[0:00]good morning humans I think we we
[0:04]slipped all right I'm just checking out
[0:05]my ear here guess I'm not going to be
[0:08]able to show
[0:10]you yeah I don't know how to do that oh
[0:14]it is not a fun
[0:16]situation how do you look
[0:19]today
[0:21]wow I could feel it all
[0:25]night hey I said
[0:28]to go cotton ball wet and then just
[0:31]press it to it and hold it there for a
[0:33]couple minutes I'm using a back te
[0:37]spray um I feel like I could use a
[0:40]little
[0:41]more oh the things are
[0:44]whatever oh whatever I just woke up I
[0:48]ain't going to se it's upside down
[0:50][Music]
[0:53]whatever oh feel
[0:57]that worth it by the way totally worth
[1:00]it slept pretty
[1:03]well um it's 8:00 in the
[1:07]morning I mostly sleep on this side so
[1:11]it was not a big
[1:12]deal um slept on my back a little bit
[1:16]kind of
[1:17]like positioning my ear in a way that
[1:20]didn't hurt too much that it didn't put
[1:22]any pressure on
[1:24]it um oh it is definitely sore
[1:30]yeah that definitely shows you I mean
[1:32]that my ear's a different color
[1:36]Wow worth it oh I have wanted these
[1:41]forever my pearcing down here so you're
[1:44]really not supposed to like wipe it you
[1:47]know like around the earring and stuff
[1:49]like that because you don't want it
[1:51]moving at all that's why they put these
[1:53]studs
[1:54]in
[1:58]um yeah
[2:01]that's why I'm not allowed to wear wear
[2:03]hoops right
[2:05]away yeah for the ones in the cartilage
[2:08]that could be a couple
[2:10]months think it could be like three
[2:13]months like quite a long time or six
[2:15]months even it'll take I don't remember
[2:19]what AI
[2:20]said up to a year for them to fully heal
[2:24]that's a long
[2:25]time um there's certain things you want
[2:27]to watch out for
[2:30]that you really don't know if you will
[2:32]experience or
[2:34]not until you experience them long story
[2:38]short piercing your cartilage is kind of
[2:40]a big
[2:42]deal and worth it so it's going to reach
[2:46]90
[2:48]today chance the
[2:51]thunderstorms so still pretty hot I
[2:54]wanted to take the reflects down today
[2:56]cuz I want to see out my windows but I'm
[2:59]just going to have to a settle for that
[3:00]one for
[3:01]now um tomorrow it starts getting into
[3:04]like the high 80s and then
[3:07]like you know it'll keep getting better
[3:11]so I guess we'll tolerate
[3:14]today and no no idea what I'm doing yet
[3:17]I want to see some fascinating feline
[3:19]Behavior watch this Mele I'll get him
[3:23]food and water we he eats a
[3:26]lot move over here very carefully
[3:32]you want to go
[3:35]outside you want to go
[3:38]outside of course you do such a good cat
[3:43]stay
[3:44]there very good cat
[3:47]wow I knew he'd do it we're going to
[3:51]take him
[3:52]outside he actually likes being in this
[3:54]carrier
[3:56]so um I don't know that I actually need
[3:59]to get more stuff for him he seems
[4:01]perfectly satisfied with
[4:03]this we're going to let him hang out for
[4:06]a
[4:07]while I have a plan formulating for
[4:11]today there you go Bailey let me just
[4:14]make
[4:15]sure be a responsible pet
[4:21]odor
[4:23]Bailey all right he ain't even paying
[4:25]attention to me so we can get some stuff
[4:27]done in here
[4:31]I guess I keep the screening
[4:34]overo oh don't mind me I'm no expert at
[4:39]this
[4:41]stuff
[4:43]okay yeah we're going to let him hang
[4:47]out it's a little hot you know it's
[4:50]already
[4:51]like I don't even know well 72 in here
[4:56]so that's good you know keeping the door
[4:58]open it's not going to
[5:01]help okay let's see what are we doing
[5:04]today it's already 81 out here so I have
[5:07]a plan formulating we're going to go
[5:09]into scotsville and get some coffee at
[5:12]the gas station gas station
[5:14]coffee not baang out out
[5:18]here for a while I'm going to put some
[5:21]anti-ed cream on and then
[5:23]some um mosquito repellants and then
[5:26]we're going to go hiking at that Travis
[5:28]it's finally time to do that can't
[5:30]promise that's a good
[5:32]angle gu I could look at a little
[5:36]closer good
[5:38]enough this place is a mad house oh I
[5:41]touched my ear very bad that
[5:44]hurt can't even touch the thing
[5:48]um so we're going to go hiking in a mad
[5:51]house here they're juveniles everywhere
[5:53]they're obstacles in the
[5:55]road so we've got to do our detection
[5:58]avoidance system
[6:00]my God they've got like 10 people in
[6:02]that conf it's a mad house ow even my
[6:07]hat ow I cannot touch that here holy
[6:11]crap oh I love it worth it worth it
[6:16]we're going to go get some hot coffee
[6:18]from the gas
[6:19]station and that is 20 minutes away
[6:22]that's not so bad I guess and then we're
