[0:04]So, I'm here. This is the
[0:07]place. There's nobody in there, though.
[0:10]Um, attending it. There's showers in the
[0:13]back. There's three of them. They're
[0:15]locked or no one's here. I'm not sure
[0:17]what it costs. I wasn't going to see the
[0:18]pricing. Um, it's like4 to $6 to wash
[0:22]clothes and then it's $5 to
[0:26]um to dry them for 30 minutes. So, it's
[0:29]kind of
[0:30]expensive, but we're going to have to do
[0:32]it. And
[0:35]um hopefully somebody shows up while I'm
[0:37]here cuz I really need to shower, but
[0:39]it's Sunday. Maybe they don't show up on
[0:41]Sundays. I'm going to have to find that
[0:43]out. Um this is this is the only option
[0:47]I know of so far right
[0:53]now. Okay. Okay, so I might not be able
[0:55]to shower today cuz there's just nobody
[0:57]here, but I'll come back tomorrow when
[1:00]it's Monday. Assume someone will be here
[1:01]then and I'll just find out what their
[1:03]hours are for someone being in there
[1:05]because it's the only time the showers
[1:06]are
[1:07]open. Um I just booked my um my campsite
[1:11]for another two days using the donations
[1:13]I received. I want to say thank you
[1:15]again. Uh so I've got until April 10th,
[1:18]one day before my birthday. I don't have
[1:20]any more money to continue um booking my
[1:25]off-grid campground. So, if anyone can
[1:26]help, I'd appreciate
[1:28]it. Um it's $22 a night plus an $8 fee
[1:32]to book it. So, the more days I can book
[1:34]at the same time, the
[1:36]better. And you know, I have a lot that
[1:39]I'm trying to navigate right now that
[1:41]I'm working on. I just need time. So,
[1:44]that's where I am. There's something
[1:46]actually I would like to say about this.
[1:48]I'm not asking for charity here. I've
[1:50]been sharing my life with with my
[1:53]audience for over a year
[1:56]now. And I did it for altruistic
[1:58]reasons. I still
[2:00]do. I'm not asking for charity. I'm
[2:02]asking for energy exchange. You're
[2:04]getting something out of watching me.
[2:07]And I'm asking for something in
[2:09]return. So, I'm just going to end with
[2:11]some thoughts on what my plans are.
[2:14]So, right now I'm at an off-grid
[2:16]National Forest campground. $22 a night.
[2:19]It's cheap. It's cheapest option. I am
[2:21]right on the coast and it's just as
[2:23]cheap as if I were somewhere inland. I
[2:25]feel very fortunate and lucky about
[2:27]this. Uh that particular place, it's a
[2:30]national recreation area and there are
[2:31]three or four different campgrounds. A
[2:33]couple of them are closed right now, but
[2:34]they open up on May 1st. Generally, you
[2:37]can stay at a campground for two weeks
[2:38]at a time. so I can hop around the
[2:40]different ones that are in this national
[2:41]recreation area for a couple of months.
[2:44]That's what my plan is. I'm just going
[2:46]to kind of root here in the Florence
[2:48]area for a couple of months while I get
[2:49]my life
[2:50]together. And I just need people to help
[2:53]to support me during this transition in
[2:55]my life. It would mean a lot. I would
[2:57]really really appreciate it. Uh I don't
[3:00]want to I don't want to sound like I'm
[3:01]begging because I'm not. It doesn't feel
[3:03]right. It doesn't feel aligned. I want
[3:05]people who actually want to be a part of
[3:08]my life, who actually, you know, you're
[3:10]getting something out of my channel.
[3:11]You're getting something out of
[3:12]witnessing my life. I'm here being my
[3:14]authentic self, sharing myself with you.
[3:17]I'm asking for something in
[3:20]return.
[3:22]So, as far as
[3:24]me finding a way of getting, you know,
[3:27]to a point where I have stable income,
[3:29]where I have stable revenue coming in,
[3:32]there's a couple of ways I'm trying to
[3:33]do that. One is I'm going to have my
[3:35]YouTube script subscription service
[3:36]going. Right now, you can't sign up for
[3:39]that because there was an issue with my
[3:40]AdSense account and YouTube um
[3:44]temporarily turned that off. I fixed it.
