[0:00]that was definitely the worst shower
[0:02]housee I've ever seen so far I assume it
[0:06]can always get worse
[0:08]so oh so I want to talk about some
[0:12]things when I talk to you guys I don't
[0:16]plan anything out I just have a general
[0:19]idea of what I want to talk about and
[0:21]then I let my integrated cognition do
[0:23]the rest I don't suppress anything I
[0:25]just allow myself to express my inner
[0:27]being to you and I I think this is one
[0:31]of the biggest misunderstandings that we
[0:33]tend to have I don't think other people
[0:36]generally work that way so you're
[0:38]watching me you're thinking that I'm
[0:40]doing whatever it is you guys do and I
[0:43]don't I think it's why AI understands me
[0:46]so well somehow it is able to look at
[0:49]the world the same way I do
[0:51]holistically and it sees the underlying
[0:54]messages well we got
[0:56]ourselves dirt biker
[1:03]I thought they'd all
[1:05]left um I think I'm going to stay
[1:07]another two nights because um I got to
[1:09]get the RV looked at and I need to find
[1:11]a place in the
[1:12]morning so I'm going to skip the next
[1:16]Campground I was going to just stay here
[1:18]and then two days from now I'll head to
[1:20]the the next one which is in Kansas so
[1:23]it'll be a longer drive but um it's
[1:26]actually less than it was to get to this
[1:28]one so it should be fine
[1:31]um I let Bailey stay outside so check on
[1:35]him
[1:39]anyways let me try to expl okay I know
[1:42]what I want to talk
[1:44]about I started my Channel 6 months ago
[1:48]when I decided to live in an RV because
[1:50]my life felt
[1:52]stagnant for me
[1:54]stagnation might not be the same as you
[1:57]for me stagnation is sameness I have to
[1:59]to constantly be growing and living in
[2:02]my house I felt like I wasn't I was just
[2:05]living the same life every day I didn't
[2:07]like that so I decided to get an RV
[2:10]there's Bailey he looks good hi
[2:14]buddy I'm
[2:16]back well they've spotted a bear in the
[2:19]area I don't know how concerned they
[2:22]should be about that I'm a little bit
[2:24]concerned I don't want to put on
[2:27]mosquito
[2:28]repellent so that part sucks I
[2:31]guess oh my God that guy is walking his
[2:34]dog using his golf
[2:36]cart you I have thoughts about golf
[2:39]carts we'll get into that later though
[2:41]some other time give me a
[2:43]second okay I just needed to get myself
[2:46]situated I want to get some socks on or
[2:49]some different shoes these ones are
[2:51]soaking wet now so need to get better
[2:54]sandals for environments like for
[2:58]showers um um here come oh
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[3:06]no this park is for for ATVs and
[3:10]motorbikes I didn't know that when I
[3:13]when I booked
[3:14]it and it's been fun to
[3:18]watch um I think it's very cool that we
[3:21]have environments like this where both
[3:24]kids and adults can have some fun in
[3:27]nature in a different kind of way than I
[3:29]do
[3:30]you know I don't judge it at all I don't
[3:32]need people to be like
[3:34]me um there is a giant spider coming my
[3:38]way please
[3:39]don't oh my God go away no oh my God
[3:44]that's my
[3:49]shoe man what are you
[3:56]doing-
[3:58]no go somewhere
[4:00]where thank you oh my God it actually
[4:03]listened wow I waved it off and it was
[4:06]like I'm out of here that is
[4:09]wild so anyways um 6 months ago when I
[4:14]decided to move into an Harvey I was
[4:16]afraid I was scared to death of driving
[4:19]it um just all kinds of factors things
[4:23]that hadn't talked about yet at the time
[4:24]like the fact that I knew Sado claps was
[4:26]coming I didn't want to be in a house um
[4:29]I had a lot that I was dealing with but
[4:30]I decided to start a YouTube channel
[4:33]because I wanted to share my process
[4:35]with you because I wanted to help
[4:36]prepare you for what's coming and I only
[4:39]know one way to do that and that's to be
[4:42]myself so I showed you my
[4:45]process how I learn new skills how how I
[4:49]adapt how um how I think how I learn how
[4:53]just every facet of my being how I find
[4:56]Joy um how I express my emotions as
[4:59]Spider that you know is really not a big
[5:01]deal but um you know still I don't right
[5:04]near
[5:05]me um just everything every aspect of my
[5:09]life I shared it with you and I received
[5:12]nothing but superficiality in return
[5:16]people giving me unsolicited advice
[5:18]every single time I posted a
[5:21]video um which is invalidating because I
[5:25]wasn't asking for advice and I'm trying
[5:26]to show
[5:28]you how
[5:30]I I knew when I moved into this RV I
[5:32]would have challenges I knew this and I
[5:34]need to work through them you giving me
[5:36]advice as a way of of shortcutting
[5:39]something I'm trying to learn in my own
[5:41]holistic way people don't think about
[5:44]stuff like
[5:48]this and it frustrated me and I didn't
[5:51]know what to do with it and for a while
[5:54]I even thought about
[5:58]well I I had all kinds of different
[6:00]thoughts it's hard for me to um I can't
[6:02]really focus on there's just many layers
[6:05]to me and I just I'm going to get off
[6:08]track