[6:24]going to go hiking at the core of
[6:27]engineer Trail that's one way I don't
[6:29]remember how many miles but it's like
[6:31]four to six and then you got to got to
[6:33]hike it back so that's what we're
[6:36]doing um there's not a whole lot I need
[6:38]to do in the camper I really not really
[6:42]I need to reorganize some of my storage
[6:45]base this person behind me is rude how
[6:48]about you slow
[6:49][Music]
[6:55]down okay then I go8 ft turn right onto
[6:59]State Park
[7:03]I don't like people like you [ __ ]
[7:06]you I every a [ __ ] what you
[7:09]think I'll make your late I'll make your
[7:11]day hell so anyways we're going to go
[7:14]get some coffee and then I mentioned the
[7:16]hike oh Storage St Park Road so um I
[7:21]just need to organize my storage phase
[7:25]because when I take it into the shop
[7:27]they're going to need access to them
[7:30]one of them needs to be emptied out
[7:32]because in 800 turn you're going have to
[7:35]fix that one so there's just a lot I
[7:37]need to do with the storage phase I'm
[7:38]going to do that this weekend but you
[7:40]know it shouldn't be too the light turn
[7:42]right onto US31 East
[7:51]South those people are rude like
[7:55]tailgating me aggressive you can he US31
[7:58]east south just not people I I don't
[8:01]respect people like that I
[8:04]don't so we're
[8:06]off all right I wanted to note I
[8:09]probably cannot get away with my hat for
[8:11]a while because the rim is getting right
[8:13]on my ear here oh that are just touching
[8:15]it is very sensitive
[8:17]today I need to get some
[8:19]saline saline water or something um you
[8:23]can't be using that vacing stuff all the
[8:25]time because it'll dry it out and that
[8:27]will harm the healing process
[8:30]um there's something in particular I'm
[8:31]looking for it's like a wound
[8:34]W make a U oh my God you're going to
[8:38]kill me um it's like a a wound cleanser
[8:41]or something we're in a parking lot take
[8:43]the next left toward US 231 South then
[8:46]turn right on us231 South yeah yeah
[8:49]we're in a parking lot why are you
[8:51]complaining about me just driving in a
[8:53]parking lot take the next ride onto
[8:56]us231 South did we go the way I thought
[9:00]we were closer not further away from
[9:03]that was part of my thinking
[9:05]process
[9:07]okay thought we would have been going
[9:09]left in A4 mile turn left on the US31
[9:13]East North New Glasgow Road I have to I
[9:17]was thinking already that we were going
[9:19]to end up like we're going to make a
[9:20]duck pund up here using vro or
[9:23]something wait a minute why are you have
[9:25]me going that way this
[9:31]okay feel like I should be orientated by
[9:34]now how am I
[9:37]not fam
[9:39]c yeah we're
[9:42]WR my coffee's getting everywhere I do
[9:45]that happened I did a very good job in
[9:48]there these things are there it
[9:52]is these aren't great little cup holder
[9:56]things whatever they are what are these
[9:58]called I don't know I don't
[10:02]care
[10:04]coffee so we're at the place with a good
[10:06]breakfast sandwiches but wasn't feeling
[10:09]that today so I got me a sub Italian sub
[10:12]that we'll eat a little bit
[10:14]later um and we're going to Pivot we're
[10:17]going to go to Mammoth Caves cuz that's
[10:18]where I want to
[10:19]be where is my phone
[10:23]at I'm so confused oh how did that
[10:27]happen okay we're going to go to Mammoth
[10:30]Caves and just take some Trails there
[10:34]it's going to be hot but if we're down
[10:36]in that one area we might actually have
[10:38]some cool breezes and stuff and I just
[10:42]and it's going to be busy you know but
[10:44]most people are going there are going
[10:46]there for the caves we're going there
[10:48]for the nature
[10:50]so oh it's an hour away thought it might
[10:55]turn right on I guess we're going that's
[10:58]where I want to go
[11:01]so make sure I got all the feel I
[11:03]thought I was yeah okay we're
[11:05]good it's a little thrown off there for
[11:08]a minute cuz I don't know it seemed like
[11:10]I need more gas than I did
[11:14]so yeah we off I find quite
[11:17]interesting so I'm getting more dislikes
[11:20]than likes these days which I don't know
[11:24]why you guys are think that I'm
[11:25]complaining cuz I'm not I turn left onto
[11:27]Kentucky 101 North am I here okay um a
[11:31]we're going to get stuck here okay
[11:32]that's okay um that's actually good
[11:35][Music]
[11:37]really 101 interesting like Highway
[11:41]name anyways
[11:44]um all engagement is good engagement on
[11:47]YouTube you know it doesn't actually
[11:49]sound like a problem I just find it
[11:51]interesting the dynamic cuz I am
[11:53]changing my channel and I guess that is
