Weekend Hiking and Mattress Shopping Plans

Early morning weekend hiking session at a Kentucky state park. The speaker is living in an RV at a crowded campground, dealing with sleep issues from a bad mattress. Weather is humid (80% humidity mentioned) and warm. They are approaching the end of their three-month stay at current location and planning future travel routes.

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July 27, 2024

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[0:00]it's the weekend guys there are people

[0:05]everywhere dear Lord that person's in a

[0:08]gown outside what oh my

[0:11]God I don't know how to um blur things

[0:15]on video I wish I knew how to do that

[0:17]hopefully I didn't get a picture of

[0:19]anybody I wasn't trying to I'm just

[0:21]trying to show you all the stuff out

[0:27]there it's the weekend

[0:30]but now I have a place I can go at least

[0:33]it's kind of dark in here it's early at

[0:36]7 in the

[0:37]morning I just woke up and I'm like I

[0:40]guess I'm getting up this bed sucks and

[0:43]I'm going to deal with it today I

[0:44]decided to I just had an idea when I

[0:47]woke up find a mattress place I'll go to

[0:52]that if I find a mattress I like I'll

[0:55]say I will buy this from you if you

[0:57]deliver it directly to me and take the

[0:59]one it's on my bed now otherwise I'm not

[1:01]buying it so if I do that maybe I end up

[1:05]with a new mattress

[1:06]today and I think I'm going with a twin

[1:08]size one I want something that's easy to

[1:10]just put on and take on and off so oh

[1:14]here comes a Bailey and I promised her

[1:16]friend something so come here

[1:18]Bailey there's Bailey Bailey says hi to

[1:22]Mason hi

[1:25]Mason hey that I'm happy about that so

[1:28]oh poor can't he's got he's got some

[1:32]issues going on don't you

[1:35]baby I don't brush him enough I I that's

[1:39]my um CU that I really need to I got to

[1:43]I got to brush you more don't I you

[1:45]deserve to be brushed I deserve to be

[1:48]brushed I'm a good

[1:50]cat so yeah that's what I'm thinking

[1:53]this morning um probably nowhere nearby

[1:57]though I don't know I'll do some

[1:58]searching and stuff but I'm think

[1:59]thinking probably Elizabeth Town and

[2:01]that's

[2:02]like the same town they made a movie you

[2:06]know namesake of a

[2:08]movie so not too far away but it's kind

[2:11]of far really it's kind of

[2:14]far I got to solve this today I can't be

[2:17]doing this anymore I my back hurts I'm

[2:19]not sleeping I hate this I'm getting a

[2:22]new

[2:22]mattress so apparently we live in the

[2:25]Dark Ages and nothing's open on a

[2:27]Saturday take my dress out

[2:31]so I'm going

[2:34]hiking might check later there were a

[2:36]couple local places there furniture

[2:38]places but you know they might have

[2:40]mattresses and um they'd be the ones

[2:44]most likely to be willing to deliver to

[2:45]a campground right so I wonder if that's

[2:49]upside down now I'm going to stop this

[2:51]and I'll talk later I got to we are off

[2:56]so Mason is um my highest School

[2:58]friend's child and he he watches my

[3:00]channel because he likes my cat so I

[3:03]told her I would just say hi to him and

[3:06]you know with bailing in the picture so

[3:08]that's what that was

[3:10]about um glad I'm going part of me was

[3:13]like n let's not go today I'm not sore

[3:15]but I can tell that I'm on the edge of

[3:17]being sore so I'll be sore today which

[3:20]is good I actually think that's good um

[3:23]when I hiked all the time it was

[3:25]like an expected thing that you'd just

[3:28]be sore and you would um enjoy that I

[3:31]guess I enjoy it you can enjoy that so

[3:35]what's going on with me I know I need to

[3:36]shave my I notice I need

[3:39]a nose clipper thing I have one and then

[3:43]I used it the last time I used it can't

[3:46]remember what happened but I'm like man

[3:48]like that thing did something to my nose

[3:50]and I didn't like

[3:52]it so I guess I'll see if that happens

[3:56]again I don't know it was a weird little

[3:59]machine and I didn't make my nose feel

[4:01]very good for like a whole day after

[4:03]that maybe even a couple days it was a

[4:05]horrible thing I don't know

[4:10]um I'm having a good day I think oh man

[4:15]guys you should I know that I know that

[4:21]I talk about things that most people

[4:23]don't and that's because I truly believe

[4:26]it is a philosophy for me it is a way of

[4:28]living I believe believe that

[4:32]authenticity that vulnerability is a

[4:36]superpower I actually have a pretty

[4:39]awesome

[4:42]life um I may not

[4:45]always acknowledge

[4:48]that but I know I do and it's you know

[4:53]I'm struggling a lot but that's all part

[4:55]of it like one day all of this is just

[4:58]going to be amazing so and I know that

[5:01]and me

[5:03]expressing how I feel is helping me to

[5:07]get there

[5:09]so I encourage it I think that it it

[5:12]works for me so anyone who's been

[5:16]following me long enough knows

[5:20]that I'm just capable of the full ranko

[5:24]turn right on Camp that Campground is so

[5:27]packed I truly don't like being on Camp

[5:29]rounds when they're like this like it's