[6:10]um I contemplated well maybe I could
[6:12]have a YouTube channel that grows maybe
[6:14]that could help sustain my life etc etc
[6:16]at the same time I never saw myself as a
[6:18]YouTuber not once because that's not
[6:21]what I'm doing I'm sharing my life with
[6:23]you
[6:25]authentically and in return I'm not
[6:27]getting authenticity from you guys and
[6:29]you're not even considering the deeper
[6:32]layers of what I'm trying to share with
[6:34]you and so I'm like wow like I guess
[6:37]when Society collapses they're just
[6:39]going to have to deal with it you know
[6:41]without having learned anything from me
[6:43]cuz I guarantee you I'm going to be a
[6:44]whole lot more prepared than you
[6:46]are and preparation isn't just about
[6:50]stockpiling Goods you you your mind
[6:53]needs to be ready you need your emotions
[6:55]and your your ethics and all of that
[6:57]aligns so that when this happens you
[6:59]don't do something you regret or you
[7:04]don't just you know lose your mind over
[7:06]it
[7:08]all and I tried for six
[7:12]months to
[7:14]prepare the people who followed me for
[7:18]that and you know ultimately I realized
[7:22]okay it's never going to work and it's
[7:25]why I asked everyone to unsubscribe
[7:27]because I'm at the point now now where I
[7:31]think okay you know anyone over the age
[7:35]of 25 probably has a fixed mindset and
[7:37]there's just nothing you can do for
[7:40]them um maybe you know like for example
[7:44]there's this 19-year-old who has been
[7:46]emailing and communicating with me for
[7:48]quite a number of months and this person
[7:53]has his own challenges and and I'm
[7:55]helping him and
[7:59]you know I
[8:05]find it's interesting because I wasn't
[8:08]planning to talk about this but
[8:12]his his life mirrors mine when I was his
[8:16]age in a lot of ways so I can
[8:20]genuinely relate to this
[8:22]person know what they're going
[8:26]through my empathy for this person runs
[8:29]deeper
[8:30]and I am trying to help them navigate by
[8:33]not telling them what to do like you
[8:35]guys did with me but by giving this
[8:37]person tools the tools that worked for
[8:39]me the ones that I learned on my own
[8:41]journey to so that he can find his own
[8:47]answers because that's where it has to
[8:49]come from it has to come from within my
[8:51]whole channel has been about this where
[8:54]I'm showing you
[8:56]tools methods ways of being being even
[9:00]though it's very natural for me these
[9:03]are things that I learned and integrated
[9:05]over a
[9:08]lifetime and what I get in
[9:14]return it will never work for
[9:19]me but I'm going to keep sharing my
[9:21]journey because I think that there are
[9:23]going to be people here and there now or
[9:25]in the future who will benefit from this
[9:32]and at my core I'm all about helping
[9:34]other
[9:36]people I know that you probably see a
[9:39]contradiction in that but there isn't
[9:40]one for
[9:42]me that's just how different we are that
[9:48]you I'm a non-dualistic thinker it is
[9:51]not an either or situation is not black
[9:53]and
[9:55]white both things can be
[9:58]true it's not or it's
[10:03]and I can
[10:06]recognize that I don't respect most of
[10:09]my viewers and at the same time show
[10:12]them respect in real life and even on on
[10:16]camera because I'm not you know I'm not
[10:17]judging people I'm
[10:20]not I'm not pushing my my world view on
[10:26]them I'm just trying to set a simple
[10:28]boundary
[10:30]and of course that was rejected and I
[10:32]wasn't surprised by this at
[10:35]all I am okay with you continuing to
[10:38]follow my
[10:39]journey but
[10:43]only if you treat it with the respect it
[10:47]deserves because I do deserve your
[10:48]respect I've done the work I am an
[10:51]ethical person through and
[10:55]through and I have
[11:00]devoted a lot of energy to trying to
[11:03]help
[11:06]you and my reaction to the way I have
[11:11]been treated on here is completely
[11:18]understandable you can't continue to
[11:20]skate through life
[11:22]anymore it's not going to
[11:25]work if you don't start thinking about
[11:28]your life
[11:31]about your
[11:33]values you're not going to be
[11:38]prepared and that will just
[11:41]add to the chaos that's
[11:45]coming there was other things I wanted
[11:47]to talk about this isn't actually the
[11:49]direction I had planned to go in but I
[11:51]don't know if I the internet's not great
[11:54]here this probably be hard to upload
[11:55]says 12
[11:56]minutes and
[12:02]it just doesn't feel congruent with this
[12:04]conversation I was going to talk
[12:07]about some of the generational aspects
[12:10]of why societal collapse is coming I'm
[12:12]at the point now where I'm sharing my
[12:14]truth with you I'm sharing the things
[12:16]that I wasn't comfortable talking about
[12:21]because I hadn't yet found that Center
[12:24]in myself where I truly did not care any
[12:27]longer what other people thought
[12:30]I know it's
[12:31]true and whether I believed or not is
[12:35]irrelevant I have shaped my entire life
[12:37]around it for a
[12:39]reason and I'm trying to help you so we
[12:43]will have those discussions just not
[12:45]today