Summary

rswfire cancelled a dentist appointment after waiting an hour and feeling melancholy, then drove home reflecting on his life. He shares his biographical narrative starting from childhood in Flint, Michigan, where he experienced bullying and molestation by a neighborhood kid. His family moved frequently across Arizona from fourth to seventh grade, living in Phoenix, Glendale, and Scottsdale. During this period, he participated in Boy Scouts and BMX racing, showing early signs of empathy by intentionally losing a race so another child wouldn't come in last.

He describes problematic family dynamics where his parents consistently invalidated his perceptions and observations, telling him he was "overthinking" when he pointed out family issues. His mother shared traumatic details of her own childhood abuse before he was in fourth grade, creating an inappropriate emotional burden. His father conducted abusive sessions where he would rant at the children for hours, calling them problem kids.

The family moved to Arkansas in eighth grade, then back to Michigan for ninth grade, where rswfire became rebellious and adopted an alternative appearance with dyed hair and Nine Inch Nails music. He describes running away multiple times, living on streets, in tents, and on park benches. At 47, he has recently cut ties with his parents and spent six months working with AI to process these experiences. He mentions having decades of journals in his RV that document ongoing parental harm.