[0:00]we're going
[0:04]hiking brought my hiking gear I wish you
[0:07]could hear the
[0:08]song This song is [ __ ] awesome I I've
[0:12]been listening to it on
[0:15]repeat it's [ __ ]
[0:18]wonderful let's take care of my most
[0:20]prized
[0:22]possession
[0:23]woo doesn't feel so bad
[0:26]today it's getting better yeah it
[0:35]is this is fascinating to me cuz you
[0:37]just pull it what good does that do this
[0:40]ought to do the job let's do
[0:52]this not a fan of
[0:57]mosquitoes it's very nice out today it
[1:01]is in the low
[1:03]7s although that might have changed
[1:06]um later afternoon might be a little bit
[1:09]different we'll have to check but I
[1:10]don't think it's going to be that
[1:11]different
[1:14]so we should be good cuz these clothes
[1:17]are
[1:22]treated just covered in mosquito bites
[1:43]leave me alone
[1:50]mosquitoes I won't be able to put this
[1:52]on my face I don't like putting stuff on
[1:54]my face and I can't put anything on my
[1:58]ear so
[2:01]there's that
[2:04]issue wonder if I use too much of this
[2:14]stuff I go through it a lot cuz you know
[2:17]I do a lot of
[2:18]hiking let's see my neck I guess
[2:30]I'm going to have to wash my hands so
[2:32]that I can put some condex in so
[2:37]beautiful really love myself you
[2:40]know we need pop but cans are
[2:44]dangerous too easy to knock them over
[2:47]and make a mess so we adapt oh I got
[2:50]them too
[2:51]cold no I had them in the freezer for
[2:53]quite a
[2:54]while oh well I guess we are going with
[2:57]whatever these ones temper
[3:01]are seems okay I
[3:13]guess I used to always drink out of cans
[3:17]but then when I moved into my RV I
[3:18]realized what a mistake that would
[3:21]be
[3:23]so I couldn't find any bottles
[3:31]what is the problem
[3:33]here thank
[3:42]you I am always
[3:46]joyous most of the
[3:49]time all right let's see here we got
[3:53]pop got my keys got my
[3:57]vape car to this place
[4:01]wallet headphone
[4:03]case I don't think we need anything else
[4:05]to go
[4:07]hiking for he's just walking around
[4:09]being all
[4:12]crazy I'll be back buddy I love
[4:15]you yeah I I need more time here I think
[4:19]I can just park my RV right here once I
[4:21]get it back I think they're going to
[4:22]need some time anyway so I'm probably
[4:23]going to extend my time
[4:25]here I don't know maybe through the
[4:27]weekend or something it's not cheap but
[4:32]this
[4:34]week I start my freelancing business
[4:37]again it'll take a little bit of effort
[4:40]but I'll manage we are off check out the
[4:45]duckies look at that it's only 73 out
[4:48]this is an awesome day I am loving this
[4:50]we're going to just stop in there I'm
[4:51]going to extend my stay till
[4:55]Monday what have we found here
[4:59]looks like a nice chill
[5:02]area before getting to the
[5:05]trail all right there it is
[5:08]okay Highlander trail head we're the
[5:12]only ones here got a bit of a headache
[5:15]this afternoon but I'm not letting that
[5:16]stop
[5:18]me it's just part of my integrated
[5:23]experience oh interesting Mikes
[5:28]only I know nothing about
[5:35]this very
[5:38]nice Warhammer
[5:41]Loop wow this is quite a trail 4 and 1
[5:44]half miles
[5:46]cool and it is it's one way so it's
[5:49]really like 9 miles well it says Loop
[5:53]though
[5:56]interesting well I don't know that you
[5:58]know
[6:00]let's just get a bit of a snapshot even
[6:02]though that's kind of hard to do with
[6:03]this
[6:05]glossy thing over
[6:08]it parking
[6:11]lot see what we see here skull cracker
[6:14]wonder what that's about I have a
[6:16]feeling that this Trail over
[6:19]here whole lot of love it
[6:23]says jump
[6:26]bypass
[6:28]okay whole lot of love right there okay
[6:32]one way jump line I think it's
[6:38]got let's see here interesting this
[6:41]place is
[6:43]fascinating let go get lost that's what
[6:46]I say unfortunately this is where we
[6:48]part ways for the day because I think