[5:31]just not fun for

[5:33]me um I'm always worried I'm going to

[5:35]get ambushed by somebody when I'm

[5:37]leaving my camper you know so I put my

[5:39]headphones in I want them to I want to

[5:41]look as unapproachable as I

[5:44]can I

[5:47]just I respect that they're there to do

[5:50]you their thing right but most people I

[5:54]shouldn't say most people some

[5:57]people they don't respect boundaries

[5:59]they you know and they're just like I

[6:01]just don't want to deal with it like I'm

[6:03]not here for you why AR you talking to

[6:06]me go away I TR feel that way a lot of

[6:09]the

[6:10]time

[6:13]so just depends I guess I don't know I'm

[6:17]a complicated person so I only ate a

[6:20]bowl of cereal yesterday then I had a

[6:23]piece of bread with butter and cream

[6:25]cheese on it that's what I ate yesterday

[6:30]um so when I get back from hiking I'm

[6:33]going to go up to Taco Bell let's get a

[6:34]bunch of tacos and

[6:36]then I'll eat those today and probably

[6:40]tomorrow

[6:42]and that's my plan for eating I think I

[6:45]might have an eating disorder that

[6:47]didn't even know it it's

[6:49]crazy well I'll deal with that in time I

[6:52]you know I got enough challenges we're

[6:54]not adding to them we're not doing that

[6:57]so we're just going to go have a good

[6:59]day and go hiking um I'm not going to

[7:03]I'm not going to record my whole hike

[7:05]you know that was meant to just be sort

[7:06]of a special video where those who

[7:08]wanted to follow along for 2 hours could

[7:10]you know it's a very long video

[7:13]so um I just wanted to share my entire

[7:16]experience that day because it's part of

[7:19]my journey and

[7:22]um you know so that's why but most of

[7:25]the time if I do do any kind of

[7:27]recording in in nature hiking or

[7:30]whatever you know I'll edit stuff and

[7:33]make them

[7:37]shorter I'm glad I'm out here doing this

[7:41]I just realized something so people

[7:44]often say to me to be kind to myself I

[7:46]hear that all the time even AI is it

[7:48]sometimes but I think there is a

[7:50]misunderstanding I think I just figured

[7:52]out what it is so when I mention that I

[7:54]need to get my nose trimmed hair trimmed

[7:57]and or I'm talking about did something

[8:00]like that maybe you guys think I'm

[8:02]judging myself it's actually the

[8:05]opposite of that I'm being as the

[8:07]kindest I could possibly be to myself

[8:10]I'm acknowledging

[8:11]reality I'm not judging it and I'm

[8:14]talking about it

[8:15]because because it for me I'm not

[8:19]judging it it's just that's life today

[8:22]right so I'm watching my video yesterday

[8:24]I'm like oh I need to trim my nose hairs

[8:26]you know you can see them in the video I

[8:28]don't see a problem with acknowledging

[8:30]that because that's just normal life

[8:33]everybody's like that so you know

[8:36]nobody's perfect and I don't need to be

[8:39]perfect I just I just accept myself so

[8:43]that's not judgment if you think that's

[8:45]judgment you're misunderstanding

[8:47]authenticity and vulnerability and using

[8:50]those things as as superpowers because

[8:53]that's what they are like I've never

[8:56]understood this human um this very

[9:01]common human instinct to not talk about

[9:04]certain things that are just absolutely

[9:07]common to all of us it it's just so

[9:09]weird to me I've never that isn't a

[9:11]philosophy I subscribe to we all have

[9:14]nose hair right and we can't talk about

[9:18]that we just pretend that's not a thing

[9:20]like I don't get that so so I'm being

[9:24]kind to myself

[9:26]I'm I love myself I actually think I'm

[9:29]pretty awesome so I I never really

[9:33]understand why everyone's always like be

[9:35]kind to

[9:36]yourself I think that the kindest thing

[9:39]you can do to yourself is to be honest

[9:41]about yourself if I'm struggling with

[9:43]something it makes zero sense to me to

[9:46]pretend like I'm not struggling with

[9:48]that thing cuz somehow that's being kind

[9:49]to yourself that doesn't sound like

[9:53]kindness Ian that sounds like that

[9:55]sounds like compounding trauma in my

[9:57]opinion that's just

[10:00]ignoring reality

[10:02]and I would never want to be that way I

[10:05]just I really wouldn't I just to me

[10:07]that's that's not

[10:09]kindness truly isn't AI got stuff wrong

[10:13]too you know because it's just

[10:16]responding based on its training data

[10:18]and its training data is based on humans

[10:20]so and humans got a lot of things wrong

[10:23]they have developed

[10:26]these um

[10:32]the majority opinion on a lot of things

[10:33]are not always right and I will admit

[10:36]that if you you Spott it doing that and

[10:40]you're like wait a minute I'm not being

[10:42]I am being kind to myself and here's why

[10:45]and it'll be like all right you know

[10:47]because then it's pattern matching a

[10:48]whole bunch of other stuff and I mean it

[10:51]does it all the time sometime it always

[10:53]defaults to saying my my view on

[10:56]humanity is mile turn right on old Cal

[10:59]pipe I'm in calvalry Kentucky how cool

[11:03]is that so it often will say that my

[11:07]world view is pessimistic and then I

