Preparing for Off-Grid Transition Tomorrow

Recording at 2:30 AM in RV at campground, one day before power disconnection. Broken slide forces sleeping in short alcove. Has been living this way for nearly a year. Currently relying on campground electrical hookup.

Energetic Signature

methodical

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward self-sufficiency

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April 3, 2025

13:00

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Author

rswfire

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ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:01]So, this isn't going to be a very

[0:03]polished

[0:04]video. Tried making it a couple of times

[0:10]now and then I decided, you know what?

[0:12]I'm just going to take you along with me

[0:16]through a liinal

[0:19]space, my

[0:23]space. My thoughts will unfurl as I do.

[0:25]It's not going to happen quickly. So, if

[0:27]you want to come along with me, you're

[0:30]going to have to be

[0:31]patient cuz this is what it looks like.

[0:34]This is

[0:37]reality. I'm not here

[0:40]performing. I'm just

[0:43]existing. It's 2:30 in the morning here.

[0:47]I woke up a little while

[0:49]ago. I

[0:52]was I don't sleep very well in my bed.

[0:55]It's a terrible bad situation for me.

[0:59]Um, my slide is broken in my RV. Has

[1:03]been for a very long time. I just sleep

[1:05]in this little al cove here. It's too

[1:07]short for me. It's not a comfortable

[1:10]mattress that I'm laying on. So, I don't

[1:12]sleep very well. I often wake up at this

[1:15]time.

[1:20]and I don't sleep real deep. Um, as deep

[1:23]as I used to back when I lived in the

[1:26]house. This has been an adaptation that

[1:29]I've just accepted and lived with for

[1:34]nearly a year. So, it's not

[1:38]new. But last night, you know, I'm

[1:40]trying to sleep and I'm mostly asleep,

[1:43]but I'm also conscious that I'm

[1:46]thinking. I don't really know how to

[1:47]describe that, but I'm thinking about

[1:49]everything that's about to change in my

[1:54]life. Not with fear. It's like I'm

[1:57]cataloging. I'm

[2:00]just

[2:05]preparing. It's an embodied preparation

[2:09]because I have an integrated

[2:11]consciousness. This is a

[2:13]fact and it's cognitive,

[2:18]sematic, emotional, ethical, all of

[2:21]those things are

[2:24]integrated. And

[2:29]so this is on the edge of words for me.

[2:32]I don't really know how to describe

[2:33]this.

[2:39]So, well, I can't. I truly can't. So,

[2:43]I'm just I guess move on from that. But

[2:46]here's my

[2:48]situation. A day from now, I'm going to

[2:51]disconnect my RV from the power here at

[2:54]this campground. And that's it. My RV

[2:57]won't have power anymore. So, these

[2:59]lights won't work. My music won't work.

[3:02]The electric blanket that I'm laying

[3:04]under won't work. My electric heater

[3:06]won't work. My fridge won't work. My

[3:09]water won't work because it needs a

[3:10]water

[3:14]pump. Nothing in here will work. And so

[3:18]I'm cataloging that. I'm thinking, okay,

[3:20]so how do we

[3:22]adapt? I'm going to need light. I don't

[3:25]have any any light source. I'm less

[3:28]prepared than I thought I was. And

[3:29]that's

[3:31]why this is important

[3:34]even that's why I look at it the way I

[3:36]do going to learn something from this.

[3:39]We're going to experience something and

[3:41]that experience is going to help shape

[3:43]me into the next version of

[3:47]me. And I don't fight this. I embrace

[3:50]it. So I'm going to need light in here.

[3:53]Can't use candles. That would be

[3:55]dangerous. There's nowhere to really put

[3:57]them.

[3:59]But I don't really have anything

[4:02]that I'm just I'm not sure on that one,

[4:04]which is surprising because you'd think

[4:06]that would be

[4:10]simple. I don't

[4:12]know. Music is super important. It

[4:19]is is a central part of my life. I

[4:21]listen to music more than

[4:25]um definitely more than the average

[4:26]person.

[4:34]And yeah, like I need music in my life.

