[0:01]so I'm out here film my water tank got
[0:04]to hold it in place cuz it keeps coming
[0:06]out most does um I have to do this cuz
[0:10]my hose is still broken I haven't been
[0:12]able to replace it or fix when I have
[0:14]might be able to fix it I just haven't
[0:16]tried to do that yet I fig since I'm out
[0:18]here might as well get up on that roof
[0:21]so I'm not here for much longer today
[0:24]Saturday I leave Monday might as well
[0:26]take care of that so we're going to do
[0:28]that in a minute um but I just want to
[0:30]start by
[0:31]saying uh I was having a conversation
[0:33]with AI and I know I knew this pattern
[0:36]about myself but it recognized it and
[0:38]that made me think about it um I use the
[0:42]word just a lot like is this a way of
[0:44]minimizing or only like like I just went
[0:46]hiking 8 miles or maybe only this one
[0:50]beach you know like kind of minimizing
[0:52]language because I don't own my whole
[0:54]power like I should I noticed I do that
[0:57]a lot in work my work emails and stuff
[0:59]like that
[1:00]you and I recently noticed it in the
[1:02]last couple weeks and just stopped doing
[1:04]it like I consciously tried to stop
[1:07]doing it so I asked Claud I was like
[1:10]what other phrases might I be using or
[1:13]you know that people use that that are
[1:16]you know around the same topic and it
[1:17]gave me a less I'll screenshot it up
[1:20]here and I'm going to try to note it is
[1:22]a it's a homework assignment for me now
[1:25]because I truly believe that you
[1:27]shouldn't minimize yourself don't do it
[1:29]for anybody you know own who you are own
[1:32]own your own your power own your
[1:33]sovereignty and so if you see me doing
[1:36]it if you see it in a video point it out
[1:38]maybe I don't know deci don't
[1:40]know um there it is I don't know that's
[1:44]when I do know that's that's it right
[1:47]there so you're going to be seeing that
[1:50]on my channel now
[1:51]because yeah I have my brain I have my
[1:54]brain
[1:56]like trying to flag when it happens this
[1:59]is what growth looks
[2:01]like okay let's do this got Bailey
[2:05]outside it's chilling over there being a
[2:07]cat oh I flip the camera on accident and
[2:10]we're going up here we're going up here
[2:13]let me just pause this so I'm going to
[2:14]need both hands let me just say this so
[2:16]this is my fourth time up here I'm
[2:18]pretty
[2:19]sure I got my stabilizers down so it'll
[2:22]be a little butter than the last time
[2:24]that was a little weird but I I did it I
[2:27]managed it some of you know this is hard
[2:30]for me I had a real hard time getting up
[2:32]there when I was in Kentucky but watch
[2:34]this all right we're up here um it's not
[2:37]as bad as I thought it's actually not
[2:39]that bad got a few branches but I mean
[2:41]after a 80 mph storm I expected a lot
[2:45]worse bye
[2:47]Bailey okay feeling a little bit dizzy
[2:49]there um guess just Center myself I'm
[2:53]going to turn this off so I can listen
[2:54]to my music and just get this done and
[2:56]then yeah hold on my cat's watching me
[3:01]he looks a little worried there I'm
[3:03]right here
[3:05]buddy I'm right
[3:07]here this the hard part kind of just
[3:11]throw the broom down and do it
[3:14]carefully yeah I did a good job all
[3:19]clean I'm not going to pretend I don't
[3:21]have fear when I do I'm just going to
[3:22]show you that you can work with fear I'm
[3:24]up here I'm doing this whatever you are
[3:27]afraid of whatever brings you fear
[3:31]work with yours
[3:32]okay you know what let me expand on that
[3:36]so what does it mean to work with fear
[3:39]it means to acknowledge it it means to
[3:40]sit with it it means to think about it
[3:43]it means
[3:44]to do things one little step at a time
[3:48]whatever it takes it
[3:50]means it means knowing you have this
[3:53]fear and knowing that one day you will
[3:57]conquer it but not in a suppression kind
[4:00]of a way where you're just like fighting
[4:02]it and trying
[4:04]to pretend like it's not there because
[4:07]that's that's not going to help
[4:09]you I know not all of you have been with
[4:12]me since the beginning so you haven't
[4:13]seen my journey getting up on that roof
[4:15]that was difficult but I sat
[4:18]with it I talked about it and video
[4:20]after video you know whenever it was
[4:21]like I really need to go up there I
[4:23]couldn't get up there
[4:26]yet do the same thing uh went up a