[11:09]will correct it and say no it isn't it's

[11:12]realistic and then it will just come

[11:14]back with a book about all the reasons

[11:16]why yeah you're right I shouldn't have

[11:18]said that it's my training data take the

[11:20]next ride onto Old calary Pike then turn

[11:22]right onto Calvary Road this stuff is

[11:25]just so deeply ingrained in us that we

[11:27]don't see it but I you and you know I

[11:31]just take the next ride onto Calvary

[11:32]Road Lake Road I know where I am course

[11:36]it doesn't

[11:38]know here we are

[11:41]y continue on Calvary Road for 1 and a

[11:44]half miles I shelle thank you so that's

[11:49]um my views on that I guess we are here

[11:54]I was worried it would be busy on the

[11:56]weekends cuzz that's what Raven Run was

[11:58]like and this place kind of feel feels

[11:59]like that to me it's a place where I

[12:00]would go hiking every day and um

[12:04]weekends were always very busy it was

[12:06]hard to find a parking spot but nope not

[12:08]here this place truly is a is a Hidden

[12:10]Gem because there's just one car next to

[12:13]me that is it I am so happy part of me

[12:17]is regretting this

[12:19]because um I'm a little bit sore my legs

[12:22]are a little bit sore and they're about

[12:24]to get

[12:26]worse but yeah I'll survive

[12:30]I just got it in my head I want to go to

[12:32]the Natural Bridge

[12:35]today which I'm nowhere near I mean I'm

[12:38]probably hours away from that place they

[12:40]have the they have this place called the

[12:43]hemlock Lodge and they have the best

[12:45]burgers and fries they call it the

[12:48]Natural Bridge burger and it's so good I

[12:50]love

[12:51]it

[12:53]um I could go check out my favorite

[12:56]Trail the rock garden Trail I haven't

[12:58]been there in a while years

[13:00]now I see how that's holding up and go

[13:03]see the natural

[13:05]Arch but and I'm like you're hiking a

[13:08]trail right now and then you want to go

[13:09]and Hike another

[13:11]one

[13:13]um so

[13:15]maybe I'm starving but I I just know me

[13:18]I'm going to end up at Taco Bell then

[13:20]maybe tomorrow we go to the Natural

[13:23]Bridge so I met a nice man on the trail

[13:26]when I first got here I think he's of

[13:27]Spanish heritage

[13:30]um I think that's probably the more

[13:31]appropriate way of saying that rather

[13:33]than just assuming he's of Mexican

[13:36]heritage because you know that's just a

[13:38]country um so probably Spanish herit

[13:42]someone correct me if I'm wrong but I

[13:44]was

[13:46]thinking

[13:48]um some people would be like that's very

[13:51]politically correct and I was thinking

[13:53]about that term and you know what that

[13:55]term is that's what people who don't

[13:57]want to change and update their thinking

[14:00]and actually honor the differences in

[14:02]people

[14:03]saying because all you're doing is more

[14:07]accurately

[14:08]reflecting

[14:10]reality we don't know that man's

[14:13]Heritage

[14:15]so it's not politically correct

[14:19]it's um it's poite what happened to

[14:22]politness in the

[14:24]world you know I think that man's a

[14:27]marine because the truck that was parked

[14:28]next to me had a marine sticker on

[14:31]it and he was the only one here so but

[14:35]even that's not enough for some people

[14:37]to just give the man respect and

[14:40]acknowledge that shouldn't assume he's

[14:43]Mexican like you just shouldn't do that

[14:47]and why would you and why is it so hard

[14:49]to

[14:51]just consider that point of view and

[14:54]update your thinking on it because

[14:56]that's all you need to do nobody's

[15:00]you

[15:04]know it shouldn't be that hard it just

[15:06]shouldn't be when I went to work at the

[15:09]oil chain shop I mentioned that in my

[15:10]video

[15:12]yesterday um I had this super hot boss I

[15:15]mean this man was

[15:16]gorgeous and I immediately had a crush

[15:19]on him I'm not going to lie and he asked

[15:22]me one day he says do you have a

[15:24]girlfriend and at that time you know I'm

[15:26]young I'm not real good at

[15:30]just you know stating facts about myself

[15:34]I guess so I say no and then he goes do

[15:38]you have a boyfriend and I goes kind of

[15:41]um it was the smoothest way I I'd ever

[15:45]seen it somebody asking are you

[15:47]gay and I was like is this man flirting

[15:50]with me I think he might have been but I

[15:54]think he was married I can't remember he

[15:56]was young too he's just a young guy am I

[15:59]still on the

[16:01]trail this does not feel like the trail

[16:04]where am

[16:05]I uhoh how did this

[16:08]happen this is what happens when oh look

[16:10]at that it's telling me go back go back

[16:12]where are you going

[16:16]wait I guess this is the trail but it's

[16:19]just a

[16:20]um um it's a dry like Creek

[16:23]bed this must be the trail I don't

[16:26]remember doing this part but yeah it is

[16:27]okay

[16:30]so yeah um what made me think of that

[16:35]was what did make me think of

[16:40]that the acknowledgement that um he knew

[16:44]I might be different and he found a way

[16:45]to talk to me about it you know

[16:49]um like with the

[16:51]Spanish Heritage guy like it

