[0:01]good morning fellow humans my toilet's
[0:04]in the picture we can't have that you
[0:08]know what I'm keeping that in just
[0:10]because oh it's kind of funny so I'm
[0:14]just going to start by saying this is
[0:16]going to be a boring update so if you
[0:18]aren't a subscriber mind you're not
[0:20]following my journey probably want to
[0:21]just click off feel like I maybe need to
[0:24]say that in all of my videos because I
[0:27]always get comments from people who feel
[0:29]like they've been personally attacked
[0:32]because they're watching a video that
[0:33]they're not interested in don't give a
[0:36][ __ ] you
[0:37]know YouTube wasn't made for just you it
[0:41]was made for other people too you're not
[0:43]going to like everything you
[0:46]see the sense of entitlement though can
[0:48]you I mean pretty wild but yeah there's
[0:52]a comment I'm thinking about I got this
[0:53]morning I I'm going to paste that right
[0:55]up there for everybody to see
[1:00]it's not uncommon I don't know why
[1:03]um you don't have to like everything you
[1:06]know you can just move along it's not
[1:09]going to kill
[1:11]you so all right so I got to give you an
[1:14]update on the tires uh I did go down
[1:16]there it wasn't didn't go well uh the
[1:19]woman that I saw the first time was
[1:21]there and she basically just criticized
[1:24]me
[1:26]and made me feel even more incompetent
[1:29]than I already already feel and it's
[1:31]just like I knew that was the experience
[1:33]that I was going to have did in front of
[1:35]all these customers and I'm just like
[1:37]yeah this is exactly what I expected
[1:40]from her so I called the corporate
[1:44]office after that and then the owner
[1:47]called and I talked to him this morning
[1:50]he says that she's been working there
[1:52]for 30 years and has never had any type
[1:55]of a problem with customers from her and
[1:58]I'm like there's no way that she's just
[2:01]you know there is no way that mine is
[2:03]the first time
[2:05]that somebody had an experience like
[2:08]that with her there's just no way but
[2:11]you know whatever I'll you know we can
[2:12]move along from that um he is being
[2:16]helpful thankfully uh he's I think
[2:19]coming out himself like I don't know if
[2:22]it's tomorrow or not like I guess we
[2:23]haven't really set a date I have to go
[2:25]to the dentist tomorrow so I won't be
[2:28]here um but he's going to help me get
[2:32]extenders put on them so that I can put
[2:34]air in them myself and he's just going
[2:37]to make sure that they're safe enough to
[2:39]drive down to the shop and just deal
[2:41]with the problems right
[2:43]so hopefully that's all going to work
[2:45]out it definitely shattered my sense of
[2:48]safety like I just feel like that is the
[2:52]foundation of an RV your tires and if
[2:55]you don't trust your tires then you just
[2:58]this it just makes everything else feel
[3:00]like it's just collapsing around me I I
[3:02]truly feel that way so I will feel a lot
[3:05]better when that that is
[3:07]fixed um the other thing I want to talk
[3:10]about
[3:11]so a couple of days
[3:14]ago all of a sudden I couldn't see
[3:17]YouTube comments anymore not just on my
[3:19]channel but on any channel and I'm like
[3:21]that's weird like is there some kind of
[3:23]a you know maybe there's some kind of an
[3:25]issue that YouTube's having and it turns
[3:27]out no there's this setting that's
[3:30]supposed to
[3:31]block some comments explicit ones and
[3:36]you toggle it on I don't remember what
[3:38]the it's some kind of it's just a
[3:39]setting um but this isn't a thing I
[3:41]turned on it says that it's being
[3:43]Network enforced which means that my
[3:45]router you see it in the background
[3:47]there a travel router it's connecting
[3:50]and it's it's an intermittent problem so
[3:52]sometimes I see comment sometimes I
[3:54]don't and so I just kind
[3:57]of worked out that the issue very likely
[4:00]is that the travel fire Roder randomly
[4:03]is connecting to a cell network some you
[4:05]know one of their providers who has this
[4:09]setting enabled for all of their
[4:11]customers who on YouTube like that's
[4:13]crazy but that's what's happening so if
[4:17]I'm not responding to your comments
[4:18]don't feel like I'm ignoring them or
[4:21]anything like that it's just can't see
[4:24]comments now I don't I don't know what
[4:25]to do about it I could complain to
