17]See, this is the type of problem. Look

[20:20]for fossils. You know, I don't care

[20:22]about this [ __ ] I know. How could you

[20:24]How could you not care about people?

[20:26]This might be a This might be a gem,

[20:27]man. I got to go find out.

[20:32]Just gradually walking to the

[20:41]ocean. Just got to find out, guys. Let's

[20:54]go. I haven't I haven't showered in

[20:58]days. Man, I haven't showered in days.

[21:00]My hair is

[21:02]greasy. Can't even take my hand

[21:09]off. These things are

[21:16]allow. This is some blue

[21:23]water. Some very blue water.

[21:33]This is a

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[21:46]great beach way down

[21:53]there. Lighthouse way in the

[21:56]distance.

[22:09]Seeing the

[22:18]floor

[22:22]here over

[22:27]here. This is a nice beach. I love this

[22:31]beach. I absolutely love Newport. This

[22:33]is one of my favorite places in Northern

[22:35]so

[22:36]far. Love to get back up here, but it's

[22:38]going to be a walk cuz I'm heading south

[22:41]again. About 40 miles south of where I

[22:43]am

[22:47]now. Those are some cute

[22:51]sunglasses. Very game.

[22:55]What are you doing?

[23:04]Is that a lighthouse over there? There's

[23:06]two of them.

[23:09]Big

[23:10]lighthouse. That's a marker building.

[23:13]It's a tower with a lighthouse, not a

[23:15]lighthouse. Okay. They call it a marker

[23:16]something. Yeah, a marker.

[23:23]Are you making that up? If you're on

[23:26]camera, you'll be very embarrassed to be

[23:27]making that up. I grew up.

[23:35]Okay. I just realized I want a

[23:37]boyfriend.

[23:40]It's a tattooed guy. Trust me. Oh my

[23:42]god. I know.

[23:44]His legs are totally tattooed. I was

[23:46]like, "What? That was a known

[23:50]Don't say that. That's mean.

[23:54]He's He's out here on the beach

[23:56]collecting rocks or something. You know,

[23:58]he respect

[24:00]and maybe now he's not like I've been

[24:03]I've been all kinds of things in my

[24:04]life.

[24:07]I was a prostitute once. I wasn't very

[24:10]good at

[24:11]it. I tried. I was like, "Oh, can't do

[24:14]this. This isn't going to work. This

[24:16]just not going to work.

[24:18]I tried a couple times. It did not work.

[24:24]Yeah.

[24:31]I remember the interview with the guy

[24:33]who got us we had to get naked in front

[24:35]of him, you know. And then like Yeah,

[24:38]he's just Yeah, that's a [ __ ] up life.

[24:44]I told you I was high. Yeah, my little

[24:48]house boy. Beach house.

[24:52]It's windy now.

[24:55]Somebody's got a beautiful house over

[24:58]there. Perfect goddamn view.

[25:03]I was thinking about it. You know, I

[25:04]never wanted a house because the view

[25:05]would be static. You'd always be seeing

[25:08]the same thing. But if it's right next

[25:09]to the ocean, if it's right next to the

[25:11]ocean, the ocean's always changing.

[25:13]That's different.

[25:16]I'm not touching you, man. No, you are.

[25:18]You're not realizing it, but you're

[25:20]making

[25:22]me sand. It's not safe. Suicide.

[25:28]You make it sound like I got distracted,

[25:30]but I can't walk in a straight line. Is

[25:32]that what you're trying to say?

[25:36]Oh, it's coming in to talk to you.

[25:41]Yeah. City birds.

[25:48]Ow. That was not good.

[25:53]You had those long

[25:54]enough used to not bang into them.

[25:58]Well, I can't even sleep without doing

[26:01]it.

[26:02]So, man, I'm going to lose my hand. I

[26:04]just don't My hair looks awful. I have

[26:06]not the camera. I'm not showing the

[26:09]camera.

[26:10]I got some

[26:13]um what's the word I'm looking for? That

[26:16]bird's

[26:18]awesome, some selfrespect. You don't

[26:21]care about

[26:23]You truly don't. I never have. A

[26:26]milliony old. Not even of dinosaurs.

