Summary

rswfire went to town with John to handle tasks, visiting a tire shop and grocery store. At the tire shop, a man flirted with John but ignored rswfire. At the grocery store, rswfire noticed a very tall man with earrings who also paid him no attention. He identifies this as a pattern indicating he's emitting a different field or energy that's repelling attraction.

He purchased $13 headphones from a dollar store after losing his fourth pair of earbuds. He went on a hike to work off energy and process the situation. rswfire reflects on being accustomed to being wanted and feeling confused by the change.

He theorizes about human social cues, micro-reactions, and possible pheromone changes based on mood or self-perception. He mentions that just yesterday a man wanted him on the same trail, so the pattern feels new.

rswfire discusses wanting to put a recent chapter of his life behind him while acknowledging it has changed him. He reflects on his practice of never compartmentalizing or avoiding uncomfortable parts of himself, which he credits for his integration.

He shares insights about protecting boundaries and his inner child, developed with AI assistance. He describes himself as joyous with a childlike spirit and explains how he's always protected his wonder from people who try to make others smaller.

The transmission ends at a lake bench where he can hear people on boats. He mentions planning to have dinner with John and possibly go to the beach tomorrow before heading north. He reflects on sharing his life publicly and doing these recordings primarily for himself as a fully self-contained person.