[4:28]travel five but that's not going to you
[4:29]know
[4:30]I'm certain it's not them doing it so
[4:32]it's
[4:33]just a new spin on RV life challenges
[4:39]that you have so um another thing I know
[4:43]is related so you know that I some of
[4:46]you know that I
[4:47]had um hidden my Channel at one point
[4:52]and set everything to private and then
[4:54]when I turned it back on all the
[4:56]comments were gone and I you know I was
[4:58]disappointed about that and I realized I
[5:00]didn't address it and I I probably
[5:02]should have um I don't want you guys to
[5:05]think that I had like deleted all the
[5:06]comments I had I didn't do that they
[5:08]just I thought
[5:11]that um at the time I thought when I
[5:13]turned it back on
[5:15]that you know for whatever reason
[5:18]private videos can't have comments so
[5:20]and I didn't know that so when I did
[5:23]that I thought it deleted all the
[5:25]comments so well it turns out no I I
[5:29]just discovered this last night all of
[5:31]those videos had comments turned off so
[5:34]I re-enabled those and then the comments
[5:36]reappeared so they're all there I'm
[5:38]happy about that because it
[5:40]shows
[5:42]um you know our ongoing dialogue like
[5:46]there's me on camera talking about my
[5:48]life and then there's you guys who
[5:51]are commenting on my life I guess right
[5:54]so um I'm glad that's there because it's
[5:57]kind of like you know a historical
[5:58]record and it's all there so I just
[6:01]wanted to point that
[6:03]out I definitely see Bailey back there I
[6:06]don't know what he's up to I need to
[6:08]find something for him so I went outside
[6:10]today to take pictures of the tires for
[6:13]this guy and he was just crying want out
[6:16]um I don't have that tent thing that I
[6:18]had it was so hard
[6:22]to
[6:24]um get that thing back into a little
[6:26]circle that goes inside of you know
[6:30]I I couldn't deal with it so I gave it
[6:32]to the the um resident caretaker here
[6:36]I'm like do you want this thing I don't
[6:38]know what to do with it but I got to get
[6:40]something for him right so I'm might go
[6:43]to Walmart or a petmart and just see if
[6:45]there's something I can get you know
[6:47]like the kitty City stuff that I had but
[6:49]that's all at my parents never going to
[6:51]see that again
[6:53]so oh I did say this would be a boring
[6:56]update I don't have a whole lot going on
[6:59]so I am going to get leveled today I
[7:02]think um I haven't been leveled since I
[7:05]got here and I'm not sleeping well I
[7:08]only think that's part of it cuz that
[7:10]mattress is still a challenge to sleep
[7:13]on and I was watching some of my older
[7:15]videos yesterday just from a couple
[7:17]months ago and I'm like this environment
[7:20]is just aging me like I feel like it's
[7:23]aging me my back hurts I feel
[7:27]old um I hate that mattress like I I got
[7:31]to deal with that I'm thinking maybe
[7:32]I'll just get like a a small twin-sized
[7:36]one so it won't take up the whole Space
[7:38]part of it you just see the bed platform
[7:40]but that's kind of like not an issue for
[7:43]me you know so maybe if I got just a
[7:46]normal twins siiz mattress like a real
[7:48]mattress that would be easier to take on
[7:50]and off too it's kind of where my head
[7:52]is with that right now I'm debating it
[7:55]because you can buy RV mattresses that
[7:58]have those hinges on them
[8:00]and
[8:02]um I don't know I don't know maybe you
[8:05]guys have some thoughts on that I I
[8:06]would like to hear about that
[8:09]because it's been 4 months I got to deal
[8:12]with
[8:13][Music]
[8:14]it where was my train of thought going
[8:17]with that there was something on my
[8:19]mind Bailey don't even think about
[8:22]coming up here all right
[8:24]so what does that have to do with baile
[8:27]I don't know he's just jumped up here
[8:28]though hold on so I know you're never
[8:31]going to get all people to be polite on
[8:33]social media I mean that's obviously a
[8:35]pipe
[8:37]dream and you just kind of have to
[8:39]ignore it but it is just a fact that
[8:43]negativity has a way of just infecting
[8:45]your brain right so somebody says
[8:48]something rude and you're going to just
[8:50]stew on
[8:52]it shouldn't even admit that because
[8:54]then you just kind of invite it but I'm
[8:56]you know I'm too honest for that I'm
[8:58]just going to be honest about it
