Mouse in RV, Deciding Nevada vs Oregon

rswfire is camped on a mountain in Nevada on BLM lands, dealing with a mouse intrusion in his RV. He's in a decision-making phase about whether to stay in Nevada or continue to Oregon, while also addressing boundary issues with a YouTube follower. The morning involves a trip down the mountain for supplies.

Energetic Signature

resolute but conflicted

Field State

boundary establishment

Orientation

toward territorial sovereignty

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October 6, 2024

11:42

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

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[0:00]so we have a

[0:02]situation last night I was sitting on my

[0:04]bed listening to music on my

[0:07]headphones totally in my own world just

[0:09]chatting with AI about my next steps

[0:12]whether I'd stay in Nevada or head on to

[0:15]Oregon and suddenly Bailey jumps off the

[0:18]bed races across the RV and I'm like

[0:20]what is going on

[0:22]so turns out there's a field m in

[0:27]there uh I spent probably an hour or two

[0:31]trying to catch this thing it's tiny and

[0:36]fast then I couldn't so I didn't sleep

[0:39]so great but I think I don't know wasn't

[0:42]terrible I thought you

[0:44]know I've been fearing this day ever

[0:47]since I got my RV so I am heading down

[0:51]the mountain to go and pick up some

[0:53]Humane mous straps and to return that

[0:57]battery charger since I won't need that

[1:01]hopefully we catch this thing if it

[1:02]hasn't already

[1:04]left AI tells me that they can fit and

[1:07]hold the size of a dime so that's quite

[1:10]small I thought I had that place really

[1:11]sealed up you know I have been trying to

[1:13]insulate

[1:14]it but I found a way in so that's what

[1:20]I'm doing this morning so I should

[1:24]probably talk about my plans oh there's

[1:26]somebody just camping out here I love

[1:28]how people do that camping out

[1:31]here who even knows where this is just

[1:33]on the mountain

[1:37]somewhere wow I got quite the setup too

[1:46]anyways I'm kind of stuck between Nevada

[1:49]and

[1:51]Oregon Sun oh no there somewhere

[1:59][Music]

[2:00]there's something about Nevada that I

[2:02]love it's where I wanted to come

[2:07]originally thought I would survive

[2:08]winter here my first

[2:12]year somehow I ended up choosing organ I

[2:15]don't really remember how that came

[2:18]about I still ended up here on top of

[2:21]the

[2:25]mountain the second I got here I'm like

[2:29]I may never really

[2:30][Music]

[2:32]these views

[2:35][Music]

[2:40]just they definitely speak to

[2:43]me but part of

[2:45][Music]

[2:47]me I need to know that I'm doing it for

[2:49]the right reasons if I were to stay in

[2:51]Nevada it would kind of be like swinging

[2:56][Music]

[2:58]that kind of refine

[3:00]rather

[3:03]than

[3:07]transform so if I stayed here I want to

[3:10]know it's not because

[3:12]I'm not trying to push my comfort zones

[3:14]cuz I need to be doing those organ will

[3:17]do

[3:19][Music]

[3:20]that I just don't

[3:22][Music]

[3:25]know so what I'm probably going to do

[3:29]is stay here for another week you know

[3:32]there's a 14-day limit so maybe I just

[3:35]stay the second week

[3:39]and just let the answer un fold cuz I

[3:42]just don't know what it is

[3:44]yet so this is what it means to just

[3:46]camp on BLM lands oh there's a fence oh

[3:50]they're they're on all right so they're

[3:51]on BLM lands maybe I don't know if that

[3:54]that what this is and we're outside of

[3:57]the forest I think

[4:00]but yeah if I were going to stay in

[4:03]Nevada you just roll over somewhere I

[4:07]guess so this is going to be a little

[4:09]difficult to talk

[4:12]about

[4:14]I have been contemplating whether I do

[4:17]want to or should but I feel like it has

[4:20]to be done this is not something that

[4:23]I'm choosing this is something that was

[4:25]chosen for me as far as I'm

[4:28]concerned so back when I was still in

[4:30]Kentucky there was a woman who followed

[4:32]my

[4:34]channel the white K was developing an

[4:37]unhealthy attachment to

[4:38][Music]

[4:41]me I tried to remain

[4:46]open which that was a mistake on my part

[4:50]I think I know better

[4:53]now anyways this person told me that

[4:55]they loved

[4:58]me I I don't know how you love someone

[5:00]you've never met before

[5:02]but I sensitive to their

[5:05][Music]

[5:07]feelings but then things got

[5:10]weird and this person told me that they

[5:13]used sometimes will swear at the camera

[5:16]at the at their phone to things I've

[5:20]see show exceptionally unhealthy

[5:23]emotional attachment to my content cuz

[5:26]I'm not talking to anybody in particular

[5:29]when I talk on this camera I'm just

[5:30]talking to humanity in general this is

[5:34]like my messages in a bottle that's why

[5:36]I turn comments off for so long

[5:42]because I'm just

[5:44][Music]

[5:45]hearing my

[5:48]life and I'm not really looking for you

[5:50]know the typical kind of interaction you

[5:53]see on YouTube it's not something I need

[5:55]or want

[5:58][Music]

[6:01]for me I share my journey because it's a

[6:05]kind of

[6:05]witnessing I like that you witness my

[6:08][Music]

