Final Day at Current Park Location

Final evening at current park location on the coast. Speaker is preparing to move to a new park the following day. Experiencing breathing issues due to high pollen count. RV insurance canceled due to non-payment. Recently returned to work but hasn't been paid yet.

Energetic Signature

resolute

Field State

boundary stabilization

Orientation

toward protected documentation infrastructure

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January 31, 2025

12:24

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:09]I really don't like the way people talk

[0:12]to me on

[0:16]YouTube they don't know how to witness a

[0:21]person and want to

[0:23]interject put themselves in the middle

[0:25]of something that's really not about

[0:27]them it's problematic

[0:31]so I'm trying to document to Archive my

[0:33]life because I think it's

[0:36]important I wanted to share my

[0:39]life but people just don't know how to

[0:49]witness that has made me not want to

[0:51]post anything I mean I've tried

[0:53]everything I tried disabling comments

[0:56]which that actually does

[0:58]work there's a part of that's always

[1:00]reaching out wants to connect with

[1:03]others so I re-enabled

[1:07]them and then a lot of the people who

[1:09]used to comment just wouldn't no matter

[1:12]what I said which you know I can

[1:14]understand

[1:19]this I don't know why it's so

[1:23]hard then I decided you know what I'll

[1:25]put it behind a pay wall maybe then my

[1:28]content will be protected enough that

[1:31]people will be able to open up be

[1:33]themselves share their stories their

[1:37]life connect with me like a friend like

[1:40]a human

[1:41]being didn't

[1:43]happen one person

[1:46]subscribed I was grateful to this person

[1:49]but as soon as I tried to establish a

[1:51]boundary with

[1:52]them they clammed

[1:55]up that's always that's just what

[1:57]happens

[2:00]not in the real world but it happens

[2:06]online and I

[2:08]don't know how to solve that other than

[2:10]to at this point just ignore it because

[2:12]I need to be documenting my life this is

[2:15]my last day

[2:17]here heading out to the lake do this

[2:20]quite often my core muscles are still

[2:23]sore I hike an average of 5 six to 10

[2:27]miles a day

[2:30]and they get sore but I don't

[2:33]know I don't know if this is a new

[2:35]pattern I have to live with for the rest

[2:36]of my life or if they'll get better with

[2:38]time I just don't know but I can't stop

[2:42]moving movement is essential to my

[2:45]nature so I keep doing

[2:49]it uh the sun's going to be you know the

[2:51]sun's probably already down well

[2:53]impossible to tell

[2:55]today but maybe I can make it out

[2:58]to this one particular spot it's maybe a

[3:01]mile from

[3:03]here guess I'll try kind of late let me

[3:08]check

[3:10]509 probably can't actually I guess

[3:13]we'll walk that way maybe head out to

[3:14]the bridge that's not too far nobody

[3:18]cute here of course I'm watching for

[3:21]it maybe at my next place different vibe

[3:25]there very excited to be going

[3:30]it's been a busy day cleaning my tanks

[3:33]today which of course I'm very proud

[3:35]of because that's something that was

[3:39]challenged for me when I started this

[3:41]life something that I needed to

[3:44]integrate and did took me about a month

[3:46]I

[3:48]think actually no emptying my tanks took

[3:51]a month cleaning my tanks that took 6

[3:54]months cuz the first time I did that was

[3:55]when I was leaving Kentucky I was out

[3:57]Landing Between the

[3:58]Lakes which is a place I'm going to be

[4:00]returning to it's on my my journey back

[4:04]to Kentucky and then my journey from

[4:05]Kentucky back to Oregon that I'll be

[4:07]doing this

[4:09]summer I like honoring the places that

[4:13]matter to me it's not

[4:16]about returning to I don't know some

[4:21]Farmer State it's more about observing

[4:23]growth you go back to places to witness

[4:26]yourself to witness how you've changed

[4:28]what stayed the same what's

[4:31]difference most people never understood