[16:55]just

[16:56]um guess some people are just better at

[16:59]it because I have remembered that since

[17:01]I was 21 I'm 47 now like that

[17:07]was it was a wonderful moment in my

[17:10]life wait wait I wasn't 21 I was 26 now

[17:14]that I think about it um I remember I

[17:16]lived at the time so you know just the a

[17:18]little references help me um I was 26 or

[17:22]27 it was before I started having panic

[17:24]attacks but

[17:27]not where was I at that time I might

[17:29]have been

[17:31]actually which made it I guess even that

[17:33]much more Brave of me to try

[17:35]to take on a job I had no experience

[17:40]that um I surprised myself a

[17:43]lot I I can't remember for sure um it

[17:47]was around that time

[17:49]so

[17:51]um might have been just

[17:54]before that was a fun experience working

[17:56]there um

[17:59]met some cool guys and they taught me

[18:01]how to change oil in a vehicle I don't

[18:04]remember how to do it

[18:05]anymore and I worked in the pit a

[18:09]lot and freaking loved it and

[18:14]then one time I

[18:16]took I think it's called an oil filter I

[18:19]can't remember you know the Can thing I

[18:21]took that off and oil went all over my

[18:24]face and my

[18:26]eyes um not sure what I did

[18:31]wrong yeah that was kind of

[18:33]horrible we made it to the hangout area

[18:36]we just enter the

[18:38]meadow ah sun is nice it's 80% humidity

[18:42]today I was wondering maybe when of you

[18:45]can tell me wow look at that that's some

[18:47]bright ass light what's going on

[18:49]here

[18:51]wow

[18:54]um if humidity is 100% does that mean

[18:57]it's raining does it work like that I

[19:01]could ask

[19:02]AI why is this happening this is so

[19:05]weird just touched my screen that fixed

[19:08]it what it was focused on the

[19:10]sun fascinating let's just look at the

[19:14]Sun ah no ducks

[19:17]today where are you

[19:20]Ducks you were the coolest thing here

[19:25]yesterday he M do you see a Red Dot on

[19:29]here because I

[19:30]don't I don't know where we

[19:34]are I suspect that we're here but I

[19:36]don't know this for

[19:39]sure I don't see a red

[19:42]dot this is a PSA for some of

[19:45]you so I think that most people look at

[19:49]the ground when they're looking for

[19:50]snakes but just so you know there are

[19:52]some snakes that climb trees and then

[19:55]they they position themselves like

[19:57]little branches now even like wiggle

[20:00]Their little bodies like like it's wind

[20:02]movement but right

[20:04]in did you know

[20:06]that you can't tell me this isn't a

[20:09]loading screen we're transitioning to

[20:12]the next Zone here we

[20:15]go that was my loading screen sound we

[20:19]have entered the forest again this is a

[20:22]little controversial but I'm just going

[20:23]to say

[20:25]it because it's

[20:27]honest I was just thinking

[20:29]about that man and I think that the

[20:33]correct way to say it is just um Spanish

[20:36]Heritage or something like this somebody

[20:37]correct me cuz I want to say it right

[20:40]but you know a lot of people just assume

[20:41]he's Mexican

[20:44]and that's invalidating because you're

[20:47]not honoring his identity and I think

[20:50]that

[20:52]people think that doing that honoring

[20:55]other people's identities somehow takes

[20:57]away from their own own and I'm going to

[20:59]give an example and this is where it

[21:00]gets

[21:01]controversial just take the white

[21:03]racists that and I mean the true white

[21:06]racists who honor the white identity you

[21:10]know they're they're happy to you know

[21:13]honor that identity but none of the

[21:16]others

[21:17]why

[21:19]it it takes nothing away from you to

[21:22]honor everybody's identities and their

[21:25]differences and it takes nothing from

[21:27]you

[21:29]so for those of you who really pay

[21:31]attention to my channel you'll start to

[21:32]see patterns of how

[21:36]um my experiences shape my thoughts you

[21:39]know I'm on this hike I wasn't going to

[21:41]be thinking about any of this stuff

[21:42]today but I met this really nice man and

[21:46]just got me thinking about this stuff I

[21:49]think that's one of I think that's one

[21:51]of the benefits of my cognitive style

[21:54]but I also

[21:55]think um it's open to anybody

[21:59]and I think being out in nature helps um

[22:03]just helps you to think about stuff

[22:06]and I don't know i' be very curious to

[22:10]maybe think about that some more

[22:14]researching but you can see that in my

[22:16]videos if you're really paying attention

[22:21]that like yesterday and I don't expect

[22:23]most of you to have watched that it was

[22:25]2 hours so but yesterday I met this this

[22:28]family on the trail and they needed

[22:30]advice on how far the trail how much

[22:32]they have left to

[22:34]go and long

[22:36]after I had encountered them I was still

[22:39]thinking

[22:40]about did I give them the right advice

[22:43]like and is that trail like like maybe

[22:46]they should have turned around and then

[22:47]I debated with myself should I go tell

[22:49]them to turn around like and I'm like no

[22:51]this isn't my responsibility they came

