[0:01]good morning YouTube so after nine
[0:03]months of sharing my life on this
[0:07]platform I'm finally applying for
[0:08]monetization on my account I want to
[0:11]explain what that means moving forward
[0:12]so that you're
[0:14]aware
[0:16]so for 9 months YouTube has been making
[0:19]money off of my channel I've known this
[0:21]since the beginning I understand how the
[0:23]platform
[0:25]works I didn't think it was fair
[0:30]I've been generating content for nine
[0:31]months over 500 videos and I don't see
[0:34]any of the revenue from that you have to
[0:37]tolerate all kinds
[0:39]of toxic and abusive behavior on
[0:44]here but I put all of that aside because
[0:47]I was getting something out of it
[0:49]myself my own personal
[0:52]growth watching my journey
[0:55]unfold these were things that mattered a
[0:57]great deal to me and I'm completely
[1:00]different from the person I was from my
[1:01]first video
[1:04]so I enjoyed sharing my life with people
[1:08]I
[1:10]enjoyed
[1:13]it I tried really hard
[1:17]to give people something that they could
[1:19]learn from something that could help
[1:21]them in their own lives and I hope that
[1:22]I
[1:25]did but you know what it's really hard
[1:28]to be on YouTube because
[1:30]you do put up with a lot of
[1:32]abuse you just do I'm going to name what
[1:35]is an actual
[1:37]fact and because of that I decided the
[1:40]only way I would stay on this platform
[1:41]is if I could monetize the channel and
[1:43]then take my videos and put them into
[1:44]their subscription service so that I can
[1:47]limit the number of people who see my
[1:49]channel who interact with me on it and
[1:52]so that's the goal if they approve me
[1:54]for monetization all of my channels are
[1:56]going to go into the subscription
[1:58]service I'll make some videos
[2:01]occasionally for a wider audience that I
[2:04]don't think
[2:05]will result in some of the fragmentation
[2:09]and abuse that I've experienced on here
[2:12]but largely I'll keep sharing my life in
[2:15]the same way that I always have only I I
[2:18]will limit engagement on
[2:21]it because I'm such a real person
[2:24]because I'm not fragmented I'm not
[2:27]compartmentalized and I just speak the
[2:29]truth I speak
[2:31]exactly what I
[2:35]see I've always had concerns that
[2:38]YouTube might try to reject my me for
[2:41]moneti
[2:42]monetization you know I think that
[2:44]that's a a real
[2:46]possibility I think that they have a
[2:48]very convoluted process for this I'm in
[2:50]the Second Step where they're just
[2:51]linking an AdSense account it says it
[2:53]can take up to three weeks as a
[2:55]programmer since the sixth grade I
[2:57]understand what's really happening here
[3:00]and then after that step it can take a
[3:02]month for them to review your account so
[3:04]it could be up to two months before I
[3:06]even have an answer to
[3:08]this this
[3:12]has this has only made me even more
[3:16]hesitant to keep posting on here because
[3:18]I understand what's happening they're
[3:20]going to keep generating Revenue off of
[3:23]my channel and keeping all of it while
[3:27]putting me through their corporate
[3:28]process to decide if I'm a good enough
[3:30]human being to deserve monetization on
[3:32]the platform that they're they're taking
[3:34]money from from my content from my
[3:37]life so I don't know what's going to
[3:39]happen between then and now this might
[3:41]just be the last video I have up here
[3:43]just sitting here while I wait to hear
[3:45]what they decide to
[3:46]do if they reject me I will delete my
[3:50]channel because I'm not going to be
[3:53]judged by a corporation for being a real
[3:55]human being on here
[4:01]so yeah we'll see what happens