Processing Work Relationship Breakdown and Blockchain Critique

rswfire is in his RV with his cat Bailey, waiting for a Walmart pickup order. He's processing recent communication with a former long-term client/boss and reflecting on career decisions. The setting appears relaxed despite the frustrating subject matter, with plans to make chili and celebrate the holiday.

Energetic Signature

turbulent processing

Field State

early rupture

Orientation

away from institutional capture

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July 4, 2024

12:30

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:00]I realized something just now I think

[0:03]that we have been gaslit by

[0:06]Society I'm not depressed I'm

[0:09]bored I'm bored to tears how about you

[0:12]the world the way that it is structured

[0:15]now is just boring like there's

[0:18]nothing to do there's nowhere to go I

[0:21]mean

[0:23]we've we talk about this we've lost our

[0:26]third places and there's lots of them

[0:28]that we've lost I mean

[0:30]there's just nothing to do anymore

[0:32]there's nowhere to connect with people

[0:34]like it's

[0:35]just the whole society has become

[0:38]homogenized in a way that just

[0:41]feels focused on work and

[0:47]groceries what else is there what the

[0:50] else is there

[0:53]like it's just sad

[0:56]like I'm still kind of processing it I

[0:59]just had the thought I I just think that

[1:01]we have been we've been gastl into

[1:05]thinking that we should be

[1:08]happy doing certain things in

[1:12]life without any type of consideration

[1:16]for the things that actually make people

[1:18]happy right

[1:21]so I've never addressed this on my

[1:24]channel cuz I was kind of keeping the

[1:26]door open um I spent the past 10 10

[1:30]years of my life working for a guy I'm a

[1:33]freelance

[1:35]programmer who truly did not value me at

[1:39]all and this has been made clear to me

[1:41]as of

[1:43]yesterday 10 years of my life I

[1:45]dedicated to this man I was very ethical

[1:49]honest

[1:52]productive and this man has somehow

[1:55]managed to forget all of this in the six

[1:57]months since I quit that job

[2:01]not I'm not sure he ever truly even

[2:02]recognized it Bailey decided to show off

[2:05]hi

[2:06]buddy um so let me just tell you like

[2:10]what I experienced for the past 10 years

[2:11]why the hell I got burnt out in the

[2:13]first place so this man

[2:18]would have an idea for a

[2:21]project and just a vague

[2:24]idea and he' asked me to create it for

[2:28]him I had to do

[2:30]everything okay I had to really think

[2:34]through what this man really wanted

[2:36]because it was so vague I had to kind of

[2:39]Intuit it what are your real needs here

[2:41]um I also knew that this man loved to

[2:44]change his mind a lot so I had to always

[2:46]think about okay how do we Design This

[2:49]in a way that we can change it later

[2:51]when he just decides to flip the script

[2:53]on us because that happened a lot I had

[2:56]to hire the programmers I had to manage

[2:58]them I had to fire them them

[3:01]uh for 10 years of my life I basically

[3:05]acted as the top level CTO of this

[3:10]company without that kind of

[3:12]compensation or

[3:14]recognition and it was stressful and it

[3:16]was difficult and I worked with hundreds

[3:18]of programmers

[3:21]who I could

[3:23]see I could see that programmers today

[3:27]do not have the background or skills or

[3:30]experience that I do like I I was

[3:32]actually very shocked by this I never

[3:35]really saw myself as like particularly I

[3:39]I knew I was gifted I've been

[3:40]programming since I was a child but I

[3:43]didn't think that that was like super

[3:45]rare like I truly didn't so I

[3:47]undervalued myself for most of my career

[3:51]and it was only through this job that I

[3:53]started to realize for managing these

[3:56]programmers that I I really undervalued

[4:01]myself so I

[4:04]just he is very interested in boxing

[4:07]technology which I actually think is

[4:09]kind of a scam I truly do it has very

[4:12]limited usability in the world um most

[4:15]people don't know this but nfts they're

[4:17]not in the blockchain those images just

[4:19]sit on a normal server that a normal

[4:22]admin can just delete at any time what's

[4:24]in the blockchain is just a reference to

[4:27]it it's just a unique set of characters

[4:29]and numbers to rep you know it doesn't

[4:30]mean anything it truly doesn't um you

[4:33]can't put things in the blockchain like

[4:35]everybody's like he's trying

[4:38]to he wants to

[4:41]track very sensitive personal things

[4:44]about I'm trying to be a little bit

[4:46]vague here so um you can't put any type

[4:50]of personal information in the

[4:52]blockchain it's there forever you can't

[4:53]be putting people's names and their

