[0:00]so I made a video as I was walking back
[0:03]from the shower
[0:05]houseee just talking about my day
[0:08]because it was a very productive and fun
[0:09]day and I wanted to talk about it and
[0:13]share
[0:14]it but I didn't want to share it with
[0:16]most of
[0:18]you
[0:19]and because
[0:24]of some new realizations for
[0:28]me that came up out because of some
[0:31]interactions I had with you
[0:35]guys a part of me that is very
[0:39]confrontational had a whole lot of
[0:41]things to
[0:43]say and I wondered if I should posted or
[0:47]not interestingly artificial
[0:50]intelligence thinks that I
[0:52]should but I'm like I can do
[0:56]better see I am an integrated person
[0:59]there are a lot different facets to me
[1:01]you have not seen them
[1:05]all but here's the point I want to keep
[1:08]posting to
[1:10]YouTube not for you it's genuinely not
[1:13]for
[1:15]you I had an awesome day and I wanted to
[1:18]share
[1:19]it but most of you I don't even like and
[1:23]have not liked for 6
[1:27]months I don't want my ch Channel
[1:30]defined by
[1:31]you you are not aligned with me you guys
[1:34]violate my boundaries all the time my
[1:37]sovereignty is very important to me I do
[1:40]not ask for the kinds of interactions
[1:44]that you guys were always giving
[1:46]me and I've had to navigate a
[1:49]world where people are like that all the
[1:52]time and they're like that because they
[1:53]don't think they don't
[1:58]reflect they love on the surface of life
[2:01]and I want nothing to do with those
[2:03]kinds of people so I started my last
[2:06]video by saying unsubscribe just
[2:08]unsubscribe and I still feel that
[2:11]way a few of you the problem with saying
[2:15]a few of you is that the few of you that
[2:17]I'm talking
[2:19]to are not necessarily the ones who will
[2:23]think they're the few it's a problem CU
[2:26]I got an email the other day from some
[2:28]woman I don't know with a whole bunch of
[2:31]crap in there that she thought was
[2:32]helpful but was just a violation of my
[2:35]boundaries thinking that she was one of
[2:38]the few and she's
[2:40]not so I don't know what to do with
[2:49]that I
[2:53]have reached a breaking point in my life
[2:57]where I am done with most people in the
[3:00]world I'm being careful here by saying
[3:02]most people when I really just want to
[3:04]say
[3:05]people and it's because there are a few
[3:08]people out there I presume I don't
[3:10]actually know because I've never met
[3:13]any who I might not feel that way about
[3:17]but most of you I don't like
[3:24]you and it's because you're superficial
[3:30]you go around spreading chaos in this
[3:33]world you don't think you don't
[3:37]reflect you don't give a about
[3:39]other people's boundaries you don't
[3:42]think about your
[3:45]actions you don't live an ethical
[3:50]life and I don't know what to do with
[3:52]that
[3:55]because I really just want you to just
[3:57]get the off my channel
[4:00]but I I know how fragmented people are
[4:02]they're going to hear this and say well
[4:04] you I'll just stick around
[4:05]then because that's how you are I know
[4:17]you and I also have a conflict because I
[4:20]generally don't want to add to the
[4:22]fragmentation in the world that was an
[4:24]ethical decision when I said that I was
[4:26]going to quit YouTube it was an ethical
[4:29]decision I made made in the moment
[4:31]because as soon as I realized that it
[4:32]was
[4:33]biological I realized that you can't
[4:36]change not easily it would take Decades
[4:38]of work that I have done I have done
[4:42]myself and none of you have none of
[4:47]you you have walked and skated through
[4:52]life and it's let us to where we are now
[4:56]and I don't respect you I don't
[5:01]so I'm posting to my channel and I'm
[5:03]thinking I don't even like my audience I
[5:06]don't like you
[5:08]guys but this is my
[5:13]space and
[5:15]that's way more important to me than
[5:18]whether you stick around or not so if
[5:19]you want to stick around listening to
[5:21]the way I'm talking to you right now go
[5:23]right ahead you know that's a choice I
[5:27]guess so with that out of the way let's
[5:29]talk about my
[5:31]day so I woke up this morning um I'm at
[5:35]a a forest service Campground it's
[5:38]really cool here there it is so big I
[5:40]have never seen such a big Campground so
[5:43]far this place was it's just
[5:45]huge
[5:50]and interesting there's all kinds of
[5:52]different kinds of people here you know
[5:55]and a lot of them have really set up
[5:59]their campsites so which makes me wonder
[6:01]how long have they been here or do they
[6:02]really put that much effort into it like
[6:05]I always thought the limit was 2 weeks
[6:07]but I mean I'm not sure I'm going to
[6:09]have to I'm going to have to research
[6:11]that is that different for for service
[6:12]places cuz so many of them I get the
[6:15]impression they've been here a long time
[6:18]and I found that
[6:21]fascinating um I didn't get there's a
[6:23]lake here I didn't get to go see that or
