[0:00]hello YouTube so I want to let you know
[0:03]that I um had to give up Luna this
[0:07]morning I gave her to a rescue U there
[0:10]will be some clips after this that just
[0:12]kind of just from this morning um most
[0:16]of why is on my patreon it's that's
[0:18]where I've been posting so um but the
[0:22]gist of it is is this environment is
[0:24]just too small for her she is still
[0:26]acclimating she's not using a litter box
[0:29]um consistently
[0:31]I spent all day yesterday cleaning up
[0:33]after her like thoroughly doing like
[0:35]deep cleaning and I had to keep doing
[0:37]that and it was stressful and so I had
[0:40]to put her back in the cage and the cage
[0:42]is small and there's just not any room
[0:45]in here and it just wasn't working I got
[0:47]her healthy that was all I could
[0:50]do and I had to um give her to the
[0:54]rescue
[0:55]here it wasn't a great situation I feel
[0:59]like that
[1:01]shelter I had my concerns but I did
[1:04]everything I could do for her given the
[1:07]you know Financial Resources I have
[1:09]available right now and her needs I just
[1:12]feel it was the right thing to do so I
[1:15]closed um my GoFundMe those there was
[1:18]only one payment on there and that
[1:20]should get refunded to the person who
[1:21]did that uh I had like two people donate
[1:25]through PayPal I will refund those and
[1:29]then there there's just a very special
[1:31]person named Patty who has been
[1:33]supportive of me from the very beginning
[1:35]of my journey and I will speak with her
[1:37]privately about how she's helped she's
[1:39]the only one who really truly I
[1:43]feel went above and beyond and you know
[1:47]I want to honor her thank you Patty I
[1:49]really really appreciate you I wish that
[1:52]I could have kept Luna I wanted to I
[1:54]wanted to integrate her into our lives
[1:56]it just I'm still adjusting to this
[1:59]lifestyle
[2:00]adding on the challenges of this kitten
[2:02]made it just
[2:05]impossible um I will say this
[2:09]much um I don't know what I'm going to
[2:11]do with my YouTube channel
[2:15]I I'm not judging I'm just was really
[2:19]hurt by the fact that nobody seemed
[2:24]to nobody seemed to to try to help me
[2:27]that much and that was very hard and I
[2:31]just it's not like you guys owe me
[2:33]anything
[2:35]obviously but I just thought that the
[2:37]people who had been following my journey
[2:39]for as long as they have um I thought I
[2:42]had built a connection with them
[2:45]so
[2:48]I I question that now it seems like I
[2:50]didn't you know so it's more than just
[2:52]Luna it's more than just um any type of
[2:55]financial support or even sharing my
[2:57]message or anything like that it's like
[2:59]wow
[3:01]I haven't connected with people here so
[3:04]I I don't know what to do with that I'm
[3:06]still processing it but I have an
[3:08]exceptionally busy day today it's travel
[3:09]day I'm moving to a new Campground an
[3:12]hour and a half away so I have a lot to
[3:15]do I hope that you guys have a wonderful
[3:18]um Wednesday and there's just some clips
[3:20]after
[3:22]this Luna's having a rough morning she
[3:25]was up top I had
[3:27]a flannel shirt up there for her she
[3:30]pooped all over it had to throw that
[3:34]out um I'm not sure what to put up there
[3:37]because anything I put up there
[3:40]is just got to stay warm
[3:43]though it's the best I can do for this
[3:46]morning she's not really
[3:51]eating I cleaned her
[3:55]up um guess we'll keep an eye on her
[4:00]I have some bad news guys I'm going to
[4:03]take Luna to an animal shelter this
[4:07]morning
[4:10]um I just I can't take care of her in
[4:13]this environment
[4:15]she's it's
[4:17]deeply difficult and problematic her
[4:20]situation
[4:23]and I just can't so I'm going to take
[4:26]her to an animal
[4:27]shelter uh the rescues would help her
