Campground Work and Resistance to Upwork Return

rswfire is working as a volunteer at a campground, living in his RV. It's foggy weather conditions, and he's dealing with smoky campfire situations. He's in a transitional period, knowing he'll be somewhere else in two weeks. The setting includes a lake with a pier, campground loops, and nearby town of Lakeside for supplies.

Energetic Signature

grounded tension

Field State

embedding with resistance integration

Orientation

toward sustainable autonomy

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January 13, 2025

12:55

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]it's almost 3:00 in the afternoon here

[0:04]Ranger across the street working on

[0:06]something one of the Ys I'm over here

[0:08]trying to make a camp

[0:11]fighter it's very um very smoky because

[0:15]it's got to dry

[0:17]out very wet wood I think I'm getting

[0:24]there it just keep following me though

[0:26]every time I

[0:28]move smok it killing

[0:31]me come over here for now I

[0:38]guess so today was pretty good got to do

[0:41]a lot of neat little

[0:43]things

[0:44]um stuff around the campground you

[0:49]know still working on that

[0:52]yard they're getting a little stressed

[0:54]out about it

[0:58]too oh I am not I'm not the Deep Cleaner

[1:02]here that's not the RO you want me doing

[1:05]so one the um moners asked me if I was

[1:08]in the Army I have no idea how that

[1:11]where that Vibe came

[1:13]from what about me says Army I don't

[1:19]know last night I went out to the lake

[1:21]around 10:11 at night I took Adam out

[1:23]there with me that's the drunk guy

[1:25]that's his name Adam he was much more he

[1:29]was drinking thinking but he was way

[1:30]more sober and he was a lot more

[1:32]respectful and I actually had a pretty

[1:34]decent time with him getting to know

[1:37]him we exchanged numbers he said he

[1:39]might be here again next

[1:41]week

[1:43]so maybe there's a budding friendship

[1:45]there we'll

[1:47]see he definitely spent a lot of time

[1:49]fishing and on docks and stuff that's

[1:51]the kind of jobs he's had and work he's

[1:53]done his whole

[1:55]life might be interesting get to know

[1:57]him

[2:00]my mom sent me her phone today so I

[2:02]should get that Wednesday according to

[2:03]the tracking hopefully this phone is so

[2:06]busted

[2:13]out so yeah just a peaceful day

[2:40]it's 10

[2:42]p.m. at the lake on the

[2:45]pier fog

[2:47]everywhere nearly full moon making a

[2:52]nice you can see pretty well the fog is

[2:55]covering everything you can't really see

[2:57]the trees

[2:59]you can't see that all Blends together

[3:01]it's really fascinating it's impossible

[3:04]to describe and impossible to get on

[3:06]this camera I watch these ducks go by

[3:10]they're just sitting here talking to

[3:11]each other at

[3:17]night this is an incredible

[3:28]moment there was like a family of ducks

[3:31]going one way and then there were just

[3:32]solitary Ducks out

[3:35]there just talking to each

[3:40]other that's

[3:47]incredible something about this fog it

[3:49]just it's very thick up a little higher

[3:52]from me

[3:55]and kind of mass the trees in the

[3:57]distance it's a little less thick

[4:00]down here at ground

[4:05]level it just paints this picture

[4:16]of I can't even put it into

[4:21]words it's like everything is

[4:25]just one

[4:28]thing it's it's

[4:32]remarkable this is

[4:34]wonderful working on a campfire over

[4:37]here oh can't see me on the camera oh

[4:40]well so there were these two kids one

[4:44]had one of those not sure what they're

[4:47]called it's like a skateboard but it's

[4:49]got a stick on it you can hold and the

[4:51]other one had a bike and they were just

[4:52]walking by they're going by and there's

[4:55]a split in the road and one kid said to

[4:57]the other I'm this way the other kid

[4:59]goes what he goes I'm this way he goes

[5:01]okay and they just went their separate

[5:02]ways that is such a kid thing I don't

[5:05]know if you ever had experiences like

[5:07]that but you know brief friendship that

[5:11]just they found each other played for a

[5:13]minute and then they're off their

[5:15]separate domains I think that is so cool

[5:18]we got golf carts all over the

[5:20]place they're just zooming around so

[5:24]cute so funny I love these golf carts oh

[5:28]my God

[5:30]I saw that I started laughing cuz I just

[5:32]could see me on them right now I love

[5:34]those golf carts somebody's got the