[11:56]upsetting some people and their way of
[11:58]reacting to that is by you know using
[12:01]dislike rather than just unsubscribing
[12:03]or moving on you know just an
[12:05]interesting little Behavior thing 101 so
[12:08]we're going to take a dour I'm going to
[12:10]stop at a drugstore and pick up some
[12:12]supplies for my ear um because like
[12:14]sweat and stuff
[12:16]can you know cause bacteria to get in
[12:18]there and you just got to keep it clean
[12:21]so I need I need supplies for hiking too
[12:25]I need to try to find a saling water or
[12:28]whatever because
[12:29]I can't be putting backing in there all
[12:31]the time but I'm going to keep the I
[12:33]really love these things and it's very
[12:36]very tender but it is so worth it and I
[12:39]just we're going to take good care of
[12:41]them we
[12:43]are going back the way we
[12:47]came guess I should have planned that a
[12:49]little better have no idea yeah we're
[12:51]right next to Bar R Lake again what oh
[12:54]my God we truly went the wrong way here
[12:57]but oh well I oh my God bet it's taking
[12:59]me to the same Walgreens I was
[13:01]at that's not helpful they didn't have
[13:03]what I
[13:06]needed
[13:07]oh oh well I'm going to get something
[13:11]I've still got some processes to work
[13:13]out I was going to shave today I forgot
[13:15]to do that and I do have hiking clothes
[13:17]that are for this kind of weather and I
[13:19]didn't wear them and they got you know
[13:20]that nice insec repon stuff on them
[13:23]thinking about it cuz I am covered in
[13:25]insect rep like I really prepared myself
[13:27]this morning why I M miss a few steps so
[13:30]that's an ongoing process we made a full
[13:33]circle like we're at a Dollar General
[13:35]that I had passed like 40 minutes ago so
[13:39]I'm just going to try here maybe they
[13:41]got what I need and then we can just
[13:43]just head
[13:48]out it's a good
[13:50]day it fell
[13:56]off you go here wait you're not even
[13:59]going to stick
[14:01]there
[14:04]why H
[14:07]interesting so they got they had a quite
[14:10]a good Supply in there got some wipes
[14:13]cuz I love
[14:15]wipes some Q-tips thinking maybe I can
[14:18]get a round I don't know you got to be
[14:20]careful you're really not supposed to
[14:22]touch them needed a new LOF couldn't
[14:26]find cotton balls but these might
[14:27]actually work better because I can wet
[14:29]these down and then fold it you know
[14:32]around we're gonna do that now got me
[14:34]some very intense healing
[14:37]lotion could you probably use it but
[14:40]this was the only thing I could find
[14:42]that I was saine wound wash and it's
[14:44]like a
[14:45]spring but we're going to use it now
[14:48]because I feel like I need
[14:54]to experiment here see how this does I
[14:57]have a mirror here
[15:03]yay yeah oh
[15:06]wow going on up
[15:08]there I think that's probably the ink
[15:10]dots that he
[15:12]made I hope it's not a I hope I hope
[15:16]that's what it is let's just put it that
[15:18]way use nothing about wait before and
[15:22]after blah blah
[15:26]blah okay nothing about shaking it up
[15:29]that's what I wanted to check okay so
[15:30]we're just going to spray
[15:32]this
[15:35]oo okay very powerful stuff it's all
[15:39]over my Jeep now we're just going to do
[15:42]this which is going to be very
[15:44]painful yes it is
[15:47]oo very painful um AI says to just do
[15:51]this for a couple minutes I just hold it
[15:55]there I won't make you watch the whole
[15:58]time but I am I'm going to do this I
[16:00]think for a while
[16:03]like I I want to go in there and I want
[16:05]to use Q-tips and all that but I'm going
[16:08]to go with what AI has told me just
[16:11]think you know trust the
[16:16]technology when it makes sense to do
[16:22]that so what's the temperature
[16:30]tell me the temperature Jeep what's
[16:31]going on
[16:33]here do you have to be on to do that
[16:36]it's
[16:38]interesting why do you have to be on to
[16:40]do that it says
[16:43]80° do not turn off on me it has this
[16:47]feature I have to press a button to make
[16:49]it not do it oh this hurts actually kind
[16:53]of hurts oh my God so worth
[16:56]it I cannot wait to turn
[16:59]my God that's painful I cannot wait to
[17:01]turn this
[17:03]into
[17:05][Music]
[17:06]Hoops I mean I'm going to be doing this
[17:08]a lot so we're probably good for now
[17:10]there let's try
[17:12]to get this bottom one cuz I'm kind of
[17:16]neglecting that one because they're so
[17:18]common like I already got two down there
[17:20]I'm thinking like I'm not not being very
[17:23]responsible with this one so
[17:30]we're just going to do this a few times
[17:32]today
[17:33]and I'm out
[17:35]hiking we are much closer to my campsite