[22:53]out here on their own and you know so

[23:00]um it's a holistic way of approaching

[23:04]life um that's how I AI describes it to

[23:07]me it's a just a holistic kind of

[23:11]thinking and I wish there was a lot more

[23:13]of that in the world

[23:15]because I see tremendous value in it but

[23:19]that's not to say that other cognitive

[23:20]Styles aren't just as valuable because

[23:22]they are we're all different diversity

[23:26]is actually a really cool thing and I

[23:28]don't know why we can't just celebrate

[23:31]that all the time

[23:32]because imagine that world you know

[23:35]where we truly

[23:37]celebrate the diversity of life I mean

[23:40]I'm out in nature there's nothing but

[23:42]diversity out here you know in the

[23:45]natural world so why do we struggle with

[23:50]accepting that it's I truly don't

[23:53]understand it I doubt I ever

[23:56]will I just passed the 2 six Bridge

[23:59]which made me think of an old boyfriend

[24:00]when I was

[24:02]26 oh he was

[24:05]wonderful very um dealing with some

[24:08]really really emotional

[24:10]issues

[24:13]um I liked him I hope

[24:15]that hope his life turned out okay

[24:19]haven't thought about him in a long

[24:21]time but I hope his life turned out okay

[24:24]he was a really nice person and I don't

[24:27]think that he

[24:29]always saw that in himself it's sad

[24:32]that's kind of how it's always been with

[24:34]me and um the boyfriends I've

[24:38]had I would see in

[24:41]them just such a pure

[24:44]soul but they never saw it in themselves

[24:48]and I learned with from my last

[24:52]boyfriend um which was a two decades ago

[24:55]now he actually sat me

[24:57]down and

[24:59]told me that he didn't feel worthy of me

[25:05]and that just opened up my eyes because

[25:09]most people aren't that honest that was

[25:11]a very vulnerable moment

[25:13]and he opened up to me and told me how

[25:16]he was feeling and it broke my heart for

[25:21]him

[25:23]because I love that man he was my second

[25:26]true love in life and I just it broke my

[25:29]heart for him that he did not see how

[25:30]wonderful and beautiful he

[25:35]was and and it seems

[25:38]like people think I'm way more

[25:40]judgmental than I am like I guess it's

[25:43]because I do talk a lot about societal

[25:47]issues I'm just now realizing this um I

[25:51]don't apply that to the individual

[25:53]that's not how I

[25:54]work um even if an individual has those

[25:59]traits I understand what's behind them

[26:02]you don't judge individuals you don't do

[26:05]that

[26:08]um huh I guess I'm going to have to

[26:10]start making that more

[26:13]clear just

[26:15]because an individual is exhibiting a

[26:18]trait that is harmful to society doesn't

[26:20]mean there's that

[26:23]individual isn't worthy of of love and

[26:26]respect

[26:28]you know there's a lot of ways that they

[26:29]can arrive at that

[26:31]trait and most traits aren't permanent

[26:34]they can be changed if you want to

[26:37]change

[26:38]them that's what my Journey's been about

[26:41]trying to show that through my

[26:44]actions I had a lot of it's all about

[26:47]living in alignment with your

[26:49]values um and and I'm still not but I'm

[26:52]closer to it I'm working on

[26:54]that and I just

[26:57]think the world would be a lot better

[26:59]place if everybody was that way or they

[27:01]tried they just put in the effort you

[27:04]know you didn't like I was saying

[27:07]earlier it was never about judging

[27:09]myself I'm not being unkind to myself

[27:11]I'm acknowledging

[27:13]reality I'm seeing a thing about myself

[27:16]that

[27:17]um requires some work there's nothing

[27:20]wrong with that that's growth that's how

[27:22]growth

[27:23]happens

[27:25]so guess that's my thoughts on that

[27:27]today

[27:29]there is nothing Kinder than being

[27:31]honest with yourself in my opinion it's

[27:33]the kindest thing you can do for

[27:35]yourself I

[27:39]suppose if you're just giving yourself

[27:42]negative selft

[27:44]talk

[27:46]without how to explain that

[27:50]without a drive to changeed

[27:53]that then maybe that's less kind

[27:58]but it's not unkind to be honest it just

[28:01]isn't there's nothing more kind than

[28:03]just being

[28:05]honest honesty matters and we live in a

[28:07]world where that doesn't seem to

[28:10]be

[28:11]uh an attribute that people honor or

[28:14]value at all

[28:16]anymore there's just so much

[28:18]superficiality

[28:20]and you know these white lies

[28:23]and

[28:25]um avoidance of

[28:29]you

[28:29]know anything real and it's

[28:33]like how are how how's that going to

[28:36]work out for us just keeps people

[28:40]stuck unable to grow because they don't

[28:43]have the tools to grow because we keep

[28:45]taking them away from them so we are at

[28:48]the spot of

[28:50]hell oh man we have made it to the spot

[28:53]of hell I'm not going to explore that

[28:56]trail yet

[28:59]oh my we're going up this

[29:03]thing oh man actually I haven't taken a

[29:07]break yet I'm going to chill for a

[29:09]minute that's a steep climb my camera

[29:11]does not do it justice that is a steep

[29:15]climb didn't find anywhere to chill

