[0:01]so I'm going to share a vulnerable truth
[0:02]with
[0:04]you think I was put on this Earth to
[0:06]help others to teach them sovereignty
[0:09]and
[0:10]integration to witness this world
[0:12]disintegrate and fragment
[0:16]itself to watch it suffer and then try
[0:19]to help heal
[0:20]it and I've resisted that all of my
[0:26]life I don't see myself as a leader I
[0:29]don't see myself as as a
[0:37]teacher there are certain things that
[0:39]happen in my life all of my
[0:43]life that show me it's sort of like
[0:45]token resistance
[0:47]because everything just seems to
[0:52]align it's hard for me to ignore what I
[0:57]see and I see a world that's collapsing
[1:01]in a world full of people are going to
[1:02]suffer badly because they're not
[1:07]prepared and I do want to help those I
[1:11]can this isn't something I'm going to be
[1:15]I wouldn't say I'd be very good at I
[1:17]don't really structure things in ways
[1:20]that that people like you
[1:23]might benefit the most from so this is
[1:27]hard but I'm going to try I'm going to
[1:29]try to teach teach you about
[1:31]sovereignty I'm stuck in this bed here
[1:33]this is day four or five I think it
[1:35]might be day five while my core muscles
[1:38]heal they're definitely getting
[1:41]better I was able to do quite a lot
[1:45]yesterday and just kind of taking it
[1:48]easy cuz I really want these things to
[1:50]heal properly and I
[1:53]just I can't be out there exploring so I
[1:56]might as well be in here teaching you
[1:58]and I've taken some notes
[2:01]going to tell you some things going to
[2:02]read some things that's kind of where I
[2:05]feel like this will
[2:08]feel um you know I'm I do stream of
[2:11]Consciousness I just try to be myself
[2:14]and having to read something to you it's
[2:16]going to come across differently I don't
[2:18]feel that it has the same
[2:20]flow but these are things you need to
[2:22]hear and these are the only way I know
[2:24]how to express them to
[2:27]you I need you to sit with them um if
[2:30]you've been watching my journey and
[2:32]you've watched like you've watched me
[2:35]integrate everything you're going to see
[2:36]myself in this you're going to start to
[2:44]understand maybe in time it gets easier
[2:47]maybe I can express these thoughts to
[2:48]you differently I don't
[2:52]know but let's just start with the
[2:54]primer cuz I this this is my own
[2:56]vocabulary what you've been taught about
[2:58]sovereignty that's not sovereignty
[3:01]sovereignty is ownership of the
[3:04]self sovereignty is the full ownership
[3:07]of your being your thoughts emotions
[3:10]choices and
[3:11]actions it's the refusal to Outsource
[3:13]your power or identity while staying in
[3:16]harmony with the interconnectedness of
[3:17]all things it's not isolation it's
[3:23]integration the way they teach you
[3:25]sovereignty is you know like royalty or
[3:28]something standing up apart from
[3:30]everyone else this is not sovereignty
[3:33]sovereignty is about Standing Tall
[3:35]within
[3:37]yourself being open to
[3:44]connection being whole within yourself
[3:47]so whole that you can handle being
[3:52]misunderstood you can share your truth
[3:55]without needing
[3:57]others to validate it for you or to even
[4:03]agree wrote down 10 different core
[4:05]elements of sovereignty as I see it now
[4:08]there's I know there's more but we're
[4:10]starting here okay so the first one is
[4:13]self-awareness it's knowing yourself at
[4:15]the deepest level your patterns wounds
[4:17]strengths and truth you have watched me
[4:21]show you
[4:23]that for nine months
[4:26]now I own every part of myself and so
[4:30]many people tried to fragment that tried
[4:32]to tell me to be kind to myself when I
[4:34]talked about the hard things that have
[4:37]happened to me or that I'm dealing
[4:41]with this is self-awareness this is
[4:43]acceptance this is ownership I own
[4:46]myself I choose what I share with you I
[4:49]don't need to be kind with myself
[4:51]because being self-aware and telling the
[4:53]truth that is being
[4:55]kind it's about embracing the
[4:57]contradictions Within You Without trying
[4:59]to resolve
[5:01]them is
[5:04]acceptance second is radical
[5:06]responsibility taking full
[5:08]accountability for your life choices and
[5:10]energy recognizing that your freedom is
[5:12]tied to your willingness to own every
[5:14]part of your
[5:16]experience three is emotional
[5:19]integration allowing all emotions to
