[0:01]in case yall were wondering this is how
[0:03]I adapted to wanting to let Bailey be
[0:05]out here and him wanting to be out here
[0:08]without having to worry about him doing
[0:11]something stupid like jumping off the
[0:14]deck and he seems pretty happy with the
[0:16]situation he's been out here a couple of
[0:18]times now and he doesn't complain he
[0:21]just
[0:23]chills he goes right in there what are
[0:25]you looking at
[0:27]Bailey he goes right in there you know
[0:30]we're inside and I'm like you want to go
[0:32]out he goes right into his carrier he
[0:34]gets it so we've adapted
[0:38]and found a
[0:42]solution that works now he's just laying
[0:44]down he's perfectly
[0:47]happy M senses seem to be very engaged
[0:51]out
[0:54]here I feel very tired today I felt
[0:58]tired yesterday too but
[1:01]um you know I just embrace it and move
[1:04]on and keep going but yeah I feel tired
[1:08]today just been relaxing out here wanted
[1:12]to show you this I know it doesn't look
[1:14]like much but it's just beautiful it's
[1:19]just a beautiful view to
[1:22]me it's not just the view it's also the
[1:26]atmosphere the
[1:28]environment so when I was was talking
[1:30]about Bailey
[1:32]earlier um sometimes you might notice
[1:36]that like I don't know how to describe
[1:38]this because I I generally don't know
[1:40]how how this is described but like
[1:43]there's something going on in my head
[1:44]while I'm talking to you and so that
[1:46]kind of fragments my my speech in a way
[1:52]and it's because I'm negotiating in my
[1:55]head what I want to say and when I was
[1:57]talking about Bailey
[2:00]and how we had come up with a system
[2:03]where he can be in his carrier out here
[2:05]with me I was resisting the urge of
[2:08]saying it's a compromise because I don't
[2:11]think that way I I didn't feel like
[2:14]authentic language didn't feel like that
[2:16]would describe how I look at it because
[2:18]for me it's synergistic it's holistic
[2:21]it's integrated
[2:23]it's
[2:25]um it's what works you hear me use that
[2:29]word a lot
[2:30]usually usually I will
[2:33]say talk about what doesn't work because
[2:36]when something doesn't work I change it
[2:38]I keep trying things until I figure out
[2:41]why it's not working and find something
[2:43]that does but that's what works this is
[2:47]what works for
[2:48]us and it's not a
[2:52]compromise yeah he probably would love
[2:54]to be roaming around out here and
[2:57]sometimes he'll vocalize that but I know
[3:00]he's happy and content and if you were
[3:03]human you know I don't think it would be
[3:05]viewed as like a compromise it would be
[3:08]more it's just more holistic than that
[3:11]it's
[3:12]not compromises are fragmented ways of
[3:15]looking at life I don't really know how
[3:17]to explain that and that's why I
[3:19]resisted saying it because I genuinely
[3:22]don't feel the world that way