[26:28]Like I don't care about that stuff at

[26:29]all.

[26:32]I never have. Like history, geography.

[26:38]I kind of like um Petrified Rock in

[26:41]Arizona just cuz it's pretty.

[26:44]Yes. Cross. Yeah.

[26:49]Oh, yeah. Dude, why you got to use

[26:50]sexual language with me?

[26:58]Oh, that's so

[26:59]sad. I don't like that. their

[27:04]body disintegrates into the sand and

[27:07]sends nutrients from other animals. It's

[27:09]so sad, man.

[27:12]I saw a whole bunch of them at the other

[27:14]beach. I love how the sand does this

[27:17]like those different colors.

[27:19]Do you know why it does that? Is just

[27:20]cuz it's wet or what? Okay.

[27:24]Silicon

[27:26]volcanic

[27:29]glass. the underwater ones.

[27:33]Well, there are underwater ones off the

[27:35]coast. Not our coast. There's one

[27:37]erupting. Not here. It's you know 100

[27:41]miles out or whatever

[27:44]near the um you know the fault line or

[27:47]whatever. Oh yeah.

[27:52]Yeah. But that's all that sparkle

[27:54]literally glass. Okay. Cool.

[27:59]I like that. Wait a minute. This is

[28:02]glass that a volcano

[28:05]made. So that wasn't a human

[28:09]invention. Humans realize that sand

[28:12]could be turned into glass because of

[28:13]the

[28:15]volcano. Typically

[28:24]glass dark layers. How do you think we

[28:27]learned to make mirrors?

[28:29]I wonder about that. Roman times, the

[28:31]Romans in the great mirrors.

[28:35]Putting mercury on the back on the back

[28:38]of glass.

[28:41]Okay. In the early days, mirrors could

[28:43]kill

[28:44]you. Mercury. I hear what you're saying.

[28:47]They use mercury. A lot of Yeah. I just

[28:50]love

[28:54]Yeah. I like the way it glitters.

[28:56]Yeah.

[29:00]Try to hold this out. Very windy. I

[29:03]don't know how much this is getting

[29:04]captured.

[29:06]Not a great photo. Yeah, we can go sit

[29:08]down. Oh, there's the little birdies.

[29:14]Okay,

[29:16]there's some more over there. Those are

[29:19]big ones, though. They're not like the

[29:20]ones I was talking about the other day.

[29:24]like three or four different ones. Okay.

[29:27]I like the tiny ones. Those look like

[29:28]normal boots.

[29:32]They're walking. It's so

[29:38]adorable. He's walking.

[29:42]Yep. I like the ones that run low. It

[29:44]looks like

[29:45]this. I assume you're supposed to do

[29:48]that.

[29:50]What? Coco's scaring them. Is that what

[29:53]you're doing now? You made him go away.

[30:05]Wow. This is truly wonderful

[30:13]day. Can't wait to experience more of

[30:15]them here.

[30:17]That's volcanic sand. Okay. I wouldn't

[30:20]have known that cuz it's dark.

[30:26]Take it with you, man.

[30:32]Picked a spot where we can't even sit

[30:34]together. That's kind of

[30:45]maybe here walking.

[30:48]See, why are you caring about me

[30:49]sitting? You're going to walk anyways.

[30:52]I'm here to see you today.

[31:04]Oh, it's actually quite

[31:10]pretty. I learned something

[31:13]today, Dan. I learned something

[31:16]today. not going to crack me

[31:19]down. Okay, so the

[31:23]Dunes um you know Herbert

[31:26]um whatever that guy's name is who made

[31:28]the Dune series. Yeah, he he went there

[31:31]and he that's partly where he got the

[31:33]inspiration. Yeah,

[31:36]I didn't know

[31:41]that. My sinuses have been a little

[31:44]better. I've noticed they're getting a

[31:46]little bad right now, but generally like

[31:48]it hasn't been as bad the past couple

[31:50]days.

