Morning Processing in RV Under Trees

Early morning (7 AM) in RV parked under trees at campground. Four months into RV lifestyle. Dealing with debris falling on roof, off-level positioning, and various maintenance needs. Speaker has dentist appointment requiring long drive.

Energetic Signature

methodical processing

Field State

reality integration

Orientation

toward honest assessment

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July 10, 2024

18:02

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

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TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:01]good morning

[0:03]volans it's 7 in the morning I can't

[0:06]sleep there is stuff falling on the roof

[0:09]at terminal

[0:12]velocity birds are out making a bunch of

[0:19]noise it's just one of those

[0:23]days noways this is not fun just there

[0:26]just are that's realistic

[0:30]is right in the center of the bed

[0:33]like he's like I'm not moving like this

[0:37]is my

[0:38]space now he's

[0:46]up hi

[0:49]Bailey I have a dentist appointment

[0:53]today I really don't want to go cuz it's

[0:55]so far away and it's

[0:58]just a wax trying or something simple

[1:02]like I don't think it's very not a big

[1:09]deal I'm kind of concerned about those

[1:12]noises cuz I'm not kidding when I say

[1:15]terminal velocity like it was loud it's

[1:18]happened several times being under these

[1:27]trees this lifestyle really

[1:31]there are just so many little things you

[1:33]do not think

[1:38]about that's why I talk about them so

[1:41]that you know about

[1:46]them I don't can't say I love this yet

[1:50]because I just I I

[1:53]don't probably just been sitting here

[1:55]for an hour time to get out of this bed

[1:58]and start my day

[2:02]that's going to be a long one I need to

[2:05]empty

[2:07]that like twice a day so before somebody

[2:11]labels my first clip complaining that's

[2:15]just me processing my morning I like to

[2:18]do that on camera

[2:21]sometimes there are strategies I can

[2:24]employ I can use a fan for White Noise I

[2:28]hadn't had to do that for a while

[2:30]because where I was there's a spider in

[2:33]here

[2:35]yeah man it was like spider web you know

[2:40]which means there's a spider in

[2:42]here

[2:46]um I hadn't had to do that at my last

[2:49]spot

[2:51]because I didn't really realize this but

[2:54]you know the birds are under the Trees

[2:56]of course they

[2:58]are I didn't

[3:01]register and then the nois is on the

[3:04]roof I'm just thinking in my head you

[3:06]know I'm going to have to go up there

[3:09]now

[3:11]because um I'm afraid of heights I don't

[3:13]want to do that but I heard some pretty

[3:15]loud noises which means there's probably

[3:17]stuff up there I got to deal with I'm

[3:19]trying to deal with coffee here I think

[3:21]at this point in my journey there are

[3:23]probably different reasons that people

[3:25]follow me and if if you're subscribed to

[3:28]me because of

[3:30]my RV lifestyle you just need to know

[3:33]that it's got challenges I mean there

[3:37]it's a

[3:38]challenge um we all have different ways

[3:42]of different cognitive

[3:44]Styles I think probably for lots of

[3:46]people it's really not that bad you know

[3:49]if you don't have a fear of heights and

[3:52]um you don't do mind doing things like

[3:54]that then you know it'll be nothing to

[3:57]you to me it is

[4:00]significant like

[4:03]consideration I'm running low on

[4:05]drinking

[4:08]water so this is my daily reminder to

[4:11]get those tanks cleaned I'm doing this

[4:13]slower today because I'm going to try

[4:16]being patient for

[4:20]once let's spill my water

[4:25]everywhere okay we're all ready for

[4:28]coffee it's going

[4:30]high in the low 80s today that sounds

[4:33]like a

[4:34]blessing which is interesting

[4:37]considering high in the low 80s isn't

[4:39]actually Pleasant

[4:41]so just it's Pleasant compared to what

[4:44]we've been dealing with that's for

[4:50]sure are you having a moment over there

[4:55]Bailey you're so funny

[4:58]buddy look at you

[5:00]so

[5:01]indecent all right

[5:04]so the part that doesn't come out in my

[5:07]processing is what's going on in my head

[5:09]so at the same time that these things

[5:11]are falling on my roof I'm thinking

[5:12]should I have moved under this tree

[5:14]canopy maybe I should be in the other

[5:16]part of the campground but then I'm

[5:19]exposed

[5:20][Music]