[17:39]than we are
[17:40]to Mammoth Caves do think it's a little
[17:43]crazy me to drive all the way there but
[17:47]well not really cuz that is where I want
[17:48]to be I just I love Mammoth Caves I want
[17:51]to go there
[17:53]so so that's what we're
[17:56]doing coffee l why the hell could I
[17:59]think of that earlier that is so funny
[18:01]to me I just I just love that about
[18:05]me
[18:07]again so I'm going to have to experiment
[18:09]with that
[18:11]mountains
[18:14]um that word just came to me while I'm
[18:16]just driving right it's like I I'll
[18:19]never be able to explain myself to you
[18:21]guys there's this ephemeris like aspect
[18:24]to my cognition like it's all in there
[18:28]just swimming around
[18:31]and you know I obviously moved on from
[18:35]that but I just finished my coffee and I
[18:37]was going
[18:39]to just trashed it over there and Coffee
[18:42]Lid came into my
[18:44]hand I know you guys don't necessarily
[18:49]like let me just try to explain I've
[18:50]been thinking about
[18:52]something I am truly unique in this
[18:55]world like I might actually be my my
[18:57]cognitive and I don't I don't want to
[18:59]use the word style every time I do I
[19:01]Flinch internally because it's not a
[19:03]style it is who I am I actually started
[19:06]exploring that with AI
[19:08]yesterday
[19:11]um I think the closest we we couldn't
[19:13]come up with the word for it because it
[19:15]just there isn't
[19:17]one I am a fully integrated human being
[19:22]and it is the result of trauma
[19:25]and
[19:27]um evolutionary pressure because of that
[19:30]trauma you know just a certain
[19:31]environment that I grew up in and how to
[19:34]adapt
[19:35]to and the world that I'm a part of um
[19:39]all of these factors like there's a
[19:41]bunch of them I recognize how it shaped
[19:44]my cognitive style and it's very
[19:46]unique and now that I truly understand
[19:50]myself I no longer
[19:53]feel I'm free I don't feel any need to
[19:57]like
[20:01]what am I trying to say
[20:02]here like I don't I don't need you to
[20:05]believe
[20:05]me I'm telling you this
[20:08]because you're never going to totally
[20:12]understand my content or my Channel or
[20:14]what I'm trying to say to you and a lot
[20:16]of people take things that I say
[20:18]personally dealing with a situation like
[20:20]that now and I'm talking to a camera
[20:23]right now I'm not talking to any
[20:26]individual so it doesn't make a lot of
[20:29]sense to me why people would get so
[20:32]invested in my videos that they think
[20:36]they
[20:36]have this deep understanding of me and
[20:40]connection to
[20:41]me when that's not possible it's not
[20:45]possible I'm talking to a camera my
[20:48]relationship is with a
[20:51]camera and so I'm trying to set
[20:53]boundaries in my life because I know
[20:56]what works for me I don't don't like
[20:59]getting unsolicited
[21:00]advice this person will not let it
[21:03]go I I tried explaining it as best I
[21:09]can they're not letting it go so they're
[21:11]disrupting my day right now by making me
[21:14]have to keep addressing this and I don't
[21:17]like it I want to live my best life I
[21:21]want to share my life with you I don't
[21:23]want
[21:25]people disrupting the holistic inter
[21:28]graded system that I
[21:30]have I know that that statement makes
[21:33]zero [ __ ] sense to you guys it
[21:35]doesn't need to make sense you just need
[21:37]to respect the
[21:39]boundary you know I've been trying for 6
[21:42]months to as sensitively as I can
[21:46]explain my uniqueness so that
[21:51]you don't apply your own logic to
[21:55]things but it's never going to happen
[21:57]and I'm at a point in my life now where
[21:59]I just don't care anymore like I don't
[22:01]need you to understand me I just don't I
[22:04]do need you to respect my
[22:07]boundaries I am open to receiving
[22:10]comments those comments should focus
[22:13]on being supportive in a very generic
[22:16]way like say hello to me
[22:21]or it was cool seeing Bailey or you know
[22:25]be really [ __ ]
[22:26]superficial because
[22:30]you are you I just don't think that
[22:33]anything more than that will ever
[22:36]work and I'm okay with that now I'm not
[22:39]trying to build a community here anymore
[22:42]I'm just sharing my life now that's why
[22:44]ianded myself I have
[22:47]evolved my channel must evolve with it
[22:50]because there is no separation between
[22:52]them I am myself in all instances of
[22:56]life you guys will never
[23:00]understand so stop trying to and
[23:05]just embrace it just you know I don't
[23:10]know I don't know we'll figure this out
[23:13]one day I
[23:14]guess I'm just going to keep sharing my
[23:16]life because I enjoy sharing my life I