[31:55]All that out there, that reef that's out

[31:56]there, that's lava. Yeah.

[32:01]Is that what all the rocks are?

[32:09]What's on the mountain?

[32:12]What's on the mountain? Just

[32:16]land combination. Humbug mama.

[32:24]Humb. They tried to ruin my life, John,

[32:26]but they didn't

[32:28]succeed. They did not

[32:32]succeed. That man is pretty hot, though.

[32:34]I really think they might need to go.

[32:43]Oh, it keeps bending

[32:53]over. Surprised the wind got down.

[32:56]Really cold and windy in the

[33:01]So, I knew going inland, you know, it

[33:03]would get hotter and stuff, but man,

[33:05]that's quite a difference. 15°. Oh,

[33:07]yeah. Real fast. Wow. I can get up to

[33:11]100. Yeah. I mean, I didn't even go that

[33:14]far, right? So, it was only like what,

[33:15]30, 40 miles in.

[33:18]53 according to Okay. I think I went

[33:21]over two mountains. Yeah. Did you notice

[33:23]the sign as you turned off Coast Highway

[33:26]and said Boston, Massachusetts? 2,900. I

[33:29]saw that. I was so I loved that because

[33:31]it's basically saying this is how far it

[33:33]is to the other part of the ocean. Well,

[33:35]let you know that that highway goes

[33:37]across continental. It's across Canada.

[33:40]Highway 20 is across continental. Oh my

[33:43]god, I want to take that. That's the one

[33:45]you can take that will take you all the

[33:47]way across. Really? Through Chicago.

[33:51]Oh man, I'm looking that up because look

[33:53]how pretty. If I'm going to head east

[33:55]for a while, maybe I'll do that. I

[33:57]didn't know you could do that. Yep.

[33:58]That's why they put the sign on the

[34:00]other side of the country in Boston. I

[34:02]have a sign that says Newport, Oregon.

[34:05]3,900 miles. That's awesome. That's so

[34:08]far though. I thought it was only like

[34:10]2,2500 miles across the country. 4,000.

[34:13]Okay.

[34:16]But that's what's neat about that

[34:17]highway. You literally That couple that

[34:19]I was talking to, they've been to every

[34:21]state in the US. I'm going to look that

[34:24]one up. Maybe I'll plan a trip around

[34:26]it.

[34:32]There were whales out earlier, but now

[34:34]it's so rough. I don't think you can

[34:35]spot them.

[34:38]almost impossible to see next

[34:40]right right out here.

[34:46]It's right out here. Trying to keep an

[34:47]eye out for a stick that I can carve

[34:50]into a walking stick.

[34:53]You had a whole bunch at your

[34:55]campsite

[34:57]short a walking stick for

[35:00]kids, but I would want one for adult for

[35:04]me.

[35:06]I want to do one to try. Now we know how

[35:09]to get this side of the beach. Yeah, I'm

[35:11]happy. That's what I want. Figure out

[35:14]how

[35:18]to what I can see from the other side

[35:21]that day. It was mostly sand. So it was

[35:25]easier for me with my brace to get down.

[35:27]Yeah, this is Yeah, I get that. The

[35:29]other side was too hard for me. I

[35:31]couldn't do that on a daily basis. This

[35:33]is a very good spot for you.

[35:36]with me.

[35:39]There might be a red moon tonight

[35:41]or that might have been used. Is today

[35:44]the 13th?

[35:46]No, it's too late. I didn't go look at

[35:49]it.

[35:50]You can actually see the glass moving.

[35:52]Yeah, I took some video of that.

[36:01]Do one of your slow mid videos.

[36:05]might be

[36:06]cool. Make a slowmo one like you would

[36:09]with a

[36:10]fighting hot man coming over

[36:18]here. I just love hot man. I can't I

[36:21]just [ __ ] love them.

[36:30]I just want to wreck

[36:32]the video.

[36:35]Oh, I'm sorry.

[36:53]What is he even looking for?

[36:57]rocks. The same thing I was not

[37:00]interested in. It's so boring. Oh my

[37:02]god. He should be having sex with me.