[6:50]it's very important to share a message
[6:52]with you that's to get off this stupid
[6:54][ __ ] app find your own trail go live
[6:57]your life
[6:59]okay you insist I'm coming
[7:02]along Advanced skull
[7:06]cracker there is stuff
[7:10]everywhere so is that the skull cracker
[7:15]then this way
[7:19]maybe no there's an air point this
[7:26]way Rock drop ahead and
[8:13]fascinating I don't know I feel like
[8:15]these are biking
[8:17]routes God that would be fun I mean I
[8:20]could get down
[8:22]there but it was easier to get down that
[8:25]way
[8:50]this was away from the road too
[8:55][Applause]
[9:08]could go this way that's the way we're
[9:13]going I mean we can go anywhere we want
[9:16]let's get
[9:25]lost I love this place holy [ __ ]
[10:12]some motorcycles Maybe
[13:12]this will be so much fun with the
[13:19]bike I used to race bikes when I was a
[13:22]kid BMX bikes
[13:33]try like this would have been
[13:35]awesome what do we have going on here
[15:58]technical mouth function
[16:48]I think we just took a circle
[17:02]nope I don't know these Trails we're
[17:13]lost very cool
[17:27]tree I'm right
[17:30]Road we're not too far from
[17:38]civilization skull cracker oh we're on
[17:41]the other side of it now okay we have
[17:44]reorientated
[17:50]ourselves all right
[18:05]I like these
[18:07]trees it's very
[18:25]cool hello little one
[19:21]yes even pain becomes part of your
[19:24]integrated experience
[19:28]you live with it and you move
[19:34]forward
[19:36]onward I'm very curious about this Trail
[19:41]here say Advanced sounds as
[19:43]intermediate I think we could do it but
[19:45]I think the idea of Advance is more to
[19:48]do with
[19:48]motorcycles like there are
[19:52]actually you know I'd have to navigate
[19:54]some pretty steep
[19:56]obstacles which I'd be good with
[19:59]if I wasn't trying to record for my
[20:04]phone so we'll come
[20:07]back see if I can download a map when I
[20:10]get
[20:16]back figure this place out orientate
[20:25]ourselves I honestly didn't know they
[20:27]made Trails like these for more
[20:29]motorcycles motorbikes whatever you want
[20:31]to call
[20:45]them solo local motion
[20:55]devices of the motorized variety these
[20:59]trees are amazing I love
[21:14]them love them
[21:46]you know how I
[21:48]am I start focusing
[21:51]on certain topics and I'll think about
[21:53]them and I'll think about them and I'll
[21:55]talk about
[21:56]them until I feel like like I processed
[21:59]it all and then I'll move on right now
[22:01]I'm on
[22:02]fragmentation and I wonder if you truly
[22:04]understand what that
[22:06]means it means separating the pieces of
[22:09]your brain that process different kinds
[22:10]of
[22:11]information and not building very
[22:16]deep very
[22:18]stable connections between those
[22:21]centers that is what
[22:22]compartmentalization
[22:24]is that is how you live
[22:29]you experience something it goes to
[22:32]different parts of your brain and those
[22:34]parts don't really talk to each
[22:37]other how do you live that
[22:53]way I absolutely love this
[22:56]Forest this is a great place
[23:00]I knew we needed to come
[23:02]here took
[23:04]us hell it took us two weeks to get
[23:08]here cuz I was so drawn to Mammoth
[23:12]Caves this thing is like right around
[23:14]the corner it is right down the street
[23:17]and there is a lot to explore we're lost
[23:19]I have no idea where we
[23:21]are truly I don't I don't know where
[23:24]this is going I don't know how far it
[23:27]goes I don't how we get back we're just
[23:30]in the woods we're lost right now and
[23:31]I'm comfortable with that and it's even
[23:34]pretty late in the
[23:36]afternoon I'm not sure the exact time
[23:39]let me
[23:39]check it's almost
[23:43]4: I'm not sure when the sun sets you
[23:46]can tell this used to be a
[23:48]trail um or it's an animal Trail I don't
[23:52]know but it's 4 I'm not sure when the
