[0:00]look what they have me doing I'm the
[0:02]only one on today I got to clean all
[0:05]those sights and the
[0:07]Earth I'm making some lunch before I get
[0:10]back out there I got one more campsite I
[0:11]need to
[0:12]clean having a good time out there I had
[0:15]four sites today I had to clean two of
[0:18]them up though so I didn't clean those
[0:19]clean one waiting to clean the other one
[0:22]been cruising around the campground
[0:24]and
[0:26]um met some people help some people it's
[0:28]been fun so anyways my cousin told me to
[0:32]get a job said the volunteering wasn't
[0:34]good enough even though volunteering is
[0:35]paying my rent paying my electric paying
[0:37]my water paying my laundry giving me a
[0:40]place to
[0:41]shower and helping me connect with the
[0:43]Park Service integrating into the kind
[0:46]of life I want to
[0:48]have but she don't think about any of
[0:52]that like everybody else like everyone
[0:54]on my YouTube channel when I asked for
[0:56]help I was told to get a
[0:58]job without any consideration for
[1:01]everything else going on in my
[1:05]life and this is why I don't ever ask
[1:07]for help that's why it's hard to receive
[1:10]help that's why I'm always the one
[1:12]giving
[1:13]help CU I don't do that to people
[1:16]somebody needs help I don't make it
[1:18]conditional I
[1:20]don't don't make them feel
[1:25]bad so yeah that's where I am now it's
[1:28]like just a little bit angry because
[1:30]you know you can say no you can say no I
[1:33]I can't help or I don't want to
[1:35]help but don't wrap it into so much
[1:37]patronizing
[1:39] so there's these two women at a
[1:41]campsite who can't get out of their spot
[1:43]because they need a crowbar thing in
[1:45]order to get their jack up and I'm on
[1:48]the phone with my boss trying to figure
[1:49]out how to get them out of here cuz it's
[1:51]time for them to go a couple of hours
[1:53]ago so I can clean the site and finish
[1:55]my day and she's like we can't give them
[1:58]tools I knew this and I told them that
[2:00]and they're like can you just leave it
[2:01]on the ground I'm like I don't even know
[2:03]what this tool looks like can't really
[2:04]help you and I'm getting ready to go and
[2:07]this woman says you shouldn't be working
[2:09]here if you don't know what you're doing
[2:10]honey like what this is I unbelievable
[2:16]like that
[2:18]anyone I mean wow that's just incredibly
[2:21]rude I will never understand people
[2:23]truly I will
[2:25]not so we are done for
[2:28]today I clean the site checked on other
[2:32]sites a whole bunch of
[2:34]times and I did some work in the yard
[2:37]got the curtain up those are screwed in
[2:39]and everything it's
[2:40]weird doesn't seem very efficient to
[2:44]me
[2:46]um
[2:49]yeah now I'm just going to make some
[2:52]dinner
[2:53]and all tonight my post office box in
[2:57]Lakeside I'm so happy about that I got a
[3:00]few
[3:02]groceries probably seems strange that I
[3:04]will get a post office box when I'm so
[3:06]poor but I need it I need one that's
[3:10]nearby I need a place to get them
[3:13]out and establishing my got in the way
[3:17]establishing residency
[3:20]here
[3:21]um girl was important to me plus it
[3:24]wasn't very expensive these little tiny
[3:26]boxes are actually pretty cheap I was
[3:27]surprised by that and if you new
[3:30]automated building oh I should speed up
[3:32]that guy's like why are you going so
[3:34]slow because I'm not thinking I'm
[3:35]thinking I'm not I'm on the highway
[3:36]right now and I think I'm like I'm just
[3:39]driving through town that was so funny
[3:42]sorry I was going like 30 it's like 55
[3:47]here
[3:49]yeah whatever so I'm done for the day
[3:53]thankfully that was a long day I worked
[3:55]from 8
[3:57]until almost 3: only supposed to work 4
[4:00]hours my boss told me never to work more
[4:02]than 4 hours but it ended up being like
[4:05]7 um cuz uh my boss for today she she
[4:10]didn't care she's just like whatever we
[4:13]got campsites to clean stuff so I'm like
[4:17]you know I told her my M she like 4
[4:19]hours she just let that just slide right
[4:22]past and even give it a second like she
[4:25]just like
[4:27]whatever like okay I'm good with it too
[4:31]though cuz I'm making myself part of
[4:33]this Campground I had no problem with
[4:35]that so it's 3:20 right now which means