[5:21]to you know the Sun so it's like these

[5:24]tradeoffs and there aren't any really

[5:26]good answers you just so it's just a

[5:29]system's way of looking at it and I

[5:32]just I don't have an answer I mean cuz

[5:36]I've actually there's quite a lot of

[5:39]um wondering about these trees there's

[5:42]quite a lot of tree debris everywhere so

[5:45]might wake up one day to something

[5:49]truly

[5:56]unpleasant I'm starting to miss my

[5:58]coffee maker

[6:02]oh I love mochas in the

[6:05]morning that's what we'll have to

[6:10]do I always think if people see those

[6:13]they'll think they're bus on my ceiling

[6:15]they're just screws I used to have a net

[6:18]up there to it down I don't know what

[6:21]I'm going to do with the

[6:23]screws you been there a

[6:27]while oh that's hot

[6:31]I tried watching a movie last night I

[6:34]think it's called ji J

[6:37]XI it's about this guy who whose phone

[6:42]takes over his life with sayi on a phone

[6:44]and it is so funny I've seen it before

[6:46]and I thought let's just watch something

[6:48]like that it's not on Netflix anymore

[6:51]it's on Plex and I couldn't watch it

[6:53]because every time it would go to the

[6:55]ads the ads would like pause like

[6:58]constantly and run below and then the

[7:00]movie would be fine but then the

[7:03]ads you know I'd say they're like 2

[7:06]minutes long of ads and it would take

[7:07]like 5 10 minutes I finally just gave up

[7:11]kind of sad have thought Plex was better

[7:14]than

[7:16]that he

[7:22]Bailey I have a very demanding

[7:25]cat cats are

[7:28]demanding but this one real demanding

[7:30]here he

[7:32]comes mhm I knew this was

[7:36]coming oh you are so insistent

[7:39]Bailey yes you are I have been patting

[7:42]you all

[7:44]morning that's my coffee over there if

[7:46]you spill that it will be a

[7:50]tragedy we finally have cink

[7:55]sheets you what

[7:58]man hey

[8:00]don't push yourself against

[8:02]that he does that to my phone a lot I

[8:05]don't know if you guys can notice cuz

[8:07]like I'll be trying to control my phone

[8:10]while I'm recording and he'll be rubbing

[8:12]his face up against

[8:15]it

[8:17]oh what to do today like I am up way

[8:20]earlier than I want to be I'm so

[8:23]self-conscious about dumping my

[8:26]dehumidifier water cuz I'm always

[8:29]thinking people are going to think I'm

[8:30]dumping gray

[8:33]water I don't know why I care I keep

[8:36]telling myself I should it

[8:38]because the way I see people act around

[8:41]here like they are not considerate of

[8:44]the environment so why why do I care if

[8:48]they think I am and I actually am

[8:52]so it is a core part of the way

[8:56]I interact with this world I

[9:01]have got to overcome it it is a

[9:03]challenge I'm working

[9:05]on I mean it's just straight up water

[9:08]just water from the air there's no

[9:10]reason not to just dump

[9:12]it I have to do it so often

[9:18]like

[9:20]yeah this one was staring at me until I

[9:23]decided to point a camera at

[9:25]it melee

[9:33]hello can hear you purring

[9:37]dude you going to stare at me there you

[9:40]go show everyone the stare you have on

[9:44]you oh I know what I can do this morning

[9:48]I can put my clean clothes

[9:51]away oh it was pretty late by the time I

[9:54]got done it was I got here right before

[9:57]it was dark so

[10:00]they're just folded up sitting in my bag

[10:02]I need to put them away um I need to

[10:04]clean the bathroom today I'm going to do

[10:06]that this

[10:08]morning

[10:09]these

[10:12]normal everyday things like I've always

[10:16]struggled with those my whole

[10:18]life but I'm starting to understand why

[10:21]now I always saw it as a character flaw

[10:23]but it actually has to do with the way I

[10:25]think and just my cognitive style and

[10:29]the there's ways to overcome that you

[10:31]just when you truly understand yourself

[10:35]then anything is possible if you don't

[10:39]understand yourself then it's like

[10:40]you're

[10:41]just you're just floating through the

[10:43]world and

[10:45]not able to change in meaningful ways

[10:49]that that are deeply meaningful I have

[10:51]no teeth because of my cognitive style

[10:53]this is this is

[10:55]reality and

[10:59]I I have no judgment about it anymore

[11:02]because I get

[11:03]it apparently it's quite common for

[11:06]people with my cognitive style I'm not