[23:54]sun sets these
[23:56]days um I try to be attuned to that sort
[23:58]of thing it's much earlier than it has
[24:01]been
[24:02]though feels like it's going down maybe
[24:04]around 7
[24:06]8 at the
[24:08]most it's up there watching over
[24:13]us while we Embrace this liino
[24:18]state this liino
[24:20]space it's both of those things think on
[24:23]that
[24:34]I had a lot of growth I needed to
[24:36]do I it's been quite a long part of my
[24:40]life I'm not even sure what I was doing
[24:43]then honestly just
[24:46]working
[24:52]and it's
[24:55]complicated point is I got got to a
[24:58]point where that was not working anymore
[25:01]and I did something about
[25:05]it 6 months later I have fully
[25:07]integrated
[25:10]myself and don't tell me it's not
[25:14]possible don't tell yourself it's not
[25:26]possible Embrace flux
[25:30]those are some beautiful
[25:31]trees absolutely love these
[25:36]ones I mean it's dealing with some
[25:39]diversity with
[25:41]some you know motorcycles are riding
[25:44]around
[25:45]that it's got resilience it may be small
[25:48]looking maybe
[25:51]thin but that tree knows how to
[25:54]live learn from that
[25:58]learn from
[26:03]everything nothing is too small for your
[26:10]awareness I think I told you guys the
[26:13]story about how I encountered a young
[26:15]man at Mammoth Caves as I was leaving I
[26:17]was just
[26:19]driving I saw him he looked to me like
[26:22]he felt invisible in the
[26:25]world so I made I gave him a peace sign
[26:28]I said peace to you and he gave me the
[26:31]brightest smile I've ever seen But the
[26:33]part of the story I didn't tell you is
[26:35]it has file his smile
[26:38]faded and it was uncomfortable and I
[26:40]moved on and I could not let that go I
[26:45]had to understand what had
[26:47]happened I could not let it go for
[26:50]days and then I figured it
[26:52]out first he felt
[26:55]seen then he felt exposed
[26:58]and I could have done something about
[27:00]that if IID understood when he gave me
[27:03]that bright smile I could have given him
[27:05]a thumbs up and it would have avoided
[27:08]that second reaction
[27:10]altogether I learned from my
[27:14]experiences if something tugs at you
[27:17]inside something tells you something's
[27:19]off you pulling that [ __ ] thread and
[27:22]you keep pulling until you find the
[27:24]answer because it is there your body
[27:27]would not be telling you that something
[27:29]is off unless it also knew what that
[27:32]something was
[28:14]this is a wonderful
[28:20]place probably a little bit dangerous on
[28:22]the weekends or maybe even at this hour
[28:26]you know when work is out
[28:29]and I am listening to my music quite
[28:31]loudly I have noise cancelling
[28:34]on do you understand what I'm telling
[28:36]you I am aware of all the variables all
[28:41]the time I'm also aware of what risks
[28:44]I'm taking and I'm I'm I'm weighing
[28:49]them between my desire to listen to this
[28:52]song over and over on repeat cuz it's
[28:54][ __ ]
[28:55]amazing and the risk that I might
[28:59]stumble upon a motorbike that's going a
[29:01]little too fast doesn't see me fast
[29:08]enough I don't always take supps but you
[29:11]know something tells me my intuition my
[29:15]integrated intuition tells me that I'm
[29:18]all
[29:21]right I'm telling you right now
[29:24]fragmentation is death you are not
[29:27]living
[29:31]so where are we
[29:33]now Advance we are definitely taking
[29:36]those Trails let's just be clear about
[29:39]this um I just I would like to get a map
[29:42]looks like there's some water down
[29:44]there and better understand this place
[29:46]cuz what does advaned mean does it mean
[29:48]Advanced hiking or does it mean Advanced
[29:52]motorbiking if I need to take the
[29:54]advanced Trails because of the motorbike
[29:56]verticals
[29:58]then I should probably have my backpack
[29:59]with
[30:00]me so that my hands are
