[0:01]what are you doing on my laptop I
[0:03]thought we had this conversation like a
[0:05]hundred times
[0:07]now you're on my laptop
[0:12]Bailey you don't care do
[0:16]you he is a sovereign force of nature
[0:19]just like
[0:20]me can't tell that thing
[0:26]anything so I got to cap Blanco a few
[0:28]hours ago
[0:31]I love this place I've been here so much
[0:34]I love it here though I need to get more
[0:36]south though because there's stuff I
[0:38]want to be doing down there weather
[0:40]could be nicer
[0:42]too um there's some things I thought I
[0:45]would share because I don't think I'll
[0:48]have a whole lot to share for a
[0:49]while I always say that and I end up
[0:52]having things to share don't look right
[0:55]but I don't think that I will because I
[0:58]got a whole lot of stuff I need to do
[1:01]I want my hair to grow
[1:03]out feels too short like my head does
[1:06]you know my forehead is too big or
[1:07]something just need to go down more see
[1:10]how that look I used to have hair that
[1:11]went all the way down like my bangs went
[1:13]all the way down like that
[1:14]was not a good look on me that was my
[1:18]trun resar phas um
[1:23]yeah I have so many pictures of that
[1:25]stff maybe I'll share with you guys
[1:27]someday completely forgot what I was
[1:29]saying now
[1:30]now Bailey's over
[1:33]here um mat K
[1:36]Blanco doing well my core muscles are I
[1:41]mean I know they're still healing but
[1:42]they don't they're not not a lot of pain
[1:44]or anything like that that's more
[1:48]like like they're busy they're working
[1:50]to heal but they're not
[1:53]like I don't know I'm still trying to
[1:55]learn these patterns cuz I never had
[1:57]core muscle injury before but I already
[2:00]hike 6 miles today it just sort of
[2:01]happened I was out there at the cape
[2:04]Edge and I had a phone call I had to
[2:05]take and I the phone worked better there
[2:07]so I just kept walking around and before
[2:10]I knew it it had been over 6
[2:12]miles um so I thought maybe I should
[2:14]rest for a while but I don't even feel
[2:16]like I really need
[2:18]to I mean I do
[2:21]but yeah I'm just trying
[2:25]to
[2:27]navigate the tension between
[2:34]what my core muscles need which is
[2:35]containment and what the rest of me
[2:37]needs which is sovereignty
[2:40]basically oh I'm just so stuck on those
[2:42]two words lately I love
[2:44]them but I thought I would tell you guys
[2:48]so I'm here for 2 weeks I'm here until
[2:50]January 1st and then I'm going to head
[2:53]north where I will be starting a
[2:55]volunteer position um I don't want to
[2:58]say too much because you know there are
[3:01]bad people on the
[3:02]internet but I going to be volunteering
[3:06]for a
[3:07]campground and it gives me a place to
[3:13]um um you do it a month at a time so
[3:16]I'll have a a campsite there for a
[3:19]month oh my God am I hred what I
[3:24]probably am I don't get any sleep like I
[3:27]think I slept 5 hours last night and
[3:30]this bed just this awful I need to tear
[3:33]this wall out and build a better bed
[3:35]platform here and I'm hoping that I will
[3:39]be able to do that in the next couple of
[3:40]months cuz I don't think I've slept
[3:42]while in a year which sucks my poor eyes
[3:46]you can just see the you can just tell
[3:50]anyways so for the next month in January
[3:54]I'm going to be volunteering cleaning
[3:57]cabins doing outdoor type work work um
[4:01]it's part-time you don't get paid for it
[4:03]but you get you get you know you don't
[4:05]have to pay for camping won't be on the
[4:07]side of the road any we won't have to
[4:08]worry about that gives me some time to
[4:11]keep working on my
[4:13]future
[4:15]um I'm hoping to become a park ranger
[4:19]really but I don't know because if I
[4:21]were to do that if you're a park ranger
[4:24]then you will be stuck somewhere and I
[4:26]can't have that I need movement so I
[4:27]could be could be a season no park
[4:30]ranger I think I would love that so much
[4:34]so that's where I think I'm heading and
[4:36]like there's just like I'm just thinking
[4:39]about I'm in a weird space right now
[4:42]because I'm really excited about
[4:46]this and um a little bit afraid I think
[4:50]maybe some fear some anxiety but mostly
[4:54]just
[4:56]um excitement at the possibility I'm so
[5:00]curious about them there are so many
[5:02]facets so many
[5:05]layers oh
[5:07]man this is going to be interesting it
[5:10]feels like a really perfect way to be
[5:12]starting a new
[5:14]year so I'm just going to be here for
[5:17]two weeks and during that
[5:19]time I'm going to be working on trying
[5:21]to get some freelance work
[5:23]going
[5:24][Music]
[5:25]and I really need to work on this place
[5:28]like I've never really gotten organized
