[0:02]hello
[0:03]YouTube it's a Saturday night
[0:09]here it's a part of my appearance I did
[0:12]not shower today or
[0:15]yesterday my days off and I have been
[0:17]very lazy
[0:19]so I haven't really done anything except
[0:22]did some cleaning in here today I did my
[0:24]laundry I cleaned my
[0:26]tanks um meant to make in the shower
[0:29]earlier but I was cleaning my tanks just
[0:31]didn't get around to
[0:33]it wanted to show off my eyebrow
[0:36]piercing cuz I did pierce it a second
[0:38]time and I haven't shared that yet how
[0:42]cool is
[0:44]that it is so
[0:47]awesome every time I look at it oh my
[0:50]God I absolutely love it like I was
[0:54]originally going to get it over here but
[0:56]I was like you know what I really want
[0:58]that in my vision
[1:00]let's just put there where I always see
[1:03]it oh man it is just the coolest thing
[1:06]to me I I don't even know why I love it
[1:08]so much I just I just do and then I
[1:11]pierced this year one more time because
[1:13]I was like these are so elegant like I
[1:16]love these little
[1:18]studs and it just was like you know what
[1:21]let's go up a little bit higher I almost
[1:23]thought about get one here too but I bet
[1:26]you I end up doing that
[1:28]someday oh and then I did find finally
[1:30]get the Hoops up here I don't know if
[1:31]you can see it oh it's kind of hard to
[1:34]see I have to look at the video
[1:36]afterwards on that
[1:38]one
[1:40]so oh this is the funniest thing so in
[1:45]my last video I said I was going to
[1:47]pierce my my Naval something I had done
[1:50]when I was way younger like 30 years ago
[1:52]and I thought I had a little scarf from
[1:54]that it turns out it was still pierced
[1:56]for 30 years I still have this piercing
[2:00]and like it wasn't closed up or anything
[2:03]it was just a naal piercing and the
[2:05]piercer just put an earring in it like
[2:08]it
[2:09]was I mean I I just I how did I not know
[2:13]that like I just thought it was a scar
[2:15]or something I just that just blows my
[2:18]mind like I just don't even like I
[2:21]didn't even have it that long like when
[2:22]I first did it I think I only had it for
[2:25]like a month or so she was saying it had
[2:27]to be a whole year
[2:30]but there's no way I don't remember
[2:31]having a naval piercing for that long
[2:35]so that was fascinating to me but so I
[2:38]asked her I was like well cuz like if I
[2:41]didn't like these eyebrow piercings I
[2:42]thought I could just take them out I
[2:44]might have a little tiny scar it won't
[2:45]be a big deal and that's what she had
[2:48]told me the first time I was there but
[2:49]then after discovering I still had that
[2:51]piercing I was like that happened there
[2:53]too and she's like yeah that can happen
[2:55]takes like a year though she that's what
[2:57]she's
[2:58]saying I don't know
[3:02]but I love these piercings
[3:04]I I never getting rid of they're so cool
[3:08]and my ey yeah still bruised worse
[3:12]probably cuz I pierced it the second
[3:15]time it's been a while too cuz I got the
[3:18]first one like 11 12 days
[3:21]ago so I've never had a black guy ever
[3:24]in my life I have no idea how they long
[3:26]they last for
[3:28]so um
[3:31]yeah I don't really have a lot to talk
[3:33]about
[3:36]um you know I just want to say hi I
[3:41]guess um let's see last update I was
[3:46]still uh still it was the end of
[3:48]February so I was still working in the
[3:50]Welcome Center I
[3:51]had
[3:53]um I'm not sure the exact date but
[3:56]basically on the last day of the month
[3:58]um the 28th I worked a double that day
[4:01]and then I stayed an hour past that to
[4:03]help a woman from
[4:04]Canada
[4:07]who
[4:09]um just needed a campsite and there were
[4:12]some issues and I just stayed with her I
[4:14]helped her until I could get her a
[4:15]campsite that made me feel really good I
[4:18]felt really good about
[4:21]that there something
[4:25]about I saw her the next day and she
[4:28]thanked me you know and it was
[4:31]just you feel really good helping people
[4:32]you know really enjoyed my time in
[4:36]there um cleaning yards now it's not so
[4:39]bad
[4:40]it's it's kind of fun really well I W
[4:43]want to say fun but
[4:45]more
[4:48]um what would be the right word for
[4:53]that once I clean out a campsite and I
[4:56]clean out the Y was got a rewarding
[4:59]feeling to and I don't know what the
[5:00]right I guess rewarding I mean it just
[5:03]um which is probably funny considering
[5:05]my whole life I've been a programmer and
[5:07]it's like I went from being a
[5:11]like I mean I had a very good career I I
[5:15]made a lot of money and I gave it all up
[5:18]a year ago to move into this
[5:20]RV and know I'm volunteering for free
[5:24]cleaning Yurts I mean that is a big
[5:26]change
[5:28]right and
[5:30]I call it rewarding I
[5:33]just I know that for a lot of people
[5:35]that's got to be hard to
[5:38]understand I see the value in the
[5:43]work still I got to figure out a
[5:45]solution because you making money that's
[5:48]important
[5:50]and you know I left off my savings for
[5:54]like eight months and you know I've gone
[5:57]through that and
[6:00]um where was I going with this give me a
[6:06]second oh I know I was going with this
[6:10]so the whole time I was living off my
[6:12]savings I was trying to think through
