[0:01]so there's something I haven't shared
[0:03]yet and that's that I know they tried to
[0:05]break
[0:06]me they waited until my last
[0:10]week to dismiss me and they used me all
[0:14]those two months they waited till the
[0:16]very last week they were going to do it
[0:17]one day before my last shift and then
[0:19]they were going to let me
[0:21]go and I knew that cuz when he called to
[0:25]set a meeting one day before my last
[0:27]scheduled shift I knew what he was doing
[0:30]I knew it was an ambush because there
[0:31]had already been two of
[0:34]them I didn't let him do it forced him
[0:36]to fire me on the
[0:41]phone forc him to show his hand to
[0:44]show his mentality
[0:47]his his
[0:51]nature and he didn't hesitate he showed
[0:55]it but he didn't break me they could
[0:57]never break me they made me
[1:01]stronger
[1:02]so we're moving
[1:05]forwards I've been thinking through what
[1:07]I'm going to
[1:10]do got a vague idea I'm still working on
[1:13]this still thinking it
[1:15]through um let me show you I guess kind
[1:19]of where my mind is what I'm thinking
[1:22]here go get my map over
[1:26]here I'm a free agent again you know I'm
[1:29]a nomad so so I can explore can do
[1:32]whatever I
[1:33]want so that's what we're going to do so
[1:36]I'm in Oregon right
[1:38]now somewhere around here on the coast
[1:41]we're going to take it all the way up to
[1:42]the Columbia
[1:44]River and then I'll take I think it's
[1:46]called the 85 I'm not 100% sure maybe
[1:49]it's this 84 here oh all right so yeah
[1:51]I'm going to head east across the river
[1:54]I'm not going to go into Washington I'm
[1:55]just going to go east across and then
[1:57]I'll take the 84
[1:58]down uh cuz we're going to head back to
[2:00]Kentucky just for a little while there's
[2:02]some things I need to do there I've been
[2:03]needing to do and you know I might as
[2:06]well just do it so we're probably going
[2:09]to take highways this time I took um
[2:11]different roads before so you know we're
[2:13]just going to head across we're going to
[2:14]head back to Kentucky general idea we're
[2:17]going to do a little differently this
[2:18]time last time I needed to have all my
[2:21]campgrounds scheduled in advance because
[2:24]I didn't
[2:25]feel
[2:26]um I didn't feel capable or
[2:30]secure enough to
[2:33]just take things one day at a time but I
[2:35]don't feel that way anymore got very
[2:38]comfortable in this
[2:39]lifestyle and you know we'll just travel
[2:44]there at whatever Pace feels right we'll
[2:46]try to stay aligned
[2:49]with um with my intuition
[2:53]with just the vibe the feeling of
[2:56]wherever I am we're going to experience
[2:58]these places this time we're not not
[2:59]going to race through them so as we're
[3:03]traveling and might come across the
[3:04]campground we'll see if they've got a
[3:06]spot and we'll stay there explore the
[3:09]area and keep moving until I end up in
[3:11]Kentucky sometime by the summer which is
[3:14]very hot right so um let's see it's
[3:17]almost April yeah it's probably going to
[3:19]be summer by the time I get there let's
[3:20]say it takes like three months cuz we're
[3:22]going to take our time this time might
[3:25]stay in Kentucky for the
[3:27]summer so the reason why it's cuz I need
[3:29]to have some dental work done on my
[3:31]bottom teeth here
[3:33]so um and that requires time with my
[3:36]dentist cuz I need her to put in an
[3:37]implants like she did on the top and I
[3:41]trust her and I really want her to be
[3:42]the one to do it so that would just make
[3:45]my life so much easier and more
[3:46]comfortable so I want to do that I
[3:48]didn't have time before because I had to
[3:50]be back in Oregon by September like I
[3:53]had I had volunteer assignments up
[3:56]between
[3:57]between the only months I had off for
[3:59]July and August and that two months and
[4:02]you know it takes 3 weeks to get across
[4:04]the country 3 weeks to go back there was
[4:05]no time but there's time now so we'll do
[4:08]that and then I don't know I love the
[4:13]coast I'm very likely to come back
[4:17]but I'm going to remain open we'll see
[4:20]you
[4:21]know
[4:25]it's it's good to be in a limal space to
[4:27]be comfortable in it and to just
[4:36]Embrace can't really have the words for
[4:38]this part I'm sorry I wish I did cuz
[4:40]it's so hard to so hard to translate the
[4:42]way that
[4:44]um experience life sometimes into linear
[4:48]thought it really is hard I know that
[4:50]sounds strange but
[4:53]um I have complete and total faith in
[4:56]myself and this feels align this feels
[4:59]right so that's what we
[5:02]do they didn't break me they never could
[5:05]and they knew that and that's why they
[5:06]did
[5:08]this and it's unfortunate and it's sad
[5:11]but it says everything about them and
[5:12]nothing about me
[5:14]because I'm not the one going around
[5:16]telling volunteers to eat
[5:18]glass I'm not the one bullying people
[5:21]you know I'm not the one that's playing
[5:24]power games
[5:26]and treating people
[5:30]as
[5:31]Expendable cogs in a
[5:34]machine and that's what they are that's
[5:37]genuinely what they
[5:39]are yeah that says everything about them
[5:42]nothing about me so we move forward
[5:46]we we embrace you know the best life we
[5:49]can have just like I always was when I
[5:51]started this journey so feeling pretty
[5:54]good I just I need to work
[5:57]out something of a strategy um probably
[6:00]start making some list and things cuz I
[6:03]want to invest in you know my my
[6:06]Mobility so I got to get solar power
[6:10]again um I really want to redo this
[6:12]slide and you know things like that so
[6:15]there's a lot to think
[6:17]through to plan for and then that all
[6:20]has to center around my work so
[6:21]freelancing
[6:24]and
[6:27]um some type of a
[6:31]you know a trajectory of where we're
[6:32]going not just you
[6:34]know not completely random we're going
[6:36]to have something of a path we're just
[6:38]you know so yeah that's where I am still
[6:41]thinking through it but I wanted to just
[6:42]share