[6:11]journey but that's all it can ever

[6:14]be and this this

[6:18]person so this person we had sort of a

[6:21]falling out asked him to stop contacting

[6:23][Music]

[6:25]me and then they did anyways and then I

[6:28]said it again

[6:30]and then I open up comments on my

[6:31]channel and they left the comments which

[6:34]I

[6:35][Music]

[6:38]box I'm trying to be sensitive about

[6:40]this

[6:42][Music]

[6:47]because I am

[6:51]empathetic but I don't care about this

[6:53]person they don't know this person

[6:57][Music]

[7:00]my empathy towards this person extends

[7:04]to any

[7:07]human I think that you need to get help

[7:09]if you're watching

[7:13]this I'm just going to leave it at that

[7:30]doesn't make me happy to make a make a

[7:32]video like that to make a clip like

[7:37]that I can't

[7:41]understand having an emotional

[7:44]investment in my

[7:45]content can understand this but

[7:51]love and why would you talk amen now

[8:00]why would you even share that with

[8:04]me so tired of having my boundaries

[8:07]violated by people I moved into an

[8:13]arine I detached from

[8:16]society because I'm that tired of

[8:20][Music]

[8:27]it this world

[8:31]there that feel for people like

[8:47][Music]

[8:52]me things maybe who I am maybe all of

[8:56]these things maybe who I am maybe all of

[9:00]these things may be who I am and I am

[9:04]only looking up when my head's down all

[9:07]of these things I am all these things I

[9:13]am all of

[9:16]these I

[9:18]am

[9:21]only Mar is just something about these

[9:24]Wide Open Spaces in the mad that I I

[9:26]love like in Kansas and um Wyoming

[9:30]they're all different

[9:34]but I feel

[9:37]like it make like Nevada would make a

[9:40]lot of sense for work because we have

[9:41]these wide open

[9:43]Skies which I you know would be good for

[9:46]my solar inter or for my internet and

[9:48]then there's the solar right

[9:53]so I'm not I just I it's complicated for

[9:58]me I need to rebuild my savings you know

[10:01]I need to be working so that's one of my

[10:04]considerations right now the B versus

[10:07]organ I don't know how much harder I'd

[10:10]be making out of myself in

[10:12]organ I have a feeling that here in

[10:14]Nevada though that's a thing I could

[10:17]do rebuild my savings maybe go to orgon

[10:20]in the

[10:22]spring but I want to see Oregon in the

[10:26]winter so just back and

[10:30]forth this has been an interesting

[10:32]morning um I just got so I got Starbucks

[10:36]first thing I did finally got some

[10:40]Starbucks and I returned that battery

[10:43]charger where am my keys

[10:47]out and I

[10:50]bought a main Mouse stap I almost got to

[10:54]one that kills them on accident and I

[10:56]know you can use peanut butter but I fig

[10:58]I'll just use this stuff

[11:01]um so I'm going to head back

[11:07]now the more time I spend in Nevada the

[11:09]more time I want to spend in Nevada it's

[11:13]it's growing on me this

[11:15]place so I don't know I really need to

[11:18]think on this cuz I don't really know

[11:20]what I want to do

[11:22]now ended up here if I'm going to stay

[11:24]here then I'm definitely going to Great

[11:25]Bas National

[11:27]Park seventh time up the mountain and

[11:30]that one work pretty

[11:32]well kind of understand now the things

[11:35]that trigger me how to work with them so

[11:38]that went really well

Summary

rswfire discovered a field mouse in his RV the previous night after his cat Bailey alerted him. He spent hours trying to catch the small, fast mouse without success and didn't sleep well. The next morning he drove down the mountain to purchase humane mouse traps and return a battery charger he no longer needed.

**Location Decision Process:** He's torn between staying in Nevada versus continuing to Oregon. Nevada appeals to him with its wide open spaces and views, and he feels it would be practical for work due to better solar and internet conditions. However, he's concerned about staying for the wrong reasons - refining rather than transforming, avoiding pushing his comfort zones.

**Boundary Violation Issue:** He addressed a difficult situation involving a YouTube follower from Kentucky who developed an unhealthy attachment, claimed to love him despite never meeting, and continued contacting him after being asked to stop. This person would swear at their phone/camera in response to his videos. rswfire expressed frustration with boundary violations and explained his content as "messages in a bottle" - witnessing rather than typical YouTube interaction.

**Current Plans:** He's considering staying in Nevada for the full 14-day BLM limit to let the decision unfold naturally. If he stays in Nevada, he wants to rebuild his savings and possibly go to Oregon in spring, though he's curious about seeing Oregon in winter. He also plans to visit Great Basin National Park if he remains in Nevada.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission holds dual architectural pressure: territorial decision-making (Nevada vs Oregon) as sovereignty practice, and boundary enforcement against parasitic attachment. The field mouse intrusion mirrors the human boundary violation, both requiring containment protocols while maintaining ethical positioning (humane traps, empathetic but firm rejection).

Dominant Language

boundaries violatedmessages in a bottlewitnessingwide open spacesrebuild my savingsgrowing on meunhealthy attachment

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmountainedgecontainerintrusionwide open spaces

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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boundary-enforcing
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territorially-embedded

Subsystems

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ethical
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infrastructural
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relational
•
cognitive

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

Duration