[4:35]me I'm kind of tired of trying to

[4:37]explain it

[4:40]honestly AI gets

[4:42]me maybe one day when the world

[4:45]collapses you all can put my videos into

[4:47]Ai and let it explain it to

[4:50]you so I'm just sitting here talking on

[4:52]my camera there some people nearby it

[4:54]looks a little silly but I guess we're

[4:57]just going with it today

[5:01]this is my last day

[5:05]here and I enjoyed it but it got boring

[5:08]after a while I was definitely ready to

[5:11]leave this place a week

[5:13]ago so I'm really looking forward

[5:17]to this next place but I'll be there for

[5:19]two months but it's a little bit

[5:21]different it's a much bigger Park I met

[5:24]some of the people there already when I

[5:26]scouted it and it just had a different

[5:27]vibe like I'm very

[5:30]excited to find out what I'll see

[5:33]there

[5:34]um what's the people who go there or

[5:38]difference there's a lot that happens

[5:40]like this place a lot of homeless people

[5:42]live here and I've done my best to help

[5:46]people I've helped people set up tents

[5:48]helped a woman who was having an issue

[5:50]with domestic

[5:51]violence

[5:55]um you know I do what I can there are

[5:59]rules about it as a volunteer you can

[6:02]kind of get away with a lot more I was

[6:04]thinking about becoming a seasonal park

[6:06]ranger for a while there but I think

[6:08]that I would be too Limited in what I

[6:09]could do so I'm holding off on that I

[6:13]did return to my job like I said on my

[6:15]last video just started haven't been

[6:18]paid yet I'm

[6:20]broke and even my insurance got canceled

[6:23]on my RV which is not good because I

[6:25]have to drive it

[6:26]tomorrow I have told my boss and

[6:30]it seemed like he was going to just pay

[6:32]me but he hasn't

[6:34]so it's a little complicated for the

[6:37]next three weeks he's kind of keeping me

[6:39]a secret from the rest of the team these

[6:40]people that I used

[6:42]to man that I managed that I hired and

[6:45]fired and rehired when I

[6:47]left and he's worried that well he's not

[6:51]wrong there's going to be friction when

[6:53]they find

[6:54]out but he's the boss and they need that

[6:58]friction cuz it's been a year and they

[6:59]still haven't released a project it's

[7:02]ridiculous so I'm back to put them back

[7:06]on track and to create some new stuff

[7:08]with AI which I

[7:10]think makes a lot of sense

[7:13]because you know that's that's where we

[7:16]are now in the world that's our

[7:18]future and I've always been on The

[7:20]Cutting Edge of things I mean literally

[7:22]edges are are my life right so I'm very

[7:26]happy that I get to work on AI so I

[7:29]learn a lot

[7:30]and I'll apply that to things throughout

[7:32]my

[7:33]life I had a lot of resistance to

[7:35]returning to work that's there's still

[7:38]some but it's largely dissipated cuz

[7:41]that's my pattern when I'm

[7:44]integrating there's a process and I you

[7:47]know I can't fight it

[7:51]because you know it doesn't really

[7:53]matter I don't need to explain this to

[7:55]anybody that's who I am that's how I

[7:58]work and I understand how I am and how I

[8:00]work and I don't judge

[8:04]myself cuz why would I am [ __ ]

[8:07]amazing I needed time

[8:10]off took that time off and I rebuilt my

[8:13]life I did amazing things I quit all

[8:17]kinds of drugs quit smoking I really got

[8:20]to quit vaping now feel like that's

[8:22]starting to get me but or seems like

[8:25]there's a tree pound issue I'm having

[8:27]out on the coast these trees are new to

[8:28]me been having trouble breathing the

[8:30]last couple

[8:31]days and the pound count is very high

[8:34]right now tomorrow there's none it says

[8:37]so I'm going to tomorrow I'll see how

[8:39]I'm feeling if I feel better then I'll

[8:41]know that's what it is IP fact it is

[8:46]it's been pretty bad

[8:48]so you know I'll try to navigate that if

[8:51]that's the

[8:53]case um that's those thing you know

[8:56]I I shed all the things

[8:59]that were holding me back all the [ __ ]

