Documenting Crisis with Two Days to Move

Speaker is in national forest off-grid campground with two days until mandatory move. Managing limited fuel and finances while seeking volunteer positions and camping locations. Day before 48th birthday, one year into nomadic journey.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward aligned sustainability

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April 10, 2025

3:59

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]So, at this point, I've given up any

[0:02]hope that my audience is going to help

[0:04]me. So, I just want to keep documenting

[0:07]my life

[0:08]without without that hope or

[0:13]expectation. I'm not sharing this so

[0:16]that you can feel pity for me or judge

[0:18]me or whatever else you might be

[0:20]thinking about. This is for me. This is

[0:22]for the future. This is for others who

[0:24]are in my situation.

[0:26]I need to know that they can do this

[0:28]because I'm doing it. So, here's the

[0:32]situation. I have two days until I have

[0:35]to move from my current national forest

[0:38]off-grid

[0:39]campground. I've been powering my RV

[0:43]using my Jeep

[0:44]inverter, which requires my Jeep's

[0:47]fuel. I have a half a tank of gas in my

[0:50]Jeep. I have a quarter tank of gas in my

[0:52]RV.

[0:55]Uh, I've been strategically charging it

[0:57]every day for a couple of hours. During

[1:00]that time, I charge my house batteries

[1:02]and I work on my laptop looking for work

[1:04]on Guru and

[1:07]Upwork. When I'm not doing that, I've

[1:09]been doing other things. I've submitted

[1:11]applications for volunteer host

[1:13]positions at different

[1:16]places and I've reached out to some of

[1:19]the field offices um the the you know

[1:21]national forest and I haven't done this

[1:23]yet but soon the Bureau of Land

[1:25]Management some other places I'm going

[1:27]to do that

[1:27]today I'm looking just asking them about

[1:30]volunteer opportunities and where there

[1:32]are free camping spots where I can go

[1:34]boondocking

[1:36]safely. Um, I've been doing that. So,

[1:38]I'm waiting to hear from them. I have

[1:41]$50 in my bank account. I have $3 cash

[1:45]and I have $18 in

[1:48]quarters. In my pantry, I have tuna

[1:51]fish. I have ramen

[1:53]noodles. And that's basically

[1:56]it. Um, in order to eat the tuna fish, I

[2:00]need bread and mayo. So, that's what I'm

[2:02]going to use my quarters for, my cash.

[2:03]I'm going to get some bread and some

[2:04]mayo. That's it. I'm going into town

[2:07]right now. I'm going to put $25 in my

[2:10]Jeep. That should fuel it up. Going to

[2:12]hold on to the other $25 so that I can

[2:15]put that in my RV when it's time for me

[2:16]to move. I have two days to figure this

[2:19]out. Tomorrow is my birthday. My 48th

[2:21]birthday in one year since I started

[2:22]this journey of mine. And I am not

[2:26]defeated. I will make it. And if you are

[2:29]ever in a situation like mine, believe

[2:31]in yourself. Never give up on yourself.

[2:34]And do not get yourself into a frame of

[2:36]mind where you're so

[2:39]desperate that you stop thinking like

[2:43]yourself. Even though my situation is

[2:47]bad, I'm not going to put myself in a

[2:50]situation that's misaligned with who I

[2:52]am as a person.

[2:54]So when I reach out to these um

[2:56]different places that I want to

[2:58]volunteer at, I'm thinking about the

[2:59]fact that I have learned from my

[3:01]previous

[3:02]experience and I feel like I was

[3:04]targeted for the kind of person I am and

[3:06]maybe even for my

[3:08]sexuality, maybe for having

[3:10]piercings. And so I want to find a place

[3:13]that will respect me for who I am. If I

[3:16]feel like it's not aligned, then I'm not

[3:18]going there. I would rather be on the

[3:21]side of the road while I figure out a

[3:23]better option than put myself in a

[3:27]situation that is harmful to

[3:30]me. I'm not going to keep asking my

[3:33]audience for help because they're not

[3:36]helping. And I'm not going to debase

[3:38]myself and make myself feel less because

[3:42]they're not willing to help. Because

[3:44]there are two ways to frame that. One,

[3:45]you could say you're not worthy because

[3:47]they're not helping. Or two, you can say

[3:49]you are worthy and they're still not

[3:51]helping. And the second one is the

[3:53]accurate one. You've got this.

Summary

rswfire documents his current situation with two days remaining before mandatory relocation from national forest campground. He has $50 in bank account, $3 cash, $18 in quarters, half tank gas in Jeep, quarter tank in RV. **Food supplies limited to tuna and ramen** - planning to buy bread and mayo with quarters. Has been **powering RV using Jeep inverter**, charging house batteries daily while working on Guru and Upwork. Applied for volunteer host positions and contacted forest service offices seeking free camping spots and volunteer opportunities. **Tomorrow is his 48th birthday** - one year since starting this journey. Emphasizes he won't compromise his values or put himself in misaligned situations despite desperation. References previous targeting for sexuality and piercings, wants to find respectful placement. **No longer asking audience for help** - reframes their lack of response as their issue, not his unworthiness. Plans to fuel Jeep with $25, save $25 for RV move.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates precise resource mapping and strategic decision-making while maintaining alignment integrity under extreme material constraint. The field is calibrating operational parameters without compromising core sovereignty principles, establishing clear boundaries around acceptable trade-offs between survival and self-integrity.

Dominant Language

alignmentworthythinking like yourselfnot defeatedyou've got thismisalignedrespect me for who I am

Symbolic Elements

thresholdedgefuelquarters

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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coherent
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pressured

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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infrastructural
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somatic

Transmission Details

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