[0:00]this is
[0:02]it I'm ready to
[0:04]go I'm not going to claim that I did the
[0:07]perfect job back there let's so far okay
[0:09]I'm going to head over to this little
[0:11]spot where I hook up my Jeep and you
[0:14]know then we'll head out soon after that
[0:16]um I know what's making me nervous this
[0:18]is about claiming public space in in a
[0:20]world that has been trying to make me
[0:21]small since the day I was
[0:23]born and you know what today I claim
[0:25]that space cuz it's mine to
[0:27]claim simple as that got some good
[0:31]news they're
[0:33]working thank
[0:35]god um because of that component down
[0:38]there those might short out at some
[0:39]point I'm hoping they don't but anyways
[0:41]I wanted to mention
[0:43]this see how beautiful that is that used
[0:46]to be difficult right when I left my
[0:48]house on my birthday it's when I learned
[0:50]to do that
[0:52]and it's just another example of a thing
[0:55]that you navigate and that thing is
[0:57]second nature to me now very easy
[1:00]so we're ready to
[1:03]go we're doing
[1:05]this remember when this was hard for me
[1:09]dumping in the taints remember when that
[1:11]was hard whole month or
[1:14]two not anymore this is just a stop
[1:18]along the way then we're going to some
[1:19]parking lot for pull off on the highway
[1:23]this is how like Mountain I hiked that
[1:25]all the way to the top that's why my
[1:28]core muscles are still sore well
[1:30]kind of more like I hike that thing and
[1:33]then I hike Cape Sebastian and then
[1:35]Trace sles at the beach and did that for
[1:38]weeks and then went to cap Blanco and
[1:40]hiked everything there and blah blah
[1:41]blah never
[1:43]stopped got to stop right at least you
[1:45]know take a break rest whatever so let's
[1:49]talk about this we're claiming public
[1:51]space
[1:53]today so we're allowed to we're part of
[1:55]the public no stealth
[1:58]camping or I'm Park I'm announced I'm
[2:01]there you see me I'm
[2:04]present that's a whole another
[2:07]thing and we're doing
[2:09]it I feel good about
[2:13]it we'll never overstay my welcome I'm
[2:16]not that kind of person right but you
[2:19]know I'll stay for a night or two move
[2:22]on find another
[2:25]spot till this becomes comfortable till
[2:28]this becomes my life
[2:31]and then we're going to start heading
[2:33]north so I'm just stopped here the
[2:35]highway is getting some work done
[2:37]two8 they don't just fix the road they
[2:39]got to fix the stuff underneath the
[2:42]roads cuz it's right on the coast takes
[2:45]them a
[2:46]while
[2:48]um obviously I need campgrounds I need
[2:50]showers I need uh I need power I like
[2:53]I'm going to have some issues in the
[2:54]beginning cuz my batteries are not great
[2:57]there's lights that won't turn off
[2:58]they're going to drain those batteries
[3:01]um I don't feel like this thing
[3:04]is weatherproof enough for this
[3:06]environment either but it is what it is
[3:10]we'll just tackle things as they come
[3:11]and adapt and grow and once it becomes
[3:15]comfortable we start heading
[3:17]north think of it this way this is the
[3:21]new Edge for me and I'm always looking
[3:24]for that edge I'm looking for that void
[3:25]I'm looking for that
[3:27]thing that's going to lead to the next
[3:30]next stage of my growth always about
[3:33]growth and that's what this is right now
[3:35]then once that becomes comfortable we
[3:37]got to find the next Edge always look
[3:39]for that next Edge and just
[3:42]fight with that goddamn thing we made it
[3:46]yay there the ocean over
[3:49]there wonder what you call that oh
[3:51]that's the river never mind that's the
[3:53]river that makes love to the ocean
[3:55]obviously that's where I came I wanted
[3:57]to be next to this River I'm over here
[3:59]nothing special I saw a couple other
[4:01]spots that maybe would be worth going to
[4:05]real close like really just right down
[4:09]there
[4:12]um but you know what this is good enough
[4:15]right so this a good enough
[4:20]until I wonder how level I am I didn't
[4:22]even bother to check I never deal with
[4:24]that right so let me just find out
[4:25]though I am
[4:28]curious um very unlevel of course oh
[4:34]well oh
[4:37]well not bad this way other way is not
[4:41]level that's okay this is a pull off
[4:45]what did I
[4:47]expect
[4:50]so this should be
[4:52]interesting definitely going down to see
[4:54]if the submarine men are down there
[4:56]that's where they be by the way that's
[4:58]exactly where they'd be