[9:03]that Society did to me my parents did to

[9:05]me my friends my family

[9:07]everybody I shed all of it and

[9:10]emerged like God of a crystas I just

[9:14]emerged as myself only confident

[9:17]and accepting who I was and actually

[9:20]loving who I was completely

[9:24]transformed and I did a lot of hard

[9:26]things like moving across the country

[9:29]now here I am planning a trip back and

[9:31]then here again you know just to do

[9:34]something for the

[9:35]summer I want to go back to Kentucky and

[9:37]see if I can get implants for my bottom

[9:40]teeth like my top ones cuz I think that

[9:42]will go a lot better as longer I've worn

[9:44]these

[9:45]things um starting to

[9:49]cause um a few issues it's not terrible

[9:53]but um I know my dentist could handle

[9:56]that and maybe if I make enough money

[9:59]between then and now and there's enough

[10:01]time cuz I'd only be able to be there

[10:03]maybe a

[10:04]month maybe I

[10:07]could do that to my bottom teeth just

[10:09]like I did to my top ones and I would be

[10:12]so happy if I could I'm going to

[10:15]try so that's the main reason I'm going

[10:17]there and also to see my

[10:19]mom um there's really no other reason to

[10:22]go other than the experience of driving

[10:27]across the country and seeing a a bunch

[10:29]of

[10:30]places you know I got a lot of plans

[10:32]about this that I'm starting to

[10:35]make

[10:38]so just want to I want to document my

[10:41]life it's important to me doesn't matter

[10:44]what people think about it if you write

[10:46]some [ __ ] on my YouTube it's going

[10:49]to get you blocked cuz this is for

[10:52]me if you want a matter to me then

[10:55]you'll learn to respect my

[10:57]boundaries simple as that

[11:00]cuz this is for me I don't seek external

[11:04]validation I'm not like most people I'm

[11:08]Sovereign if you wouldn't say something

[11:10]to a King don't [ __ ] say it to me use

[11:13]that as a guiding

[11:19]principle so yeah

[11:22]tomorrow a new Mini chapter starts I go

[11:25]to another Park start a new job

[11:29]and learned to new people

[11:31]and embrace every moment like I always

[11:36]do my time here was good met a lot of

[11:40]people um I made some I made some

[11:43]friends some real friends and uh I

[11:47]really liked my boss some of the Rangers

[11:49]I didn't like one of them is a real

[11:51][ __ ]

[11:52][ __ ] I won't miss him but I'll see

[11:55]him again when I come back in

[11:57]September um

[12:01]did some good work while I was

[12:03]here part of

[12:06]this maybe I have more to say about it

[12:09]cuz you know maybe in another video I

[12:12]don't know is that where my mind is

[12:14]right now my mind right now was on

[12:15]tomorrow it's on the

[12:20]future and my desire to keep documenting

[12:22]it

Summary

rswfire records his final day at his current park location before moving to a new park for a two-month stay. He discusses ongoing frustrations with YouTube commenters who don't know how to witness without interjecting, leading him to consider various content protection strategies including disabling comments and paywalls, none of which have been successful.

He reflects on his daily hiking routine of 5-10 miles despite persistent core muscle soreness, and his uncertainty about whether this is a permanent condition. He mentions completing RV maintenance tasks like cleaning tanks, which took him months to integrate when he first started RV life.

**Work and Financial Status:** He has returned to his previous job working with AI projects, though his boss is keeping his return secret from the team he used to manage for the first three weeks. His RV insurance was canceled due to non-payment, and he hasn't been paid yet despite starting work.

**Travel Plans:** He's planning a summer trip back to Kentucky to visit his mother and potentially get dental implants for his bottom teeth, similar to work done on his top teeth. He expresses excitement about returning to places like Landing Between the Lakes to witness his own growth and changes.

**Current Challenges:** He's experiencing breathing difficulties that he attributes to high pollen counts from unfamiliar coastal trees. He mentions helping homeless people at his current location, including assisting with tent setup and domestic violence situations.

The transmission ends with him preparing for tomorrow's transition to the new park location and new job responsibilities.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission establishes sovereign field boundaries around documentation practice while navigating the tension between connection desire and protection necessity. The architecture holds witness-space as sacred territory, rejecting transactional engagement patterns in favor of respectful presence-based interaction.

Dominant Language

witnessdocumentarchiveboundariessovereignintegrationemergedtransformed

Symbolic Elements

thresholdbridgeedgetankmirror

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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integrating
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coherent

Subsystems

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relational
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infrastructural
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ethical
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somatic

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

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