[5:30]in 9 months really need to get that done
[5:33]this time well now I really do because
[5:35]then I going to be traveling to this
[5:38]place um oh my God I really
[5:43]am I don't know I'm sorry if I caught
[5:46]you Dion by the way I know that's a like
[5:48]a reflex thing I'm so
[5:50]sorry um
[5:55]yeah I'm going to be a little bit bored
[5:57]but I'm going to be doing some hiking
[5:59]like I'm I'm not going down to the beach
[6:01]cuz I know that I would overdo it if I
[6:03]did so I have to stay up here on the
[6:04]cliff
[6:05]edges but that's good enough for
[6:10]now I
[6:12]guess I'm so excited like I feel
[6:17]like everything I worked towards is just
[6:20]is manifesting now I mean how awesome is
[6:22]that so I'll be posting you know because
[6:26]we got holidays coming up I'm really
[6:28]looking forward to this Christmas New
[6:30]Year's uh it might be a little bit
[6:34]like a little bit sad cuz I don't have
[6:37]any friends or family here right so I
[6:39]don't know what that'll be like like who
[6:41]will even be on the campgrounds what
[6:42]will it even be like but you know we'll
[6:44]find out um today I went into Port
[6:47]Orford Shire it's my version of Port
[6:49]Orford let's be clear about it um I got
[6:53]a post office
[6:57]box I wonder if my viers would want that
[7:00]I don't know would you guys want to send
[7:02]me a Christmas
[7:03]card hint hint
[7:07]um but now I can get stuff from Amazon
[7:10]this is the thing I need the most I can
[7:13]finally get my white alien wear hat
[7:15]replaced I miss this so much and I can
[7:18]get Bailey some tuna flakes this
[7:21]favorite treat I've been trying to find
[7:22]those for him for nine months everywhere
[7:24]I've gone every state every city every
[7:26]time I see a pet store I look for them
[7:28]haven't been able to find them
[7:30]so I'm going to get a few things I need
[7:33]this contact right here it doesn't fit
[7:35]my eye perfectly my eye doctor changed
[7:37]my prescription just before I left
[7:39]Kentucky I bought a year supply of them
[7:43]and they don't fit right and they're all
[7:44]I have left now so I have just have to
[7:46]deal with them until I can get better
[7:48]contact I'm kind of really annoyed about
[7:50]that but anyway
[7:53]so you know going a long time without
[7:57]being able there's certain things that
[7:58]you just can't find in stores anymore
[8:00]you know so I finally got a post office
[8:03]box I'm really happy about
[8:07]that that's it I guess that's my update
[8:10]I hope you all are doing well I don't
[8:11]even know what today is it's Wednesday
[8:14]isn't it isday
[8:16]Wednesday
[8:18]yep it's Wednesday
[8:21]so two weeks a week from today is
[8:25]Christmas week after that is New Year's
[8:31]this is the end of our
[8:33]year it's almost
[8:38]2025 little worried come
[8:41]January putting Trump back in power was
[8:45]stupid I'm not criticizing anyone who
[8:47]voted for him but it was
[8:57]stupid I don't know any other way way to
[8:59]say that I truly don't because that's
[9:02]literally what it
[9:06]is how you could put a man like that
[9:08]back in po Beyond
[9:15]me I don't know what our next year is
[9:18]going to look like I'll be paying
[9:19]attention though of
[9:24]course I think things could get very
[9:27]ugly I think that people
[9:30]people can't even imagine how ugly
[9:32]because they lied to themselves that's
[9:35]why it's stupid because they lie to
[9:37]themselves they say that he won't do
[9:39]these super bad
[9:43]things even though he's shown us to that
[9:45]you
[9:47]will you just lie to yourself I don't
[9:50]understand that mentality I truly
[9:54]don't I have a lot of thoughts about it
[9:56]and I'm not ready to share I'm just
[9:58]going to keep watching paying
[10:02]attention I'll say this much you made my
[10:06]life infinitely harder as a gay man if
[10:08]you voted for
[10:10]him cuz you just gave permission to all
[10:12]the homophobes out
[10:14]there to be even more homophobic this
[10:18]why I carry this pocket knife everywhere
[10:20]I go because I might actually
[10:23]need it one day
[10:34]but I get it you think it's about
[10:36]self-interest you
[10:39]think about what's important for you not
[10:42]what's important for everybody what is
[10:44]the larger good out there people don't
[10:46]think that way
[10:48]anymore it's unfortunate but they
[10:53]don't you know I voted for Hillary
[10:56]Clinton even though I didn't like her
[10:59]but I voted for her
[11:02]because I knew how much good she would
[11:04]do for other people
[11:06]that deserved to have good done for them
[11:10]it wasn't about
[11:19]me this is why my channel like it is not
[11:23]possible for me to not tell the
[11:25]truth I
[11:32]I'm going to tell you the truth whether
[11:34]you're willing to hear it or not