[23:19]enjoy this this is good for me I love
[23:22]this I do this for me first and foremost
[23:26]I keep saying this
[23:29]because I'm trying to reinforce that in
[23:31]your
[23:32]minds this is about me if you want to
[23:35]follow my journey
[23:38]great but be very mindful of the fact
[23:41]that to me you are strangers I am
[23:44]talking to a camera right now I don't
[23:47]see you you are watching a YouTube video
[23:51]of a person talking to a camera I don't
[23:54]know how more explicit to make
[23:56]that I just remember remembered that
[23:59]there's supposed to be thunderstorms
[24:01]this afternoon we might get stuck in a
[24:02]thunderstorm at Mammoth case how cool
[24:04]would that be I hope that happens we're
[24:07]off so let's light in the mood shall
[24:10]we um so I didn't I couldn't really
[24:15]record anything last night cuz it was
[24:16]super dck I didn't go looking um around
[24:19]the campsites but I wanted to but I
[24:21]realized that it's so dark there like if
[24:24]walking down the roads and stuff would
[24:25]have felt unsafe it just didn't feel I
[24:29]wanted to do it I was willing to do it
[24:30]like I was willing to expand my comfort
[24:33]zone but it didn't
[24:35]feel it didn't feel like a good idea so
[24:38]I just hung out inside on my picnic and
[24:42]I know I say this all the time picnic
[24:43]bench I know it's a picnic table I I get
[24:46]that I say picnic bench I see it every
[24:48]time I say it like on video it's I think
[24:50]it's funny I'm I'm a weird person so I
[24:54]just hung out there for a while and the
[24:57]mosquito to E up so I went back inside
[24:59]but I gu I got a mosquito candle thing
[25:02]those things don't really work I don't
[25:03]feel but I just hung out there for a
[25:06]while it was enjoyable and there were
[25:07]people around and it was very hard for
[25:11]me to ignore them like cuz I just can't
[25:13]they're in my awareness I'm conscious of
[25:15]them but I did my best to just exist out
[25:19]there listening to my music and looking
[25:21]up at the stars and just enjoying the
[25:24]weather and the
[25:26]moments you know so I see myself I see
[25:28]myself evolving I see myself growing and
[25:32]I really like that direction I'll
[25:35]never
[25:40]like I mean it was enjoyable to an
[25:44]extent but I just can't find true
[25:48]enjoyment when there are a bunch of
[25:50]people around me doing their own
[25:52]activities and we're like 5 10 ft away
[25:54]from each other in this weird
[25:55]environment that we've created as a
[25:58]Society you know like I need more space
[26:02]than that I need to be in my own mental
[26:04]space and I recognize that about me so I
[26:09]look for those spaces but I'm not
[26:12]letting the limitations of this world
[26:16]prevent me from finding a middle ground
[26:18]when I have
[26:20]to so I'm just going to try to explain
[26:23]this there is someone who follows my
[26:26]channel who I've been interacting with
[26:28]over
[26:29]email
[26:32]and they wouldn't let something go my
[26:36]need
[26:38]to
[26:40]limit certain kinds of Engagement like
[26:42]giving me unsolicited advice it
[26:45]escalated today and
[26:48]now my internal state is in chaos like I
[26:53]am not happy I have to detox this
[26:55]negativity out of my body so I can can
[26:58]get back to the internal State I like
[27:00]being in we are at Mammoth Cave I am
[27:03]about to get to the visitor parking
[27:06]lot and my experience is very different
[27:09]now because of this
[27:13]interaction I am a fully integrated
[27:16]human being I take in all the input from
[27:19]my
[27:20]life and synergize it
[27:25]instantly I cannot explain this to you I
[27:28]don't even really want to like I don't
[27:32]care that you don't get it what I do
[27:34]care is that my boundaries are respected
[27:35]this is why I turn comments off
[27:37]sometimes because I'm trying to protect
[27:40]myself from this kind of toxicity even
[27:43]if you don't see it that way that is how
[27:46]I experience it I'm not like
[27:52]you I need people to just
[27:55]try you know just enjoy my journey
[27:58]because I don't I really don't even need
[28:00]your feedback I really
[28:03]don't I just that's the point I'm at now
[28:07]because I Now understand myself really
[28:10]well and I am very comfortable with who
[28:13]I
[28:14]am I'm not looking for external
[28:16]validation I don't need it I don't want
[28:19]it positive or negative I truly don't
[28:22]care
[28:23]anymore that is not how I work my
[28:27]validation comes from from
[28:29]within and that's where it should come
[28:31]from for everybody honestly in my
[28:35]opinion but you know we're all different
[28:38]so maybe I'm wrong about that I don't
