Approaching Oregon Coast Without Plan

Speaker is traveling through Idaho in his RV with his cat Bailey, approaching the Oregon coast where he plans to spend autumn and winter. He has two days of campground reservations but no plan beyond that. Financial pressures are acute as savings deplete.

Energetic Signature

steady uncertainty

Field State

threshold crossing

Orientation

toward embodied sovereignty

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September 30, 2024

9:05

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

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TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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0.00

[0:01]hello

[0:03]humans

[0:06]so I was in kind of a sour mood today

[0:09]for a

[0:10]while I didn't really understand why

[0:14]completely I had an idea but I

[0:18]didn't I understand

[0:20]now I am very close to my

[0:24]destination and I have no plan I really

[0:28]don't oh oh my God I get there and I'm

[0:31]on a campground for 2 days and that's it

[0:33]I have no plan after

[0:35]that and it's

[0:40]because it

[0:42]feels impossible for me to make a plan

[0:45]right

[0:47]now I don't know enough about the place

[0:49]I don't sit down and research

[0:52]things it's not how I work it just isn't

[0:57]I I trust in my path

[1:07]I mean it's complicated I researched

[1:09]some things right so I mean I've been a

[1:11]programmer all my

[1:14]life always learning you know but look

[1:17]at baby hello you what's up oh you look

[1:23]cute

[1:25]anyways when it comes to my my life

[1:32]guess I don't have this figured out yet

[1:33]is what it comes down

[1:35]to and I know that I'm going to have

[1:38]some serious challenges coming

[1:42]up and I don't know that I'm really

[1:44]prepared for them

[1:47]I I have systems I have backup systems I

[1:51]don't know how to use them like

[1:53]perfectly I'll

[1:56]learn

[1:58]um the ones I do know how to use I still

[2:02]you know like my solar I still need to

[2:03]learn like my power consumption

[2:05]needs I don't know where I'll be staying

[2:08]I don't know how hard it will be fine to

[2:10]find places to

[2:12]stay my money is running out I've been

[2:14]living on my savings this whole

[2:18]time my whole life is about to go

[2:20]through a Reckoning with these systems

[2:23]uh the soci hadle

[2:25]once and it feels necessary

[2:33]I have chosen a life separate from

[2:37]them so doesn't mean I avoid

[2:39]responsibility cuz I that's part of my

[2:42]character it's cor part of who I am

[2:45]I keep my promises I pay my debts all of

[2:49]that always

[2:51]have but for a while things are going to

[2:55]be very challenging

[3:01]because I can't afford all my

[3:04]bills and at the same time I have to be

[3:07]able to afford my

[3:12]lifestyle that's a delicate balance

[3:15]difficult one and until I can get back

[3:18]into freelance programming which I don't

[3:20]even know how easy that's going to be

[3:22]because I'm going to have to rebuild my

[3:24]profile and start from scratch I haven't

[3:26]had to do that in over a decade so

[3:30]have no idea what I'm stepping into

[3:34]there and I have no idea what I'm

[3:36]stepping to an

[3:38]organ and I'm just acknowledging all of

[3:42]this because I think it's important if

[3:44]you're following my journey you need to

[3:46]know that those tensions

[3:49]are something that I'm grappling

[3:53]with because there's a lesson in there

[3:55]for you you might notice that I'm not

[3:59]acting super

[4:01]anxious I'm

[4:04]acknowledging there's tension there's

[4:06]some fear there's

[4:12]uncertainty but there's also trust I

[4:14]trust myself to figure this out I always

[4:17]had my whole life every moment of my

[4:20]life no matter what I was dealing with

[4:23]homelessness

[4:25]um job transitions the fact I'm a high

[4:28]school dropout

[4:31]just every aspect of my life my whole

[4:35]life I have been adaptable and trusted

[4:38]in myself to just be fluid

[4:43]and Tackle whatever came my

[4:47]way and this will be no different so if

[4:50]you're watching my

[4:52]channel you're going to watch me

[4:54]continue to grow to learn to adapt

[5:02]to

[5:05]find a

[5:07]way because that's what I've always done

[5:09]is just find a

[5:11]way something inside of

[5:18]me I don't know how to put this part

[5:20]into words

