[0:01]hello fellow humans so I try not to get
[0:04]too clinical on this channel because I
[0:07]think that kind of dilutes what I'm
[0:08]trying to do here but I feel like I
[0:10]should just address this so that it's
[0:13]very
[0:14]clear right now I am what is called a
[0:16]linal
[0:17]state it is a period of time where you
[0:21]have gathered a bunch of knowledge and
[0:24]tools and you are now contemplating them
[0:28]so that you can
[0:31]integrate them
[0:33]into your life's journey what you're
[0:35]going to do next there is a process
[0:38]there it is usually
[0:41]uncomfortable it's not clear you're
[0:44]reassessing
[0:47]everything there are so many things that
[0:49]might be going
[0:51]on I share that with you because I know
[0:56]that others go through this and I want
[0:58]them to understand that it's
[1:00]normal to just go with
[1:03]it I think that seeing it the way that I
[1:08]present it
[1:09]might trigger maternal
[1:13]instincts maybe paternal ones too I
[1:16]don't know and you might have a a sense
[1:19]that you need to fix me there is nothing
[1:22]to fix I want to be clear about that
[1:24]there is nothing to
[1:26]fix this is a normal place for me me to
[1:30]be I have been on a grow trajectory all
[1:33]of these
[1:35]months and now I'm just re-evaluating
[1:37]I'm taking the knowledge that I've
[1:39]gained from these last four months and
[1:41]deciding what's working for me what
[1:44]isn't what skills have I
[1:46]learned what do I want to do with my
[1:49]life all of that that's all very
[1:52]important my cat is over here just being
[1:54]a little come on you want to be
[1:58]that way whatever I cannot get on this
[2:00]camera without this one deciding that
[2:03]he's got to show
[2:05]up am I
[2:08]right
[2:10]so I get that it can be
[2:12]uncomfortable to watch
[2:14]maybe I watch my videos and actually I
[2:17]don't feel that way but I can understand
[2:19]that maybe some people do maybe a lot of
[2:21]people I have no
[2:23]idea just understand that this is a
[2:26]normal part of the
[2:27]process and that I am trying
[2:31]the reason I share my journey it's just
[2:32]multifaceted but one of the reasons that
[2:34]I share my journey is
[2:37]because I know that there are people who
[2:40]watch me who are going through stuff
[2:42]they're going through very difficult
[2:44]stuff I'm trying to help them by showing
[2:50]them that it's normal what they're going
[2:52]through it's okay there's nothing wrong
[2:55]with it
[2:57]just be open to it don't
[3:00]when you try to fix
[3:02]me
[3:04]okay you're actually short Circ the
[3:09]process you were saying oh this guy's
[3:12]not feeling great let's fix that right
[3:14]now that is not the answer it is okay
[3:18]that I feel this way it's actually a
[3:21]very good thing