[37:04]That would be way more fun.

[37:10]He's even putting him in a bag. Why? Oh,

[37:13]he might be looking for a

[37:16]Okay. Is he trying to make money? Is

[37:18]that what he's doing? He will make

[37:22]jewelry out of the small fossils.

[37:27]Sometimes it's just

[37:28]river. Most of all this dark gray is all

[37:31]over. There's nothing out here. It's

[37:34]like being on the desert. It's like

[37:35]Mars. I don't even look cuz it's the

[37:37]worst. You got glass all over. There's

[37:40]probably sea glassass if you look for

[37:42]it. Beach

[37:43]comb. That's the whole point of a beach

[37:46]comb is walk along and you can find

[37:49]things. It's so boring. I don't know why

[37:51]people bother.

[37:53]I would rather trace waves.

[37:56]I want to participate with the

[37:59]ocean, not be like, "This is part of the

[38:02]ocean. The ocean brings up on the

[38:04]shore." Yeah. Okay, I'll be good. I'll

[38:07]be nice with it.

[38:10]Everybody has different interests.

[38:12]You're a computer geek. I am a

[38:15]naturalist. I prefer I'm also a

[38:18]naturalist. You can't put me in a box.

[38:23]None of us would be happy and anything

[38:24]to do with nature. What about nature?

[38:27]Not nature.

[38:30]Yeah. You fossils, rocks, all part of

[38:33]nature.

[38:34]Dead nature.

[38:37]Part of

[38:39]our dead

[38:43]nature. People would look stuff up like

[38:46]this and try to vision something out.

[38:48]Yeah. And I was never into art. So, you

[38:50]know, like

[38:52]Yeah,

[38:53]I used to go to the beach and find

[38:56]regards wood that looked like

[38:59]objects car to me

[39:02]that's as interesting.

[39:11]That's hot, man. That should make you

[39:14]happy. Whatever. I have a way better

[39:17]one.

[39:20]There you go. Okay.

[39:23]You know, some people would do that. Oh,

[39:25]yeah.

[39:32]Crazy. He really is pretty

[39:38]though. How long is this floating in the

[39:42]ocean? Come into the ocean up in Canada.

[39:44]It's an ace of wood. Well, I get it cuz

[39:47]I think that way about the trees. That's

[39:49]what driftwood is. Yeah, that's just a

[39:51]little

[39:53]twig. More than likely a twig or a root.

[40:06]I want to be on a boat.

[40:09]Not out in that ocean right now. It's

[40:12]nasty out there. How rough that would be

[40:14]on the boat. It' be fun. It's like an

[40:17]adventure. Yeah. You got seasick. It's

[40:21]possible. I would don't know until I do

[40:22]it.

[40:25]The average person, unless they voting

[40:27]their whole life, emotion like that will

[40:29]get them sick. For sure. Maybe not me. I

[40:33]have an integrated consciousness. I

[40:35]might be fine.

[40:38]I My emotions are embodied. They're

[40:40]different.

[40:43]I was actually thinking about this. You

[40:44]know, most people's emotions are in

[40:45]their belly area, but mine are in my

[40:48]chest. I don't never feel anything in my

[40:50]belly, but apparently that's normal.

[40:53]Most people feel

[40:55]things like fear. Um I don't know what

[40:59]other emotions people have, but um mine

[41:02]are in my chest.

[41:05]Mine's in my butt. Are yours in your

[41:07]belly? I hear your butt. I know. I heard

[41:09]you, but I'm very curious. I honestly

[41:12]don't pay attention to stuff like that.

[41:13]Really? You don't know where your

[41:15]emotions originate?

[41:17]Okay. In my brain.

[41:20]Well, originate from

[41:23]I mean, sure, if you want to get

[41:24]technical about the word originate.

[41:26]Yeah, that's how I

[41:28]think. I don't

[41:30]think my chest. But where do you feel

[41:33]about it?

[41:36]I'm fascinated by this stuff. I don't

[41:38]look at it that way. Well, you're going

[41:39]to think about it now and you'll tell

[41:40]me. No, it's not even It's not one of

[41:44]those things I think.

