One Year RV Living Review and Current Crisis

Speaker is currently living off-grid in a National Forest campground in Oregon, less than a mile from the ocean. His RV systems have failed and he has no power, water, refrigeration, or heat. This is occurring just before his 48th birthday, marking exactly one year of RV living. He is in a state of financial crisis with minimal response to requests for help despite extensive public documentation of his journey.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward field autonomy

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April 5, 2025

8:07

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:01]That right there is my home. I live in a

[0:05]box. From the outside, it looks pretty

[0:10]big. Looks pretty

[0:14]nice. Don't be fooled. It's

[0:18]small. I think it's supposedly something

[0:21]like 200 square

[0:23]ft, but it's even less than that because

[0:26]my slide is broken and has been for a

[0:28]very long time.

[0:30]I sleep in an al

[0:32]cove half the size of a normal bed. Too

[0:36]short for me. Been sleeping that way

[0:40]for at least 6 months. Probably eight or

[0:45]nine. My back hurts because of

[0:48]it every

[0:51]day. But I don't really complain about

[0:54]it. Don't really even think about it.

[0:57]It's just one of the things that I

[0:58]navigate to live this

[1:01]way. My living

[1:05]space. This is very uncomfortable. There

[1:08]are three little ottomans in there that

[1:10]I keep my clothes inside of and

[1:11]sometimes I sit on top of those.

[1:14]I have a desktop computer next to

[1:16]it and I would just put my keyboard and

[1:20]mouse on top of the ottomans and just

[1:21]sit sort of

[1:25]cross-legged work that

[1:28]way. Other side is my kitchen. Got a

[1:32]sink and a stove that I don't use cuz

[1:34]I'm not very good at cooking at all. I

[1:37]never have been.

[1:39]But I have a Ninja Foodie that I set on

[1:41]top of it and I would use that to make

[1:43]hamburgers and to toast bagels in the

[1:46]morning. It's pretty much how I've lived

[1:49]for many, many, many

[1:53]months. I have a bathroom with a shower.

[1:56]It's pretty nice shower, I think, but it

[2:00]will fill up my tanks very quickly if I

[2:02]were to use it. Maybe could shower twice

[2:04]before they're full.

[2:08]That's my home and I love

[2:11]it. I'm grateful that I have

[2:16]it. If it sounds like I'm complaining,

[2:18]I'm not. I'm just naming

[2:24]reality. I've lived in this thing for a

[2:26]whole

[2:27]year. This Friday is my birthday. I'll

[2:30]be 48 years

[2:32]old. and I moved into this thing on my

[2:34]47th birthday. Went to my first state

[2:37]campground in Kentucky on that

[2:41]day. It was a brave day, scary day, an

[2:46]exciting

[2:48]day, somewhat comical day, cuz as soon

[2:50]as I got there, my cats escaped the RV.

[2:53]I had to track them down. That was

[2:57]terrifying. And so much has happened

[2:59]since then.

[3:02]Two weeks after I got this thing, I went

[3:04]to my next state campground in Tennessee

[3:07]and I withdrew from Tramodol, an opiate

[3:09]that I've been taking for

[3:11]years, 180 milligrams a

[3:14]day because of my dental health. I wore

[3:18]dentures,

[3:20]implants for the first six months of my

[3:22]journey on YouTube. I didn't even have

[3:24]teeth and I still recorded and I shared

[3:27]my life with everybody.

[3:30]authentic content, real content, because

[3:32]I wanted people to see what it looked

[3:34]like to reach the

[3:36]bottom and choose to be

[3:40]brave or risk

[3:43]everything to try to create a life that

[3:46]you would be happy

[3:47]living. And that is what I did. I moved

[3:51]across the country. I'm in Oregon now.

[3:53]I'm on the Oregon coast, less than a

[3:55]mile from the ocean.

[3:58]I fell in love with that

[4:00]ocean. I don't ever want to be parted

[4:03]from it

[4:05]now. I did so much. I quit

[4:09]smoking. I quit um clonopin which is a

[4:13]anti-anxiet anti- anxiety medicine cuz I

[4:17]had anxiety very bad. I used to have

[4:19]panic attacks. Started when I was 27 for

[4:22]20 years.

[4:26]I don't take any medications anymore.