[5:01]got to figure out how to get down there
[5:02]from
[5:03]here so yeah we're doing
[5:06]it so I'm just chilling M's right here
[5:09]this cat is so unbothered totally
[5:12]unbothered aren't you we got some road
[5:14]noise and some weird metal noise that I
[5:16]don't really
[5:18]understand not even metal more like just
[5:22]some kind of frequency it's so weird do
[5:24]cars get close like it gets louder the
[5:26]closer they
[5:27]are but I don't I don't know I don't
[5:29]know what I'm even going to try to guess
[5:32]but I'm here and I'm happy I think my
[5:36]hair looks nice
[5:38]today I mean I get it's messy but I
[5:40]still think it's cute okay that's just
[5:42]sticking up never
[5:43]mind
[5:46]um this is just my first spot right on
[5:48]the coast like I don't need it to be
[5:50]perfect I just I just need to be
[5:52]here and everything will get easier from
[5:55]here this is
[5:57]actually I'm surprised I was so nervous
[6:00]this morning cuz that's all gone all of
[6:03]it not worried at all completely
[6:05]unbothered like this cat actually maybe
[6:07]that's why he's maybe that's why he's
[6:09]like
[6:10]that um I'm next to you like I'm not
[6:14]going to say exactly where I am I guess
[6:16]you can go run and up and down to 101
[6:18]looking for me if you want
[6:22]um but I'm not like at a spot where I
[6:25]can get to the ocean like easy enough
[6:27]like I need to
[6:30]um walk down the road or something but I
[6:32]need to get out there so
[6:36]yeah guess a good
[6:38]thing so this is kind of
[6:41]remarkable I'm feeling sad leaving
[6:45]here I like it here so much I'm feeling
[6:48]sad about having to leave that's
[6:52]wild I just love this place so
[6:58]much I wonder if that feeling would ever
[7:00]leave me if I stayed you know
[7:03]like for months or something and
[7:06]then I'm sure I'd want to move on cuz
[7:08]that's how I
[7:10]am two weeks just doesn't feel long
[7:12]enough here that's how special this
[7:14]place is even with this flooded
[7:16]Campground flooded
[7:18]campsite got Bailey out there he's just
[7:22]chilling too wet for him to be over here
[7:30]it's just such a remarkable place the
[7:33]ocean's right over there there's a trail
[7:35]right there there's some people walking
[7:36]there
[7:37]now with their little
[7:42]doggy I've already been out there I've
[7:44]already seen the ocean in fact I was
[7:46]watching some birds I'll post that for
[7:49]you after
[7:54]this this is just the best place ever
[8:01]you can't hold on to things you got to
[8:02]let them
[8:05]go see what's next I'm going to
[8:10]go I'm a little nervous about this
[8:12]boondocking but it'll be all right I
[8:15]think I was thinking I won't have my
[8:17]electric heer we going to find out how
[8:19]cold it
[8:20]gets and my lights on the outside of the
[8:24]RV those won't turn off because that
[8:27]controller that Forest River just didn't
[8:30]protect from the
[8:32]weather was malfunctioning it's probably
[8:34]got moisture in it and I couldn't dry it
[8:36]out I
[8:38]tried and so they're going to be
[8:40]draining my
[8:41]batteries and this is going to be
[8:43]challenging for
[8:46]me
[8:50]um so yeah I'm feeling a lot of
[8:54]things you just got to hold space for
[8:56]all of it I was thinking about it that's
[8:59]how
[9:00]that's how I navigate the world I hold
[9:01]space for everything that's why I can
[9:03]talk about still drinking Mountain Dew
[9:06]and having a nicotine addiction and um
[9:10]this man you know did this and he you
[9:13]know I don't know if he'll do that and
[9:16]my cat gets on my nerves maybe I'll send
[9:18]him across the you know over the air to
[9:20]my mom or that I also love him and he's
[9:23]out here and I love my Jee like all of
[9:25]it just hold all of it just hold it
[9:27]lightly that's what I do with every
[9:30]and then you guys try to fracture it you
[9:32]try to fragment it that's what I
[9:34]couldn't express to you
[9:36]before you take one
[9:39]part of the hole what does a hole for
[9:45]me and you dissect it into
[9:50]these smaller containers that they don't
[9:53]belong
[9:55]in I'm trying to teach you guys there's
[9:57]another way you're going to want know
[9:59]that way
[10:04]because the way that is a default in
[10:07]this world is why it's disintegrating
[10:10]and it won't
[10:14]work trying to help you
[10:18]guys hold all of it
[11:27]sh
[12:24]they're not fighting this
[12:26]wind we're one with it
[12:30]holding space
[12:33]within there's wisdom
[12:36]there
[12:38]trust they're showing us how to be
[12:40]trustful