[41:46]I'm emotional. I'm emotional.

[41:50]So, I got to try to scare you or

[41:52]something.

[42:02]Scary. What happened?

[42:05]Will

[42:07]woman take

[42:09]revenge or she's just going to let

[42:11]things go?

[42:14]She's got to let things go. They love

[42:15]you here, John. Yeah. Well, he's giving

[42:17]her a

[42:19]warning. They let people go that disrupt

[42:21]the party. They do let people go. I

[42:23]think I know about that. So,

[42:27]you weren't disrupting You were

[42:28]disrupting them, but not leadership.

[42:34]Yeah, she's disrupting the work

[42:39]crew making her comfortable

[42:42]again. No, he had no indication that

[42:45]anyone was Is he really bothering you

[42:47]still slightly? I'm glad I got it out.

[42:51]Yeah. Talk this morning. But I my only

[42:55]thing I worry about is people's

[42:57]u revenge. You want to get even first. I

[43:01]understand this now. She's going to know

[43:03]it's cuz I had thought they let it go,

[43:05]right? And then at the last minute, so I

[43:08]understand this now. People hold on to

[43:09]things.

[43:11]She is the type. She's a bully. She's

[43:14]playing. And I told him that this

[43:16]morning. I said, "You know what?" I

[43:17]said, "I've been gay, I dealt with

[43:21]bullies my whole life." I said, "She is

[43:24]a boy." And he he he was diplomatic. He

[43:29]didn't make an acknowledgement of it,

[43:30]but he also didn't stop my impression

[43:33]either. So, in a sense, he agreed

[43:36]without actually. Oh, is that his

[43:38]girlfriend? How boring. I figured that

[43:41]out. She was hanging around the whole

[43:43]time. Sorry. Could have been a sister.

[43:47]Yeah.

[43:51]I need a boyfriend.

[43:54]I

[43:55]don't right now. That just be

[43:57]interference.

[43:58]Well, only though

[44:02]I know how people are. Have to adjust my

[44:04]life. Yeah, don't adjust at all. No, I

[44:07]will because I can't sleep in bed. So,

[44:12]relationship with someone who would be

[44:14]they can't sleep in. Yeah, that would be

[44:16]impossible. Although, a man did do that.

[44:18]But I'm down all night because of my

[44:21]injury. So, that would disrupt somebody

[44:23]else's sleep pattern. So if the right

[44:26]person wouldn't see that as a

[44:27]disruption, they would see that as just

[44:32]navigating know how often I dynamic all

[44:35]my back and forth and having to heat up

[44:40]the micro thing and for my neck in the

[44:42]microwave. It's like trying to make a

[44:43]hot dog in my my microwave today when I

[44:45]have my hamburger going and shut that. I

[44:47]can't do that.

[44:51]Sucks. Of course, it's temporary.

[44:54]to stop at a thrift store and buy an

[44:56]inexpensive pot that

[44:58]you heat up. I got a pan. I can put, you

[45:01]know, I can make a hot pan, but that

[45:03]would require cooking.

[45:08]I was thinking, what if I put it out in

[45:09]the sun?

[45:12]Yeah. Get sick from I wonder. But you

[45:16]know, you'd have to have a solid heat.

[45:18]Has to heat fast. Eat slow, the food

[45:20]will rot, spoil, contaminate.

[45:24]You can't cook. Fine. Well, if I make a

[45:26]campfire, I can make them.

[45:30]Yeah. Well, I won't take We're eating,

[45:32]right? So, I don't need to cook

[45:35]today. If you do you have

[45:40]What's that?

[45:42]Oh, you mean the pokey things? Yeah. No,

[45:44]I don't have the You can take two of

[45:46]mine. No, I don't want to take a I have

[45:48]six of them. Okay. You want to always

[45:51]think of you when I poke the thing down.

[45:54]That was one thought I was going to do

[45:56]last night for dinner and I just didn't

[45:57]get lost. I wasn't hungry last night.