[4:29]mountain and this mountain scared
[4:32]me I wanted to understand why I have a
[4:35]whole video about that it's in my
[4:36]playlist I have one playlist now it's
[4:38]about my journey from Kentucky to here
[4:41]somewhere in there it's like tackling
[4:43]the mountain or whatever I walk you
[4:45]through what that's
[4:48]like believe me fear doesn't not have to
[4:51]stop you it can be your
[4:54]ally hey everybody I'm just hanging out
[4:57]here healing basically
[5:00]my chest is so sore my core muscles
[5:04]are actually do feel of course here
[5:06]comes Bailey that took what one second
[5:09]one second
[5:11]right um oh yeah so I had to point to
[5:15]this whole video right
[5:18]obviously I didn't think this through
[5:20]let me try again so I was just laying
[5:23]here thinking and um I'm going to try
[5:26]something new on my channel so I just
[5:27]thought I should talk about it so in the
[5:30]past I've
[5:32]always treated my camera my channel like
[5:36]I was just talking to humanity in
[5:40]general that kind
[5:43]of ba you're killing me this cat weighs
[5:46]15 PBS I mean this is like it's so much
[5:49]all the time like I that's so
[5:52]much
[5:55]um I don't know what the right word for
[5:57]this is I just I kind of treated it like
[5:59]it was a a distance thing I guess like
[6:01]it allowed me to just keep a distance
[6:05]and talk about my feelings on Humanity
[6:09]because I
[6:11]mean I'm a very deep person
[6:16]and I had a lot of thoughts on Humanity
[6:19]you know trying to grow up in this world
[6:21]live in this world navigate this world
[6:23]like I had a lot of things I needed to
[6:25]say and I wasn't druged that at anybody
[6:28]in particular I want clear about that it
[6:30]truly wasn't it's just people in general
[6:33]the world in general Society in general
[6:36]you know all of that but ever since
[6:40]having my heart woken up I I mean I call
[6:42]it that but it's not really about my
[6:44]heart being woken up it's more
[6:46]like there was just a shift inside of me
[6:49]and I'm so much more open to
[6:52]just just connection right
[6:55]so um and that's manifesting in kinds of
[7:00]different ways it's
[7:04]just so much has shifted inside of me so
[7:07]anyways one of those ways
[7:11]is I feel like my Channel's going to
[7:13]change because like I already see myself
[7:15]like asking how you're doing like did
[7:18]you go do something you know like this
[7:20]morning
[7:22]um open you know the comments are open
[7:25]again and I'm genuinely like
[7:33]I'm just navigating all new territory
[7:35]here and I just want to acknowledge that
[7:36][Music]
[7:38]and say that probably how I use the word
[7:41]you it's a little more direct
[7:48]because I
[7:49]guess once you reach the state that I
[7:53]have like I know I say it all the time
[7:55]I'm integrated blah blah blah everybody
[7:57]can be that way okay this isn't some
[7:59]unique thing it's just it's just I've
[8:01]done the work my whole damn life and
[8:03]nobody else really does so but you know
[8:06]to varying degrees they
[8:08]do and you know I'll acknowledge that I
[8:11]don't want to sound like I got this for
[8:13]him because he keeps getting out of his
[8:16]harnesses and I never took it off he's
[8:18]never even used it I just I just keep it
[8:20]on and whatever it's I got it a dollar
[8:23]store though it looks kind of silly like
[8:25]I'd want to get him something a little
[8:26]criter this colar is a little ridiculous
[8:29]but he hasn't tried to take it off he
[8:31]seems to like
[8:32]it and I guess that's
[8:35]enough man you just know how to get
[8:37]attention don't
[8:39]you he cute though he is developing and
[8:43]I actually could use a vice on this if
[8:45]you guys haven't he is developing
[8:49]this big knot on his back from all his
[8:52]Fern and I can't get I can't get it
[8:54]undone I don't know what to do about it
[8:56]so um I've tried like like I thought
[9:00]about taking a razor to it but AI told
[9:02]me that that was dangerous cuz their
[9:03]skin gets all wrapped up in that stuff
[9:05]and I don't know what to do you I truly
[9:07]don't know what to do for him it doesn't
[9:09]seem to be bothering him yet but it is a
[9:11]problem I don't know how to deal with it
[9:14]so um anyways I just I guess I don't
[9:18]really have a point more of an
[9:20]acknowledgement
[9:21]that I think my channel is changing
[9:24]because I'm changing and we're
[9:25]navigating new territory let's leave it
[9:27]at that