[30:03]free probably my GoPro attached to my
[30:07]backpack different circumstances
[30:09]different
[30:11]contexts I am always aware of context
[30:15]always context
[30:21]Sensitivity I don't believe in black and
[30:23]white thinking either or
[30:31]it's not how I
[30:33]think it's not how you should think
[30:36]change that that is one step towards
[30:40]integrating yourself recognize what
[30:44]fragmentation looks like what it sounds
[30:47]like and excise it
[31:10]technical difficulties
[31:13]again they're
[31:18]momentary it's probably worth noting
[31:20]that I don't actually pay attention to
[31:22]my camera when I'm out
[31:24]here my focus is on my experience the
[31:27]camera is secondary it's part of my
[31:30]awareness because I'm
[31:32]integrated but it is not my primary for
[31:35]because it never
[31:36]is that's
[31:38]why my Clips come out the way they do
[32:01]I love
[32:06]this absolutely [ __ ] love
[32:12]this hello butterfly
[32:40]expand your perspective
[33:10]by the way the mosquitoes are real bad
[33:12]out here probably should put something
[33:14]on my face um there are three kinds of
[33:17]bugs that try to get into your eyes I
[33:19]learned why it's because
[33:22]of I think I can't remember I think
[33:24]carbon dioxide or something from your
[33:26]eyes they sense it and that's why they
[33:28]had that way moisture
[33:30]maybe
[33:32]um so you can kind of like line your
[33:35]your hat which I can't wear right now
[33:36]cuz of my earrings or your your
[33:38]sunglasses with something and you know
[33:43]for me it's it's an Adaptive process I
[33:46]iterate I recognize that I am somewhat
[33:49]fighting against the insect life out
[33:53]here I'm not letting it
[33:58]I'm not letting it
[34:01]like I don't know why I can't come up
[34:03]with the words for this one I'm
[34:11]sorry the moth is so interesting to me
[34:13]actually it's got such to it I wonder
[34:17]what it kind of
[34:24]is God I love these trees I'm going to
[34:27]have to figure out what what they're
[34:28]called cuz I don't
[34:30]know my brain doesn't work that way I
[34:35]don't even if someone were to tell me I
[34:38]would forget
[34:39]it I'm sure I've been told what these
[34:41]trees
[34:42]are at some point in my
[34:45]life to me they're just trees they're
[34:48]part of life they're part of the grand
[34:51]tapestry of life I break things down
[34:55]into their essences
[35:00]that is a way more profound statement
[35:02]than you
[35:03]understand because I do that with
[35:10]everything we are truly lost now I was a
[35:13]little bit orientated but not anymore I
[35:16]don't know where we
[35:24]are this song is just fueling me
[35:34]today I moving at the speed of the song
[35:37]of
[35:41]course if I was listening to a faster
[35:43]Beat song I'd be moving even
[35:46]faster slower song I'd be moving
[35:50]slower rhythm
[36:05]you know I can just see the bikes like
[36:07]coming up here like you know they're
[36:09]going around this corner real
[36:12]fast and they're taking at an
[36:17]angle I imagine
[36:20]scenarios based on context based on
[36:23]where I am I know that Mikes takes these
[36:26]Trails so I'm thinking about them
[36:27]they're part of my cognition right
[36:37]now that's what integration looks
[36:41]like I put myself in their shoes without
[36:44]even
[36:45]trying and I even get excitement at the
[36:48]idea oh they take this at an angle how
[36:51][ __ ] awesome is that how cool would
[36:54]that
[36:55]be I can practically feel it and it's
[36:58]not
[37:01]empathy I don't experience empathy the
[37:04]way you
[37:05]do for
[37:09]me it's just a part of my integrated
[37:13]cognition I don't even really put myself
[37:15]on other people's shoes I just
[37:17]understand them I I cannot explain
[37:21]this I'm trying cuz I want you to
[37:24]understand what you're missing out on
[37:28]and I've been trying that for six
[37:32]months maybe not on this level but I