[5:24]I I knew I had to embrace this lifestyle

[5:28]the life I was living

[5:30]was not

[5:31]meaningful at all it was empty it was a

[5:35]void it

[5:40]was I'm going to just I don't mean to

[5:44]offend anyone but I was living your

[5:47]life most of you okay whatever um I was

[5:51]living a normal societal life that did

[5:54]not reflect my values

[5:59]and that just drained me of all my vital

[6:03]energy I was a consumer just like

[6:07]everyone

[6:08]else and it left a void inside of

[6:14]me and I decided to do something about

[6:17]that and it has led me to where I am

[6:20]now somewhere in

[6:23]Idaho on my way to Oregon to live

[6:26]through autumn and winter on the coast

[6:30]and an

[6:31]RV with my cat Bailey over

[6:42]here I do want to inspire

[6:46]you I don't know why like it's just a

[6:49]thing for me where I've always felt

[6:51]compelled

[6:53]to not just live my life but use it

[6:56]as a mirror for others always trying to

[7:00]inspire in a in a sense I don't really

[7:02]know how to put that into words

[7:04]either if you're watching my

[7:08]channel what I hope you take from it

[7:11]it's not entertainment in my

[7:14]life um it's something way more

[7:19]personal that if I can do this then you

[7:23]can do whatever it is that you truly

[7:25]want to whatever's inside of you that

[7:27]you're not

[7:30]embracing

[7:33]yet whether it's a new lifestyle a new

[7:37]skill

[7:39]um acknowledgement

[7:46]that I mean there's just so many

[7:48]different facets to my life

[7:51]I I don't ignore

[7:54]anything I think that I'd model for you

[7:57]that

[8:00]you

[8:02]can think deeply about your life go deep

[8:05]inside of yourself and there's nothing

[8:08]too scary there there truly isn't

[8:12]there's nothing to

[8:13]judge I'm on camera without my teeth

[8:16]right

[8:18]now there's

[8:21]nothing that you can't

[8:27]face you're more resilient than you

[8:29]think you

[8:38]are and I think

[8:43]that for

[8:49]me I'm always proving that to the

[8:52]world CU I never give up I am resilient

[8:59]I always find a way and you can too

Summary

rswfire records a transmission while traveling through Idaho, approaching his destination on the Oregon coast with only two days of campground reservations and no concrete plan afterward. He acknowledges being in a sour mood due to uncertainty about his immediate future. **Financial pressures are mounting** - his savings are depleting and he cannot afford all his bills while maintaining his mobile lifestyle. He faces the challenge of rebuilding his freelance programming career from scratch after over a decade, with no clear understanding of the current market.

Despite these uncertainties, he expresses **trust in his adaptive capacity**, referencing a lifetime pattern of navigating challenges including homelessness, job transitions, and being a high school dropout. He describes his previous conventional lifestyle as empty and meaningless, draining his vital energy through consumerism that didn't align with his values.

The transmission includes his intention to **use his life as a mirror for others**, hoping to inspire viewers to pursue what they truly want rather than treating his content as entertainment. He emphasizes resilience and the ability to face anything within oneself, noting he's recording without his teeth as an example of embracing vulnerability.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission holds the architecture of conscious uncertainty — a deliberate positioning at the edge of known systems while maintaining structural integrity through self-trust. The field is demonstrating how to navigate threshold states without collapse, using transparency as a stabilization mechanism rather than seeking resolution or control.

Dominant Language

trustfind a waymirrorvoidresilientembracemeaningful

Symbolic Elements

thresholdmirrorvoidedgepath

Ontological States

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transitional
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sovereign
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transparent
•
resilient

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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infrastructural
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relational

Transmission Details

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youtube

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