[28:39]pretend to you know have all the answers
[28:42]I just know what works for me I'm trying
[28:44]to set boundaries for
[28:46]myself so we're here I think this place
[28:49]is probably going to be it might be very
[28:51]difficult to find a place to park um but
[28:53]I was thinking I know some extra areas
[28:56]we can drive to
[28:58]so if this is truly like and I expected
[29:02]this right so so fascinating some cars
[29:05]are so small that you can't even tell
[29:06]they're in the parking space until you
[29:08]get close I do know okay so there's the
[29:12]yeah those are
[29:13]the um residential buildings and I know
[29:18]that we
[29:19]can travel that way to get to the hiking
[29:23]trail that I've taken a couple of times
[29:25]now and there is parking that way
[29:29]but yeah that's what we're going to do
[29:31]cuz I'm I know where that I know that
[29:32]trail I know that area we're just going
[29:34]to go and um but I wanted to take some
[29:37]other the other trails that I still
[29:39]haven't managed to
[29:41]do but we'll figure that out like while
[29:43]we're on the trails I
[29:47]think
[29:49]so lots and lots of people today very
[29:52]busy
[29:54]Place very
[29:57]busy which is
[30:00]understandable so we
[30:04]are I think yeah okay so we're just
[30:06]going to head this way
[30:09][Music]
[30:11]again cuz it's definitely busy we knew
[30:13]it would be
[30:20]though I wonder how I you know a lot of
[30:22]them you just know that they're in the
[30:24]caves right that's where they're at
[30:26]they're in the caves but not us it's not
[30:30]why we're
[30:42]here see that person has the right
[30:47]idea same idea I
[30:53]had oh yeah lots and lots of people
[30:56]today
[31:02]hello we're going to park over here see
[31:05]most people don't they're not thinking
[31:07]about it so there's bases over
[31:10]here
[31:20]yay I'm bringing my backpack cuz I got
[31:23]all kinds of
[31:24]stuff um to keep my ear cleaned um um
[31:28]put more insect repelling on if I need
[31:30]to my sub so we can eat out here
[31:34]somewhere well I don't have the gear to
[31:36]hook my GoPro up to it so going have to
[31:39]start planning a little bit better on
[31:41]that
[31:43]front you could see them over there the
[31:45]little residential
[31:47]buildings I am so intrigued by
[31:51]them just to experience that Community
[31:54]would be very rewarding
[31:59]something I want to
[32:13]experience we're
[32:20]back
[32:23]Pleasant no stopping today let's find
[32:26]something new
[32:28]branching Trail we've explored that way
[32:31]quite fully we've been on this Trail um
[32:34]temporarily in order to get to that one
[32:37]but this will take us to the trails we
[32:38]have not seen yet and so
[32:42]onward we've seen this so we move
[32:46]on onward to the next thing it's open
[32:50]May open the trail that was broke time
[32:52]to go
[32:59][Music]
[33:01]we didn't get hike this last
[33:09]time oh what is that that looks
[33:15]amazing I like
[33:20]this oh those people were walking so
[33:22]damn slow I felt like a [ __ ]
[33:25]Turtle I could really get around them
[33:29]let's go get
[33:31]lost oh this is awesome there's a person
[33:35]down there person detected how did they
[33:37]get
[33:43]there we're going to ask
[33:51]her this will be fun this will be fun
[33:55]going to enjoy this
[34:00]oh hello person down there hello is this
[34:04]going to get me there you want the
[34:06]picture oh no no no like I just wondered
[34:09]how you got down
[34:10]there side that side oh I see him okay
[34:14]very
[34:16]steep yeah oh I'm going to see if I can
[34:20]get through though
[34:28]yeah this is a very thin
[34:38]Trail this is the trail that was close
[34:41]so they're not maintaining it oh I
[34:44]see it doesn't go
[34:48]through okay let's find another
[34:51]Trail I just want to hike I don't want
[34:53]to
[34:55]stop just want to hike
[35:00]we have encountered a
[35:02]roadblock we could travel no
[35:05]further very cool cave over there I just
[35:07]kind of passed by that's where that
[35:09]woman is she's so
[35:13]cool
[35:15]so very steep to get back up like that's
[35:18]going to be
[35:22]interesting navigate it with some care
[35:28]I'll show you this cave when we get to
[35:37]it they had this Trail closed off
[35:41]steep
[35:43]hot half a
[35:46]mile just the way we like it
[36:02]oh
[36:05]interesting we're up a little bit
[36:07]further from that
[36:10]cave I bet it's cool here oh nice
[36:15]Bridge we can rest
[36:23]here yeah
[36:35]that was a work out well worth
[36:41]it you what let's keep going I don't
[36:45]want to stop
[36:54]onward cave was down there
[36:59]isn't very
[37:00]cool um thought we might get some cool
[37:04]air but
[37:12]nope it almost looks like a natural
