Processing Relationship End and Storm Preparation

Early morning (7 AM) at an Oregon coast campground, preparing for major storm with 50-60 mph sustained winds and 80 mph gusts. rswfire is doing laundry and planning departure due to safety concerns following relationship end.

Energetic Signature

resolute turbulence

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward territorial recalibration

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November 19, 2024

16:43

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]so it's almost 700 in the morning here

[0:02]I'm just going to say this briefly

[0:04]things didn't work out with my new

[0:06][Music]

[0:07]friend I want to respect his privacy so

[0:10]I'm not going to say more than that

[0:11]other than to say he made me feel very

[0:13]unsafe very

[0:15]scared

[0:18]and destroyed something that was

[0:20]absolutely

[0:22]beautiful it's heartbreaking and I'm

[0:25]grieving and I'm moving on so um I'm

[0:27]doing laundry this morning it's almost 7

[0:30]in the morning I might have said that we

[0:31]have a major storm coming the wind um

[0:35]the sustained winds are going to be in

[0:37]like the 50s or 60s I think and the the

[0:40]Gus they're going to be in the 80s but

[0:42]the campground is pretty secure I think

[0:45]maybe just have to worry about the trees

[0:47]but there's really nothing you can do

[0:48]about that so

[0:51]um just going to tough it out today got

[0:53]to get my laundry done and just you know

[0:56]whatever so yeah things didn't work out

[1:00]so I'm here doing

[1:02]hry two people in here and they're using

[1:05]all the washers there was only one I

[1:08]crab out so those are going to probably

[1:10]take hours I guess I need to do my

[1:13]laundry anyways I want to honor had this

[1:17]because it was wonderful I'm trying to

[1:18]get this door shut it was wonderful up

[1:21]until it wasn't right

[1:27]so very I'll take away

[1:30]this place is

[1:32]done oh my God yesterday I hooked him on

[1:36]the

[1:36]beach when he came to get me

[1:39]wonderful absolutely love

[1:43]that I got him a tie table because I

[1:46]know how important that is to him it's a

[1:48]way of showing I

[1:51]care told him I want you to meet his mom

[1:54]that I wanted her to like me

[1:57]rtic I love the berry picking

[2:01]I teased him about it because who

[2:02]wouldn't it was

[2:07]adorable I like this man just as he

[2:12]was quirks and a like just so different

[2:14]from

[2:15]me let him be himself and

[2:22]then I have a lot to process I just I'm

[2:26]I want

[2:28]to I don't want

[2:31]to trying to be respectful you know I'm

[2:34]not trying

[2:39]to there just some things I can't

[2:43]say what I'm hurting pretty

[2:46]obvious w't close me off though

[2:49]because that was wonderful it was Come

[2:54]on

[2:55]B oh

[2:56]yeah we started cuddling together a few

[2:59]days going that gave me one fuzzy

[3:02]feeling inside that I still have mixed

[3:05]with everything else that's

[3:13]going by the way my Xbox one there and

[3:18]hopefully very

[3:19]soon hopefully I'm really hopeing

[3:24]soon I don't know I

[3:27]can because

[3:31]complications can't really afford to

[3:33]leave yet I week at this

[3:37]place but I'm probably going to leave

[3:40]early

[3:42]somehow go back to um Brookings cuz I

[3:46]love it there I missed it I'm making

[3:50]friends there too there's this one woman

[3:52]on the beach that I met a couple of

[3:53]times he had to

[4:06]dis gu was kind of

[4:09]building know

[4:13]I

[4:14]for these little connection make then

[4:18]this happened it was

[4:20]like it was beautiful was

[4:24][ __ ] think I was falling in love with

[4:26]this man I think I might have actually I

[4:30]don't

[4:38]know I felt safe with him right up until

[4:42]I

[4:43]didn't just breaks my

[4:50]heart confuses me why like I didn't see

[4:54]it

[4:56]how you can only see what's there right

[4:58]what you're shown

