[0:01]my camera came on all by itself it's
[0:04]like it detects your face it's like bam
[0:06]okay I guess we're doing this good
[0:08]morning I just woke up it's 6:00 in the
[0:11]morning it's very cold today it's in the
[0:13]30s out there and I had my window open
[0:16]so I'm just bundling up here um I'm not
[0:20]where I had intended to be I drove up to
[0:23]abandon to the beach and the campground
[0:26]there was um under construction so um
[0:30]had to Pivot figure out what am I doing
[0:31]I tried to go a little bit more North uh
[0:34]to those places I had talked about but
[0:36]there
[0:37]was um nothing available at least with
[0:40]the quick search that I had done while I
[0:42]was just kind of like okay I'm I'm you
[0:45]know I got to figure something out and
[0:47]then so I was like okay Humbug Mountain
[0:49]it is and that's where I am got here
[0:52]last night um nearly backed into a
[0:56]tree with confidence because I thought I
[0:59]was lined up perfectly so
[1:02]I I would have demolished that thing cuz
[1:05]I really thought that I was signed up
[1:07]perfectly this man yells out I a
[1:11]millimeter from the thing like it was
[1:13]close so that's a lesson to to take to
[1:15]heart like even if you think you're
[1:18]lined up well and you're
[1:20]just yeah maybe be a little more
[1:22]cautious than I was being man I was
[1:24]embarrassed but anyways I got some clips
[1:26]for that so once you know that'll be at
[1:29]the end of this so
[1:32]let me slow down cuz I can just tell I
[1:34]got nervous energy this
[1:37]morning and apparently I'm congested a
[1:40]little
[1:41]B let me just take a
[1:48]moment guess I have a lot on my mind CU
[1:51]um okay so the reason I didn't just come
[1:54]here even though I love this place I
[1:56]truly love it here is there's no
[1:59]internet there there's no sell service
[2:01]so I mean none this is just Humbug
[2:04]Mountain that mountain it's like it's
[2:06]got It's got opinions about whether you
[2:08]use internet here or not you know
[2:12]so I was like I'll come back but I'll
[2:14]wait until I have some kind of backup
[2:16]internet either my satellite or um that
[2:19]travel F service I used to have um but I
[2:22]don't have either of those right now I
[2:24]can't afford them
[2:26]so well I decided you know I'm going to
[2:28]stay here another night maybe maybe even
[2:31]two
[2:32]because
[2:33]um not having any internet access plus
[2:38]like 16 hours of Darkness has forced me
[2:41]to actually sit here and rest my core
[2:44]muscles are very
[2:46]sore um I think that it probably helped
[2:49]so I'm I think I'm going to just force
[2:52]myself to be sort of in
[2:54]this the space
[2:56][Music]
[2:57]where the outside world's made making a
[3:00]making decisions for me that are that
[3:03]are helping me make better decisions for
[3:05]myself something like that you know so
[3:08]I'm going to stay here and um just just
[3:12]rest I mean I I literally slept for the
[3:14]past 10 hours I slept from 8:00 p.m. to
[3:17]6:00 in the morning there's times I woke
[3:19]up you know and um stayed up for a
[3:22]little while but I mostly slept and I
[3:24]really needed it I could tell like I can
[3:26]tell my eyes look better right they're
[3:28]not so those bags are my eyes not so bad
[3:31]so you know
[3:33]yeah I'm going to go into town this
[3:35]morning I got to get a couple of
[3:38]supplies that I didn't think about that
[3:40]I would need just basic stuff
[3:43]um Bailey stuff basically that cat needs
[3:46]everything um then I'm going to do
[3:48]laundry because really need to get that
[3:51]done man so much laundry and this it's
[3:53]so funny cuz I'm here in Port Orford
[3:55]Orford
[3:56]Shire which is where I was you know
[3:59]before I decided to after cap Blanco you
[4:03]know I left and you know I ended up
[4:05]right back here and this is you know I
[4:06]just this little town like is perfect
[4:08]for all my needs and so I'm going to
[4:11]just take care of that stuff this
[4:13]morning so I have internet for a short
[4:15]while I'm out there and I'll get
[4:16]everything uploaded but probably won't
[4:19]hear from me for a couple days cuz I
[4:21]really will just well you know what you