[5:21]flow without judgment or repression
[5:23]honoring the messages they carry while
[5:25]choosing how you respond I have been
[5:28]teaching you this for nine months
[5:30]every emotion I have I
[5:34]embrace I sit with I move with
[5:38]it I try to understand it and I don't
[5:41]just have one emotion I have layers of
[5:44]them and I have lived with them for 47
[5:46]years because I have never repressed
[5:51]them I don't always understand them
[5:54]sometimes they get stuck in my chest
[5:55]this is something I never shared with
[5:56]you because I have layers of emotion
[6:02]they may not always be in alignment so
[6:04]they get this energetic kind of stuck
[6:08]feeling in my chest it
[6:10]feels very difficult to live with but
[6:13]I've learned
[6:14]to and I just have
[6:17]to unthread
[6:19]them and let them resolve and reach
[6:23]alignment with each other and it can be
[6:25]contradictory it can be difficult I've
[6:28]learned to do it I know what true
[6:30]sovereignty is I
[6:33]I damn
[6:37]proud just don't repress your
[6:43]feelings for is boundaries with
[6:45]Integrity knowing what is yours to hold
[6:47]and what is not that's a big one isn't
[6:51]it creating boundaries that protect your
[6:54]energy without disconnecting you from
[6:56]others
[6:59]nobody's perfect I think that I've had
[7:01]moments on this camera where I have
[7:03]disconnected from you guys right so this
[7:06]is a practice this is an embodied way of
[7:08]living this
[7:10]is something
[7:12]that you'll spend your whole life on if
[7:15]it matters to you like I have my whole
[7:17]life I don't expect Perfection from
[7:21]myself I do expect
[7:26]growth knowing what is yours to hold and
[7:29]what is is not sit with that cuz that's
[7:32]an important
[7:33]one number five is alignment over
[7:36]Conformity living in alignment with your
[7:39]internal truth even when it disrupts
[7:41]external expectations and I live in the
[7:44]sarine this is kind of a obvious
[7:47]one pretty much every part of my life
[7:49]probably looks a lot different from
[7:52]yours but I'm not doing it to
[7:54]be um in ttention with you or conflict
[7:58]I'm just living my
[8:01]truth it's rejecting the need for
[8:04]validation or approval to feel whole I
[8:07]have proven this to you my entire
[8:09]Journey from Kentucky to Oregon I had
[8:11]comments turned off because I didn't
[8:13]want you guys fragmenting my
[8:15]experience I didn't want you your
[8:18]validation your approval your rejection
[8:20]your criticism none of it was important
[8:24]none of it changed the fact that I was
[8:26]already whole
[8:32]and that's a hard one that wasn't
[8:35]something that came naturally to
[8:39]me but you can get there I
[8:43]have number six is interdependence
[8:47]without codependence recognizing the
[8:49]beauty of connection without losing
[8:51]yourself and others giving freely
[8:53]without obligation receiving without
[8:57]entitlement so there's a whole lot
[9:06]there there's a whole lot there it's
[9:08]that's a hard one for me to talk about
[9:10]right now I feel like that's an area
[9:11]that I'm still working on a little
[9:13]bit um in some ways not in all of them
[9:16]though giving freely without obligation
[9:18]but doing that my whole life I wish
[9:20]other people would
[9:21]too receiving without
[9:26]entitlement
[9:28]yeah but I'm learning to receive
[9:30]anything at all so you know I feel like
[9:32]I'm still working on that recognizing
[9:34]the beauty of connection without losing
[9:36]yourself and others now my younger self
[9:38]had a real problem with that me now I'm
[9:41]seeing that reflected in my experiences
[9:43]asking out the gatekeeper letting go of
[9:46]the man who who scared me in this
[9:48]RV
[9:54]without I saw the beauty of both of
[9:56]those connections and I let them both go
[10:00]without Judgment of them without
[10:02]Judgment of myself without any self-pity
[10:05]without any regret without just I let it
[10:11]flow number seven is integration of
[10:15]power understanding power is the ability
[10:17]to live authentically not as dominance
[10:20]or
[10:20]control using your power to create heal
[10:23]and Inspire rather than to dominate or
[10:26]avoid
[10:29]in future videos we will talk about
[10:33]this eight is connection to Natural
[10:35]Forces grounding your sovereignty in The
[10:38]rhythms of Nature and the
[10:39]universe allowing the natural world to
[10:42]mirror and guide your own flowing
[10:43]intuition you see me do this every