[11:07]going to name names because then it

[11:09]makes it sound like I'm comparing myself

[11:11]to those people I'm

[11:13]not

[11:15]um but quite a lot of deep thinkers had

[11:20]these kinds of

[11:22]challenges so that was

[11:25]validating

[11:27]and I can use it as a lesson as a

[11:30]reminder

[11:32]that you have to maintain your systems

[11:36]you just do you have to maintain your

[11:37]systems because it's not

[11:40]efficient uh to to not

[11:44]because if you know if I had maintained

[11:48]my teeth it would have obviously been an

[11:52]a better outcome for me and a lot less

[11:55]expensive and timec consuming I had to

[11:57]go to the dentist today you know still

[11:59]dealing with getting my implants done

[12:02]and I could have avoided all of that if

[12:05]I had just

[12:08]somehow managed to convince my very

[12:10]weird brain that the little things

[12:14]matter this is such a different

[12:17]lifestyle

[12:18]like I'm awake just chilling on my bed

[12:22]I'm not like in my old life but I'd

[12:25]probably have the TV on by now you know

[12:27]and it'd be playing in the background

[12:29]or

[12:34]um it's

[12:36]different even after four months I'm

[12:41]still I'm I it hasn't like how am I

[12:45]going to I don't know even after 4

[12:48]months I guess I'm still adjusting is

[12:50]what it is I have seen remarkable growth

[12:53]in me that I'm very proud

[12:55]of and I'm also starting to acknowledge

[12:59]that this lifestyle might not be for me

[13:03]which that's a hard truth to have to

[13:04]face cuz I invested a lot in order to

[13:08]get this thing I sacrificed a lot you

[13:11]know got rid of all of my

[13:14]stuff and I don't know that this

[13:16]lifestyle is for

[13:18]me that's a hard thing to have to start

[13:22]facing

[13:25]and despite that fact there are no

[13:28]immediate

[13:29]get solutions to that like I don't think

[13:33]being in a house is the answer didn't

[13:36]enjoy that

[13:38]either

[13:40]um well it really depends on the house I

[13:43]didn't like being in a neighborhood if I

[13:45]had a cabin in the woods I think I'd

[13:47]love

[13:53]that there are just some basic amenities

[13:56]you just really need in life I I I like

[13:58]having a

[13:59]bathtub um I like not having to empty my

[14:02]tanks or get myself level we're a little

[14:04]bit off level and um I can't fix that

[14:08]now it's a lot of effort to bring that

[14:11]slide in and I have other things I have

[14:13]to do so I just have to tolerate it mean

[14:17]we're mostly level but we're not

[14:22]um we're not level on One Direction like

[14:26]from front to back it feels like we're

[14:28]going this way

[14:30]yeah and I've noticed that that affects

[14:32]so many things it affects my sleep my my

[14:35]back hurts a little bit which that had

[14:38]gone away for a while so I think me

[14:40]fixing my bed platform and

[14:43]then um being level that made a

[14:47]difference and now being unlevel is is

[14:50]showing me just how much of a difference

[14:52]it

[14:53]made these are just challenges though I

[14:57]don't particularly enjoy having to face

[14:59]all the

[15:00]time that's reality that's what you

[15:02]don't hear on a lot of other RV life

[15:06]channels mine is not an RV Life channel

[15:09]I've been saying that since pretty much

[15:11]day one but there's a lot of RV life

[15:14]content so I guess we could we could

[15:17]label it that

[15:20]way and that's the reality this

[15:24]is not a glamorous lifestyle it is not I

[15:30]I didn't embark on this journey you know

[15:32]I do want to clarify that I didn't

[15:35]embark on this journey watching other

[15:37]YouTubers make this thing look glamorous

[15:39]this was something I just felt a deep

[15:41]need to do and I think I did need to do

[15:44]it um but you know at once I did do it I

[15:48]started watching that content and I see

[15:51]the way they present it and that's not

[15:53]reality and you need to know that it's

[15:55]not reality and I say that recognizing

[15:58]that we're all different different you

[15:59]know I have a pretty unique cognitive

[16:02]style for some people it would be less

[16:05]challenging and for some people they

[16:06]would absolutely love it but it still

[16:08]wouldn't be glamorous those channels

[16:11]still don't represent

[16:12]reality it's very easy to romanticize

[16:15]this

