Processing RV Tire Installation Problems and Equipment Failures

rswfire is at an RV park or campground with multiple loops connected by a small trail. The RV has been moved and leveled (unsuccessfully) after tire service. A desktop monitor has broken inside the RV. rswfire is currently on the trail between RV loops, recording this reflection after a day of mechanical and logistical problems.

Energetic Signature

turbulent but grounded

Field State

crisis navigation

Orientation

toward resilient sovereignty

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June 7, 2024

5:41

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Author

rswfire

Status

ARCHIVED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

Temperature

0.00

[0:01]I feel broken today

[0:04]guys this is not the kind of video I

[0:07]wanted to be

[0:09]posting love to tell you everything is

[0:12]wonderful started out that way today I

[0:15]went to get my

[0:17]tires they're awesome tires I'll show

[0:19]them to

[0:22]you

[0:24]and things just went downhill while I

[0:27]was

[0:28]there first the they got all the tires

[0:31]on and then when I was going to leave

[0:33]started driving down the road and I kept

[0:35]hearing this feeling this

[0:37]bump it felt wrong something was wrong

[0:39]so I had to go back and it turned out

[0:41]that there was a piece of wood that they

[0:43]were using as a chalk stuck between two

[0:46]of the back

[0:47]tires which didn't make me feel very

[0:49]confident about their

[0:52]skills and

[0:58]then well well the tires are thinner

[1:02]than the ones that were on it and that

[1:03]just had me a little

[1:05]concerned you know um I need to check

[1:08]with chat GPT I need to know that

[1:10]they're safe I told told it I was

[1:13]getting these tires it said they're good

[1:15]tires but they're thinner than the other

[1:16]ones I just don't know if that's a good

[1:19]thing or not and then as I was driving

[1:23]to get propane every time I'd go above

[1:26]50 m an

[1:27]hour my steering wheel would start

[1:29]shaking

[1:31]did never done that

[1:34]before

[1:36]and obviously concerned also they

[1:40]couldn't get my RV inside

[1:43]of you know their their building

[1:47]so they did it in the parking lot and

[1:50]the

[1:50]person someone there told

[1:56]me that my alignment is off I need to go

[1:59]and have that looked

[2:01]at so all these problems and then I'm on

[2:06]my way to get

[2:07]propane and I I go too far I pass the

[2:10]place but I noticed that it looks

[2:12]impossible to get in there with my RV it

[2:15]just did not look look

[2:18]manageable so I decide to come

[2:21]back and as I'm doing

[2:24]that M's Restless he's

[2:28]been you know scoped up in his his

[2:31]carrier for 3 4 hours at this

[2:34]point and so he's restless and that's

[2:37]stressing me out I'm already stressed

[2:38]because my vehicle's not operating the

[2:40]way I thought it should

[2:42]and then we get back

[2:45]here and I spend like 30 minutes trying

[2:48]to get get it level and I

[2:51]couldn't not sure why

[2:53]just usually I'm pretty good at

[2:55]estimating and judging

[3:01]um you what I have to offset for for the

[3:04]slide but I couldn't do it it's it's

[3:06]down too far in that

[3:08]side I finally gave up people are just

[3:11]watching me and it's making me

[3:13]self-conscious and I'm trying to ignore

[3:16]it but they're just sit there watching

[3:17]me

[3:18]because you know I would get out and I

[3:21]would put on some blocks and then I

[3:22]would get back in and you know I kept

[3:24]moving my

[3:27]vehicle kept bringing my side in and out

[3:30]they're just watching

[3:36]me and I know that's my issue you know

[3:39]that's just

[3:42]me having grown up with a very

[3:44]judgmental father and so I just think

[3:47]everybody's judging me even though

[3:48]they're probably just curious right but

[3:51]I just was getting very frustrated and

[3:53]so I stopped I just said fine this is a

[3:56]level we're going to be and maybe I'll

[3:57]deal with it on Monday

[4:01]but the worst thing is that my monitor's

[4:03]broken slid off the desk cracked in half

[4:07]and I have monitors just like it but

[4:10]they're at my parents house and I am

[4:12]never talking to them again I am firm on

[4:16]this so I don't know what I'm going to

[4:18]do

[4:20]I don't have a monitor therefore I don't

[4:23]have a desktop and maybe that's the way

[4:25]it's supposed to be maybe you just

[4:26]cannot have that stuff in a camper have

[4:29]my lap lap top which you know was

[4:30]slightly damaged from my

[4:33]Misadventures but it works and there's

[4:35]nothing wrong with

[4:36]it maybe that's what I'm supposed to

[4:38]have it just feels like I have to give

[4:41]up so much for this

[4:44]lifestyle and it's hard this is a really

[4:47]hard life and I just I feel beaten

[4:52]today decided to come to the one Trail

[4:55]that's

[4:56]here small trail that just goes between

[4:59]two of the

[5:01]the RV loops and just talk to you guys

[5:05]and just take a moment for myself and

[5:11]just acknowledge that this is how I'm

[5:13]feeling right

[5:16]now I feel beaten but just for today not

[5:21]giving up I I want this

[5:23]lifestyle I want it to work I've given

[5:26]up so much for this

[5:32]but man it is difficult just is

Summary

rswfire documents a difficult day involving multiple RV maintenance issues. **Tire installation problems** included a piece of wood left between tires and concerns about thinner tire specifications. The RV developed **steering wheel shaking** above 50 mph, requiring alignment work. **Propane acquisition failed** due to access difficulties with the RV size. **Leveling attempts** took 30 minutes with onlookers watching, causing self-consciousness. A **desktop monitor broke** when it slid off the desk and cracked in half. Replacement monitors exist at parents' house but rswfire states firm decision to never contact them again. The transmission ends with rswfire on a small trail between RV loops, acknowledging feeling beaten but not giving up on the lifestyle despite its difficulties.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission maps the collision between sovereign intention and material reality, holding space for system breakdown without collapse of core commitment. The architecture being built is resilience infrastructure — the capacity to maintain directional coherence while integrating multiple simultaneous system failures.

Dominant Language

beatengiven up so muchnever talking to them againthis is how I'm feeling right nowI want this lifestyledifficult

Symbolic Elements

thresholdvehiclealignmentlevelmonitortrail

Ontological States

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transitional
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pressured
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sovereign
•
integrating

Subsystems

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somatic
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infrastructural
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emotional
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cognitive

Transmission Details

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youtube

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