[9:00]I have but I actually think that over
[9:03]time at least for me that becomes less
[9:07]of a thing Bailey is really messing with
[9:09]me come on
[9:10]Bailey always you got to be on me this
[9:16]cat is the most needy cat I have ever
[9:19]had in my life and when I lived in my
[9:22]house my mother used to make me feel bad
[9:25]because I didn't want him on me all the
[9:27]time like she just that's the amount of
[9:29]emotional manipulation I had to deal
[9:31]with like I
[9:33]couldn't that cat wants to be on me all
[9:36]the time which makes me feel
[9:37]uncomfortable you know like I just I
[9:39]need my space and then my mother would
[9:42]turn around and make me feel bad
[9:45]for needing that space so I couldn't win
[9:49]like it wasn't you you couldn't win I
[9:51]still can't win because this cat you
[9:53]know he's very demanding
[9:55]but
[9:56]um I got to get him something he need
[9:59]some outdoor time I think watching my
[10:02]videos yesterday saw Oliver
[10:05]and I miss
[10:07]him I do miss him but I don't know what
[10:11]to do about that like I have mixed
[10:13]feelings on one hand I do think that
[10:15]he's better off where he is especially
[10:18]now because so much time has passed on
[10:20]the other hand that's my cat I love him
[10:22]I want him with me I want him with
[10:25]Bailey um and
[10:29]third hand I guess I despite all of
[10:34]that I do not want to go to that house
[10:37]so it's just an impossible
[10:41]situation um it was kind of fun watching
[10:44]my old videos I was so idealistic about
[10:48]this
[10:49]journey I was super idealistic about
[10:52]what I was getting myself into at the
[10:55]same time I'm thinking let's get some of
[10:58]that back because
[11:00]is I was definitely dreaming about a
[11:03]lifestyle that I'm not living right now
[11:06]so but
[11:09]that I I'm going to find a way because
[11:12]I'm I'm just determined to that cat is
[11:14]just being a
[11:16]terrorist what are you
[11:18][Music]
[11:23]doing
[11:26]I Bailey
[11:32]totally lost my train of thought so um
[11:35]kind of know I was think talking
[11:37]about it's kind of interesting I was
[11:39]watching this one video of
[11:41]mine well I watched quite a few actually
[11:44]and it just felt
[11:47]like it's amazing I get on this camera
[11:50]like it's absolutely amazing because I'm
[11:53]watching this video I'm like yeah you're
[11:54]a little bit uncomfortable there I can
[11:56]see it you know I'm still un comfortable
[11:59]like this is not a natural thing for me
[12:01]to
[12:03]do I hope that it is
[12:06]serving myself and you guys
[12:11]because yeah you know it is kind of a
[12:14]good thing so that kind of brings me
[12:15]back to my point
[12:17]so I really need to get
[12:21]over so somebody wants to leave some
[12:24]stupid nonsense on my channel it's like
[12:27]okay I don't know you don't care about
[12:30]you you're
[12:33]probably way below my level I'm just
[12:36]going to be honest you know like why do
[12:40]I give a [ __ ] what you think like that
[12:42]is the attitude I'm trying to develop
[12:43]for myself and I'm getting there I don't
[12:46]care that that sounds arrogant I truly
[12:48]don't because I have spent my whole life
[12:50]apologizing for being different for
[12:52]being smart for being introspective for
[12:55]you know all of it and I'm just done
[12:58]with that it's like no people are so
[13:01]shallow these days people are so shallow
[13:04]these days that I now
[13:07]realize it's just dumb of me
[13:13]to to care like why why should I care I
[13:17]I
[13:19]just why did I ever care you know like I
[13:23]had a very
[13:24]idealistic and Idol what am I trying to
[13:27]say here I I
[13:31]had I like
[13:35]any what is the expression I'm looking
[13:38]for
[13:40]here it don't matter
[13:45]so I just feel like I'm looking at the
[13:48]world now a little more clearly than I
[13:50]used to like I seeing
[13:55]that I'm just seeing a lot of things I'm
[13:58]being careful here cuz not trying to
[13:59]offend people but I just you know I get
[14:03]comments like that all the time and it's
[14:05]just
[14:07]like I don't even feel bad for those
[14:09]people I'm just like wow that person is
[14:12]just living on a superficial level like
[14:15]I I I can't imagine living like that
[14:20]so you
[14:24]know no idea what I'm doing today but
[14:26]I'll figure it out I hope you all have a
[14:27]good day