[37:15]stepping up there I R so heavy I do it
[37:19]humans
[37:21]detected have adapted a new Behavior
[37:25]I've noticed in the past couple days
[37:27]I've been giving everybody peace signs
[37:30]Jeep
[37:32]owners yeah people on the trail just
[37:35]droping PE signs while I listening to my
[37:38]music I don't think we've been here
[37:41]probably walk down there and have to
[37:42]walk back and then go that way so we got
[37:45]many miles to
[37:53]go all right I'm going to slow my
[37:54]breathing down now
[38:01]be deliberate about
[38:07]it
[38:21]wonderful perfect day to be out here I
[38:25]still don't feel it full equilibrium yet
[38:28]but I'm getting
[38:29]there people don't
[38:33]understand you never
[38:35]will I don't need you
[38:37]to I probably am going to start
[38:40]disabling
[38:41]comments I don't need to interact with
[38:43]you guys you can observe my life that is
[38:46]good enough for
[38:56]me yeah
[38:59]that's where my brain is
[39:00]setting keep the comments
[39:06]off
[39:08]abandon any small hope of
[39:12]connection that's not in the works for
[39:16]you I'm too
[39:20]different and I embrace it now I'm not
[39:24]like
[39:25]you I'm like me and know
[39:28]me and that's
[39:32]enough it was always
[39:35]enough hold up what have we found here
[39:40]in the
[39:41]woods there is a human
[39:46]structure looks
[39:48]like no I don't see a fire
[39:53]pit what are
[39:55]you I'll just go investigate at
[39:58]this oh I got love
[40:04]exploring what are
[40:06]you out
[40:08]here oh everything looks overgrown
[40:11]around
[40:12]it
[40:14]interesting I don't there's a path right
[40:19]here tempted don't care for the
[40:23]mosquitoes what's it
[40:25]doing what are are you and the spider
[40:28]webs that's a big one yeah very
[40:31]overgrown we will investigate this
[40:33]another day like I'm not so interested
[40:36]that I want
[40:37]to um tolerate all the other things I'd
[40:40]have
[40:41]to so very cool though it's abandoned
[40:45]clearly whatever it
[40:51]was and where are we
[40:53]now I love this place oh there is a
[40:57]trail leading there let's take the easy
[41:01]one oh even more what's going on
[41:05]here Sunset Point okay we're going to go
[41:07]that way when we leave so we're not
[41:09]going that way yet Mammoth
[41:13]Dome we're not going that way yet but we
[41:15]will go that
[41:17]way so we're going this way
[41:19]first we're going to go chill and I'm
[41:21]going to edit my video
[41:24]and there might be a second part to it
[41:26]later in the day
[41:28]but I need to compile these clips
[41:29]together before they get too complicated
[41:31]for me it's a lot of effort staring my
[41:35]life with you
[41:36]guys
[41:38]but you know primarily it's for myself
[41:41]so worth every
[41:46]moment it's quite wonderful
[41:58]I'm not even pulling my GoPro out or
[42:00]anything just my
[42:07]phone why I came here I would have had
[42:09]this kind of an experience at the other
[42:11]Trail I don't think it's a different
[42:16]here we've
[42:18]been you know basically
[42:20]just exploring all these branching
[42:23]Trails we would not have experienced
[42:25]that just see what's out
[42:31]here very
[42:41]pleasant oh I
[42:44]should yesterday I noted some changes in
[42:46]the trees and thought maybe that my
[42:47]Autumn was coming but I realized today
[42:49]when I was looking at them it's just the
[42:52]heat basically killing
[42:54]them so not the same thing not the same
[42:58]process um hard to know when when AUM is
[43:01]going to be here cuz that definitely
[43:04]isn't what I
[43:06]saw I was just hopeful for it I
[43:24]guess you know I really am going to turn
[43:26]the comments off now
[43:28]on and I actually see it as a challenge
[43:31]like could I grow a channel without
[43:34]comments' be fascinating
[43:37]experiment and if it doesn't work out
[43:39]that's okay cuz I am a non-dualistic
[43:41]thinker I don't I have not attached
[43:44]anything to that
[43:46]statement I'm simply acknowledging
[43:49]different
[43:50]paths that are possible
[43:54]and I guess you could call that
[43:55]dialectical reasoning
[43:58]um I'm
[44:01]just I'm exploring the potentialities of
[44:03]my life I am open to whatever comes I
[44:07]always am always have been I think
[44:10]that's been deeply misunderstood by you
[44:12]guys I don't attach myself to outcomes I
[44:15]never have I don't do
[44:19]that let's see what's up here let's have
[44:21]a moment in silence J
[44:35]I think I'm seeing another branching
[44:37]Trail
[44:38]actually that's why there signs
[44:41]here
[44:46]okay hum's
[44:49]detected time foot cuz I'm seeing
[44:53]shimmering like from a vehicle or me or
[44:57]let's see what comes
[44:59]up oh I