[37:35]keep telling you there's a value in my
[37:38]channel and that value is being
[37:43]missed you cannot engage with my channel
[37:45]on a superficial
[37:47]level I do think I am getting better at
[37:51]communicating an aspect of my
[37:55]experience but you'll
[37:58]you cannot even begin to imagine how
[38:02]much I'm leaving out
[38:34]this tree is different than the others
[38:37]it's found a home here
[38:59]every one of these
[39:01]bumps that I come across I am
[39:06]imagining a motorbike over them what
[39:10]that feels
[39:11]like and that's not even my primary
[39:14]awareness it's just something I'm aware
[39:18]of it's just it's instant it's
[39:21]instantaneous and it's integrated in
[39:25]part of my
[39:27]tapestry of
[39:29]cognition it's not even the focus do you
[39:37]understand I can imagine someone jumping
[39:39]over
[39:47]that at the same time I'm still
[39:50]aware that I am on a trail where people
[39:53]do that that maybe I shouldn't be on
[39:56]this Trail
[39:59]and I am weighing
[40:03]that okay I think we made a
[40:05]circle I don't know truly don't
[40:11]know I don't know I I am actually really
[40:15]lost we're just going to keep following
[40:17]this Trail I don't know that it leads
[40:19]anywhere or what there's Lake down there
[40:22]oh look at this we found a park bench we
[40:23]can probably sit down I haven't had a
[40:24]drink since I got here
[40:42]nice worst case scario I guess we could
[40:45]swim to
[40:48]safety I can't stop moving because I'm
[40:51]listening to
[40:53]music and it energizes me it brings me
[40:58]joy my whole body is just doing stuff
[41:01]cuz I'm
[41:06]integrated you have no idea how much I
[41:09]love my life I [ __ ] love
[41:12]it so my batter is down to 23% I have
[41:16]nothing on me I didn't bring my backpack
[41:18]no portable batteries nothing like that
[41:21]and because I am weighing the fact that
[41:23]I actually really am lost I have no idea
[41:25]where I am right now I couldn't just
[41:26]turn around we went through so many
[41:28]different branch Trails I have no idea
[41:29]where I am I got away that against do I
[41:32]need to you know have some battery life
[41:34]and the answer for me is yes so we part
[41:37]ways here let me reinforce something for
[41:41]you my need for battery life has nothing
[41:44]to do with calling for
[41:46]help because I don't need
[41:49]help I am a fully integrated human being
[41:52]I believe in myself unreservedly I am
[41:56]resilient resilience
[42:00]Quantified there is no challenge no path
[42:03]that I cannot
[42:05]navigate the battery life for this
[42:07]phone is because it's a
[42:10]tool I use lots of tools I extend my
[42:13]cognition to many
[42:16]things and it can help me find a safe
[42:18]path out of
[42:20]here but if I didn't have this
[42:24]phone I could still do it we're still
[42:27]out here my phone batter is getting
[42:30]pretty dead
[42:32]but I'm just thinking I want to share
[42:35]this
[42:36]song realize it act absolutely nothing
[42:39]truly scares me
[42:44]nothing I can't really explain that to
[42:46]you but I can give you an
[42:48]example so sometimes I talk about the
[42:51]fear of
[42:52]heights but that's not accurate I'm not
[42:55]afraid of heights I'm hyper aware of
[42:57]them I'm aware of the possibilities with
[43:02]Heights if I'm sitting out on a deck I'm
[43:04]aware that that deck may not
[43:07]be um stable you know that it could
[43:11]collapse
[43:14]um because I put my faith in myself
[43:17]first and foremost so I am aware of the
[43:20]things I'm aware of all of it everything
[43:23]there's a spider here let's get around
[43:24]him I want to leave him alone I found
[43:27]your little string that keeps that thing
[43:30]together he's
[43:32]good
[43:35]so it's cool spiders have this they make
[43:39]one string that comes out from the
[43:41]ground or a tree or whatever and then
[43:44]and then they build their webs I mean