[4:30]but I assume that the shelter will so
[4:32]I'm just going to go there this morning
[4:34]they open in an hour I'm going to drive
[4:36]down there and talk to
[4:38]them um might have been different if
[4:40]people helped me more but I you know
[4:45]there's that and
[4:48]then
[4:49]she's she needs a different environment
[4:52]this one is too small she's in a cage
[4:55]again she's not using the letter box
[4:58]consistently I know she's young and she
[5:00]needs
[5:02]time it's just it's impossible for me to
[5:05]do it in this environment
[5:07]so I will miss her we can be proud of
[5:11]the fact that we got her healthy she's
[5:13]alive you know she's
[5:16]well um she's young someone will adopt
[5:20]her
[5:23]I I now know that this is not something
[5:26]I can do in this little tiny RV it
[5:29]simply can't we done so we got her
[5:32]healthy that's what
[5:34]matters this space is just too small to
[5:37]care for a k with her needs it just it
[5:40]can't be done I've
[5:44]tried there is no
[5:47]room there is no space for
[5:51]this I'm sorry
[5:53]Luna I really wanted to give you a good
[5:56]life with
[5:58]me I wish that I could I truly do but I
[6:01]don't think that I can I'm not
[6:05]capable I tried I genuinely
[6:10]tried not going to say that was a
[6:12]pleasant experience at first they're
[6:13]like you can release her out
[6:15]here and she'll be
[6:18]fed I'm at the local County
[6:22]shelter they took her inside though I
[6:25]think that they're you know I just kept
[6:27]pushing I'm like look I found her on a
[6:29]campground she needs help you need to
[6:32]help her here's all of her things here's
[6:34]a dog kennel you know she needs you so I
[6:41]can't do it I'm sorry guys I wish I
[6:43]could this is very hard for me but I
[6:45]want you to see that I didn't just drop
[6:47]her off like somebody else she is at a
[6:51]shelter that is the best that I could do
[6:53]for her I got her healthy and I brought
[6:55]her to a shelter
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[7:01]these are the systems that humans have
[7:03]created for caring for these animals is
[7:05] unbelievable to
[7:08]me I get there and she's like you can
[7:10]just release her here there's a bunch of
[7:12]older cats out there you you know
[7:14]probably been there forever there's food
[7:17]everywhere and I'm like this is a tiny
[7:20]kitten
[7:22]like I got her healthy take care of her
[7:26]I really had to keep pushing at her
[7:28]about this
[7:31]I'm not happy about the situation but
[7:33]you know what I cannot
[7:36]save I can't do it I can't I just I am
[7:40]not equipped to do it first of all I'm
[7:42]still struggling with this lifestyle
[7:44]like I'm literally having trouble living
[7:45]in an
[7:47]RV
[7:50]and I just it compounded the stress so
[7:53]much that I was crying yesterday like I
[7:56]literally cannot do it and the
[7:59]counting shelter is like just release
[8:01]her right here just release her which I
[8:04]wouldn't do I made her take her made her
[8:07]get her name take her inside gave her
[8:10]the stuff you know the the dog kennel
[8:13]and all of her food and she took her
[8:15]inside I think they'll care for her I'm
[8:17]sure they have a Facebook page and all
[8:19]of that in fact I'm I'm pretty sure they
[8:21]do
[8:24]um I'm a little bit afraid to look at it
[8:27]you know
[8:29]I want to know that she turns out okay
[8:32]but I don't want to know if she doesn't
[8:33]you know so I don't know what to do
[8:35]about that well I've got to put my mind
[8:38]somewhere else right now because I do
[8:39]have to move sides today like I'm right
[8:42]here I'm at the campground I'm going
[8:44]into my spot
[8:48]and this was not something I wanted to
[8:51]do it's something I thought I had no
[8:54]choice but to do and the local County
[8:57]shelter should have
[9:02]they
[9:03]should it's insufficient