[4:24]guys have a holiday coming up we all do
[4:26]it's mine too Thanksgiving but um
[4:30]you know I don't really have anyone to
[4:32]celebrate it with without here so hope
[4:34]you guys have an awesome one though that
[4:37]I really do hope
[4:39]that um there's something I want to talk
[4:41]about though
[4:42]so I noticed that so every once in a
[4:46]while my phone might pick up a few
[4:48]things and I saw some comments came
[4:51]through and they were all they were all
[4:54]trolls trollish comments one person said
[4:58]um called me a hobo
[5:00]and another person um I can't remember
[5:04]their exact words but they they
[5:06]criticized me and then said something
[5:07]about Bailey being in a carrier
[5:10]outside this kind of behavior is
[5:13]inappropriate it's hurtful I'm not going
[5:16]to lie it's a little bit
[5:18]hurtful but it's childish and I see
[5:21]through it of
[5:24]course and it's not going to change
[5:27]anything about me because I don't get my
[5:29]Val
[5:30]externally it just shows me who you
[5:33]are but I'm not going to pretend it's
[5:35]not a
[5:36]thing when you leave comments like that
[5:39]you're just showing what kind of person
[5:41]you
[5:41]are and it shows me that you're not a
[5:44]good person because good people don't do
[5:47]that and that's your burden to bear not
[5:52]mine now I got some other comments too
[5:54]one
[5:55]person was talking about how I could use
[5:58]my generator to charge my batteries this
[6:00]is true but I this is giving advice
[6:03]which you know not everyone is going to
[6:06]know that that's a thing that that kind
[6:08]of bothers me that I don't like and I
[6:11]handled it differently than I would have
[6:13]in the past but
[6:14]I'm I realized that what I really need
[6:18]to do is explain to you guys how to
[6:19]interact with me because I don't think
[6:21]you know I don't think
[6:23]you based on the fact that most people
[6:26]don't comment
[6:28]and you know I think that you guys are
[6:30]pretty cautious about it let me explain
[6:32]cuz this is what you're missing this is
[6:33]how you communicate with someone like
[6:35]me first of all no advice that I didn't
[6:38]ask for unless that advice is going
[6:43]to fundamentally help me was something
[6:46]that that I just need to know like
[6:50]like like don't do this thing cuz you're
[6:53]going to cause a fire like something
[6:55]serious that I just you can see I don't
[6:57]know you got to you got to you got to
[6:58]share that you got to help me out right
[7:01]but you
[7:03]know did you consider this
[7:06]option I probably did I'm sorry but I
[7:10]probably did you know and it's like so
[7:14]what am I supposed to do with that
[7:15]comment because if you reply to me I'm
[7:18]going to write you back but what and
[7:20]then I have to say look I already
[7:22]thought about this and this is why I
[7:24]don't want to do that and that sounds
[7:25]defensive and I'm not trying to be
[7:27]defensive I'm just trying to
[7:30]maintain a dialogue with you that's
[7:33]honest and truthful and you kind of set
[7:36]me up for
[7:38]that but this is how you communicate
[7:40]with me you ask
[7:43]questions because everything I say to
[7:45]you has 10 layers that you don't even
[7:47]know about because I didn't Express them
[7:51]but they're there there are 10 layers to
[7:53]every single sentence I saying so if
[7:55]there's something that you're you didn't
[7:58]understand or you want me to elaborate
[8:00]on ask because I will I'll I'll enjoy
[8:03]doing that that's how we build a
[8:05]dialogue
[8:07]together someone like me is never just
[8:11]surface level there are interconnections
[8:14]and relationships and you know just this
[8:17]unfolding of
[8:19]things for any topic that I talk about
[8:22]so ask
[8:25]questions that's how we do this now I'm
[8:28]going to go and and deal with my day
[8:31]and come back take a shower and then
[8:34]rest because that's the thing I
[8:37]need got some bad news I got all the way
[8:41]here into Bandon to their state park and
[8:45]it's closed for construction I didn't
[8:49]realize um maybe it said it on the
[8:51]website I just didn't notice but I tried
[8:54]to keep going so I was looking on for