[16:17]lifestyle I certainly

[16:20]did and there are aspects of it worth

[16:24]romanticizing that feel like an accurate

[16:27]representation of how you're

[16:28]romanticizing it but there is just so

[16:32]much more than

[16:34]that and I think that those

[16:38]channels let me reward that I I think

[16:41]that we need a more balanced perspective

[16:44]whether or not it comes from those

[16:45]channels it doesn't really matter to me

[16:47]but we need a more balanced

[16:55]perspective we just

[16:57]do hey guess I'm going to leave it there

[17:00]for today I'm going to deal with um the

[17:03]things I mentioned I want to clean my

[17:05]bathroom get my clothes put away maybe

[17:09]there's some other things I can do

[17:10]around here I'm going to try to make

[17:12]some breakfast I could use some eggs or

[17:14]something

[17:15]and then I got to drive an hour and a

[17:18]half to the dentist and an hour and a

[17:19]half back

[17:26]and I'm just debating the fact that if I

[17:30]post this it tells my parents I'll be at

[17:32]the dentist

[17:33]today I hate having to this is this is

[17:37]how my mind works too I'm seeing all the

[17:39]Angles

[17:41]and I do not want to be ambushed by them

[17:52]so that is another thing I'm struggling

[17:54]with in life right now of course there's

[17:57]an answer and that's simply just a wait

[17:58]to post this until I'm leaving there

[18:00]right

Summary

The speaker begins their day at 7 AM in their RV, unable to sleep due to debris falling on the roof at terminal velocity and bird noise. They are parked under trees at a campground, which provides shade but creates challenges with falling debris. **Bailey the cat** is demanding attention and taking up space on the bed.

The speaker has a **dentist appointment** requiring a 3-hour round trip for what they describe as a simple wax trying procedure, part of ongoing implant work. They discuss the practical challenges of RV living, including needing to empty the dehumidifier twice daily, concerns about roof damage requiring ladder work (despite fear of heights), and being slightly off-level which affects sleep and causes back pain.

**Daily maintenance tasks** include cleaning the bathroom, putting away clean clothes, and general upkeep. The speaker reflects on their **cognitive style** and how it has affected their ability to maintain systems throughout life, using their dental issues as an example of the consequences of not maintaining basic routines.

After **four months of RV living**, they acknowledge both personal growth and the possibility that this lifestyle may not be suitable for them long-term. They contrast their experience with glamorized RV lifestyle content on YouTube, emphasizing the unglamorous reality and constant challenges. The speaker expresses preference for a cabin in the woods over neighborhood living.

Technical issues include trying to watch a movie on Plex but experiencing constant ad interruptions. They mention being self-conscious about dumping dehumidifier water due to others potentially mistaking it for gray water. The session ends with the speaker planning their day and considering timing the post to avoid being ambushed by parents who would know about the dentist appointment.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission operates as a real-time cognitive mapping exercise, where immediate environmental pressures (noise, debris, maintenance demands) are being processed through emerging self-understanding frameworks. The field is calibrating between romanticized expectations and operational reality, using direct experience as a truth-testing mechanism for lifestyle architecture.

Dominant Language

cognitive stylesystems maintenancebalanced perspectivereality vs romanticizationseeing all the anglescharacter flaw reframedeep need vs outcome mismatch

Symbolic Elements

treesdebristerminal velocitymirrorsystems

Ontological States

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transitional
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self-examining
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grounded
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realistic

Subsystems

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cognitive
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infrastructural
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somatic

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

Duration