[4:38]there's time to go
[4:40]out um we got like an hour and a half so
[4:44]before the sun goes down so we'll go do
[4:47]something I mean we'll just walk out to
[4:48]the lake there's nothing else to do
[4:51]but it's better than doing nothing
[4:56]so I can't believe that person was so
[4:58]rude to me like wow it's
[5:01]remarkable that could put you in a bad
[5:03]mood if you want it but you know what I
[5:06]know what that was about her having a
[5:08]bad day cuz she couldn't get out of her
[5:09]campsite
[5:11]expecting everyone else to solve her
[5:14]problems I guess I don't
[5:15]know real bad attitude
[5:21]truly I had so much fun today with that
[5:23]golf carts all right I'm back home just
[5:28]met a really wonderful woman who's
[5:29]camping here um she asked me some
[5:32]questions when I was in I was going to
[5:34]say Doom buggy but I was in the um the
[5:37]golf cart and I could tell she was kind
[5:39]of new with this so I went and I checked
[5:42]on her and told her cuz she lives in a
[5:43]van I told her she needs to get herself
[5:45]the surch protector for the power
[5:48]stool they're a little harder to get
[5:50]than the 30 amp ones and the 50 amp ones
[5:52]but I showed her which ones to get and
[5:55]we just started talking
[5:57]and she told me she has a transgender
[5:59]son and she worries for him in the
[6:02]elections
[6:03]and climate disasters and you know and
[6:06]she's like and I'm like well you're
[6:08]prepared that's why you got that van I
[6:10]that's why she got it so that's why I
[6:12]got my RV told her I'm right there site
[6:15]number one you need anything right here
[6:18]so that was nice that makes us worth
[6:23]it
[6:27]um that's why I'm here
[6:32]because things are going to get worse
[6:36]and I'm here to help people I was going
[6:38]to escape to the forest and then
[6:40]some gatekeeper woke my heart up and
[6:42]made me decide that I just wasn't going
[6:44]to abandon the
[6:46]world here to help women like
[6:50]her I just have to figure out how
[6:53]to hold on to my things until I can get
[6:56]that strained
[6:57]out I ruined my credit on the way here I
[7:00]had perfect credit I had like 770 780
[7:04]credit
[7:05]score it's like 400 now 300
[7:09]probably so that's that's a done thing
[7:13]and you know just don't have a lot of
[7:15]friends and family and I've asked
[7:18]everybody
[7:22]so but I also have faith in myself and
[7:25]in the universe I know it seems weird
[7:27]it's not a spiritual thing
[7:30]but I always just expect the universe to
[7:33]meet me
[7:34]halfway and I know it
[7:36]will everything will work
[7:41]out so yeah I think I'll hike up to
[7:44]the probably did quite a lot of walking
[7:46]to one though cuz I had the I wanted to
[7:49]same D mugy again um I had the golf cart
[7:53]so didn't do a whole lot of
[7:56]walking okay we're going to hike up to
[7:58]the to the bench up there it's a good
[8:01]distance it's not real far it's like a
[8:03]mile or two maybe a mile mile and a half
[8:06]I don't
[8:09]know it's
[8:16]Pleasant she just going to be all right
[8:20]sitting at my spot been here for a while
[8:23]just thinking you know that encounter
[8:26]really affected me because I've been
[8:29]resisting my path for a long
[8:33]time cuz I do believe that I was put on
[8:37]this Earth for a certain
[8:40]purpose I
[8:43]was
[8:46]molded for what's coming and I resisted
[8:50]it because I didn't like the idea of my
[8:54]path being out of my control something I
[8:56]didn't ask for something I didn't create
[8:58]myself
[9:01]but encounters like
[9:03]that remind me that I actually get a
[9:06]great deal of joy out of it I helped
[9:07]this woman I helped her to feel seen she
[9:11]was afraid to plug her electric heater
[9:13]in at night I'm like use that thing you
[9:15]can be warm it's okay she smokes pot you
[9:17]could she was trying to hide when I
[9:19]showed up and she you could tell that
[9:21]she was trying to do it stealth likee
[9:24]and you know before I left I said do
[9:26]that anywhere you're not doing anything
[9:28]wrong you can do this year it's
[9:30]fine
[9:34]um I could see that she got it you know
[9:37]that the direct the direction that we're
[9:39]heading in and and I told you that you
[9:41]get it you're going to be
[9:44]okay she felt seen I know she did and
[9:48]that moved
[9:52]me and that's my
[9:57]path and it feels right