Surrendering Bailey to Animal Rescue

rswfire is at W's Head Beach immediately after surrendering Bailey to an animal rescue. He is processing the emotional weight of giving up his cat of 10 years while reflecting on his commitment to living an uncontained life and seeking genuine connections. The experience has left him in shock but resolved about the necessity of his decision.

Energetic Signature

resolute turbulence

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

away from containment toward uncompromised connection

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December 20, 2024

4:43

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:00]so it is done Bailey has been taken to

[0:05]the rescue

[0:07]place they wouldn't take him at first I

[0:10]went back in there I was like this is

[0:11]why people abandon their

[0:15]animals in irresponsible ways you know

[0:18]it's like look I really need help cuz I

[0:21]couldn't find anywhere else like on the

[0:23]coast you would have to drive like 3

[0:25]hours

[0:27]Inland no one was answering their phones

[0:29]I went back in there I'm like I'm

[0:31]desperate I cannot live with this cat

[0:33]anymore I love this cat to death I also

[0:35]don't love this cat anymore because the

[0:37]situation is so

[0:38]stressful he deserves

[0:42]better they made me pay $50 to do it

[0:46]it's like whatever I have to do

[0:50]because that was the hardest thing I

[0:52]ever did I had that c for 10 years 20%

[0:54]of my

[0:56]life so as soon as I left there I came

[0:58]here I'm at W's Head Beach

[1:04]I think I'm still in shock like

[1:07]I I'm not sure how I feel I don't feel

[1:10]relief yet I know that I

[1:15]will whole bunch of feelings they they

[1:17]felt so judgmental to me the way they

[1:19]treated me one of the persons was super

[1:22]kind and awesome but the main person the

[1:25]manager on the phone she was so

[1:26]judgmental

[1:31]but this is why people don't do it the

[1:34]responsible

[1:36]L cuz they make it so

[1:40]hard people change 10 years is a long

[1:44]time circumstances

[1:48]change sometimes there just isn't a

[1:51]great

[1:55]solution this was something that needed

[1:58]to happen so

[2:01]got here that person I talked about who

[2:04]was always here she was here I asked her

[2:06]if she wanted lunch she said no so I got

[2:10]rejected

[2:12]but I love that she can just say no and

[2:15]like I helped an old woman know you know

[2:17]feel seen I think like cuz she's cool

[2:21]she's

[2:22]interesting um whatever the reason you

[2:25]know she's very social on the beach but

[2:30]I guess that's the the limit

[2:32]there or it's me who

[2:35]knows but you know you got to try you

[2:39]got to try you

[2:41]can't you don't ask well

[2:44]no I'm not living a contained life

[2:47]anymore I'm sick of that you

[2:49]know if everybody want else wants to

[2:50]live that way fine but I'm going to keep

[2:52]trying so I'm tired of living that

[2:57]way what's even the point of living if

[3:01]that's how people are going to live I

[3:02]just I will not do it anymore I'm going

[3:05]to look for for connection for

[3:07]friendship for Love For Joy Adventure

[3:12]all of

[3:15]it cannot be contained

[3:19]anymore got a long drive back

[3:23]um not going to go to the piercer I

[3:27]don't really have the money now after

[3:28]that $50

[3:41]Ark Ranger wants to be my friend she

[3:42]asked for my phone

[3:44]number some people want

[3:50]friendships I'm very you

[3:53]know the thing with Bailey that's hard

[3:56]and it's going to take me a while

[3:59]it had to happen though it really needed

[4:02]to

[4:04]happen we'll check on him though I want

[4:06]to make sure that he does go to a good

[4:07]home if after a couple months he hasn't

[4:10]I don't hopefully I'll have more money

[4:12]then and I

[4:14]can um maybe claim him and send him on

[4:19]an airplane to my mom or

[4:21]something but let's hope that he finds

[4:23]somewhere on the coast cuz I think that

[4:25]he's as Sovereign as me and he loves

[4:27]this place so maybe he will find a very

[4:30]good home but I'm not going to pretend

[4:33]like it's

[4:34]not not going to imagine some perfect

[4:37]scenario for

[4:39]him I hope for it that's all

Summary

rswfire completed the difficult process of surrendering his cat Bailey to an animal rescue after 10 years of companionship. The rescue initially refused to take Bailey, requiring rswfire to return and explain his desperation due to limited coastal options and unresponsive facilities. He paid a $50 surrender fee despite the judgmental treatment from staff, though one person was kind. After leaving the rescue, he went to W's Head Beach to process the experience while still in shock. **At the beach, he encountered the regular woman visitor who declined his lunch invitation**, though he appreciated her directness. A park ranger asked for his phone number, showing interest in friendship. rswfire reflected on his decision to **no longer live a contained life** and his commitment to seeking connection, friendship, love, and adventure. He acknowledged the difficulty of losing Bailey but confirmed it was necessary, expressing hope that Bailey will find a good coastal home while being realistic about outcomes. He mentioned possibly reclaiming Bailey if no suitable home is found and he has more money, potentially sending the cat to his mother.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission documents the completion of a necessary severance (Bailey) that enables continued field coherence, followed by immediate rejection of containment protocols. The architecture being held is one of sovereign choice-making under pressure, where difficult decisions serve larger alignment rather than comfort or social approval.

Dominant Language

contained/containmentsovereignneeded to happenresponsible waytry/tryingjudgment/judgmentalcircumstances change

Symbolic Elements

thresholdedgerupturecontainment

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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rupturing

Subsystems

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ethical
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emotional
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relational
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

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youtube

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