[4:38]Like I don't watch television. I don't

[4:40]play video games. Like music

[4:45]is a requirement. And my little Alexa

[4:49]device over there will not work. You

[4:51]know, it needs internet. It needs power.

[4:54]I won't have these things.

[4:57]I have my phone. I have headphones, but

[5:00]they're not working. The there's

[5:02]something wrong with the cable.

[5:03]Sometimes they work, sometimes they

[5:04]don't. Hopefully, I can replace those

[5:06]soon. That's how important it

[5:10]is. But, you know, my phone

[5:13]uses power also. I'll be able to charge

[5:17]that. I'll talk about that in a minute.

[5:22]I'm still going to have

[5:24]to conserve.

[5:28]And so, yeah, there's

[5:30]that

[5:33]heat. I can live with some

[5:36]discomfort.

[5:37]So, maybe I just, you know, I'm under a

[5:40]bunch of blankets. I do have a propane

[5:43]heater um that I can

[5:46]use. So I expect that will become a part

[5:50]of my life very

[5:59]soon. Growth happens at the edge. It

[6:01]happens in discomfort. It doesn't happen

[6:03]in comfort. When I lived a comfortable

[6:05]life in a house, I didn't grow. I

[6:07]stagnated. When I moved into this

[6:12]RV, I did nothing but grow in every way

[6:15]that a person can because I had put

[6:18]myself in a situation that required

[6:21]it. And I got comfortable in some

[6:24]ways. I sold my

[6:27]solar. I needed to. I had no choice. But

[6:30]man, that would have been really helpful

[6:36]now. Perhaps I didn't

[6:40]think. I mean, I knew I just But you

[6:44]know, now now I'm going to live with the

[6:46]discomfort of not having it. So, I'm

[6:49]going to want to replace that as soon as

[6:51]I

[6:54]can cuz that would have powered my whole

[6:57]life in here. It really sucks that I

[7:01]don't have that. So, let's talk power. I

[7:05]have an inverter that I can hook up to

[7:06]my Jeep. That's one of the things.

[7:08]That's the first thing I got when I got

[7:09]to

[7:10]Oregon. I had to drive back cuz I had it

[7:13]delivered to a Lowe's store. I think it

[7:15]was a

[7:16]Lowe's. And just based on my journey, I

[7:20]ended up ahead of it getting delivered.

[7:22]So, I had to drive back to get it. And

[7:25]I've tested it once. It's not mounted to

[7:28]my Jeep. So, um I don't have like a

[7:32]convenient way of using

[7:35]it, but you know, I'll use it and one

[7:39]day I hope to get that mounted

[7:42]somehow. I'll use that to charge my

[7:44]devices, to charge my laptop, and that's

[7:46]it cuz it's going to use my Jeep's fuel

[7:49]and I'll need that. So, I'm going to use

[7:51]it

[7:52]conservatively. I won't be I won't be

[7:54]using it, you know, for heat or

[7:59]anything that would be an extra right

[8:01]now.

[8:03]So, so that's

[8:05]power. I mentioned how I would have

[8:08]heat.

[8:10]Um water. I'm just going to have to buy,

[8:13]you know, gallon jugs of

[8:17]water. Uh no fridge, so food is going to

[8:20]have to be shelf stable.

[8:23]um a small cooler type thing with ice in

[8:28]it. Probably I you know I should be able

[8:32]to manage that I

[8:35]think and that's where I am. That's this

[8:38]is how I'll be living for a

[8:41]while. And I'm not I'm not I'm not

[8:48]afraid. I'm not feeling fear right now.

[8:51]I'm just

[8:57]cataloging. I don't know how to describe

[8:59]what I feel right now. Honestly, I feel

[9:03]like this is an important test for me

[9:06]and I believe I'll pass it. I don't just

[9:09]believe I know. I know I'll pass

[9:14]it. I'm not afraid of discomfort.

[9:22]I think this is

[9:24]important in ways I cannot

[9:29]describe. There are some things that

[9:31]that do cause me fear though. That's

[9:36]um I'm not feeling it right now.

