Completing Cabin Stay After Challenging Hike

Morning at 7 AM on the final day of a 3-4 day cabin stay. Speaker has 4 hours before checkout, recovering from a 15-mile hike the previous day. Weather has included storms. Located in Kentucky near Red River Gorge and Natural Bridge area.

Energetic Signature

measured assessment

Field State

habitat refinement

Orientation

toward true solitude

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August 3, 2024

12:30

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Author

rswfire

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ARCHIVED

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TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:00]good morning fellow humans it's 7

[0:02]o'clock in the morning

[0:04]here got 4 hours before I got to be out

[0:07]of

[0:08]here

[0:10]and a little bit sore but not as sore as

[0:13]I would have thought I'd be after a hike

[0:14]like that I think was about 15

[0:19]miles and it was very strenuous you know

[0:23]so I expected to

[0:26]be almost immobile today but I don't

[0:29]feel that way at all I'm surprised I

[0:33]don't I'm not like bragging about my

[0:38]physical condition I'm just very

[0:40]confused by it even my younger self

[0:43]would have been like okay we're not

[0:44]doing anything today like and that was

[0:48]four miles longer than I meant to go on

[0:50]you know cuz I got on that last trail

[0:53]and it took me right back up to the

[0:55]Natural Bridge I had to hike back up

[0:59]that mountain

[1:00]and then back down it again in order to

[1:02]get to my Jeep I was not planning on

[1:05]that so it was difficult but it showed

[1:08]me how resilient I am

[1:12]because I definitely had to push myself

[1:15]I my heart was racing I actually took a

[1:18]couple breaks like cuz I could just tell

[1:20]like my heart's racing the whole time

[1:22]it's hot and muggy and I'm in my rain

[1:24]coat because I'm trying to avoid the

[1:26]mosquitoes and i' already hiked up that

[1:29]mountain many many times

[1:31]and

[1:33]um

[1:34]about I don't know like 10 miles you

[1:37]know 11 miles and then it's like oh my

[1:39]God I'm on this Trail that's not taking

[1:42]me where I thought it

[1:43]was that was

[1:47]challenging I did it though that's what

[1:50]that's what matters you

[1:54]know you can see Bailey in the

[1:58]window I'm just going to expl explain

[2:00]this so my cat was abandoned by his

[2:03]mother when he was one day old literally

[2:05]one day old he and even opened his eyes

[2:08]yet and it was winter in Michigan and

[2:10]these cats were outdoor cats and he was

[2:12]just abandoned and this woman found him

[2:16]tried to give him back to the mother the

[2:17]mother rejected it and so she took it in

[2:20]and she raised it for 6 weeks and then I

[2:22]adopted him and so this is the result

[2:25]this cat is the neediest cat I have ever

[2:27]known in my life um soon after I got him

[2:31]you know I'm taking him to the vet to

[2:32]get him his shots and everything and he

[2:35]gets really sick and so I have to nurse

[2:38]him back to health myself I'm feeding

[2:40]him with a syringe and

[2:44]um just spending all my time with him

[2:49]because I'm super worried about him you

[2:51]know and and I just developed this bond

[2:53]with him that is

[2:55]just the most profound Bond I've ever

[2:58]had with a cat but it's also extremely

[3:00]stressful so if you see me in my videos

[3:03]like come on Bailey give me some space

[3:05]it's cuz that cat does not there that

[3:08]cat does not have a definition of space

[3:10]so it's difficult and I just do the best

[3:15]that I can for him it's all I can do so

[3:18]I'm finishing up my

[3:20]laundry then I'm going to just

[3:23]everything back into my Jeep and clean

[3:25]this place up so that it looks like it

[3:28]did when I arrived cuz that's what a

[3:30]good um guess

[3:33]does and be on my way back to my RV and

[3:36]I'm hoping

[3:39]that

[3:40]um I means we've had lots of bad storms

[3:44]and things so I just don't know what I'm

[3:45]going to go back to it's been 3 days I

[3:48]think it's been maybe 3 days four days I

[3:51]guess it's been four

[3:53]days

[3:55]and push myself to do the things that

[3:58]I'm really struggling with I needed this

[4:00]break but it's not going to change the

[4:04]reality of what I'm dealing with there

[4:06]it's just going

[4:10]to you know it doesn't change anything I

[4:13]still have to do a lot there and figure

[4:16]out a way to make that lifestyle work

[4:18]for me cuz it's not right now it just

[4:21]isn't I don't think I'd want to come

[4:23]back here I've been thinking about it

[4:26]and I just don't feel like this base

[4:29]this particular cabin in this area just

[4:32]doesn't feel like the place where I'd