[4:55]addresses and and the royalties they

[4:57]earn and you know all the stuff you you

[5:01]just can't do that people people are

[5:02]really not going to want to adopt

[5:05]that and it's just so that information

[5:08]goes into another database and in the

[5:11]blockchain you just have a reference to

[5:12]it everything is still in the normal

[5:15]technology that we have today okay it's

[5:18]it's not it's not special blockchain

[5:20]isn't going to solve big problems for us

[5:25]sadly I do think that fiet currency is

[5:28]going to die and they're going to

[5:29]replace with that might be the only

[5:30]useful thing that you can do with it

[5:33]right all these other projects all these

[5:35]other things they're trying to do with

[5:37]it they don't understand the underlying

[5:39]technology they don't

[5:41]understand they're trying to solve a

[5:44]problem that we have already

[5:45]solved it just it it baffles my mind it

[5:48]truly

[5:49]does now on the flip side AI is actually

[5:53]valuable AI will actually revolutionize

[5:55]the world and I have been trying to

[5:57]convince my boss of this I think I think

[5:59]he sees that you know I'm

[6:02]right and yet he's not implementing it

[6:04]he's focused on all this blockchain

[6:07]stuff so it's been a source of

[6:11]tension and he's now working with people

[6:13]that I hooked him up with when I quit my

[6:15]job I just hooked him up with some of

[6:17]the people I had hired and fired in the

[6:19]past people I had fired okay and now he

[6:22]seems to think that they're just going

[6:26]to he I think there's this cognitive

[6:30]dissonant in this man where he is

[6:33]just because those are the people he's

[6:35]working with right now he thinks are the

[6:37]best I know them I know what they're

[6:40]doing I look at the work I see the

[6:42]mistakes they're making he acknowledges

[6:45]none of that and he actually suggested

[6:47]that if I came back to the company I

[6:49]would be working underneath of these

[6:51]people people I fired I just my mind is

[6:55]blown about it and I

[6:57]just it really sucks this man does not

[7:00]see the value that I brought to that

[7:02]company for 10 years of my

[7:05]life I worked so hard for him I burnt

[7:08]myself

[7:09]out trying to make it work he never

[7:13]provided support he never provided

[7:15]feedback he never did the little things

[7:18]that I needed him to

[7:19]do I just I'm I'm truly

[7:23]baffled that he was able to just erase

[7:26]all that from his mind so quickly

[7:29]and I

[7:31]just wish him the best he owes me money

[7:34]that I don't think I'm ever going to see

[7:35]because I would have it by now if I was

[7:37]going to you know so it just the whole

[7:40]situation is frustrating because there's

[7:42]nothing I can do about it except move on

[7:45]and I've been in this situation before

[7:46]in my life you know um so I'm just

[7:50]trying to figure out what am I going to

[7:52]do with my life

[7:54]now I don't have an answer yet but it'll

[7:57]come it's just

[8:02]he tried to vest me into the company

[8:04]with some documents I think at like

[8:07]0.25% it was

[8:09]actually I found that insulting I didn't

[8:12]sign these documents I was insulted by

[8:16]that because it's like wow you truly

[8:17]don't value me I never told him this but

[8:21]that was the main

[8:23]reason why I didn't sign them and there

[8:25]were others I just felt there were

[8:27]ethical considerations because I know

[8:29]this man I didn't want to get

[8:32]myself I didn't want

[8:35]to basically I didn't want to have any

[8:38]liability in his

[8:40]companies um apparently he is baffled by

[8:43]the fact that I chose not to sign these

[8:45]documents it's been 7 months like why is

[8:47]he even thinking about this to me it was

[8:50]a nonissue I've worked with this man for

[8:52]10 years he should know me very well for

[8:56]him

[8:57]to but he clearly does

[8:59]I don't think that I think maybe we're

[9:01]just so fundamentally different that he

[9:04]can't understand that some people are

[9:06]actually super ethical

[9:09]like my Integrity matters a lot

[9:14]so I just I'm I guess I'm just kind of

[9:17]I'm still processing it I'm a little bit

[9:18]angry honestly

[9:21]because the last email I got from him I

[9:24]just think was a very insulting

[9:26]email and I don't think that I'm going

[9:29]to

[9:30]to get what I've earned out of him and I

[9:34]see him repeating a pattern that he's

[9:36]repeated over and over again those

[9:38]projects are not going to go

[9:43]anywhere we spent years working on a

[9:46]project that we finally got to Market

[9:48]and then that man did absolutely nothing

[9:51]to Market it or try to grow it and even

[9:54]ignored customer complaints that we had

[9:57]we had a few customers and he just