[6:25]even hike a trail or do anything because
[6:28]every two days I'm I mov moving on I
[6:30]have to be somewhere else I'm moving
[6:31]West and today I was focused on finally
[6:35]cleaning my tanks so this morning I woke
[6:38]up I went into town cuz I had to get a
[6:41]part for my towing gear my I don't know
[6:43]what it's called it shaped like a circle
[6:45]and it has a pin on it that folds down
[6:47]in the center and it holds another pin
[6:49]in place that thing broke when I got
[6:51]here so I had to replace that before
[6:53]before I leave tomorrow so I went to an
[6:55]UT part store and got that um then I
[6:58]went to an RV store in a different city
[7:00]did a bit of driving around um and got
[7:03]all the tank cleaning stuff that I
[7:07]needed and then I just went to Arby's
[7:10]and the bank and I came back here and I
[7:12]got to work on my tanks and I didn't
[7:14]follow the standard advice because I'm a
[7:16]systems thinker and I thought this
[7:18]through and I approached
[7:22]this in a very efficient holistic way
[7:25]that I'm very proud of that I had a lot
[7:27]of fun doing so
[7:30]first I flushed my black tank and then I
[7:33]put deodorizer in it and then I filled
[7:35]that up with water um to some extent I
[7:37]don't remember exactly what and I just
[7:39]let that sit and then I did the same
[7:41]thing to my freshwater tank I um put
[7:45]some kind of chemical in it cleaner and
[7:47]I filled that up and I let them both sit
[7:49]for a while and then I took what was in
[7:51]the freshwater tank and I drained it
[7:53]into the gray water tank so that the
[7:54]gray water tank could also benefit from
[7:57]from that cleaning chemical and and then
[8:00]I rinsed out the um the freshwater tank
[8:04]let them all in drained
[8:07]everything then I
[8:10]put clean water into the fresh water
[8:13]tank and I dump that into the gray tank
[8:15]with a second deodorizer just for the
[8:17]gray tank and then I put more water into
[8:21]the freshwater tank in order to um along
[8:24]with the sanitizer so that's what's in
[8:26]it now so those two are still just kind
[8:29]of sitting there I'm going to let them
[8:30]sit until overnight and then um in the
[8:33]morning I'll empty them all
[8:36]and um went it all out and then I think
[8:40]hopefully my tanks will be I don't think
[8:42]they'll be perfect because they were
[8:44]quite bad they were bad before I even
[8:45]bought this thing but I'm finally at a
[8:47]spot where I had full hookups and I
[8:49]could really focus and learn this
[8:51]process and I very happy with the
[8:53]results and I think somewhere along the
[8:55]way on my route there's a couple of
[8:57]campgrounds where I have full hookups
[8:58]and I can do this again and again and
[9:00]then by the time I get to the Pacific
[9:02]Northwest I should have sparkling clean
[9:06]tanks which I haven't had in 6 months
[9:08]very proud of that soon as I had gotten
[9:10]to the point where the two tanks were
[9:12]just kind of sitting there I went down
[9:13]and took a shower the best showers I've
[9:15]ever seen
[9:17]hot really good water pressure um a
[9:21]shower head that actually comes off you
[9:23]know like you'd have at a house like I'm
[9:24]just I'm super impressed with this
[9:26]Forest surface
[9:27]Place yeah and then I came back recorded
[9:29]a
[9:31]video
[9:33]because I want to
[9:37]share my thoughts not with you guys I'm
[9:41]serious about this but as a record for
[9:44]myself and for the few people who get it
[9:47]who are paying
[9:52]attention and so that's what I think I'm
[9:54]going to
[9:55]do because you know yeah maybe I'm
[9:58]adding some fragment to the world but my
[10:00]God you people have this place up
[10:02]so bad I see it everywhere last night
[10:04]there was a a golf cart going down the
[10:06]street with a trump flag on it and I'm a
[10:09]non-dualistic thinker so I had two
[10:11]thoughts about that one was
[10:13]idiot and the second one was that's
[10:16]hilarious that you know because it's
[10:19]just very easy to laugh this stuff off
[10:22]now even though it is going to result in
[10:26]societal collaps which I know most of
[10:27]you don't get and that's why I want you
[10:28]to go just go away because you're never
[10:31]going to get
[10:34]it
[10:36]I was born integrated we all were
[10:39]because we are in birth we are at Birth
[10:42]we as children we are integrated
[10:44]individuals but I held on to that
[10:46]because my sovereignty is very important
[10:48]when somebody violates my boundaries I
[10:49]react to that very strongly and that is
[10:53]what I'm doing right now I'm saying
[10:54]leave because I don't want you violating
[10:57]my boundaries anymore and you will never
[10:59]understand my boundaries because you
[11:01]don't
[11:04]think I don't know how else to really
[11:06]put
[11:08]that but I'm not I'm not sugar coating
[11:11]things anymore I'm done with that
[11:13]because I don't respect
[11:16]you if you want my respect you're going
[11:18]to have to earn it