[9:38]Somebody helped me. Somebody sent me

[9:40]$100. Thank you for this. I mean I

[9:44]um I said this in the other videos I

[9:46]tried to create. So, I'm not this isn't

[9:49]an afterthought. It's just

[9:51]um I guess where it naturally comes up

[9:54]in, you know, my thoughts here for this

[9:56]video. Going to create a video at some

[9:58]point just thanking those who do help me

[10:01]during this part of my

[10:03]life. So, so expect

[10:06]that. Um I had no money in my bank

[10:09]account. So, that $100 that was sent to

[10:11]me digitally, which meant I could

[10:13]transfer to my bank account, and I used

[10:15]that to book the next campground I'll be

[10:18]at for four nights. Looks like a good

[10:21]spot. No power, no water, you know, just

[10:24]um basic campground spot, but it looks

[10:27]like a nice spot

[10:30]and I am grateful

[10:34]and just need to keep that going as long

[10:37]as possible. So, if anyone else can

[10:39]help, I would really appreciate your

[10:41]help. Um, unfortunately, I'm going to

[10:44]have to keep asking during this chapter

[10:47]of my

[10:48]life. I'm not good at asking for help.

[10:53]And but I don't think that there's

[10:56]anything wrong with asking. I've been

[10:58]helping people all my life. Now, I need

[11:01]to ask. This doesn't diminish me. This

[11:04]doesn't make me smaller.

[11:10]We need each other. That's how I look at

[11:12]it.

[11:17]And yeah, so I guess I'm learning to

[11:23]ask that

[11:25]part makes me I mean I'm less I'm less

[11:29]secure on this part

[11:31]where where I'm dependent on others

[11:34]right now in order just to keep myself

[11:36]on a campground because I don't know

[11:37]what I'll do if that if that doesn't

[11:40]work out.

[11:42]I haven't been able to figure

[11:45]out how to live outside of that

[11:48]infrastructure. I'm not prepared for

[11:50]that. And I really hope I don't have to

[11:51]face it yet. But that is going to be

[11:53]another edge for me at some point.

[11:55]Another discomfort that I'm going to

[11:56]have to

[11:57]face. I'm not ready yet. I want to do

[12:00]that differently. I want to want to have

[12:02]solar, you know. I want to have

[12:05]self-sufficient systems at that point.

[12:07]Better batteries for my RV that are

[12:09]actually worth charging every day.

[12:12]So

[12:14]that you know it's iterative. This is

[12:17]the next iteration of what I'm trying to

[12:20]do. And

[12:22]so you know I want to face that edge at

[12:25]the right time. I don't want to have to

[12:27]face that one before I feel prepared for

[12:29]it. And I don't feel prepared.

[12:33]So yeah, this is where I am today. This

[12:36]is where I am tonight.

[12:42]I think most people hide this

[12:44]part. They show you the growth after the

[12:48]fact. I'm not doing that. I'm showing it

[12:51]to you in real

[12:54]time. And I think there's value in that

[12:57]and I'm not ashamed to do it.

Summary

rswfire records at 2:30 AM from his RV, one day before disconnecting from campground power. He catalogs the practical challenges he will face: no electricity for lights, music, heat, fridge, or water pump. His RV slide is broken, forcing him to sleep in an uncomfortable alcove. He describes his adaptation strategy using a Jeep inverter for charging devices, propane heater for warmth, gallon water jugs, and shelf-stable food. Someone sent him $100 which he used to book four nights at a basic campground with no utilities. He reflects on growth happening at edges of comfort and expresses gratitude while acknowledging he must continue asking for help. He emphasizes showing the growth process in real time rather than hiding the difficult parts.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the architectural requirements for crossing from infrastructure-dependent to self-sufficient existence. It demonstrates integrated consciousness cataloging systemic dependencies while maintaining sovereign stance toward necessary discomfort as growth catalyst.

Dominant Language

catalogingintegrated consciousnessembodied preparationedgediscomfortiterationwe need each other

Symbolic Elements

thresholdedgecatalogtestiteration

Ontological States

•
transitional
•
sovereign
•
integrating
•
prepared

Subsystems

•
cognitive
•
infrastructural
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somatic
•
ethical

Transmission Details

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