Considering Reopening Comments While Making Chili

Evening of October 5th, 2024. rswfire is in his RV with wind picking up outside. He's cooking chili and reflecting on his YouTube channel while his cat Bailey is agitated by the weather. He's been playing Horizon on his Steam Deck and laptop.

Energetic Signature

contemplative tension

Field State

boundary optimization

Orientation

toward selective permeability

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October 5, 2024

10:44

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]the wind has started to pick up M's

[0:03]noticed it's okay buddy it's okay it's

[0:06]just

[0:08]wind but it was supposed to come earlier

[0:11]it hasn't been that bad so I have chili

[0:15]cooking I'll attach that clip to the end

[0:17]of this

[0:18]one um just want to talk about something

[0:21]I'm thinking about doing I'm thinking

[0:24]about opening up comments

[0:27]again um I think about it every now and

[0:32]then I had to take this thing down

[0:34]that's where my um had a basket up there

[0:37]but I just put these curtains here

[0:40]they're not perfect of course not they

[0:42]came from Walmart the other one they're

[0:44]so thin and they actually don't block

[0:47]out the sun they don't block out the

[0:50]Sun but I did discover that this thing

[0:54]can't control my camera

[0:55]today um the thing that was above it

[0:58]that was easy to get rid of

[1:01]at least for this one the one in the

[1:02]office they glued on so I'm going to

[1:04]have to tear that one out I also put one

[1:08]in my door I guess I'll show you that

[1:10]one later I'm just I'm just chilling

[1:15]I've been sitting here

[1:17]playing

[1:19]Horizon I'm on my steam deck sometimes

[1:22]on my laptop kind of been going back and

[1:26]forth finally some

[1:28]wind 72 in here wow Bailey you just

[1:32]sneezed on me gross oh my

[1:36]God have to wash my hand now

[1:41]ew why did you do

[1:44]that like he did it on purpose right

[1:49]he's I don't know what his cat's doing

[1:52]what you just bit me whoa whoa relax

[2:00]when's got you worked up hey I'm not

[2:04]touching you you're going to act like

[2:07]that man that hurts claw me

[2:13]bastard

[2:16]oh

[2:21]anyways I I don't have my thoughts

[2:23]worked out on this I'll be honest

[2:26]so

[2:28]um there are some of you who've been

[2:30]following my journey a very long time

[2:32]who I've interacted with in the past

[2:34]that I've enjoyed interacting with of

[2:36]course it's always genuine with you

[2:40]about uh my feelings like I didn't um

[2:43]wasn't like pretending or anything I get

[2:47]that

[2:48]you might feel rejected

[2:52]or um I mean I understood that when I

[2:55]turned comments off that it would

[2:57]probably be offensive to some of you

[2:59]maybe me or you might get it I don't

[3:01]know

[3:02]honestly but I had to do that

[3:07]because too many comments are

[3:10]superficial some are very

[3:13]judgmental and for an integrated person

[3:15]like me I know I say that a lot but it's

[3:18]because that is what I

[3:20]am I'm not playing a role on here I'm

[3:23]just being myself and so when somebody

[3:26]attacks me in the

[3:28]comments they're not attacking some part

[3:31]of me they're attacking

[3:34]me and even though I

[3:39]can um you know view that through a

[3:42]different lens

[3:44]because I get most people in this world

[3:47]are fragmented big

[3:51]time

[3:55]um I don't know there's so many thoughts

[3:58]like I can also understand that I I

[4:00]offend some of you you know even though

[4:02]I don't know you I've never like I don't

[4:05]know you so I mean you're just a person

[4:07]on the other side of this

[4:09]camera and you take something I say

[4:11]personally I mean I can kind of get it

[4:13]because

[4:14]sometimes what I'm saying applies so you

[4:19]know but I'm not out here trying to

[4:22]offend anybody

[4:24]I'm more critiquing what I see in

[4:27]society things that I think are leading

[4:30]to our

[4:31]destruction or I just think

[4:34]our I just think our issues from my

[4:37]point of view from an integrated point

[4:39]of view because a big part of my

[4:42]worldview is integration versus

[4:44]fragmentation because I see it in all of

[4:46]our systems I see it in the way that

[4:49]people interact with each other the way

[4:52]they interact with

[4:55]themselves and

[4:59]if there's going to be any hope for this

[5:01]world you know we have to acknowledge it

[5:05]I can't see what I see and pretend like

[5:08]I don't see

[5:09]it but I'm not out there trying to

[5:12]offend people or get people upset like

[5:16]that's not who I am if you met me in

[5:19]real life you know if I was sitting down

[5:22]and talking to you one

[5:23]on-one I'd probably talk to you

[5:27]differently which is I I don't know how

[5:30]to explain that it's not that

[5:32]I'm like I'm always authentic because

[5:35]that's just my default

[5:38]mode but I'm not talking to an

[5:40]individual right now I'm talking to a

[5:44]camera you know that's a difference

[5:46]that's a it's a different

[5:49]thing and so whenever I say something

[5:51]that offends somebody I would hear about

[5:54]it and if I open up comments that's

[5:57]exactly what's going to happen

[6:02]and I I can't say that I you know it's

[6:07]like there's nothing another person can