[9:58]ignored like it wasn't even important

[10:00]because you know one day this thing will

[10:02]be big and it won't matter that we lose

[10:03]a few customers in the beginning I don't

[10:06]understand this man I worked with them

[10:07]for 10

[10:09]years and I think that I made a big

[10:12]mistake doing that I should I I made

[10:16]really decent money over time because I

[10:18]kept asking for it and so that made it

[10:21]harder to leave it did help me get this

[10:23]RV it did help me build up a savings

[10:25]enough of a savings that I've been able

[10:27]to afford this lifestyle as much as I

[10:29]have to to this point running out of

[10:31]money very

[10:32]fast

[10:34]but it burnt me out

[10:38]and I didn't even know that was possible

[10:41]I've been programming since I was a

[10:42]child but this job actually burnt me out

[10:44]and it's because I was responsible for

[10:46]everything

[10:48]and the Dynamics of that work

[10:52]relationship were just bad they were

[10:55]awful so I don't know where I'm going

[10:57]from here I need need to get that off my

[11:00]chest

[11:01]so so anyways let's switch gears here um

[11:04]I learned something yesterday I thought

[11:05]it was very interesting I didn't know

[11:06]the origins of Jeep

[11:08]ducking

[11:10]um my my dentist asked me so I ended up

[11:13]looking it up it turns out it's only

[11:15]been around since 2020 since Co there

[11:17]was this woman in in Canada I think her

[11:20]name was Allison and she started this

[11:23]trend and it has spread worldwide that

[11:26]is pretty cool like I think that I'm

[11:29]going

[11:31]to I'm definitely participating like

[11:34]anytime I come across a jeep that I

[11:36]think deserves a duck I'm giving it one

[11:38]I'm putting it on video and I'm just

[11:41]totally embracing that cuz I think it is

[11:43]a really awesome idea it is all about

[11:45]community and just spreading positivity

[11:49]I mean it is really

[11:51]cool so I'm going to Walmart um I'm

[11:55]waiting on them to my order cuz I'm just

[11:57]going to pick it up I'm going to just

[11:58]make chili today

[12:00]yeah and just you know chill with Bailey

[12:03]over here who is definitely having a

[12:05]good

[12:06]time yeah it is amazing how that cat can

[12:09]just I mean he looks very comfortable

[12:12]but you know he's going to be upset by

[12:14]all the sound I'm just going to have to

[12:17]just deal with him hope you guys have a

[12:21]good holiday if you celebrate you know

[12:22]cuz I know that everybody's in America

[12:24]so I'm just acknowledging that like

[12:26]you're you're American and you celebrate

[12:28]have a very good hob okay

Summary

rswfire reflects on societal boredom and structural homogenization, identifying this as gaslighting rather than depression. He details a 10-year freelance programming relationship that ended badly, describing his role as an unrecognized CTO managing hundreds of programmers while his former boss focused on blockchain technology that rswfire considers largely useless. **The boss offered him a position subordinate to people he had previously fired**, which rswfire found insulting. He critiques blockchain limitations, particularly NFTs and personal data storage, while advocating for AI as genuinely revolutionary technology. rswfire mentions being owed money he doesn't expect to receive and reflects on rejecting a 0.25% equity offer due to ethical concerns. The transmission shifts to discovering **Jeep ducking origins** from 2020 and a Canadian woman named Allison, expressing enthusiasm for participating in this community practice. He concludes with plans to make chili and spend time with his cat Bailey while waiting for a Walmart pickup order.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the collapse of institutional trust through direct experience of devaluation, while simultaneously processing the gap between technical competence and market recognition. The field is holding both anger at systemic gaslighting and the beginning recognition of sovereign value assessment outside captured systems.

Dominant Language

gaslitvalue/undervaluedburnt outboredethicalintegritynothing to doinsulting

Symbolic Elements

thresholdrupturemirrordesert

Ontological States

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transitional
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rupturing
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sovereign
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coherent

Subsystems

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cognitive
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ethical
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emotional
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relational
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infrastructural

Transmission Details

Source Type

youtube

Duration