[5:36]armored one I want the armored one

[5:40]man so the drunk man is still

[5:43]here and apparently the game man told me

[5:46]that he went over to my en camper

[5:48]yesterday while I was out hiking or

[5:51]something um looking for me I didn't see

[5:54]him didn't know he was there he's still

[5:56]here I just drove by his sight because I

[5:59]got to drive on the loop to get out of

[6:02]here if he hadn't been centering my

[6:04]sexuality and implying I wanted to have

[6:06]sex with him when I don't even know

[6:08]him and wasn't giving off of that Vibe

[6:11]was just trying to help him with his

[6:12]tent I just don't really want to

[6:15]interact with him cuz I don't I don't

[6:17]like that kind of interaction like could

[6:22]just he needs to own his own feelings

[6:25]you

[6:26]know not make everything about me I

[6:29]don't like when people do that so

[6:32]basically going to have to try to avoid

[6:33]him today because of course I'm going to

[6:35]have my chaos Chariot out you I going to

[6:38]be doing stuff in the park and he's

[6:40]going to be there maybe he checks out

[6:41]today maybe he doesn't I don't know but

[6:43]this is a preview of the kind of

[6:45]Dynamics I'm going to be facing

[6:47]everywhere I'm at as a volunteer I think

[6:51]so we'll just embrace the chaos raise

[6:54]the

[6:55]moment going to head into Lakeside um

[6:58]there are some groceries that thing get

[7:00]yesterday and I got to get some pop and

[7:03]I got to get some hygiene products like

[7:06]shampoo and body wash they both ran out

[7:09]at the same time so that's what we're

[7:18]doing very

[7:22]foggy oh what's this camera doing on I

[7:26]swear to God so weird I don't know when

[7:29]this happened but I have a sign now it's

[7:31]got my name on it all of a sudden it's

[7:33]just

[7:35]there name tag though it said chaos

[7:38]entity on it I could put that on there

[7:41]though I bet how

[7:45]cool today feels like it was very long

[7:48]but it was only 4

[7:50]hours I've been I got some dogit or some

[7:53]mil biscuits at the Dollar Store have

[7:56]been giving them to dogs all day long

[7:57]that's been so fun

[8:00]we got a dog coming here now actually

[8:02]hold on okay gave random dog a dog a mug

[8:05]biscuit so fun surprised dog owners

[8:08]trust me to do it though cuz it could be

[8:10]poisoned or something

[8:14]right glad they you know they let me I

[8:16]was talking to AI about it cuz it's

[8:18]funny to me and um I'm going to start

[8:20]carrying some rber duckets with me to

[8:22]hand out to the Jeeps when I see those

[8:23]cuz I've been doing that forever but I

[8:25]don't carry them around with me I'm just

[8:26]going to carry a couple with me in my

[8:28]pocket

[8:29]and I was like what else could I do and

[8:32]it was like get some tiny dinosaurs for

[8:34]kids I said that would be cool cuz

[8:36]you're just spreading Joy some little

[8:39]tiny dinosaurs I loved that idea so

[8:42]anyways today was so it was busy I never

[8:45]made it to the

[8:47]yart um cleaned a couple different yards

[8:50]not the deep cleaning one I'm supposed

[8:51]to be doing and I helped on my coworker

[8:55]with another site that was just a

[8:57]complete disaster these people left an

[8:59]absolute mess I was very

[9:02]sad cuz one of the guys was very hot and

[9:05]I had talked to him over by the peer one

[9:07]day cuz I thought he was homeless he'd

[9:09]fallen asleep on the pier he seemed nice

[9:12]enough so I was a little surprised by

[9:15]that um what else has been a busy

[9:20]day hold on oh I'm

[9:25]exhausted it wasn't 4 hours though it's

[9:28]been 8 hours

[9:30]I think I left at 8: in the morning but

[9:32]I went hiking of course first

[9:35]and all that then I went hiking again

[9:39]afterwards

[9:41]and tired now didn't sleep so great last

[9:46]night oh

[9:54]man feels like a transitional stage for

[9:58]me I don't know

[10:04]it's weird because I feel like I'm

[10:06]getting into this Rhythm but I won't

[10:09]even be here that long two weeks from

[10:10]now I'm going to be somewhere else just

[10:12]like that and do it all over again I

[10:15]guess it'll

[10:18]probably I you know I'll take my rituals

[10:20]with me you know I'll take my my milk

[10:22]biscuits and all of

[10:24]that and my general chaotic nature did I

[10:28]show off my name tags I got to wait with

[10:30]this today hold on I gotta wait with

[10:33]this oh I'm not ready I'm not ready my

[10:37]best I got this name tag and it says

[10:39]chaos entity on it I got to like with