[45:02]think huh I think we're going to end up
[45:04]at a
[45:06]road people are parked up
[45:09]there
[45:11]okay that's no
[45:13]fun that's no
[45:16]fun supposed to be in the woods you just
[45:19]broke my
[45:21]immersion
[45:24]okay let's see here
[45:30]sorry a little bit hot and tired where
[45:33]is the you are here son there we are way
[45:35]down here
[45:37]cool
[45:39]okay
[45:42]Road Fair is very close to here it's not
[45:44]working but that's where the ferry is
[45:46]which means we if we kept walking we'd
[45:48]end up with this parking lot there if we
[45:53]go
[45:55]h so we're going to head back and then
[45:58]we're going to get on that trail that we
[46:00]saw I remember something
[46:03]about um Mammoth Dome so let's look for
[46:09]that might not be on here because I
[46:11]think they're just referring to the
[46:13]whole land is just over the
[46:15]cave um unless I'm missing it but Sunset
[46:18]Point's up here and I know that that was
[46:20]on the
[46:22]sign so what did we get here
[46:27]that's an interesting thought we must
[46:29]have been over here all right so this is
[46:32]the visitor center
[46:34]I let's see here let's figure it out so
[46:37]they call them historic cabins but we
[46:38]know that those are residential so we
[46:41]got on here we
[46:43]probably and this is okay where's the
[46:47]river there's up
[46:49]here let me think this
[46:52]through Woodland Cottages what where
[46:55]those are
[46:58]we didn't come here but we did end up
[47:01]here like I think I think we were over
[47:04]here we probably yeah that makes sense
[47:06]these are the road so we probably walk
[47:07]down
[47:10]here um I'm honestly not sure I guess
[47:13]maybe we could have gone this way but
[47:15]that doesn't no cuz we're going to go
[47:16]that
[47:17]way um I think we probably went
[47:19]something like this
[47:22]somehow so we might have even seen the
[47:25]Sunset Point dark already don't even
[47:27]know it we're just
[47:31]exploring we're going to try to get over
[47:33]here though we'll look for a thing this
[47:34]a sinkhole and
[47:36]then I mean this Trail doesn't have a
[47:38]name what's up with that River Valley
[47:40]Trail
[47:41]maybe
[47:44]um I guess it could be sinkhole
[47:47]Trail we would want to I mean we could
[47:50]take either really oh we'll end up at
[47:53]the campground I heard about this one
[47:55]let's go find that sinkhole to the white
[47:57]cage tra will end up at the campground
[47:58]and then we'll have to walk back to my
[48:00]Jeep which is somewhere over here so
[48:02]let's do
[48:04]that we got a lot of hiking ahead of us
[48:06]oh there's two paths
[48:08]here oh I don't want to get
[48:12]confused okay two Springs
[48:16]Trail we want to that's two Springs
[48:19]Trail we want to get onto
[48:21]the
[48:23]okay bring River echo echo down there's
[48:27]a human
[48:28]coming so it was the woman who was down
[48:31]at that cave that we saw that I was
[48:33]talking to from up high she's cool she's
[48:35]from
[48:36]Germany um and she had this app on her
[48:38]phone she was using and she told me to
[48:40]go the way that I thought would take us
[48:42]to the parking lot so um I think she was
[48:45]right too cuz it's parking lot that way
[48:48]I had to get get better at that start
[48:49]using apps and stuff um would have gone
[48:54]the wrong way I don't know if that's it
[48:56]or not cuz it's like the white something
[48:59]Trail that's a sink Trail it probably
[49:01]takes us to it I think we get on that
[49:03]and then turn left there's a spot over
[49:05]here we're going to go hang out for a
[49:07]minute I'm just going to rest and start
[49:10]compiling my video it's a lot of
[49:15]work see what this
[49:20]says quite hot it's probably in the mid
[49:24]to high 90s
[49:27]what do we have down
[49:30]there oh that's so
[49:43]awesome I don't know who they are but I
[49:45]think they work here or you know they're
[49:47]like ecologist or something like that
[49:49]like that sign over there it says
[49:51]fragile Waters hidden life talking about
[49:54]shrimp and
[49:57]crayfish Cave Fish I didn't know that
[50:00]was a thing cool and they're just I
[50:04]think they're I don't know what they're
[50:06]doing I'm fascinated with their lives I
[50:09]truly am I'm going to end it
[50:12]here so I'm almost back to my Jeep about
[50:15]ready to leave I just wanted to end this
[50:18]something I think is kind of
[50:19]profound I am fascinated by how
[50:22]disconnected people are from each other
[50:24]these days even out here they don't
[50:26]acknowledge each
[50:28]other they're
[50:30]just completely disconnected I don't
[50:32]know what kind of world you guys think
[50:33]you're living in but it's a pretty
[50:35]shitty one