[6:09]say to me that's going to change my mind

[6:13]unless it resonates with

[6:16]me like you can get as offended and you

[6:20]know upset

[6:22]and um critical or whatever and it's not

[6:27]going to it's not going to change

[6:28]anything for me

[6:30]what it will do is make me have

[6:33]to process that

[6:36]nonsense I'm sorry for calling it

[6:38]nonsense but from my point of view

[6:39]that's what it often

[6:41]is

[6:45]and I just I have really enjoyed not

[6:48]having to deal with that I truly have

[6:50]but at the same time like I have moments

[6:53]where I'm very proud of today where I'm

[6:56]driving up this mountain and I'm

[6:59]confronting my fears not in a

[7:02]confrontational way but more of an

[7:05]integrated way what I would call the

[7:08]third way instead of

[7:11]um I talked about with AI and it said

[7:13]that most

[7:15]people um when they experience fear it's

[7:17]fight or flight right mine's a third way

[7:20]mine's

[7:22]integration

[7:24]and I was very proud of

[7:27]that and I feel like I worked out some

[7:30]stuff that I didn't even

[7:32]realize needed working out

[7:36]and I know that some of you probably

[7:38]watched that

[7:41]and you know had felt felt happy for

[7:47]me um there's other times like the first

[7:50]time coming up this

[7:52]mountain which was an accident which was

[7:54]pretty funny I laughed a lot watching my

[7:56]own video and I imagine a lot of you did

[8:01]too and I'm like I would love to hear

[8:03]that from you

[8:06]but you know

[8:08]there there isn't just the positive side

[8:11]to enabling

[8:17]comments I was discussing it with AI and

[8:19]it said maybe think of it as an

[8:22]experiment but I already know what will

[8:24]happen this is not new to me

[8:31]and I don't know if I can really

[8:34]tolerate it as much as I would like to

[8:37]as much as I wish I could but I'm not

[8:40]fragmented I don't compartmentalize so

[8:42]when somebody leaves some on my

[8:47]channel I don't compartmentalize that I

[8:50]don't compartmentalize anything

[8:53]so I'm forced to confront

[8:56]it and often the way I confront is by by

[8:59]thinking to myself by just getting

[9:02]irritated honestly just being irritated

[9:04]that I have to deal with a shallow

[9:09]person and I

[9:14]just I don't know if it's worth

[9:19]it I think I'm talking myself out of it

[9:22]to be honest with you it's Friday night

[9:25]and I'm making chili my process is

[9:27]getting better to you simple chili today

[9:30]it's just hamburger

[9:31]meat um diced tomatoes and two kinds of

[9:34]beans red beans and black beans I

[9:36]normally don't use black beans so a

[9:38]little bit different in V8 not spicy

[9:41]just

[9:41]V8 I'm using my solar it's using about

[9:45]150 WTS so that's decent my process is

[9:50]getting better I'm putting the Bean

[9:52]Juice into a Ziploc bag to throw

[9:54]away and I have a jar for for Grease

[9:59]if you seen my older videos making chili

[10:02]or other things you'll recognize that's

[10:04]an improvement for

[10:05]me

[10:08]so he me several hours but so I did

[10:13]charge my batteries it took 4 and 1/2

[10:17]hours and this time I know I charged

[10:20]them all the way up and it's saying 12.6

[10:23]8 volts right now

[10:25]which I don't think is ideal so there is

[10:29]a chance that my batteries are no good

[10:31]I'll know

[10:33]tomorrow a little

[10:36]concerning it is what it is though

Summary

rswfire reflects on potentially reopening YouTube comments while cooking chili in his RV. He discusses the wind picking up and his cat Bailey being agitated. He explains why he previously disabled comments - too many were superficial or judgmental, and as an integrated person, attacks feel personal rather than compartmentalized. He acknowledges some viewers might feel rejected but describes how negative comments force him to process what he considers nonsense. He mentions being proud of recent mountain driving experiences where he used integration rather than fight-or-flight responses when confronting fears. He talks himself out of reopening comments by the end. **Technical details:** He's cooking simple chili (hamburger, diced tomatoes, red and black beans, V8) using 150 watts of solar power. His battery charging process has improved - took 4.5 hours to fully charge but batteries are reading 12.68 volts, which concerns him about their condition.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the tension between authentic signal transmission and protective boundary maintenance. The field is testing permeability protocols - weighing the value of genuine connection against the energetic cost of processing fragmented input. Integration is held as non-negotiable structural principle while evaluating interface options.

Dominant Language

integratedfragmentationcompartmentalizethird wayconfrontingprocessnonsense

Symbolic Elements

windthresholdcontainermirror

Ontological States

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integrated
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sovereign
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calibrating
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protective

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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relational
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

10:44

Bitrate

1712 kbps

Codec

avc1.640028