[43:46]they're very fragile that one little
[43:47]string will destroy the whole thing so
[43:50]you got to be
[43:52]careful um
[43:59]I'm lost right now but I'm not like I
[44:02]feel tension a little bit but I'm not
[44:05]afraid because I trust myself I trust
[44:09]myself to figure out any
[44:16]situation I don't want to believe that I
[44:20]am as unique as I am let me try to
[44:23]explain this
[44:27]I believe that I'm probably the most
[44:28]unique person on the planet and I know
[44:30]that how that sounds there's like seven
[44:32]eight billion people I don't even know
[44:34]but I don't think any of them have my
[44:37]exact set of traits and way of thinking
[44:39]and experiencing and um I think I'm
[44:43]probably truly alone on this
[44:46]planet part of me takes a little bit of
[44:49]pride in that but Pride isn't really the
[44:51]right word
[44:55]um it's hard to explain that
[44:57]one um it truly is I I don't there are
[45:01]some things see thought
[45:04]think trying to put my reality into
[45:08]words requires me to put it through a
[45:11]language that is both linear and
[45:14]fragmented and I don't think that way I
[45:17]actually started thinking about this
[45:18]like a week ago you know that movie The
[45:20]Aral I think it's called the arrival and
[45:23]there's these aliens and they think
[45:25]differently I think I'm kind of like
[45:29]that and
[45:31]so sure I can share part of my
[45:33]experience with you but something's
[45:35]always going to be left
[45:37]out and and that's kind of why I'm
[45:39]jumping around like I
[45:41]just already lost the thread to the
[45:43]other thing I was telling
[45:47]you no I was saying that um okay so
[45:54]I I want to believe
[45:58]that
[46:00]anyone
[46:03]can learn to be like me even if you're
[46:05]not exactly like me you know you can you
[46:08]can strengthen you know the
[46:10]neuroplasticity in your brain you can
[46:12]you can connect your imagination to your
[46:15]your thinking um you know space and you
[46:19]can connect your emotions and your
[46:21]ethics you can connect them
[46:24]all but it does require a lot of effort
[46:27]and that's something that I've spent a
[46:29]lifetime doing because that's just the
[46:31]kind of person I am but that does not
[46:35]mean
[46:38]that it's it's Unique the
[46:43]process so I hold out hope for
[46:47]you because if you could experience life
[46:51]the way I
[46:52]do you would never go back to the life
[46:54]you have now
[46:56]I know I'm lost because I just went in a
[46:58]very long Circle I followed this Trail
[47:00]and I've ended up back at this Trail and
[47:03]that
[47:05]was oh I don't even know quite a while
[47:10]ago but you know next time when I get to
[47:14]the spot where the trails Fork I'll take
[47:16]the other
[47:17]Fork one part of the thought process I
[47:21]have about the spider
[47:22]webs
[47:24]is I sometimes wonder why don't put more
[47:27]effort into building their
[47:29]foundations that little string is their
[47:32]foundation and they put no effort into
[47:34]it and they put all this effort into
[47:38]their trap their
[47:41]home and I find it
[47:44]fascinating you understand what happened
[47:47]there I am circling a trail right now
[47:50]and I just circled back on an earlier
[47:53]thought now I don't know if that was
[47:56]intentional
[47:57]like something my brain did or you know
[48:01]cuz I do a lot of circular thinking I
[48:04]but not in the way that you probably
[48:05]think of that word I should correct that
[48:08]I Circle back to topics all the
[48:11]time
[48:12]um so it could have just been that but
[48:15]at the same time it definitely serves us
[48:17]an analogy just like that little string
[48:20]has a foundation serves this
[48:22]one you still with
[48:25]me we not where I started but we're out
[48:30]oh oh we're way down that
[48:32]road
[48:34]interesting campground's that
[48:39]way hello son let's send things with you
[48:42]today