[10:47]day nine is freedom through discipline
[10:50]seeing discipline not as restriction but
[10:53]as the structure that enables Freedom
[10:55]honoring the practices and routines that
[10:58]support your sovereignty
[11:00]this one is my current Edge so we're
[11:03]using my my vocabulary again when I say
[11:06]Edge I'm talking about the thing that
[11:07]makes me uncomfortable or that I'm
[11:08]struggling with or that I'm working on
[11:11]it is one of the edges to my existence
[11:14]right
[11:15]now I've been in this bed for 5
[11:19]days because I spent two much hi two
[11:22]months
[11:24]hiking and pretty much just destroying
[11:26]my core muscles because I did not have
[11:29]any
[11:32]discipline I Freedom through discipline
[11:35]okay there's something missing
[11:38]there but now I'm learning to honor it
[11:40]I've been in this bed for 5 days and
[11:42]even though I did go out yesterday I
[11:44]really debated that with myself
[11:48]and um I tried to be careful and
[11:52]cautious I feel
[11:54]like and I feel like I did I feel like
[11:59]feel like I made good
[12:01]choices so that's what I'm working with
[12:03]that
[12:05]discipline seeing discipline not as
[12:08]restriction but as the structure that
[12:10]enables
[12:13]Freedom working on
[12:15]that 10 living without fragmentation
[12:18]rejecting the idea that parts of you are
[12:20]broken or unworthy I have been telling
[12:22]you this for nine months you are whole
[12:26]already
[12:31]nothing in you is broken or unworthy
[12:33]that's just something that other people
[12:35]tell you that you've
[12:38]internalized that you can shed that
[12:40]you've watched me
[12:42]shed embracing your wholeness is a
[12:45]dynamic ever evolving process you've
[12:47]watched me go from one iteration to the
[12:51]next because that that's how I work cuz
[12:53]I am in flow with my
[12:56]sovereignty so those are the those are
[12:59]the time that I came up
[13:01]with and we're going to explore all of
[13:03]those in future videos like I'll just
[13:05]take one and we'll just we'll just talk
[13:08]about it or maybe you will have some
[13:10]thoughts you want to share in the
[13:11]comments and we'll figure out a way
[13:14]to turn this into a series because it's
[13:17]time for people to start learning these
[13:20]things I think that if you're watching
[13:22]me that you want
[13:24]to because that's what you're seeing
[13:26]even if you don't understand that's what
[13:28]you're seeing
[13:29]you're seeing myself reflecting in all
[13:31]of
[13:32]that so I'm just going to end with a
[13:35]couple of other things some of the
[13:36]common misunderstandings of sovereignty
[13:38]this is important is people thinking
[13:41]it's about isolation it's not
[13:43]sovereignty doesn't mean cutting
[13:44]yourself off from others it's about
[13:46]connecting authentically without losing
[13:48]yourself it's not about dominance it's
[13:51]not about controlling others but about
[13:53]mastering your own energy and choices
[13:55]and it is not about rigidity Tru
[13:59]sovereignty is fluid and adaptive not
[14:01]rigid or
[14:03]dogmatic if you were to watch my videos
[14:07]and think about the things I just shared
[14:08]with
[14:10]you you would see that the threads of
[14:14]that and
[14:15]everything and all the things I've tried
[14:17]to share with you in
[14:21]my Fierce protection of my process
[14:26]of not letting anyone fragment me on
[14:32]here rejecting both the criticism and
[14:35]the validation because that's not why I
[14:36]was doing it didn't ask for
[14:41]it not particularly open to unsolicited
[14:45]advice
[14:47]because that almost always comes from a
[14:49]fragmented Place sometimes I will get a
[14:52]comment that giving advice it's actually
[14:54]helpful and I I'll accept most of the
[14:58]time though it is just shallow
[15:03]superficial it really comes from
[15:05]dominance you're trying to show me that
[15:07]you know something I don't and know that
[15:09]you think you're doing it to be
[15:10]helpful this is more about your ego than
[15:13]anything else right
[15:15]so energy exchange I see it I I I see it
[15:20]and I naturally feel repelled by it so
[15:25]there's a
[15:27]lot we're a new phase here where I'm
[15:30]going to try to explain to you what
[15:31]you've been watching for 9 months cuz
[15:34]it's clear that it needs to be explained
[15:36]and I'm going to try I
[15:38]guess so there it is we're going to
[15:41]learn about sovereignty on this channel