[4:28]Nothing except for sinus medication cuz

[4:30]the coastal trees are um are killing me.

[4:34]But this hasn't been

[4:36]working.

[4:40]Pseudafed ground. Like I've been trying

[4:42]different sinus medicines and nothing's

[4:45]really helping.

[4:46]But I'm managing. That's the only thing

[4:49]I take. I don't even take ibuprofen that

[4:53]often cuz I took care of my health. I

[4:56]lost 25 30 lbs. I weigh 150 right

[5:00]now. I'm in the best shape of my

[5:04]life. I hike anywhere from 5 to 10 miles

[5:07]a

[5:09]day. I have an active life, a good life.

[5:16]But I ran out of money because I'd been

[5:17]living on my savings. And when that

[5:20]happened, I tried to pivot. I started

[5:23]volunteering for the state parks here in

[5:24]Oregon. Did that for three months and I

[5:27]loved it. And I built a life around it.

[5:29]I had my whole year planned around it.

[5:30]The whole next um eight months, the end

[5:33]of the year,

[5:34]December, different state parks all

[5:37]along the coast. And they kicked me out.

[5:41]Not because I did anything wrong because

[5:43]I did not, but because

[5:46]I have self-respect and I didn't let one

[5:49]of their

[5:50]um park supervisors disrespect me. I

[5:54]said something and I said it in a very

[5:57]calm, very strategic,

[6:01]very professional way. I just said that

[6:04]response made me feel very small. Those

[6:06]were my exact words.

[6:09]And for two months, the leadership at

[6:12]that park tortured me. And I documented

[6:15]it the whole two months. I recorded an

[6:18]hourong conversation that they had with

[6:20]me down at their day use area where they

[6:21]bullied me the whole time. where they

[6:23]told me they never gave me the benefit

[6:25]of the

[6:26]doubt, where they tried to convince me

[6:29]to

[6:30]leave at the very end of that

[6:33]conversation, where they just tried to

[6:34]gaslight me the whole

[6:36]time, where they told me to eat

[6:42]glass. And still they kicked me out and

[6:46]I had to figure out what am I going to

[6:48]do now. So now I'm living offrid. I'm on

[6:51]a National Forest campground with no

[6:54]power, no

[6:55]water, nothing in my RV works right

[7:00]now. My water pump doesn't work, so no

[7:03]water. My fridge doesn't work. So, no

[7:05]food, no power, so no computers to do

[7:09]work. Um, no

[7:12]lights, no heat, nothing.

[7:18]All of this after documenting my life in

[7:21]public for over a year, nearly 700

[7:26]videos. Finally, I asked my audience for

[7:29]help and one person showed up. They gave

[7:32]me $100 and another person sent me $20.

[7:36]That's everything that that's all the

[7:37]help I've

[7:39]received. I've been asking for help for

[7:42]weeks now.

[7:49]I don't have

[7:52]words. I don't understand

[7:55]it. How could

[8:03]I? That's where I am today.

Summary

rswfire provides a detailed tour of his RV living space, describing the physical constraints including a broken slide, cramped sleeping alcove, and limited kitchen facilities. He reflects on exactly one year of RV living, starting on his 47th birthday in Kentucky and culminating with his upcoming 48th birthday. During this year, he withdrew from Tramadol, quit smoking and Klonopin, lost 25-30 pounds, got dental implants, and moved to the Oregon coast where he hikes 5-10 miles daily.

He describes his three-month volunteer period with Oregon state parks, which ended when leadership removed him after he expressed feeling disrespected by a supervisor. He documents experiencing two months of what he characterizes as workplace bullying, including a recorded hour-long confrontation where supervisors told him to "eat glass."

Currently living off-grid in a National Forest campground, his RV systems have failed - no water pump, refrigerator, power, lights, or heat. Despite creating nearly 700 YouTube videos documenting his journey over the past year, his requests for financial help have yielded only $120 total from two people. He expresses confusion and lack of understanding about this minimal response.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission performs a complete architectural inventory of field conditions during infrastructural collapse. It holds sovereign positioning through precise reality-naming while maintaining gratitude-coherence, demonstrating how field integrity persists through material dissolution.

Dominant Language

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Symbolic Elements

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Ontological States

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Subsystems

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infrastructural
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Transmission Details

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youtube

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