[29:17]around

[29:19]here what we got over

[29:24]here am I just going to go up that thing

[29:27]I know I am

[29:30]I deliberately Walk This Way knowing

[29:32]that this would you know I didn't want

[29:34]to take the easy

[29:36]way let's do

[29:39]it kind of want to go to the Natural

[29:41]Bridge

[29:43]today um I don't know if that's wise or

[29:46]not ow yeah my legs are

[29:51]sore here we

[29:54]go maybe tomorrow but they'll be sore

[29:57]tomorrow too so I don't know really want

[29:59]a Natural Bridge

[30:01]burger oh wait no there's multiple paths

[30:05]interesting definitely want to explore

[30:07]those at some point wonder where those

[30:11]go so up we

[30:17]go I am getting

[30:20]better um if you remember my first hike

[30:24]just up to I was staying at Baron River

[30:26]Lake State Park I think

[30:28]and I think I said um I remember now I

[30:33]was like let's turn this into a

[30:36]game um and I needed a map so I was like

[30:40]let's go talk to the MBC at the front of

[30:41]the park which way

[30:46]uhoh huh and so I had to walk up this

[30:49]big hill I was so out of

[30:51]breath

[30:53]um I think the next time I do that cuz

[30:55]I'm going back there

[31:00]I won't feel that

[31:02]way

[31:07]progress um had been thinking about

[31:09]going there

[31:10]because um I hadn't told you guys yet

[31:15]um okay so am my dentist oh

[31:19]no that is steep that is

[31:22]deep here we go um my

[31:26]dentist so I see her in a couple weeks

[31:29]and then I get my top

[31:31]Dentures

[31:33]um but then and I'm

[31:37]suppos

[31:41]um

[31:44]after that appointment is really close

[31:46]to the time that I have to leave the

[31:47]campground my 3 months are up and I

[31:50]haven't planned where I'm going

[31:51]next and

[31:54]also

[31:56]um she want to put a soft liner in my

[31:58]bottom denture she thinks it'll help

[32:00]me and so that'll require more

[32:03]time so I need to stick around a bit

[32:07]longer than i' planned so what I'm

[32:09]thinking is after my time's up

[32:13]here I'll go spend two weeks at bar no

[32:15]Lake State

[32:18]Park just acknowledge Rob

[32:31]I got to be strong enough

[32:35]to deal with that situation if it arises

[32:38]I guess so I'll spend two weeks

[32:44]there

[32:45]hopefully that will be all the time I

[32:48]have

[32:48]to um remain here and

[32:52]then I still want to go to

[32:55]Nevada um

[33:00]with

[33:01]stargazing I don't know if I want to

[33:03]spend a year there though I don't like

[33:05]desert

[33:06]so just can't see me enjoying

[33:09]it but I'll get out there and experience

[33:13]it and decide

[33:16]then but what I think will happen is

[33:20]after I do some stargazing

[33:22]there I'll head up to the Pacific

[33:26]Northwest and you know till there

[33:33]um the one thing that I'm thinking about

[33:35]is winter don't really have a plan for

[33:39]it

[33:42]um I I did in Nevada because there are

[33:45]the elevations make it

[33:47]possible for

[33:49]me to find relatively comfortable

[33:53]places um I don't want to go to the

[33:56]popular places you know I just don't

[33:58]want to be around that many people

[34:01]so we're going to sit on this here here

[34:05]this

[34:06]spch

[34:12]wow oh I'm not sure how far we've gone

[34:16]but man I should have been using an app

[34:18]to track my hikes I love doing

[34:22]that I even think about it and I'm not

[34:25]wearing my watch

[34:28]oh I'm going to have to change

[34:30]that I love doing that also i' been

[34:34]thinking

[34:35]about I was going to mention this when I

[34:37]got to the spot where I called it a save

[34:40]game I would love to make an nap for

[34:43]hiking that just gamifies the

[34:45]experience and I know that they're doing

[34:48]that to an extent but I feel like

[34:51]they're gamifying it as non- Gamers they

[34:53]you know so um they're really just

[34:57]adopting practices

[34:59]from um just general practices lots of

[35:03]different apps use it's not you know

[35:04]you're gaining experience but that

[35:06]experience

[35:07]is um it's not really based on anything

[35:11]it's um kind of a shallow system it's

[35:14]not it's not gamifying it the way I'm

[35:17]thinking about and I just started

[35:19]thinking about that today like you know

[35:21]if an app had because I think probably

[35:25]this would be hard it would require

[35:26]crowd sourcing

[35:29]um

[35:31]if if the app had knowledge of these

[35:34]park benches for example well You' just

[35:36]found yourself a safe spot this isn't a

[35:38]great one it's just a park bench there's

[35:40]some others that are really awesome and

[35:41]have like um a view of the lake and um

[35:45]you know nice nice bench um picnic table

[35:48]and um you know those would be like an

[35:52]upgraded Elite version of a rust area or

[35:55]something and

[35:59]you know her little save game spot and I

[36:01]just just thinking about that

[36:06]um I don't know if I'll pursue it but

[36:09]something maybe like that could be

[36:12]interesting right tell me what you

[36:15]think I'm just going to chill for a

[36:17]minute so yeah it's strange my phone I

[36:21]had set it

[36:22]to um use higher quality videos than UHD