[8:58]reservations like like um at Cape arago
[9:02]and some other places but actually there
[9:03]isn't a campground there I don't know I
[9:05]must have looked at something wrong
[9:06]there was another one in that area but
[9:08]it
[9:09]was um it was all booked up so I have to
[9:13]go back um 45 minutes
[9:16]south so that I can say humbug
[9:22]today um I got to get this phone
[9:24]charging waitting for this person to
[9:27]go ex me just there with me
[9:30]guys so I am just going to stay
[9:34]overnight at Humbug Mountain one of my
[9:36]favorite places but we definitely drove
[9:39]all out of our way I really wanted to be
[9:42]up here now that I got here but they're
[9:44]close who knows for how long they're
[9:46]very nice though they were nice to talk
[9:48]to
[9:50]um figure something out cuz I do know
[9:53]that you know Thanksgiving and all that
[9:56]so um it just might be a little
[9:58]difficult
[10:00]well I'll figure it out so I'll just
[10:02]once I get somewhere that I can just
[10:03]settle in for the night cuz I got to
[10:06]keep my batteries going and all of that
[10:08]um need a place to shower didn't get to
[10:10]shower
[10:12]today oh I wanted to be on the beach
[10:14]here I even got to see abandoned Beach
[10:16]cuz um I didn't put in the right place
[10:19]um in my directions um in Google Maps so
[10:23]um it took me to Bandon beach was a
[10:25]different place very cool like man there
[10:27]were all these cool like I forget what
[10:30]they call the Rocks but you know all
[10:31]these really nice rocks and this beach
[10:34]that looked almost
[10:36]like it was just picturesque like you
[10:39]would want to see this so I'm I'm coming
[10:41]back for that which way do I go I don't
[10:44]next okay there's the bridge I know
[10:46]where I am I love this
[10:48]bridge
[10:50]man I'll figure it out we're just going
[10:53]to have
[10:54]to we're pivoting today it's all I can
[10:57]do I still haven't eat by the way man
[11:01]this is not things are going very well
[11:03]well I'm going to be back near Port
[11:05]Orford um I guess I'll I'll figure it
[11:09]out this is this is noad life it's only
[11:12]5:30 but it's pitch black outside I just
[11:14]got to Humbug Mountain I'm at the dump
[11:17]station so I can detach the
[11:20]Jeep um then I got to get into my sight
[11:22]all this in the dark this sucks there I
[11:25]am it's just very dark out so lesson
[11:29]learned I knew you know I kind of knew
[11:31]though so here we go so this is
[11:34]embarrassing I nearly hit a tree oh my
[11:37]God like I was like a millimeter from
[11:40]hitting this tree but this man yelled
[11:41]out saved me used a flashlight helped me
[11:44]get in there it was pretty hard actually
[11:47]um yeah I told him how embarrassed I was
[11:49]and DED him very nice man now I'm going
[11:52]to go into town and get some groceries
[11:55]and
[11:58]just yeah never go to a campsite at
[12:00]night oh my God that was awful but you
[12:03]know what's really funny there was an RV
[12:05]in front of me and I used my rights to
[12:08]help him get into his spot without him
[12:09]asking or anything cuz I was behind him
[12:11]he was pulling in it's like okay here's
[12:13]some extra lights for you I had nothing
[12:15]and then I had a flashlight thank God
[12:17]for the flashlight in that man I'm back
[12:20]home I went to the grocery store got
[12:22]stuff to make
[12:24]burgers I'm pretty good at making those
[12:27]with my ninja foodie starving
[12:30]so embarrassed oh my God that man is a
[12:32]host here and this is one of my favorite
[12:34]places
[12:35]so every time I'm here it's like going
[12:38]to be a thing right like that's a story
[12:40]now that's a story the whole staff is
[12:42]going to know I bet oh my God so
[12:44]embarrassing but you know
[12:47]what these are stories worth having I
[12:50]guess I don't know
[12:53]they're at least I didn't hit I mean it
[12:55]was a millimeter like it was it was it
[12:58]looked like I hit it but I didn't feel
[13:00]anything so I don't think I did but and
[13:01]he looked his he used his flashlight to
[13:03]check and I'll find out in the morning
[13:06]but I don't think I
[13:08]did oh man yeah time to eat