[46:03]I was going to clean the box fire. Maybe

[46:07]he's bisexual.

[46:13]Tats probably being prison. So, he's

[46:16]probably had

[46:18]biceps. That's

[46:20]right. Look how hiding this is.

[46:24]Sorry. I like tattoos on a body, but I

[46:27]don't like

[46:31]body something wrong with your skin. And

[46:33]then you

[46:35]I don't like head to toe tattoos. Me

[46:38]neither.

[46:41]Solid color.

[46:43]Well, you know, it is um self expression

[46:46]like my piercings. So,

[46:49]yeah. I don't judge people. I just

[46:53]looking You keep calling him a gang

[46:55]maker. Yeah, because of his appearance.

[46:57]His overall appearance, he's Hispanic. I

[47:00]knew that was part of it right there. I

[47:02]was You combined this thing you combined

[47:05]together.

[47:07]Doesn't mean he's still getting better,

[47:09]but he was at one time.

[47:16]long cap all those things. Oh my god,

[47:19]they all tie in.

[47:22]Sorry. The communities that you know I

[47:25]grew to in California, you didn't deal

[47:29]with nice communities that were

[47:32]there so tight. He's one

[47:38]of separated himself.

[47:43]Okay. What what is there a judgement?

[47:47]I would I would keep my distance.

[47:51]Even if it was in their past,

[47:54]I'd have to find out if it was in their

[47:55]past. Up front appearance, I wouldn't

[47:59]period. If I was met him in a social

[48:02]environment and found out that they had

[48:04]been and they're no longer, then I Well,

[48:07]why wouldn't you judge him based on what

[48:08]he's doing right now?

[48:10]Just look what he's doing. I mean, this

[48:11]is No, no, he's enjoying He's out

[48:13]enjoying nature. So, it's very possible

[48:15]he's out of

[48:17]gangs. Gangs are hard to get out of.

[48:19]It's not an easy thing once they're in

[48:21]them to get out. So, again, those are

[48:24]all the things I see. You're depressing,

[48:27]man. Let's just talk about the whole

[48:30]You're the one talking about the men you

[48:32]see. Stop. I'm just talking about the

[48:34]cute man and you're over there judging

[48:35]him.

[48:44]This is a really [ __ ] awesome spot.

[48:47]Yeah. Well, we got warm like it feels

[48:50]nice and warm.

[49:00]But again, that's just such a big

[49:01]expanse of the ocean. like it

[49:05]just I have no problem coming down the

[49:07]beach as long as it's a place that it's

[49:09]called shelter. When I came back from

[49:12]that place, you know, going down the

[49:14]road, the 20, as soon as you get here to

[49:16]Newport, you see the ocean in the

[49:23]like

[49:25]years. I grew up my life child. Well,

[49:30]it's always been. Even when I lived Palm

[49:32]Springs, I still had the boat in the

[49:34]marina. So, I could have marina. I don't

[49:36]think that's his girlfriend cuz they're

[49:38]not even touching.

[49:40]Sorry, they are not.

[49:44]They're not even touching those that are

[49:48]still

[50:00]couple. This is a perfect moment.

[50:26]You think about it. This right here

[50:28]volcanic that came out of a

[50:31]volcano

[50:33]over thousands of years when the ocean

[50:36]was broken down into sand. That's the

[50:38]early volcano came

[50:41]out. That's what I love about my beach.

[50:49]Very

[50:51]small. Sand is rock. It's not rock. Tell

[50:56]you burn sand. No, it is not. Sorry,

[51:00]honey. Sand is a combination of silica

[51:05]and

[51:06]rocks. Kind of like it. What you would

[51:09]see right when you got sand is all these

[51:11]different colored stones. These tiny

[51:14]stones. I mean, I would agree that it's

[51:16]uh

[51:18]dirt crushed stone. I guess small stone

[51:22]stone that's been broke down over time.

[51:25]Tiny little brains.

[51:28]Dirt is has to have a biological

[51:32]component. Are they touching now? I

[51:34]can't tell.

[51:36]See, almost looks like he's leaning on

[51:38]her.