[5:00]so I don't blame

[5:03]myself it just sucks you know it just

[5:07]sucks so all these people you like

[5:09]taking all the washers I think I'm just

[5:10]going to go somewhere else I Bailey

[5:12]threw up on a blanket that I really

[5:14]needed to get washed so that's in there

[5:16]once that's washed and again dry I'm

[5:18]going to go to a different town I

[5:22]think but there is a major storm coming

[5:25]in I just don't know like I don't need

[5:26]to be out in this weather I got to be

[5:29]with Bailey don't want him being scared

[5:31]I doesn't need to be there

[5:33]so guess

[5:36]I'll I don't know it's kind of tricky

[5:38]because you can't really trust weather

[5:39]apps so you know the storm comes when it

[5:42]comes I guess

[5:44]and 80 M an hour like all week I've been

[5:48]like wow that's even for me that's a lot

[5:50]you know I want to document I want to

[5:52]see it I want to experience it to an

[5:57]extent I don't know I'm trying to think

[5:59]like just so much happened we it was

[6:02]wonderful I destroy something so

[6:05]beautiful that had so much

[6:11]potential it's over there's no going

[6:18]back yeah gu I'll leave it there for on

[6:22]ohlo this one side I'm going to try to

[6:25]get

[6:27]some these clouds are just moving

[6:45]it's going to be an

[6:48]event I'll be okay you guys don't worry

[6:50]about me we going to be good well I

[6:53]clean my blankets I didn't get all my

[6:55]laundry done I really wanted to clean my

[6:57]pants because I'm always getting them

[6:59]wet on in the ocean and I have to dry

[7:02]them out with my electric heater and you

[7:04]know after a while they do get dirty and

[7:06]you got to wash them so I still have

[7:09]cleaned pants though so we're good do it

[7:11]another day um this is a major storm

[7:14]system maybe I even um put a screenshot

[7:18]up of it cuz it's so cool looking so

[7:21]cool and so I'm not going to head

[7:23]south cuz it's everywhere I mean and

[7:26]these are very strong winds so

[7:29]um and I was talking to a guy at the

[7:31]laundry man I asked him what he thought

[7:33]cuz he's lived here forever and he's

[7:35]like it's a little bit about luck and

[7:37]I'm like that's not a good word to use

[7:39]like that's not a reason to you know

[7:41]don't be out at luck that I'm not going

[7:43]to yeah no so I'm doing

[7:47]better um these feelings will build

[7:51]linger a little while and you know I'll

[7:53]process the things that happened and

[7:55]I'll move on that's what I do and still

[7:59]up and

[8:01]still you know

[8:05]I'm I'm

[8:07]good yeah oh I didn't want to mention

[8:11]though I cook for this man twice do you

[8:13]know what kind of a cook I am so I made

[8:16]burgers the first night those were good

[8:20]getting pretty good at that using my

[8:21]ninja foodie then I made chili yesterday

[8:23]but I made a special chili I chopped up

[8:27]onions like red pepper whole bunch of

[8:31]garlic Chopped all that up and cooked it

[8:35]like seared it or whatever and then put

[8:38]in brown sugar and cocoa powder mix all

[8:42]that together then you know just a whole

[8:44]bunch of stuff like this was a lot of

[8:46]work I wanted to nourish this man

[8:50]cuz apparently there's that part of me

[8:53]that I didn't know about so that was

[8:55]interesting to discover and loved it

[8:58]and um

[9:02]oh

[9:04]man I'm [ __ ]

[9:06]awesome turning me into the

[9:10]monster

[9:13]because what because I'm awesome like

[9:17]makes no sense could have been

[9:20]beautiful

[9:23]M it is what it is there are other men

[9:26]out there I didn't tell you guys about

[9:28]the fishermen there was one day I was at

[9:30]a different Campground and I saw this

[9:32]fisherman holding a fishing pole this

[9:34]man knew how to hold a fishing pole like

[9:37]that just did something to me I just had

[9:39]to talk to that

[9:41]man um that's a whole other story um

[9:46]yeah yeah I

[9:49][Music]