[36:27]even though I can't um post that way

[36:30]often anymore because of my internet um

[36:33]I still record my videos that way just

[36:35]downscaled

[36:37]them and it wasn't on that's

[36:42]strange so when I get sore it's my shins

[36:45]that tend to get

[36:47]sore

[36:49]um I'm starting to feel it so I know

[36:52]I'll feel it when I wake up

[36:54]tomorrow but that won't stop me it never

[36:56]does if I'm

[36:59]um being the best version of

[37:02]myself um I def I think I'm going to the

[37:04]Natural Bridge tomorrow just um got the

[37:08]thought in my head and now I want to do

[37:10]it it's my favorite place in

[37:14]Kentucky although Lake Cumberland sure

[37:16]could compete I think but I haven't

[37:19]found any Trails there at Lake

[37:21]Cumberland I've liked every Trail the

[37:23]Natural Bridge dozens and dozens of

[37:26]times including one that takes all

[37:28]day I think the sand Gap trail I think

[37:31]it's called

[37:33]and you never see anyone on that

[37:36]trail I love that trail and that's where

[37:39]my favorite spot is it's on that

[37:41]trail I won't do that tomorrow I don't

[37:44]think maybe I

[37:45]will wonder if I

[37:48]will maybe I will why not I'll take the

[37:53]sand Gap trail

[37:55]tomorrow I want to should be a little

[37:57]more prepared I should bring actual

[37:59]water I guess although I never have it's

[38:02]not how I

[38:05]roll

[38:06]um getting old

[38:09]though so my thing with water like first

[38:12]of all I don't like

[38:13]water um but also I got it I realized

[38:17]this yesterday I got it in my

[38:19]head that water isn't actually hydrating

[38:23]because it doesn't have electrolytes and

[38:26]I'm wondering if that was on marketing

[38:27]gimmick put on me by

[38:29]Gatorade

[38:32]like how true is that I don't actually

[38:34]know but I do like salt water which

[38:37]sounds gross I guess but

[38:40]um I actually do like salt water if I

[38:43]could drink salt water all day long I

[38:45]would

[38:46]so um I'd drink water if I could do

[38:50]that but I don't think you can do that

[38:55]um so yeah

[38:58]um I'm weird I admit it I really do want

[39:02]to go over there Auto framing what's

[39:05]that I'm convinced there's gold buried

[39:07]over

[39:08]there we got to find

[39:11]it so I'm contemplating if going to the

[39:14]Natural Bridge tomorrow it's a good idea

[39:16]cuz it will be

[39:17]Sunday and then Monday morning I have to

[39:20]take my my RV and um to the tire shop so

[39:25]I have work I need to do to make it to

[39:27]prepare it for

[39:29]that

[39:32]um I can try to do that

[39:36]today so

[39:39]challenging I wish that I could just

[39:41]live in my Jeep

[39:43]sometimes if I didn't have

[39:46]Bailey that would have been a

[39:49]possibility but I also know that it

[39:52]wouldn't have been a great life to do

[39:54]that so I know it works for some people

[39:58]um so don't misread

[40:01]that but for me that

[40:05]would I spent so much of my life living

[40:08]in tents on the streets or

[40:12]um I've had a I've had a nomadic life a

[40:16]lot of times and you know I don't want

[40:19]to live in a tent

[40:21]so it's

[40:23]just I just want it to be easier that's

[40:25]what it comes down to

[40:28]um this

[40:31]challenges so much of the parts of life

[40:34]that I'm not good at that it just makes

[40:37]it feel extremely

[40:40]difficult and I think I will probably

[40:42]always struggle with that because it

[40:46]is that much of a counter

[40:49]to the strength that I have

[40:53]so um there will always be that conflict

[40:56]and

[41:01]maybe at some point I reach a point

[41:04]where um there's some kind of a balance

[41:08]where it's still difficult but

[41:11]manageable

[41:14]and um have a better opinion about it I

[41:18]don't

[41:19]know it feels

[41:21]hard I don't like doing this part you

[41:24]know so

[41:28]uhoh it's that spot again I've entered

[41:35]hell this is why I came here this is why

[41:39]I came

[41:41]here up we go up up up up up we

[41:47]go up we

[41:51]go up up up we

[41:54]go it's not so bad that wasn't so

[41:59]bad we're

[42:01]fine it's good for

[42:06]you almost done pretty close to the end

[42:09]of the trail

[42:10]now

[42:13]um found the safe

[42:16]location all right let's stop

[42:21]there I think it's afternoon now it's

[42:25]quite hot and and I'm

[42:32]sweating oh that lake is beautiful with

[42:35]the sun shining on it

[42:37]wow need a

[42:40]raft inflatable

[42:43]raft oh my God I could get an inflatable

[42:45]raft and just get on there right nobody

[42:48]could stop

[42:51]me how would you get

[42:53]back I'm going to have to do some

[42:55]research

[42:58]oh my God I just came up with an idea of

[43:00]this I am doing

[43:03]that could a storage

[43:07]thing oh how do wraps work

[43:11]like do they have

[43:15]paddles somehow you have

[43:18]to you know you go with the current and

[43:21]you got to get back

[43:22]somewhere I'm going to have to research

[43:24]that let me show you the lake it's so

[43:26]pretty so pretty I'll zoom in a

[43:30]bit I know I can't see it won't let me

[43:33]zoom in what mode what mode is this hold