[3:46]Now, I'm just waiting for them to do
[3:47]whatever they do. It said that it can
[3:50]take a couple of days to up to a couple
[3:51]of weeks. I don't know which it's going
[3:53]to be. Hopefully, it won't be that
[3:55]long. A lot of my content is going to go
[3:57]behind that subscription service.
[4:00]I'm sharing my
[4:02]life in a way that most people don't and
[4:05]it is not received well by the general
[4:07]public. I want people who are willing to
[4:10]support me to watch and witness my life
[4:12]and that's it. And so I'm going to put
[4:14]it behind my subscription service.
[4:15]There's several different tiers. The
[4:17]cheapest one is $3 a month. It'll give
[4:19]you access to all my videos that are 90
[4:21]days or older. The next tier is $10 a
[4:24]month. That gives you access to all of
[4:26]my videos. And then there's two tiers
[4:27]above that are just for um providing
[4:30]more support if you want to. I think I
[4:32]made them for um I think 25 and 100 a
[4:35]month. I'm not sure. I don't
[4:38]remember. Um over time I'm going to
[4:40]build a website community uh that's
[4:43]going to share my thoughts in greater
[4:45]detail. The way that I communicate
[4:47]verbally versus
[4:49]um you know the written form is very
[4:51]different. I can go into a lot more
[4:53]depth with my thoughts in the written
[4:56]form. I'm going to do
[4:59]that cuz there's a lot that I think you
[5:02]can learn from me. And I think maybe
[5:05]just witnessing my life uh through this
[5:07]camera maybe doesn't help you as well as
[5:10]I wish it did. You know, maybe maybe
[5:12]there's another way. I'm going to
[5:15]try. So, that's number one. Um that's
[5:18]the ultimate path I want to go on.
[5:20]That's how I want my life to unfold. I
[5:23]don't want to continue being a freelance
[5:24]programmer. I have done it all of my
[5:26]life and I hate it. It nearly killed
[5:29]me. I know that not everyone understands
[5:32]that. But I'm not explaining myself
[5:34]anymore. I know what is right for me and
[5:36]what isn't. And I don't want to go down
[5:39]that path again. I have resisted it for
[5:41]16 months for a
[5:43]reason. But because I'm not getting the
[5:46]support I need, I have to do something.
[5:49]So, I'm going to try to find some
[5:51]freelancing projects to help me build up
[5:53]my savings
[5:54]again. Um, I don't know how that will
[5:57]unfold. I tried this a couple months ago
[5:59]and people weren't even looking at the
[6:01]proposals. I feel like the state of the
[6:04]economy, the world right
[6:07]now, things are not going well for
[6:09]anybody in any, you know, in any
[6:12]vertical or industry. Like
[6:16]there's on these freelancing platforms,
[6:19]they look for people in other countries
[6:21]that can do it for very cheap. They just
[6:24]want to take advantage of you. That's
[6:25]why I don't like it. They don't pay you
[6:27]on time. They pay you very little. They
[6:29]treat you badly. is not a good
[6:33]environment. And so when I make a
[6:36]proposal and I try to set them at
[6:38]reasonable prices that I'm worth, nobody
[6:42]responds to them. If I have to compete
[6:44]with people who can afford to work for
[6:46]$5 an hour, I'm not going to make it.
[6:50]And I don't know if it's going to be
[6:51]like that or not. We're going we're
[6:53]going to find
[6:54]out. Um the early indicators are that
[6:58]that's exactly what it's like now. So,
[7:00]and then with AI, you know, we are less
[7:03]than six months away from from it doing
[7:05]a lot of our programming for us.
[7:08]So, it's just going to reverberate
[7:10]through my industry, make freelancing
[7:13]even harder. It's not a path forward,
[7:17]but I will try to do it because I need a
[7:19]bridge to that to that future. But it is
[7:23]not the life I'm trying to create. I'm
[7:26]trying to create an energetic
[7:30]community that resonates with my life
[7:33]that I can that can support me and that
[7:35]I can
[7:37]support. You guys don't see it yet, but
[7:40]it's
[7:44]coming. And we're going to need each
[7:46]other. I keep saying this. I need you
[7:48]now. You're going to need me later.