[9:51]guess um I don't know just kind of

[9:55]having a moment here because

[10:01]I love this place so I got to I don't

[10:03]know if I can show

[10:04]you um oh I can't show you very well let

[10:09]me try you look back there somewhere

[10:11]there it

[10:13]is I got a 101 sticker put above my baby

[10:17]Yoda because this place claimed me I

[10:20]claimed it back

[10:22]so I live on this Coast now this is

[10:25]where I

[10:26]live so before I wrap this video up I I

[10:29]thought maybe I'll just go check the

[10:31]cape out and oh some people okay so I

[10:35]just want to show you though isn't it

[10:36]pretty yes this is my campsite it floods

[10:40]real bad this is nothing it'll get a lot

[10:43]worse um well let's go check the KP

[10:46]we'll talk about a few

[10:48]things um nor might I just come out here

[10:51]so I've been hiking every day since my

[10:54]heart got opened up that over a month

[10:56]ago and according to Samsung health I'm

[10:59]the top 3% of everybody who's out here

[11:01]walking and stuff which I'm very proud

[11:04]of I'm probably going to put a

[11:05]screenshot up of that because maybe I'll

[11:08]just document that fact cuz I'm hiking

[11:11]everywhere you know um very sore I

[11:15]there's a I don't know if I mentioned it

[11:16]but my I got a core muscle that's real

[11:19]sore and I'm not giving it enough rust

[11:22]to get better so anyways

[11:26]um probably not going to stay here

[11:28]because quite honestly it doesn't feel

[11:30]safe

[11:32]anymore um it's

[11:35]complicated but it doesn't feel safe

[11:38]so um I think what I'm going to do cuz I

[11:41]I want to stay on the southern coast and

[11:43]I do actually kind of Miss Brookings and

[11:45]Gold Beach area um and Humbug Mountain

[11:49]like I'll probably stay in those areas

[11:51]and the next place up is this one and

[11:55]once you get to here cap

[11:57]blonco um

[11:59]things start to get a little more remote

[12:01]so um there's just it's a different vibe

[12:05]a little bit more solitary in a sense

[12:08]and you know that's not the energy I

[12:11]have these days I really want to

[12:15]um socialize so want to be on the

[12:19]beaches and Brookings generally it has

[12:22]this effect where it tends to have it's

[12:24]got a microclimate that's uh might make

[12:27]some of the days better

[12:29]um all kinds of reasons you know I just

[12:32]absolutely love it and then maybe in the

[12:34]spring I'll start heading north but I'm

[12:37]going

[12:38]to recalibrate I was going to make this

[12:41]my base camp it's going to spend two

[12:43]weeks at a time here go somewhere else

[12:45]for 3 Days come back this is going to be

[12:47]my base camp cuz I love so much about

[12:49]this place

[12:51]but maintaining privacy here

[12:54]because despite everything that happens

[12:56]I care very much about this person and

[13:04]I just hope that

[13:08]they and I can't you know I just I can't

[13:11]talk about it but I don't feel safe here

[13:13]so I'm going to move

[13:14]on um under different

[13:18]circumstances a normal breakup or

[13:20]something like that would not be an

[13:22]issue but this is

[13:23]different um that being said got this

[13:27]pocket knife don't even remember where

[13:29]I carry it everywhere

[13:31]now because I am still expecting social

[13:34]claps obviously but you know I will

[13:37]defend my sovereignty against anybody

[13:39]any

[13:40]threat and I mean I'm not saying

[13:43]anything by saying that not an

[13:46]implication of any kind I'm basically

[13:49]telling my viewers

[13:51]that not to worry so I'll be

[13:54]fine trust

[13:56]myself love myself

[14:00]and making me feel unsafe that's wrong

[14:03]unacceptably

[14:05]wrong so

[14:08]no putting me in that position

[14:10]absolutely [ __ ] wrong

[14:15]undeserved I'm going to keep living my

[14:18]best [ __ ]

[14:19]life that's what I want for

[14:22]everybody so we're about to leave the

[14:24]tree line and that's when the wind will

[14:26]pick up because this Campground really

[14:27]is protected so let's see what's going

[14:28]on

[14:31]there's a couple up ahead of me so I'm

[14:32]trying to not pan over

[14:36]there oh I'm going to

[14:55]lose yeah this is

[15:00]4 M hour um

[15:15]GS

[15:23]that can't be

[15:25]predicted does of for what it is

[15:32]sheer force of nature that is me that

[15:36]will always be

[15:38]me Lighthouse over there void

[15:41]penetrating

[15:43]device to meet

[15:45]too can see

[15:48]deeply here the void but here turned it

[15:52]on the light hasn't been on since we got

[15:54]here people coming hold on they were

[15:57]cool dos they're like I guess we're not

[15:59]all The Crazy Ones nope you're sure

[16:03]not um still kind few not

[16:09]bad so anyways yeah um oldest lighthouse

[16:12]in Oregon and they're trying to collect

[16:16]funds for it to repair it maybe that's

[16:19]why the light is not anymore I don't

[16:21]know I haven't been able to see it that

[16:23]way and this was is sad cuz I don't

[16:24]really want

[16:25]to um you know

[16:33]that pants are falling down wait a

[16:35]minute why is this upside down oh my god

[16:38]of course I did guys of course I did

[16:40]okay let me just send it there this is

[16:41]so very

Summary

rswfire reports at 7 AM that a relationship with a new friend ended badly, making him feel unsafe and scared. He describes the relationship as initially beautiful - they cuddled, he cooked meals (burgers and elaborate chili), bought gifts, and was falling in love. He's doing laundry at a campground while processing grief and preparing for a major storm with 50-60 mph sustained winds and 80 mph gusts.

He plans to leave the current location early because it no longer feels safe, intending to return to Brookings area where he has other connections. rswfire mentions hiking daily for over a month, ranking in top 3% on Samsung Health. He shows his campsite with flooding and visits Cape Blanco lighthouse during high winds, carrying a pocket knife for protection while maintaining he will defend his sovereignty.

The transmission includes footage of the approaching storm system and lighthouse area, with rswfire declaring this coast as his home and expressing intent to continue living his best life despite the setback.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission processes relational rupture while maintaining sovereign boundaries and operational continuity. The field demonstrates resilience architecture by simultaneously grieving loss, asserting safety protocols, and recalibrating territorial positioning without fragmenting core identity.

Dominant Language

unsafebeautifulsovereigntybase campclaimednourishsheer force of nature

Symbolic Elements

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Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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coherent
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integrating

Subsystems

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emotional
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somatic
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relational
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infrastructural
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ethical

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

640 × 360 @ 30fps

Duration

16:43

Bitrate

586 kbps

Codec

avc1.4d401e