[4:33]want to set up

[4:35]camp it's it was nice cuz I needed you

[4:38]know I just needed something like this

[4:40]it's still not what I'm looking for

[4:42]though so I don't know what I'm going to

[4:46]do

[4:48]um it's in a weird place like you you go

[4:51]back into the this little I don't know

[4:54]what if you'd call it a neighborhood a

[4:56]subdivision or so I don't know what it

[4:58]it's a when I first got here I was

[5:02]like it it didn't feel right like some

[5:05]it just felt kind of scarying honestly

[5:08]and I'm like where am I and then you end

[5:10]up on this dirt road and you keep going

[5:12]back and there's just all these little

[5:13]airbnbs all over the place and it's you

[5:16]know um the trees behind me they're not

[5:19]that deep they're I can see to the other

[5:21]side where there's a field and I can

[5:23]hear horses over there and machinery and

[5:27]um there's just a whole lot happening

[5:30]back here this isn't this is not what

[5:32]I'm looking for

[5:34]so I guess it's a

[5:36]good um reminder to myself to spend time

[5:42]at a place before I get too excited

[5:45]about it

[5:46]because I think I tend to do that

[5:49]so I know what I'm looking for I'm

[5:52]looking for total Solitude that's what I

[5:54]want and in a natural environment like

[5:58]this one you know not like a desert or

[6:02]something

[6:04]and I'll keep working towards that

[6:07]because that's what I want that's what's

[6:08]going to bring me into alignment with my

[6:12]values and needs and make me

[6:14]feel like I'm living the best version of

[6:17]my

[6:18]life I'm thinking today

[6:20]I'll just do stuff inside the RV but

[6:23]tomorrow I'll try to get prepared for

[6:25]the tire shop cuz I got to be there

[6:27]Monday

[6:30]and um I'll start thinking through what

[6:33]is my next move what am I going to do

[6:35]next

[6:38]and yeah I'm going to rush today though

[6:40]cuz I am a little sore I'm just not

[6:42]nearly as sore as I would have thought

[6:44]I'd

[6:45]be oh and I was going to say I don't you

[6:47]know I'm probably going to just skip

[6:48]hiking for a couple days just to give

[6:50]myself a little break um I guess I'll

[6:53]start hiking again on Tuesday cuz Monday

[6:55]I'll be at the tire shop I've got to

[6:58]make that happen like you can tell like

[6:59]I'm still wanting to push that off

[7:02]another

[7:03]week

[7:05]um I can't help it I just I don't want

[7:08]to drive it down there with the tires

[7:10]the way they are and I just I'm going to

[7:12]do my best to fix that make it feel safe

[7:15]enough to

[7:17]do um there is another place nearby

[7:20]that's a lot closer if all they're

[7:22]really going to do is put on these

[7:25]extensions then maybe I should just talk

[7:27]to those people even though I'd have to

[7:29]pay them you know and um at least I

[7:32]wouldn't be driving nearly as far cuz

[7:34]it's like a mile

[7:36]away kind of been thinking of that too

[7:38]so it's kind I think that's another

[7:40]reason why I haven't really done it yet

[7:42]it's cuz I just I haven't decided you

[7:44]know I'm still weighing them in my head

[7:45]and I just haven't haven't settled on a

[7:49]course of action

[7:51]yet but I have to solve that that is a

[7:54]root issue for me like that is a

[7:57]foundational problem that so many other

[8:00]aspects of my journey that this this is

[8:02]so freaking important it's

[8:05]ridiculous oh are you hearing a rooster

[8:07]in the background because that's another

[8:09]thing I don't want to be around any of

[8:10]those things to avoid a misunderstanding

[8:14]I think I should just say I don't mind

[8:15]the horses like I'm just noting how

[8:18]close I am to you know other things like

[8:22]other like I'm still in Civilization I'm

[8:25]not truly in solitude here there's

[8:27]there's buildings and people everywhere

[8:30]there's you know there's infrastructure

[8:32]there's not truly in a cabin in the

[8:35]woods

[8:37]like it's not that far if you look over

[8:40]there you if you know look through the

[8:41]tree line You'll see in the field where

[8:43]it starts I mean it's very shallow up to

[8:46]those trees right there so that's all

[8:49]I'm

[8:50]saying I do love the Natural Bridge the

[8:52]Red River Gorge the Daniel Buu National

[8:55]Forest like this is a very special area

[8:57]in Kentucky

[9:00]this is just not the right spot for me

[9:02]so if I do come back you

[9:05]know just need to keep

[9:08]looking but I'm also contemplating that

[9:10]there are many other possibilities like

[9:13]I Lake Cumberland to me is just a

[9:15]magical place too I need to find some

[9:18]Trails there though I haven't really

[9:19]found anything

[9:21]that is very comparable to hear that's

[9:24]for sure like not even