[6:14]what am I going to do because I live in
[6:16]an NRV and I have to make money I don't
[6:20]need as much money because you know my
[6:22]expenses are much
[6:23]lower but you know I've got some primary
[6:26]bills that have to be paid I have to pay
[6:27]for my RV my Jeep their insurance on
[6:29]those and you know food basic stuff like
[6:35]that um way different than my old
[6:40]life but you know I am a nomad now so I
[6:44]move around and you can't just go get a
[6:47]job somewhere like go work at a grocery
[6:49]store or a gas station or
[6:51]something
[6:54]um you know cuz a month or two later
[6:56]you're somewhere else and
[7:01]just I could never figure that out I'm
[7:03]still trying to figure that out it's
[7:06]like it keeps coming back to I have no
[7:08]choice I have to remain a freelancer
[7:12]and
[7:18]um that's where I am I finally got
[7:21]access to my Guru account again I was
[7:23]locked out of that for like I don't
[7:26]remember how it happened oh um
[7:30]well they fixed it for me I just I had
[7:32]lost access to it because I couldn't
[7:33]remember the login details it had been
[7:35]so long
[7:38]and now I just I got to do a few more
[7:41]steps and then I could start looking for
[7:42]jobs on there so that's what I'm going
[7:44]to
[7:46]do so I guess I'm just going to be doing
[7:48]more programming um oh my last update I
[7:51]was still working with my ex boss but
[7:53]we're kind of on pause right now that's
[7:55]recent that happened
[7:57]like um
[8:00]well at the start of the month so there
[8:02]just so much going on in my head I'm
[8:03]sorry if this seems a little scattered
[8:04]I'm kind of processing I
[8:07]guess um was a little unexpected I was
[8:10]hoping to keep working with them but
[8:12]maybe in the future it's more just um
[8:14]there's there's a there's a reason for
[8:16]it it's just um we just needed to pause
[8:19]for a while and hopefully that's
[8:24]temporary I'm really glad that we worked
[8:26]things out cuz I mean I worked for this
[8:27]man for 10 years and and you know I
[8:30]managed an entire development team I
[8:34]managed I managed dozens of programmers
[8:37]and hundreds of them over
[8:39]years and it was a stressful
[8:44]job
[8:47]um largely because I felt
[8:50]like well I did everything I literally
[8:53]did everything it was like I was a
[8:54]oneman show I had to do everything and
[8:57]that that's a lot to put on somebody's
[8:59]should ERS and I did it for a very long
[9:02]time
[9:06]so yeah that was the start of you know
[9:11]back when I got started this RV life it
[9:14]was I needed a break from all of that
[9:17]and it's been long enough it's time for
[9:19]me to um reposition myself
[9:24]and
[9:26]um you know and always knew I could like
[9:29]I never worried about it
[9:32]because my whole life has been this way
[9:40]where I just know myself I know that
[9:45]there is no situation
[9:48]that I can't navigate I've I've been
[9:51]doing it my whole life I have complete
[9:53]and total trust in
[9:54]myself and so I knew no matter how
[10:01]far um trying to think of the right
[10:03]words of this this a little
[10:08]complicated how far I stretched it you
[10:10]know to the point
[10:12]of most people will be absolutely
[10:15]nervous right now or I'm not you know
[10:18]and um it's because I just know myself I
[10:21]know that I'll navigate I'll be fine I
[10:23]complete faith in
[10:25]myself um some things happened this
[10:28]month that
[10:31]reaffirm that for
[10:34]me
[10:36]um being careful there
[10:39]because I've been trying very hard to
[10:41]deescalate some situations
[10:44]and I'm
[10:46]hoping that I finally
[10:51]have that's all I was ever trying to
[10:55]do um
[11:00]I'm doing
[11:01]good go back to work tomorrow
[11:10][Music]
[11:13]um
[11:16]yeah
[11:18]um I don't know what to say at this
[11:21]point
[11:23]because I'm just I'm navigating a lot
[11:27]and I guess you could call a linal space
[11:31]we've talked about that
[11:32]before I thrive in them I thrive in
[11:36]linal spaces and that's where I am right
[11:39]now between what is and what will be
[11:44]and you know
[11:56]there's isn't my eyebrow piercing
[11:58]awesome
[12:00]let's just end with that because this
[12:02]freaking awesome
[12:04]late I never imagine myself doing
[12:13]that yeah I hope everybody's
[12:17]well some of you have been following me
[12:19]for a
[12:21]year 650
[12:26]videos we've been through a lot
[12:32]um I do see what's happening in the
[12:34]world oh my
[12:37]God told
[12:40]yall
[12:41]and you
[12:46]know all we can do is navigate it
[12:49]that's a core tenant
[12:52]of what I try to teach on here is
[12:56]resilience and
[12:59]facing
[13:01]reality you know being cleare eyed about
[13:03]things
[13:04]and positioning yourself so that you can
[13:11]navigate
[13:17]what's just never
[13:20]never where am I trying to go with
[13:24]this I mean I've I've said off this
[13:27]before right so
[13:37]we're on limo state right now let's be
[13:39]honest about that like it just is
[13:43]because there is no way to know
[13:52]um I hope that everybody's doing
[13:56]well remember
[14:01]that you can always choose Joy you know
[14:04]that's always a choice that you can make
[14:07]and that's the choice I'm making I'm
[14:10]going to leave it at that cuz I'm just
[14:12]rambling I hope you all have a good
[14:14]weekend