[51:42]Are they holding hands?

[51:47]Well, you wasn't my type

[51:50]anyways. Way too many

[51:52]tattoos. Second I saw I was like, "Oh

[51:54]god,

[52:00]now what these are in is mud."

[52:04]Why are you doing this? I wanted to

[52:06]break it open to see what's inside. See

[52:08]what little creatures are inside. I

[52:10]assume you have a rock

[52:12]camera. Don't invested in. I have a

[52:16]hammer hammer I'm going to need to use.

[52:18]I'm going to get you one for your

[52:19]birthday.

[52:21]That's what I'm going to get. I probably

[52:23]have a regular hammer. I'm going to get

[52:24]you a rock hammer. A little thing. The

[52:27]collection thing. I think what they call

[52:29]it. When's your birthday?

[52:32]June. June what? 20th. Okay. See all the

[52:36]seabirds next to me out there on the

[52:38]island. Oh, it's pretty soon, too.

[52:43]Your birthday is less than two months

[52:44]from now.

[52:47]You'll be I was going to say you'll be a

[52:48]dump. Okay. I'm gonna That's what I'm

[52:50]getting. That That's a perfect gift for

[52:52]you.

[52:55]I'm going to be here every April, May,

[52:56]and June. As long as I can work, I'm

[52:58]going to be here. That's what I'm

[53:01]looking forward to.

[53:03]There are other beaches, too, though.

[53:07]this beach

[53:10]I'm just saying there are other places

[53:11]you can play with rocks

[53:13]but not for fossils fossils this part I

[53:17]still want to go to the aate beach a

[53:20]yeah that's

[53:23]down I might go there tomorrow but I'm

[53:26]not sure I might today's Monday tired me

[53:30]out so I'm probably just stay home I'm

[53:32]going to be working on my project Um, if

[53:34]I can keep my Jeep fueled enough

[53:38]and hopefully get that up and running

[53:41]before before I start my

[53:44]mounte money. Yeah. Did I tell you that?

[53:47]Um, so I'm going to make the source code

[53:49]public on GitHub. That way I can show it

[53:52]off to my clients. I did that in the

[53:55]past. Um, you know, I got to rebuild my

[53:57]whole reputation. So, so I'm going to

[54:00]use my personal homepage as the template

[54:02]of my work.

[54:05]It's going to be in Laravel View and

[54:08]Town. So, three different

[54:10]languages and so all my database all my

[54:15]homes were models for my job, my work,

[54:20]interior design work and then my lights.

[54:23]I don't expense much money and then a

[54:26]year later I would sell a house, make

[54:28]money off of

[54:30]it. This is almost an hour so I'm going

[54:33]to end it now.

[54:35]Say bye. Bye.

Summary

rswfire drives over two hours to get fingerprinted for a volunteering position, then convinces John to walk to the beach in Newport. They discuss various RVs and camping equipment they see, with rswfire making observations about other beachgoers including a tattooed man collecting rocks. The conversation covers topics including family financial dynamics (sister buying property with father's money while rswfire was disowned), workplace drama with a female colleague described as a bully, physical limitations from rswfire's injury and brace, and technical plans for rebuilding reputation through a Laravel/Vue/Tailwind project on GitHub. rswfire expresses interest in romantic connections and discusses living arrangements, sleep disruptions from injury, and cooking limitations in the RV. They observe the volcanic sand, discuss the geology of the area, and plan future visits to other beaches.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates integrated consciousness in action — embodied presence navigating social dynamics, physical terrain, and relational complexity without fragmentation. The field is operating from a stable, grounded position, processing multiple simultaneous inputs (friendship, attraction, physical limitations, institutional tensions) while maintaining coherent selfhood and authentic expression.

Dominant Language

hot man/cute manintegrated consciousnessembodied emotionssource code publicrebuild my reputationperfect dayI don't judge people

Symbolic Elements

oceanedgethresholdglassfirebridge

Ontological States

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embodied
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integrated
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sovereign
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relational

Subsystems

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somatic
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relational
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emotional
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cognitive

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

Duration