[9:28]close he and I don't know I don't know

[9:31]if I'm I'm really contemplating what am

[9:34]I going to do in these next couple of

[9:36]seasons like am I going to I don't think

[9:38]I'm staying in Kentucky

[9:40]so probably go to Pacific Northwest I'm

[9:43]thinking but you know with winter I'm

[9:45]going to have to go somewhere

[9:48]South so I don't know Tru don't know

[9:52]maybe you guys have some thoughts on

[9:53]that maybe you know some places that I

[9:56]can Google and look at cuz I don't you

[9:58]know I don't know so

[10:00]maybe maybe help me out if you

[10:03]want I am moving slow today I'm

[10:08]tired took a shower I'm doing the last

[10:10]of my

[10:11]laundry took care of M's litter box got

[10:16]most of my stuff packed up just got to

[10:17]take it out to the

[10:19]Jeep to the

[10:21]dishes

[10:24]um I'm still moving slow I'm just moving

[10:28]slow today not looking forward

[10:31]to going back to the campground on the

[10:34]weekend you know there's going to be

[10:36]people all around me it's just going to

[10:38]be

[10:44]chaotic I'm really not happy with this

[10:48]lifestyle right

[10:50]now and I'm having to acknowledge this

[10:53]to myself

[10:55]because I mean I might like the nomadic

[10:57]lifestyle but I don't like

[11:00]many aspects of the way I'm living it

[11:03]and I don't know how to solve that yet I

[11:06]haven't I'm not sure I want to go out

[11:08]west CU it's just not in an environment

[11:10]that I like and but that's really where

[11:13]you would go if you're trying to live a

[11:16]nomadic lifestyle with

[11:18]Solitude and I just don't know

[11:23]cuz kind of feel like I just really need

[11:26]some land somewhere I can park that

[11:28]thing or I'm by myself and I can just

[11:31]build a life there and if I want to take

[11:34]a trip somewhere I can

[11:39]but discovering this is not exactly what

[11:42]I wanted it's

[11:44]not and

[11:48]that's I'm not I don't regret what I've

[11:51]done you know it's very important to

[11:54]acknowledge that this there's no regret

[11:56]here you learn things about yourself by

[11:59]taking taking risks by challenging

[12:01]yourself

[12:02]and um you learn what your values are

[12:06]you you learn what matters to you

[12:09]and something like this this cabin here

[12:12]is much closer to what I am looking

[12:19]for I just have to manifest it now

[12:22]anyway I'm going to leave it there for

[12:24]now I hope you all are having a good

[12:25]weekend

Summary

The speaker reflects on completing a difficult 15-mile hike the previous day, expressing surprise at not being more physically sore. He describes getting lost on trails and having to climb back up a mountain to reach his vehicle. He explains his cat Bailey's background as an abandoned kitten that required intensive care, creating an extremely close but stressful bond.

He is finishing his stay at an Airbnb cabin, doing laundry and packing to return to his RV after 3-4 days away. The speaker evaluates the cabin location as not meeting his needs for true solitude, noting it's surrounded by other Airbnbs, fields with horses, and various infrastructure. He acknowledges this as a learning experience about spending more time evaluating locations before getting excited about them.

He discusses upcoming RV tire repairs, weighing options between a distant free service and a nearby paid one. The speaker expresses dissatisfaction with his current nomadic lifestyle, particularly the lack of solitude and the chaos of weekend campgrounds. He contemplates potentially moving to the Pacific Northwest or finding land where he can park permanently while maintaining the option to travel.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission operates as a field diagnostic — mapping physical resilience against environmental mismatch while maintaining structural coherence through transition. The architecture holds simultaneous recognition of somatic capacity and habitat inadequacy, using embodied assessment to refine alignment parameters for future positioning.

Dominant Language

total solitudealignment with valuesfoundational problemmanifest itno regretchallenging yourselfwhat matters to you

Symbolic Elements

thresholdbridgesolitudeabandonmentbondfoundation

Ontological States

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transitional
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assessing
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coherent
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sovereign

Subsystems

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somatic
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infrastructural
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relational
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cognitive

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