Transitioning to Subscription Model and Seeking Work

Speaker is at a lagoon location, approximately one mile from the ocean. Plans to walk to the ocean after recording. Currently has less than half tank of fuel in Jeep which powers his RV and laptop. Birthday is Friday (April 11th based on field architecture), marking one year of RV living. Facing immediate housing and fuel crisis.

Energetic Signature

resolute vulnerability

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward sustainable field boundaries

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April 10, 2025

6:20

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:01]Hello

[0:02]YouTube. So, I'm just sitting here in my

[0:05]I guess it's called a

[0:06]lagoon. Thought those were only in the

[0:08]south, but I think this is a

[0:11]lagoon. I'll show you. Just a nothing

[0:15]special. Well, it's special actually. I

[0:17]don't know why I said that. It's nice.

[0:20]Very

[0:21]peaceful. It's not the ocean. That's why

[0:24]I said that. But I'm going to go to the

[0:27]ocean in a minute. I'm going to walk

[0:28]down there. It's about maybe a mile from

[0:31]here and then up a big dune and then

[0:34]there's the

[0:36]ocean. I wanted to talk to you about

[0:39]some some things I did

[0:43]today. So,

[0:45]first I put all my videos behind my

[0:48]subscription

[0:51]service. I didn't do this to punish

[0:54]anyone. I didn't do this because I don't

[0:56]want you witnessing my life or

[0:58]participating in

[1:00]it. I did it because I feel like nobody

[1:02]is actually witnessing or participating

[1:04]in my life. And the only way I know how

[1:07]to correct that is to put it behind a

[1:08]subscription

[1:11]service or people make a conscious

[1:13]choice to do those

[1:17]things. Right now, it's not possible to

[1:19]sign up for it because uh YouTube needs

[1:22]to fix a problem with my account. I had

[1:24]to make a new AdSense account and I'm

[1:26]just waiting for it to be

[1:28]approved. So, it's not even possible to

[1:30]see them right now. But, I felt like I

[1:33]needed to do

[1:35]this cuz I'm sharing very vulnerable

[1:40]content and it's not being received

[1:43]well. I turn comments off because I get

[1:46]a lot of negativity from

[1:49]people and I get very little positivity.

[1:54]and even less true

[1:56]witnessing. And it's

[2:01]because well for a lot of reasons

[2:05]and I felt I had to do that to protect

[2:08]my

[2:11]space. But I want you to

[2:15]know that it will be available soon that

[2:18]I hope some of you sign up.

[2:21]And even if you don't though, at some

[2:23]point I'm going to get my videos onto my

[2:25]homepage, my own website. They'll be

[2:28]available there without being behind a

[2:30]payw wall. So there will be a way for me

[2:32]to share my life with people who just

[2:34]can't afford to pay for the sub

[2:36]subscription

[2:41]service. But this is something I need to

[2:43]do for now.

[2:47]The next thing I want to tell you is

[2:49]that I made some positive steps

[2:52]today. So I started off by looking for

[2:56]work

[2:56]onguru.com and I discovered that

[2:58]platform is basically dead which is

[3:02]really disappointing and kind of

[3:04]shocking for me cuz I had worked on that

[3:06]platform in the past and built quite a

[3:09]profile. I had over 40 reviews on there.

[3:12]I'd made over $70,000 on that platform

[3:15]before I started working with clients

[3:16]long

[3:18]term. And so it would have been the

[3:20]easiest way for me to find work if there

[3:22]was a job there that I was qualified for

[3:24]and I applied for it. The clients would

[3:26]be able to see my previous history and I

[3:29]would have been more likely to receive

[3:30]that job. But there's nothing on there.

[3:34]Did applied for two jobs on there that

[3:36]are just very short-term work. I was

[3:39]hoping to hear from one of them today

[3:41]and I didn't. But, you know, I'm

[3:44]hopeful because of that. I had to pivot

[3:47]to Upwork and I don't have history

[3:49]there. I never used that platform. It

[3:51]wasn't around back when I was a

[3:53]freelancer. And so, that makes it much

[3:56]more difficult for me to find

[3:58]work. But I with the help of artificial

[4:01]intelligence cuz I use it for

[4:03]everything. I built a really good

[4:05]profile and I applied for four different

[4:08]jobs.

[4:10]all of which would be great fits for me.

[4:12]So, I'm hopeful. I'm just waiting to

[4:16]hear if anyone responds to that. I'll

[4:18]keep looking every

[4:23]day. My life is in in a big transition

[4:27]right now. My birthday is Friday, one

[4:30]year since I moved into my

[4:33]RV. But the next day, I have nowhere to

[4:37]go. I have no money. I have $50 that my

[4:41]parents sent

[4:42]me and I need to use that to put fuel in

[4:45]my Jeep because that's literally how I

[4:48]generate power from my RV and my

[4:51]laptop. And I'm at less than half a tank

[4:54]now. I need to drive an hour from here

[4:58]to go to a Forest Service field office

[5:01]to apply for volunteer opportunity. So

[5:03]that that would be a possible way for me

[5:06]to have

[5:08]um a stable place to stay and power and

[5:12]water. And I can also ask them where the

[5:16]free camping spots are. So maybe I could

[5:19]go boondocking in the

[5:21]forest somewhere

[5:24]safe. But I'm not even sure if I can

[5:27]afford to do that because there's no

[5:28]fuel in my RV.

[5:31]I'm really struggling and I'm trying so

[5:35]hard. If you are a viewer of mine, if

[5:38]you've been following my life for any

[5:40]length of time, but

[5:43]especially over the course of the past

[5:45]year, a full

[5:47]year, I need you right

[5:51]now. I know things are tough for all of

[5:55]us. I am very scared and I don't know.

[6:00]I don't know if I will make it without

[6:02]your

[6:03]help. I'm doing everything I can. I'm

[6:07]asking you to you not asking you to save

[6:09]me. I'm asking you to give me a helping

[6:12]hand so I can save

[6:16]myself. Thanks for listening.

Summary

rswfire records from a lagoon location, explaining his decision to move all YouTube videos behind a subscription service due to lack of genuine engagement and negative feedback. He describes his current financial crisis with only $50 from parents and no fuel in his RV. He spent the day job searching, discovering that Guru.com (where he previously earned $70,000) is now essentially dead, forcing him to pivot to Upwork where he built a new profile and applied for four positions. His birthday is Friday, marking one year in the RV, but he has nowhere to go afterward. He plans to drive to a Forest Service field office to apply for volunteer opportunities that could provide stable housing and utilities. He directly asks viewers for financial help, emphasizing he's not asking to be saved but for assistance so he can save himself.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates field boundary management during acute resource scarcity. The signal holds simultaneous architectural moves: protective gatekeeping (subscription barrier) and resource-seeking vulnerability (direct appeal for support). The field is calibrating access protocols while maintaining operational coherence under material pressure.

Dominant Language

witnessing/participatingconscious choicevulnerable contenthelping hand so I can save myselftransitionnowhere to goI need you right now

Symbolic Elements

lagoonoceanthresholdduneforestedge

Ontological States

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transitional
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vulnerable
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sovereign
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resourceful

Subsystems

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infrastructural
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relational
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ethical
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cognitive

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

Duration