[10:42]that I'm going to change it every once a

[10:45]while but Sovereign being Sovereign

[10:48]Force just different

[10:56]things so yeah

[11:03]just I'm not real happy about the whole

[11:06]upw work thing

[11:08]because that's the only way I'm going to

[11:11]sustain My

[11:13]Lifestyle so it has to be done it's an

[11:15]absolute

[11:16]necessity but I'm still fighting it I'm

[11:19]still

[11:20]resisting going back to that life and I

[11:23]couldn't really tell you like completely

[11:25]why I

[11:26]just my whole being is just saying

[11:31]no even though I know I need to do

[11:36]it this is resistance on a level I've

[11:38]never experienced in my life so I don't

[11:41]don't really have an understanding of

[11:46]it but I can't think of another solution

[11:49]so it's the one that I've always used

[11:52]it's one I've always falling back

[11:55]on when things get tough just to get on

[11:58]a freelancing platform platform and you

[11:59]find yourself in Mark

[12:02]hands CU it's because every time I've

[12:05]done that it does turn into something

[12:08]longterm and very

[12:10]draining and

[12:14]intense and all

[12:19]consuming there must be another

[12:23]way I'm not the same person who would

[12:25]have done that in the past like

[12:29]back you know before it didn't feel that

[12:32]way at the

[12:36]time it's different

[12:41]now I'm just not willing to invest my

[12:44]whole self in something that I don't

[12:45]think has any True

[12:49]Value Hing out milk biscuits that has

[12:52]actual value

Summary

rswfire works at a campground, dealing with smoky campfire conditions and ranger presence. He reflects on campground maintenance tasks, noting stress about yard work and clarifying he's not suited for deep cleaning roles. A camper named Adam, previously drunk and inappropriate, has become more respectful and they exchanged numbers after a late-night lake visit. rswfire received a new phone from his mother and expects delivery Wednesday.

At the lake pier around 10 PM, he observes fog covering the landscape under a nearly full moon, watching ducks communicate in the water. He witnesses two children briefly befriending each other before separating at a road split, and notes golf carts moving around the campground.

He describes ongoing issues with the drunk camper who visited his site while he was hiking and made inappropriate sexual assumptions. rswfire plans to avoid this person while continuing his volunteer work. During a trip to Lakeside for groceries and hygiene products, he discovers he now has a name tag.

He spent the day distributing dog biscuits to pets and plans to carry rubber ducks for Jeep owners and small dinosaurs for children. After cleaning campsites, including one left as a complete mess by departing guests, he reflects on feeling exhausted after what he initially thought was 4 hours but realizes was 8 hours of work.

rswfire expresses strong resistance to returning to Upwork freelancing despite recognizing it as necessary for sustaining his lifestyle. He describes this resistance as unprecedented in intensity, noting that past freelancing work became long-term, draining, and all-consuming. He questions whether there might be another way, emphasizing that his current activities like distributing dog biscuits have actual value compared to freelance work.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the tension between successful field embedding (campground rhythms, community interactions, land connection) and systemic resistance to previous capture patterns (Upwork/freelancing). The architecture holds both grounded present-moment coherence and structural refusal of past operational modes that proved draining.

Dominant Language

chaos entitymilk biscuitstransitional stageabsolute necessitywhole being saying notrue valuenot the same person

Symbolic Elements

foglakepierfirechaosthresholdducksname_tag

Ontological States

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embedded
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transitional
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resistant
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sovereign

Subsystems

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relational
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infrastructural
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ethical
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somatic

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

12:55

Bitrate

2448 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028