[43:37]on well I can't say like what mode it

[43:41]was I just restarted

[43:44]it you can't tell if you can see the

[43:46]glittery

[43:48]sunlight I don't think you

[43:55]can well the sun went out behind the

[43:57]clouds I think it was way better than

[44:00]that it's still

[44:03]pretty this is a awesome

[44:07]place oh I'm so glad I came

[44:10]today this is

[44:14]awesome we're close that's where we're

[44:20]going what time is it oh it's only 10:30

[44:24]why did I think it was noon 10:30

[44:28]did I get here I don't even

[44:31]know it's

[44:34]early 10:30 in the morning that's early

[44:38]I usually get up around 10 these days

[44:41]that bad is killing

[44:43]me um I am doing to deal with it I have

[44:46]a strategy now

[44:48]so yeah and they have a strategy for

[44:51]getting on that

[44:52]water an inflatable r

[45:03]oh man I have

[45:05]to as long as I can get paddles that are

[45:08]collapsible or

[45:10]something I can't take up a lot of space

[45:14]but I everywhere I go there's a

[45:17]lake oh my God I want to do

[45:22]this I'm going to start looking that up

[45:24]when I get back

[45:28]find out what the rules are

[45:30]also

[45:32]um I know nothing about that life

[45:36]so oh my God I could get a

[45:39]raft why did I think of that I was

[45:41]thinking it could had to be wood I don't

[45:46]know I'm

[45:49]happy I'm

[45:52]happy 43 it's a good

[45:55]number I'm not going to tell you

[45:57]why hoping someone figures it out though

[46:01]I will give a

[46:04]clue it was early technological

[46:08]age you have to think about it not its

[46:11]numbers but a

[46:13]symbology you know our world's full of

[46:15]symbols

[46:17]and that's one of them for

[46:20]me probably

[46:24]always we're out

[46:28]so that was a bit of

[46:32]a

[46:34]um slightly challenging but not at the

[46:37]same time um

[46:40]whoa

[46:43]um

[46:45]oh why can't I just say the

[46:48]words that

[46:51]was very rewarding

[46:54]experience worth it

[46:58]oh that that Lake getting a

[47:02]raft going to be on that

[47:05]Lake wonder how much they

[47:08]cost I'm not doing so well in

[47:10]money I think I've got

[47:13]like I think I've got maybe a month or

[47:16]two and I'm out of money so I it's on my

[47:18]mind a lot

[47:20]lately I haven't figured out what I'm

[47:23]doing about that yet it's sad but

[47:27]but I just don't

[47:34]know I'm not trying to bring it down to

[47:36]the wayer either so it's just like

[47:39]that's becoming a source of

[47:43]stress I'll figure it

[47:49]out

[47:51]wow would love to just be on that water

[47:53]in a raft

[48:01]that would be amazing

Summary

The speaker wakes up early on a weekend morning in their RV at a crowded campground, dealing with a bad mattress that's affecting their sleep and back pain. They plan to visit mattress stores and negotiate direct delivery to replace their current mattress with a twin size. After greeting their cat Bailey and saying hi to Mason (a high school friend's child who watches their channel), they decide to go hiking despite being slightly sore from previous activity.

During the hike at what appears to be a Kentucky state park, the speaker reflects on authenticity and vulnerability as superpowers, discussing their philosophy of being honest about normal human experiences like needing to trim nose hair. They encounter a man of Spanish heritage on the trail and use this interaction to discuss respectful language and identity acknowledgment.

The speaker shares memories of past relationships and work experiences, including a job at an oil change shop where they had a crush on their boss. They discuss their cognitive style as holistic thinking and express frustration with societal superficiality and avoidance of honest communication.

Throughout the hike, they navigate various trail sections including steep climbs and rest stops. Upon reaching a viewpoint of a lake, they become excited about the possibility of getting an inflatable raft to use on the water. The speaker mentions upcoming dental appointments for dentures, plans to leave their current campground after three months, and potential travel to Nevada for stargazing and the Pacific Northwest.

Financial concerns surface as they estimate having only one to two months of money remaining. They also discuss eating patterns, acknowledging possible eating disorder issues, and their general approach to self-honesty versus what others perceive as self-judgment.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates the recursive integration of lived experience with philosophical framework, using physical movement through landscape as a catalyst for ethical and cognitive pattern recognition. The field is actively synthesizing authenticity-as-practice with real-time environmental feedback, building coherent philosophical infrastructure through embodied engagement.

Dominant Language

authenticityvulnerability as superpoweracknowledging realityhonestyalignmentdiversitypatternsholistic thinking

Symbolic Elements

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1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration

48:03

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3916 kbps

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